ok if i understood adr2’s email right…shes going to cali too. so i won’t be by myself with nothing to do sitting at the airport hahaha. yaaaaay
someone was just knocking at my door. its 3:30 am. i am SO not answering it. scary. what if it’s stalker? what if he found out where i live? gah.
saw the trailer for pirates of the caribbean 2…looks good. hott. hehe
put my xmas trees up today. i’m tired of the silver tree. and i can’t put any ornaments on the green tree because the cat constantly climbs in the tree. haha. i took a picture on my phone but it’s too big to send, so it’ll just sit on my phone. if i wasn’t so considerate my god my neighbors would hate me. because i bought a glowing plastic cow. haha. cows played a very important part in the birth of jesus. *ahem* yeah. i was going to get a camel, but decided on the cow. they had sheep too but it sorta just looked like a white blob, but i might go back…. i plan to display it year round. but it’s inside, not outside, so the neighbors aren’t like wtf. plastic glowing cow and pirate flag hahahah. pirate flag hasn’t found a home yet either.
anyone want a chicken machine that doesn’t work, but most likely could if you knew anything about vending machines? it’s free.
oh my fucking god today’s horrorscope. “Work will be quite interesting for a while — and not because of an exciting new project, either. Unless, of course, you’re single and you consider that delicious new coworker to be a project! ” ROFLMAO
stalker was back today. watching me through the fish tank again. shift manager was in the room at the time, and said if he says anything he’s out. still hasn’t approached me since friday. it’s kind of funny, cuz once any of the bosses see him, they call and warn the boss of wherever i am to be on the look out. the more people i tell about it, the more stories about him i hear. i’m going to see if i can get my badge changed tomorrow. i don’t want my real name on it anymore, so i’m going to go with my middle name. people change their names all the time, to nick names, or the asians to some other asian name. plus i’m not a dual rate anymore so my badge is technically invalid haha. i know i’m being paranoid. he’s freaking 70 years old at LEAST. but what if he’s crazy enough to hire someone to kidnap me or something. if i turn up missing, and it doesn’t involve NIN shows in california, he did it. you can find out who it is by asking any of my friends at the casino.
and yeah i’m going to california in 7 days. now i’m getting worried that i should get a hotel. what if the tiny (i’m assuming) san luis obispo airport isn’t open to go sit in at midnight for my flight at 8:30? it’s not like it’s LAX where i’m sure you can go in and wait at any time. what am i gonna do if i can’t go back to the airport? of course, if i get into the after party i’ll be able to kill some time, but i’m trying to be realistic haha.
did i mention i want to take sewing classes? i want to learn how to sew and read a pattern and stuff so i can (try) to make myself some cool clothes. i have these grand dreams of learning to sew, being able to come up with some pretty cool stuff, and start selling it on ebay. from there, someone notices how much of my stuff i sell and i turn it into a little company that just gets huge until it’s full of real fashion designers making things under my name…you know, like calvin klein, and every other brand name designer out there ahhahhahah RIIIIIIIIGHT. i just want to be able to alter and change things myself. a place that gives lessons is out near my dr so i’m gonna stop by tomorrow and see when classes are.
I know i mentioned before about INXS reforming with the (horrible) new singer they picked from their (horrible) reality show. with michael hutchence spinning in his grave they are on tour with the new guy. and i refuse to ever listen to anything new by them ever again. along similar lines, queen has also reformed with the lead singer from bad company. this, to me, isn’t as horrible and offensive to the memory of freddie mercury as inxs. and it turns out queen is going to be in buffalo in march. now the question is, do i want to go? i mean…it’s friggen QUEEN, it’s classic. but without freddie is it going to be the same? should i just be happy with the queen musical in vegas?
the sun not coming out for days in a row isn’t helping me wake up early. i have to go to the dr tomorrow so i’ll be forced out of bed.
put up my christmas decorations outside today. neighbor kim came home when i was doing it, so offered up some spiral xmas trees to add to our shared garden. had a real conversation with her for really the first time in a year and a half. mostly bitching about the company who bought the property. of course it’s super windy so my one plastic candle that i couldn’t tie up to anything has fallen over. the candy cane stake lights from last year had no stakes left…didn’t realize when we took them down last year that we left all the stakes in the ground haha oops. so they are now hung on the sides of the door. you couldn’t tell what they were at first, so i taped them all sideways to the siding so you can see they are candy canes. i had to take the snowman head lights back to biglots cuz both fuses blew, so i got new ones and they look wonderfully horrible. put the big bulb colored lights outside cuz i had space around the door, so i need to go buy new ones for the tree.
