oh hell yeah ottawa won in overtime. on to game 7.

and yeah i totally wanted to dye my hair black again suddenly. looked at the picture of me and laura in NYC with my black hair, and was like MUST DYE HAIR BLACK. but of course now that it’s long, it’ll be in there forever like last time, and my hair will be 2 diff colors blahblahblah and it’ll suck so yeah…negating that. definitely have to dye it red again tho. it’s so faded my highlights are back.

and the guy called about the apartment. he wanted to tell me he hadn’t gotten a hold of susan for my reference yet, and wondered if we were still interested. so this one looks better for us. he’s gonna call susan tomorrow cuz she’ll be in, and call me back (leave a message for me at home)…

bedtime. gotta get up at 6 to go to airport

adventures in urban exploring…

finally i had a partner in crime to go scope out buffalo central terminal again, and the psych center. started at the terminal. there was a gas company truck parked in the “parking lot” of the terminal, so when we got out of our car the guy was all like “Want me to take your picture?!” so we were like um sure, he took pics of us in front of the building, artfully hiding the “no tresspassing” sign behind us lol. he left us alone, and we took more pictures, walked around to the other side where there were workers sitting in their bulldozers. we asked them if they could let us inside, gave them our story about working for the railroad museum in baltimore, and he said no. fine. so we walked back the other way and down to the street that ran underneath the terminal. there is another strip of building there, all fenced off still. a cop drove by, scoped us out, la la la not doing anything wrong. just taking pictures. turns out that this farther end part of the building wasnt fenced of and was completely open. so we went in. it was so rad. kinda scary, lots of broken glass, but so friggen cool. probably could have gotten into the terminal from there, but that would be pushing it since we had no kind of first aid stuff with us, and we’re chickens hehe.

eventually left there and drove down to elmwood, stopped at a store that has a table i want for 120$, stopped at the poster store that had many of the posters i want for our apartment, so that’ll be helpful, won’t have to order them online. went to the psych center, and the bastards fenced it in too, like the terminal, for the restoration. ug. i hate chain link fences. so we couldn’t even get close to the building. walked the entire way around it, looking for places to maybe get in. found a giant hole someone cut in the fence, so people are still getting in at night. i ran in the hole real quick to grab a few shots, and then ditched. got conversed to by one of the patients. she thought i was jewish. hahah. so pissed about the fencing. ug.

headed back home, got ready to go to the casino. had dinner, fishy got to see the bitch that is minnie mouse. headed to see the falls, and went to canada. went to the casino there, i played some pai gow. cashed in 35 left with 115. and actually got a good exchange rate changing the 100 to american, got 71…better than last time when i got 64….walked down clifton hill, got martinis at the sports bar and watched the 2nd period of the ottawa new jersey game (oh i should check the score…tied, 12 min left in overtime)…headed back to the states and the casino again. fishy got to see john. goddamnit why does he have to look so hot all the time. he looked like beyond good tonight, ug ug ug. stupid john.

tried to get back to cvs to pick up my film (ended up taking a whole role at the terminal, plus the cleveland role, and now half a roll in the camera still from the psych center)…but it was closed. will pick up and scan tomorrow.

now it’s time for popmart show …gotta work off whatever mood this is that john got me into tonight hahah.

and oh yeah… my car turned 20,000 outside cleveland on the way home last night….took 15 months to hit 10,000 and 8 to hit the next 10….

Cleveland

cleveland 5-20-03

went to pick up leighanne at the airport at 9 am and left right from there to cleveland. all i have to say is screw yahoo and their 3.5 hr drive to cleveland. took about 2 and a half (really 3 cuz we stopped for lunch)……find the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame with no problem, super easy to get to. if i got there without getting lost it must be easy to find. get in the lobby, and the first thing we see are these giant guitar sculptures – much like the Chicago cows, and the Buffalo…Buffaloes…but guitars designed by different artists, and the one facing us is called “michael as a musical instrument” and is being held by a sparkling glove.
and also in the lobby were trabbants from the zoo tv tour, and the zoo tv sign (which should be placed somewhere dark so you can actually see it). i’m not really going to go into a review of the museum, just the stuff that was cool/interesting/whatever…

there’s an area that is like 50 years of….and they had popstars, and each decade in music, and stage costumes. so we’re looking at the stage costumes, and i’m like WHERE IS BOWIE?! there’s gotta be bowie costumes, he’s the king of costumes. we go through the decades, i’m like, they must be in 70s…still no bowie. bowie is on the music timeline, but no ziggy stardust costume etc. we get to the end, and go down this way we had missed, and what is there?….a whole showcase of bowie costumes LOL. ashes to ashes clown/mime costume, stage costumes from various tours (including the short shorts from the ziggy era), the union jack coat from the earthling cover that i wanted to steal, etc. so i was satisfied. fishy took an illegal picture real fast with the digicam lol. there was another bowie jacket i wanted to steal too cuz it was way rad.

