mood was ok, went not ok again. on the verge of tears again. go away.

so the job fair. as i expected, a complete and utter waste of time. it was a waste of gas to drive there, a waste of 5.25 to park, and a waste of time. i walked in and who was standing there? nate. and his friend. so that was a nice surprise, even tho i was hoping to run into him there. not going to go into any more details about how depressing and awful it was, but it was the general consensus that it sucked.

is it weird that i hope to run into my boyfriend places? i’m sorry. not gonna start.

anyway. nothing to do the rest of today, or tomorrow. work thurs, going out with nate thurs night. need something to keep myself occupied with. i’m going to go cry now.

ty’s giving me a job doing web design. i guess that’ll keep me occupied for tonight.

 

i have an appointment at a job agency tomorrow. that was fast. they ask me how much i want to make…well, enough to pay the bills. i don’t feel right saying like 10$ an hour, which i think is the least i deserve as a college grad. but whatever. i said i make 7 now and want more than that.

 

the mood is gone slightly. i’m not crying anymore. i made ty’s company’s site demo, and he wants me to do flash – so i occupied myself by teaching it to…myself. i got through the guided lessons, and tomorrow i’ll tackle the tutorials. the tutorial to make a movie said it takes 3 hours lol. so when i get back from my job appt thing, that’s what i’ll be doing the rest of the day and night.

adrienne came by for a bit to give me the money for the sabres tix. ended up talking a bit, and watching the osbournes. the canadian airings on CTV are unbleeped! so now it gives me a reason to watch them on tv again haha. except i missed the first 2 eps now.

starving, and trying not to think too much so that tomorrow will be better than today. don’t want to spend another day crying with no reason.

forgot to mention in my upset-ness before but…people should not be allowed to drive chevy suburbans without a permit. u should have to present all kinds of documents saying why you need to drive a tank. took me 10 minutes to get out of the parking garage after nate dropped me off in front because i had to drive the entire way through the ramp behind one going about 1 mph. standard shift cars don’t go 1 mph, they stall. and who on earth needs a suburban?!?!? this was some soccer mom. she doesn’t need a suburban. ug. pissed me off. something else on the way home pissed me off too but i forgot what it was. i made the mistake of going down elmwood to get home, cuz i was gonna stop at frisbees…took me almost an hour to get home that way, and by the time i got to frisbees i was so pissed off i didn’t stop.