old man (OM) was back in today. chuck told me OM was around looking for me, and i was like, don’t fuck with me. he was serious. i let my boss know, and a bit later he showed up in high limit and was watching me through the fish tank. michelle kept an eye on him and was going to make him leave if he came in to talk to me. i had 2 players come to my table when he was still there, and the one player for some reason said something about wanting to marry me, so i told him he’d have to fight the old guy behind the fish tank haha. the players got all defensive for me and were going to “take care of him” but OM left for the rest of the night. i really don’t like this. i had the shift manager walk with me out of the room to go on break incase OM was waiting for me again, but he wasn’t. yuck.
i really don’t want to keep sleeping until 4pm but i can’t get out of the cycle. i’m reading “devil in the white city” about chicago’s worlds fair in 1892 and the serial killer who began his killing at the same time. it’s pretty good. we’ve gotten to the fair actually opening now, half way through the book. carol recommended it to me. so i bought her city of light for xmas, which is a novel built around buffalo’s pan am exposition in 1901(?). devil in the white city is a true story. city of light isn’t, tho i haven’t read it. probably will before i wrap it hahaha.
today’s horoscope, very appropriate: Think of what you want — nothing more and nothing less. If a certain person’s name is right at the top of that list, it’s okay. Just remember that you’re after the kind of closeness that allows you to be silent without being uncomfortable.
the tea party was such a great band. i don’t like using “was” to describe them. i sincerely hope jeff martin does some wicked cool solo stuff or i won’t forgive him for breaking up the band. even tho they play the same setlist every show, i totally miss them. i hate possibly never hearing “psychopomp” live again. gah. (was listening to them in the car if you didn’t guess.) (just found this on dime:
“Jeff Martin quits The Tea Party”
After 15 years as frontman for Canadian rock trio The Tea Party, Jeff Martin has decided to pack it in.
Martin has announced his departure from the band to pursue a solo career, according to a press statement.
Despite the decision, Martin left the door open for a possible return to the T.O.-based band.
“I am deeply appreciative of all the support Tea Party fans have shown both the band and me over the years,” Martin said. “While I’m not ruling out a return of The Tea Party at some time in the future, I am focused for now on my acoustic solo record, and hope to release the new music this winter and tour in support of it.”
“I am excited to embark on this new musical chapter of my life and wish all the best to my two former bandmates and friends, Jeff Burrows and Stuart Chatwood.”
The Tea Party’s seventh and final studio album “Seven Circles” was released in August of 2004.
i don’t like acoustic….)
through talking with phill and dave on tuesday, we’ve been to many of the same shows without knowing it. dave mentioned tea party at shea’s. and phill was at the orgy show for the edge xmas party, and it turns out he was probably right next to us. i mentioned that danielle and i groped jay when he came down from stage, and phill said he was right there too. small world.
and talk about small world, someone sent me a message on myspace without realizing they know who i am from the casino. sorta scary.
gotta take the shoes i bought today back to target cuz they’re too big. i hope they don’t look too worn haha
and wow. found someone on myspace who i was friends with in high school so i sent a message. he wrote back that he’s been living in france for 3 years, and you know…is actually doing something with himself. makes me feel like such a disapointment. though i know that wasn’t the intention haha. it’s just like…he asked what i’ve been doing, and what do i say to compare to that? wasted 4 years of college and am still at home working at the casino…
and urban decay’s eye shadow primer potion is the best stuff on earth. eye makeup didn’t crease or fade or smudge all night long. it’s a god send.
and apparently i’m suddenly popular on myspace that i don’t use cuz i joined the club diablo group. so all these ppl think i hang out there, when i still have yet to go. i should work on that maybe. if i wasn’t so antisocial.
seriously disappointed in the lack of hideous christmas decorations at the dollar store. last year they were a gold mine. this year, BLAAAAH. i did end up getting 5 light up snowman heads at big lots though. hoping they’re hideous. well hoping they work first, and then that they’re hideous. monday is supposed to be a balmy 54 degrees so i guess i’ll do outdoor decorating on monday. that is unless i sleep til 4pm again. gah.