la la la, the main reason we went was the u2 exhibit of course. the part that is being taken away at the end of the month is the Anton Corbijn photograph display. once again, i want to be anton corbijn. they had various photos from his history with u2, including some of my favs like bono in the bathtub. there were about 15 i wanted to steal hahaha. the artifacts part, with hand written lyrics, merchandise, blahblahblah was cool. they had these rad rattle and hum promotional posters – 4 of them, one band member on each poster – which would be so friggen cool to hang up if you had the whole set. i’d totally use them to decorate in my “real adult” living space, if i had the whole set.

the highlight was the upstairs of the exhibit – the costumes. cuz you walk up the stairs and there is macphisto in all his glittering glory. we’re like freaking out LOL. they had zootv tour costumes, like the zoo army blue uniforms the rest wore while bono was macphisto, and mirrorball man. they had elevation era clothes, like the black leather things “evil u2” wore in the elevation video, they had edge’s everyday #7 shirt and bedazzled pants…they had the popmart era stage gear, which we freaked out about again, cuz it was bono’s bubble suit, and boxing robe/tight pants ensamble…edge’s black cowboy/mr the edge shirt, one of adam’s stage outfits (not the orange jumpsuit thank god) and his rad yellow bass, larry’s “hit man” outfit. it was so fabulous. they had the flag jacket!!! i wanted to steal that too. gah bono and his jacket’s. they had other stuff from the tours in cases and crap. it was fantastic. we were so hyper cuz they kept playing the “history of u2” thing that was on the bonus dvd. OH and yeah, on the floor with the photos was the “it’s only rock and roll” theatre, where they show videos of whatever. there is a scrolling marquee to tell what’s showing in the theatre, and when i saw it, it said “making of joshua tree” so we’re still looking at the photos, we just wander in the theatre and it’s the end of zoo tv – macphisto singing “love is blindness” so i’m like AH ITS MACPHISTO and we run in. apparently they show different stuff all day long, and had shown the entire zoo tv concert. after that was going to be entire elevation show. could have stayed there all day hahahah.

we were there about 3 hours, went back to the car to get my camera to take lobby photos, and headed out. on the way home i decided to take a detour to chautaqua (that’s probably spelled wrong). chautaqua institute is this sort of camp, started in the 1800’s, that concentrated on arts and music. it’s not like… a summer camp thing, or a resort thing (like in dirty dancing)…it’s hard to explain, but you would go there to study your musical instrument, or vocal training, or art, and they’d have concerts and lectures and stuff. it’s actually pretty famous. it had gotten pretty run down as i remember it when i was a kid, when i was dragged there by my parents. but now it’s pretty damn cool to me, cuz as fishy said it seems sorta cult like. so we detoured off the highway and found it, sorta sweet talked the guy at the gate to let us drive around (your supposed to have a reason to go into the institute, even if its offseason). i wanted to go on a “pilgramage” to the “holy land”. the most bizzare aspect of the institute to me is their model of the holy land…palestine. as a kid i used to just walk around the area and step on all the cities, having no idea what it actually was. but it’s a mock version of the dead sea, and whatever other water way things are around it, with the major biblical cities placed along the “map”. so even tho it was raining, we found the holy land and walked around it a bit, drove around the institute inspecting the surreality of it, took some pictures, headed out and back to the thruway.

that led to the second unintended detour…getting on the expressway the wrong direction and heading back to the NY/PA line…it’s not possible for me to have a road trip without going the wrong way at least once. BUT it was fruitful because we got off at the last exit in NY, and stopped at the best hickass truck stop ever. it was glorious. exactly what a truckstop should look like. i took pictures. haha they also had a sign out in front advertising carol ho homemade soup…ho soup definitely picture worthy.

got back on the thruway the correct direction, headed home. driving was pretty awful cuz it was pouring most of the way, and the spray from the trucks was maddening. but we got home. had a fabulous time. it rocked major.