dream
every day i’ve been dreaming something about nin and nin concerts. this time nin was playing an outdoor concert at a local college. i had a friend, carrie, from boston coming to stay with me for the night for something completely unrelated. for some reason adr2 and i didn’t know about the show, so we didn’t have tickets. we found out because we went by the site of the concert and saw everything being set up. so we hung around and it was around 9 in the morning and only a few people were there, but they had been let into the show, and a few had gotten their place at the barrier already. but we were surprised that hardly anyone was there and there was still tons of room up front. so we debated whether or not to get tickets for it, cuz apparently you still could get them. we saw sweeny but he was busy so we didn’t bother him, just kept walking around the field which was the GA floor. i didn’t know if we should get tickets because i didn’t know if carrie would be interested in going with us. we walked up to the barrier where security guards were giving out wristbands to the people who were already there. we asked if we could have them as well. there were 2 different colors, blue and orange. blue were given to those who were students at the college, but we weren’t, so he gave us orange ones. even though we didn’t have tickets. so we were like SCORE we got in for free. i remembered carrie again, and tried to get in touch with her to see if she wanted to come to the show too. i remembered that i had the same color wrist band saved from another show, so she could just put that one on and get in for free too. then i remembered that ANOTHER person who we had apparently met in line at a different nin show was coming to stay with me that night too. but i had no where for them to sleep except the floor. and i forgot their name and how to get a hold of them. so once the line for the show formed (cuz apparently they made us get into line way later even tho we were already “inside”) i wandered around looking for them. found the person, who’s name was apparently erin, and she was holding her dufflebag and pillow and stuff that she brought to stay the night. i had forgotten she was coming right to the house to drop her stuff off, and obviously i wasn’t there when she got there. we got let in again, and suddenly this was all indoors. we went up to the front and there were chairs sitting around, but just the first row was chairs, and we were like wtf. we were totally gonna throw them out of the way once the show started.
the end.
this is what i get for being nice to people….
so i get to work tonight, and run into this “regular” in the hallway. really old man, like 70 (not exaggerating), and he’s talked to me before. so he says hi and i stop to say hi and see how he’s doing. this is the conversation (almost immediately after me saying hi).
him: so do you have anyone to go home to?
me: no
him: how late do you work until?
me: 6am
him: if i gave you my phone number would you call me?
me: *stupified* *humors him* maybe
him: do you have any paper?
me: *lying* no
him: i think i have some *fishes around in ugly jacket* i better have some
me: *laughs* *this can’t be happening* *wants to leave*
him: *finds paper* ok. where do you live?
me: *lying* north tonawanda
him: do you have a roommate?
me: *lying* yes
him: boy or girl?
me: girl
him: oh good. here sit down. here.
me: *really really wants to leave*
him: we might get along pretty good.
me: maybe
him: we might get along good in bed.
me: *OHMYFUCKINGGOD* i don’t think so.
him: are you ready?
me: i gotta go
him: are you willing?
me: i don’t think so
him: are you able?
me: yeah, i’ll see you later *leaves*
him: call me when you get out, or at 7.
ok so A FUCKING SEVENTY YEAR OLD MAN WANTS TO HAVE SEX WITH ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH at least sam is only 15 years older than me, not 50!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
alright so it gets better. i go to my table at 10 and what do you know, he shows up and just stands there for like a half hour. and i know he’s there but i don’t look at him, just ignore him. unfortunately the shoe ends, and everyone stands up and walks around, so it’s just me and him and i keep ignoring him. so he says my name and says hi, and then leaves. i go on my break, and he’s sitting at a slot machine outside the high limit room waiting for me. i think i hear my name but i ignore him and go into the bathroom. there were no stalls free so i go to leave to go to a different bathroom, and i walk out and see him walking around there looking for me. so i go back into the bathroom. no sign of him after that and i go on break. only i come back down after my break and he’s in the high limit room waiting for me. so i had it by that point and told my pit boss about it all. so the bosses looked out for him, and then had me tapped off my game to tell them the story. sadly, the shift manager sorta blamed me, that i led him on. come on now, i was trying to be nice and talk to the poor old man, and then humor him when he wanted to give me his phone number. i’m the victim here, he’s sexually harassing me. but whatever. if it happens anymore i’m supposed to tell him to knock it off, and if it keeps happening, let the bosses know again. people on break told me he’s done this before to other girls. not cool. they can’t really do anything at this point though.
so i was freaked out all night. i didn’t want to leave early but figured i should incase he was still hanging around waiting for me to get out at 6. not like i couldn’t fucking kick his ass, he’s 70 years old!!! i may be a 115lb weak little girl but he’s SEVENTY YEARS OLD!
ug.
and i hate when my players smell like chinese food. seriously. makes me nauseus. i know i didn’t smell good after working 8 hrs at mcdonalds either, but it’s better than smelling like chinese food. barf.
it’s snowing. about an inch or so, covering everything. enough to make the roads quite slippery. very pretty though. i definitely need new shoes for work. canvas shoes in the winter, not so good. i so don’t want to go out to the mall or anything tho. booooooo.
oooo you can rss myspace blogs. now i never have to go to myspace again! haha