so tomorrow we’re journey-ing to the terminal, and the psych center, then to pick up my dry cleaning and do the falls/casino/canada thing. should be another great adventure. going to try to con our way into the terminal and psych center. hehe

time for bed. going to cleveland for the day tomorrow with fishy. should be an adventure. i need film *writes note*…gotta drop my shirt off to be dry cleaned tomorrow cuz we have a plan for wednesday i made fishy call wegmans to see if they do dry cleaning in one day. apparently the people were stupid and told her to go to someplace on colvin, cuz that’s where they send all their stuff to, and that place can do it in an hour. so if all else fails i can go there wed, go do some stuff in buffalo, come back and pick it up to head to the falls. yay for plans.

so yeah….be back sometime in the next 48 hours.

we didn’t get the apartment.  back to square one now. gonna have to look around for more for rent signs, maybe go back to the place that had been our first choice and look at it again, since we did get accepted by them.

i watched 3 movies last night and 1 the night before. maybe watch should be in quotes. they were on as background noise. hedwig saturday night, then fight club, dirty dancing, and wayne’s world last night. why? i dunno cuz i’m just gonna end up watching them again when fishy is here lol. but once again, how can anybody NOT like dirty dancing?!?!?!

gotta get ready to run around niagara falls getting my new badge and stuff.

 

well…some of you might have noticed the site disappeared for a period of time today. exceeded bandwidth limit. actually… ty exceeded bandwidth limit . the mp3s he had up temporarily ended up using 7gigs of my transfer, when a normal month i use just over 1 gig hahah. so he ever so nicely paid to have the site turned back on for the rest of the month.

went to work to do the whole uniform exchange/badge exchange/employee quarterly meeting thing. it went semi smoothly. the meeting was cool. the president went over how we got to where we are, how we’re doing, where we’re going. and let me just say where we are going is hella impressive. they need to put the little video that they showed us online, on the site, cuz yeah. i bet the general public would like to see where they are going. esp the people who doubt the sucess of the project. next phase is demolishing the bus station and restaurant next door to the casino – plowing it flat for a parking lot. then in august, they start building a parking ramp, and employee cafeteria in that space. once the ramp is finished they can start the Spa Hotel directly behind the casino (where parking is now – hense the need for the ramp to be finished first). it’s going to add so many square feet of gaming space, bunch of hotel rooms, a spa (hense spa hotel), blahblahblah. then next step after that, is 2 year project to build the 2nd hotel. “y” shaped like alot of the vegas hotels. again, adds a bunch more gaming space, and family entertainment center. after that is the 4000 seat arena thing, and finally the conference hotel with conference rooms, convention center, etc. they had this nice rad rotating view of the site, and each part of the project, and night time view. it’s really really impressive. the entire area between rainbow blvd and niagara street is going to be the complex. when you exit the robert moses you’ll run right into the casino. all the ghetto housing on rainbow blvd will be razed…the only thing that they aren’t tearing down is the church nextdoor hehe. but yeah…wow. it’s a 5 year project, can’t wait to see how it turns out. *excited*  *dork*

and maybe i’m just being naive, since this is my first real job, in a real company, that treats their employees well…but i love working for them. they treat us really good, and seem to really care about us. they’re expanding our benefits program, there’s a picnic in june over 2 days so everyone can attend at some point, they’re putting in an employee store in the parking lot building, and a friggen dry cleaners for us…and it’s exciting to have been there from the beginning, and to see how this is all going to turn out.

there were 2 big winners over the weekend. some 80 year old man from rochester won 1.1 million on a wheel of fortune slot machine. and a couple from erie PA came to the falls to get married, went to the casino afterwards and won a car. nice wedding gift eh?

oh right, yeah, first day dealing is thursday. my normal days off are now moved to wed/thurs…won’t have to request off for dave gahan in toronto. will have to request off for ozzfest. no problem.

i think they gave me wrong size shirts again. the vests fit cuz they sewed them for me. they actually sorta too tight cuz i gained 5 lbs last week…but they’ll be ok. but the shirts, since they lost my uniform order form, have the short sleeve problem again. they gave me size 8s again when i think we had decided on the form to go with 10s…i’m gonna go back on wed when we’re in the falls and see. and it seems like i’ll be able to wear my own black pants with it, cuz the vest is longer yay.

went to look for more apartments. got a few more numbers from the same area, only got through to 1 which has to call me back to set up a viewing appt. tried to call our former 1st choice, but there was no answer. going to try again later, to see if they still have apts available – since they did accept us first time around. but we’ll see. and then it’s back to ikea. tyler would be so ashamed. i want to go back to ikea like, right this minute LOL. *ashamed of myself*

 

Lacuna Coil @ Showplace

omg *dies*

so. yeah. went and met heather in the falls, left her car in the ramp and came back to NT to eat dinner and prep for the show. got to showplace right before 8, and it was way more packed than i was expecting. ran into fred “kid rock lookalike” who liked me back in 99 when i was hanging out with julie. first band was some awful hardcore/death metal band from toronto. total suckage. 2nd band was “beyond the embrace” i believe. not as bad, they had potential. they sounded like…old metallica, and iron maiden…like, they had that epic metal guitar solo sound. the music i thought was good most of the time, but they had screaming vocals that i wasn’t digging. the 3 guitarists and singer all had long metal hair and beards, and the bassist was this clean cut kid who looked about 18. it was weird haha.

lacuna coil was 3rd and o.m.g. it was so great. i haven’t gotten chills like that at a show in ages. i can’t remember the last time. the girl can fucking sing. i was blown away. they played mostly stuff of “comalies” but maybe 3 songs from the other albums. one was one of the italian songs, i think “senzafine” but i’m not sure. gah it was so great. i almost cried it was so great. the music sounded awesome, and yeah…she can fucking sing (have you gotten it yet? she can realllly fucking sing). it was so cool. totally want to see them again, hopefully when they can play a longer set.

we left before the headliner, opeth. no clue what they sound like, i saw what i wanted to see and left hahh.

i totally want to be in a band now. i want to be in a band with that kind of sound. gaaaah. it was funny, someone was talking about how evanescence is just a watered down commercial version of lacuna coil. lol evanescence doesn’t hold a candle to lacuna coil.

i must say my makeup looked so kick ass, and i totally love my new concert outfit. yay.

and yeah, the guy from the casino who wants to take me out actually called today LOL. he called around 4:30 and i was like woah. he’s gonna call thursday when i have my schedule and am done with the cleveland thing.

 

tyler durden would be so disappointed in me. ikea is the greatest store on the planet. omg it was so great. we pretty much wanted to buy everything in the store. we spent an hour and a half there. so many things we want to go back and look at once we get our place and know what kind of room we have. and they are right, it is pretty damn affordable. there are still things (lots of them) out of our price range, but comparitively…way cheap. couches and stuff, for like 300+ cnd SUPER CHEAP. we bought 6 wine glasses for 5$ cnd, 12 drinking glasses for 7$ cnd. i bought 3 cute ice cube trays for 2.50$ each cnd. adr bought 2 shelves for 9$ cnd each, and a shoe holder thing for her mom. everything we saw we’re like “that’s so cool”…”we need that”…etc. so definitely going back with the station wagon when we get word on the apartment situation.

and speaking of that, i took heather by it yesterday, and the people have moved out. so we figure we should hear from the guy soon, if not by wednesday, we’re calling him. cuz that gives him about 2 weeks to repaint and recarpet so we can move in around the 1st. so cross your fingers that he doesn’t decide to give it to someone else.

gah. ikea!!

*admits it* i like linkin park….but holy shit is “somewhere i belong” cliched. same with the new staind song. it’s like, hello, stop writing your songs to cater to your 15 year old teen angst filled fans.

shawn needs to stop telling everyone that i’m chasing after john.

i left work early. didn’t feel like staying til 4 on my last day. it was boring, just like every other day. watched roulette cuz i felt like i was losing my skills, but i’m good now. they actually almost put me on a game cuz they were super short dealers, but no…of course not.

concert tomorrow. yay. hope the weather is semi decent. i might wear a skirt. :-O

 

meeting heather at the big ice cream cone later today, get dinner, go to concert. she doesn’t know if she’s still staying over or not. i gotta go to the bank and get some moola out. and i need driving directions to ikea….and cleveland.

i don’t understand how i can sleep til 2:30 and be tired.

wrote a letter to nate at work today. got hit on by this one player for the last 2 hours of my shift. he wants to take me out to my all time favourite restaurant, olive garden. he said he’ll call me. yeah we’ll see, he was pretty drunk.

ottawa needs to start scoring some goals again.

as far as the Reloaded scott weiland/gnr thing…what i heard on 97.7 was that scott was officially signed onto the group. they had been calling themselves the project, but officially changed it to reloaded.

as far as tapeworm….they’ve been releasing material this year or next year for like 5 years now. and all we have is the a perfect circle live version of “vacant” and a few pictures of the guys in the studio from tapeworm.net (which is no longer up, just like nin.com)

john is a traitor. he’s switching to day shift. arg. i yelled at him. he begged mary to let me go on break when he did, and she actually let me LOL. then she let me take my full scheduled break. it was great. even tho i was mad at him i told him about my wack dreams about him (had another last night, but i don’t remember it). he said i have serious issues with sex LOL. i was telling tony about the dream he was in, he said i have issues too. but not with sex.

i had stuff to say last night, but adelphia was screwy and i’ve since forgotten it all.

a bunch of people were going to see the matrix today. i figured since i haven’t seen the first one, i shouldn’t go see the second one. plus i knew there was no way i was getting up to see it at 1:30. haha jeff said to go home and rent it and watch it last night so i could go with everyone. um yeah…where can i rent a movie at 3:30 am? lol.

my computer is screwed up. the drive is loud again, and i just friggen got that drive. and for whatever reason the standby light is always on even tho i have standby turned off. and everytime i turn it off and back on, it forgets my mouse settings, and the mouse speed goes back to slow. this is why i hate doing anything to my computer. it never fucking works.

and add 2 more comments to the “you should keep your sexy voice” list. lemme go run out and swallow some razorblades 😛

 

OH YEAH i remember the big deal thing i was going to say.

yesterday my alarm turned on and was playing STP’s “dead and bloated”…which i found odd…. later on in heard “wicked garden”…found that odd too…then i heard “vaseline”…still odd. finally found out the reason for all the STP tracks on the radio….

are you ready?

scott weiland officially joined the former memebers of Guns n Roses (like you know…Slash and them) to form a supergroup called Reloaded. !!!!!!!!!! how fucking great is that going to be?!?!?! they have 2 soundtrack songs coming out, and are working on a full length album. excited!!!

now if we can only get the tapeworm supergroup going again…and the one with scott and jay gordon.

and in other news, word is that trent is working full time on the new nin record!!

adr wanted to get out of the house, so we went to wild wings to watch the ottawa/new jersey game until mid 3rd period. ended up running into the person who we were supposed to run into last time lol. came back here to do some stuff on the comp and look up phone plans. had some fun listening to custom ring tones. i want a cell phone where i can get a cool ring tone :P. i’m considering just going witha cell phone and never hooking up our actual real phone at the apt…but we were looking at verizon local calling plans, and there are cheap budget ones that let you call in your local calling area only (and we looked that up…its all 716 area codes and some 585 but not rochester…) so that would work. did you know you have to pay a retarded “dial tone fee” that’s over 8 bucks?!?! ug. the actual calling plan is 7 something. so who knows.

we called the apartment guy when we were out earlier. he hasn’t made a decision on anything yet, cuz the ppl are still in the apt, and he hasn’t gotten involved with that. so he said he’ll call to let us know either way, when he knows. ug we better get this apt. we’re planning everything around it.

 

yummy yummy white russians.

today was graduation. the vp of table games came and said something, and we got our certificates. they didn’t have one for me for blackjack, so i just got my roulette one. i guess they’ll give it to me later. then we all went to a bar to celebrate. this guy kept giving me massages, so lovely. i told him if he ever taps me off a game to feel free to do that until i’m done with the hand lol.

the scheduling lady called me this morning. as i already knew, i can’t start saturday cuz i can’t get a new badge – so i get the weekend off. i have to do running around monday to get my new badge and go see her to get me on the schedule. i should have mentioned the cleveland thing on the phone but i didn’t. i probably won’t start til thursday. but that’s cool. frank was at the school today and said i have to go to day shift so he can see how good i am hahah.

maybe me and adr will go to ikea on sunday.

and i got another comment from a guy today that i should try to keep my voice like this lol. it’s getting better each day now. sorry to disappoint lol.

it seems that when i’m content/in-a-good-mood i have nothing interesting to say. i’ve sorted and settled all the stuff in my head about john and the situation. not going to say what it is, if you want to know you can ask. if i’m following along in the Post-Break-Up-Eric-Syndrome, john would be my rachel…which means my tiffany shouldn’t be too far behind lol. but we’ll see how this all goes.

i dreamed about nate last night. first time in a while. i found out he was back in town, but at the same time not back in town. he wasn’t in africa anymore, because he had been in some plane, or shuttle which had crashed. where the vessel crashed, they ended up plowing into the ground and not stopping. they ended up drilling a hole through to the core of the earth. so he was living underground in these tunnels to the earth’s core, doing his work there. how i ran into him and found all this out i don’t know, but he said he had sent me all kinds of letters which i hadn’t gotten. i was mad that he hadn’t tried to contact me, but as it would work in real life, i didn’t care because he was in my life again….then there was this stuff about a murder (again) but it was just someone faking their death to go into hiding, and having to conceal them under a bridge, and they were fishing and caught an anchor.