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i spent 7 hours at the terminal today with the discovery channel crew. they had done the tunnel filming with ed on tuesday night, today they did the above ground filming which included 2 of the “stars” rapelling down the empty light fixture holes from the catwalks. leighanne came along to watch. hopefully i got a few cool pictures of them doing it. they were going to let me give it a try, but i really just wanted to go home after a while, so when the time came for me to do it if i wanted to, i passed. then the sun came out finally, so instead of going home, i had to wait more for them to do the roof shots. it provided much entertainment for the local kids who shouted “jump” at them as they sat on the ledges up top. not that i didn’t enjoy my 7 hours there, but i hope they don’t need to do anymore shooting before they leave next week. haha. they have been good to me, bought me (and accomplises) 2 lunches, and today they paid me (!!), so i shouldn’t complain.

there are social activities going on tonight but i got a massive headache at the terminal which hasn’t gone away yet, despite taking 3 year old aleve i found in my purse and prescription pain killers when i got home a half hour or so ago. i might have to take a small nap so that i can function and maybe finally finish the BCT store and press kit….and do a load of laundry. and eat somewhere in there….maybe eating should be the first thing on my list…

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woo it’s been a long 2 days… where to start

so the tunick photo shoot was on sunday. arrived at the terminal bright and early at 10am to process models and do crowd control, and fight protesters. i’m very disappointed that there weren’t any protesters LOL. surprisingly no one who sent mean emails and death threats to people involved in the project had the balls to actually show up on site. i guess the cause didn’t mean that much to them.

anyway. leighanne and james ended up participating in the shoot and i’m very happy and proud of both of them. rock on! the entire thing was an intersting experience, i can’t imagine what it feels like to actually be a part of the installation.

i’m so happy that it went off without a hitch and everything was done so smoothly. it makes me really proud of buffalo that we are so cool to do something like this, and really make it happen. the atmosphere was nothing but love and respect and it was really touching (and i didn’t even see what was going on inside). my wacked out emotions almost made me cry when russell’s daughter was explaining what it looked like inside (she was in with the media, russell was posing – she quickly ran the other way haha). the few media shots of the event are incredibly beautiful and i can’t wait to see what spencer ends up using in the future.

unfortunately i was/am sick and had to call into work.

so after the event ended, 6 of us (me, leigh, james, adr, mike and paul) headed out for a late lunch at the towne restaurant on allen, then to fugazi for a few cocktails before the after shoot party at mickey’s back near the terminal. it was really great to hear the 3 of them (paul posed as well) talk about how the whole thing felt, and what thoughts they had and everything.

the post party at mickey’s was originally supposed to be for the CTRC and Albright Knox volunteers who helped during the day, but spencer ended up inviting anyone who was in the shoot to attend. so there was a much bigger crowd than anticipated. we just hung out and talked, and all that. met with the people from the discovery channel, and talked to the attorney who represents the church of the transfiguration (haha oops). james and i stayed til 12:30 ish, when i took him home for the night.

today brought the discovery channel people to the terminal to take their camera crew around and plan for the actual filming this week. james came along for that too. just the general wandering around the terminal stuff, up to the roof(s), and then back to the baggage tunnels. it’s been a year since i’ve really been around that side of the property so it was cool to see it again. went to lunch with them, then said our goodbyes. they’ll be filming later this week.

about the show…i am now glad that i am not a part of it (i had wanted to submit a tape to actually be in the show). it is not turning out to be what i expected, and seems much more scripted (and thus lame) than i thought a “reality show on urbex” would be. my initial concerns about letting them film in bct reared their head again, and i told them what i didn’t approve of. they seem to be willing to work within that, so that’s cool. and they’re not going to the psych center (though they did get access grrrr), so i don’t have to kill them but they ARE going to the nabisco plant in niagara falls, and memorial auditorium which is just super cool.

so that’s about it. i’m exhausted. and sick. really, i am. i got a cold a few days ago, all stuffed up. and i don’t want to go to work today either, but i must. duty calls

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when i go to the casino, if i win 20 bucks i’m more than happy. if i double my money i’m thrilled. someone at work tonight bought in on a craps game. they didn’t double their money, they didn’t even triple it. they made 1,000 times what they bought in for. no lie. and they gave it all back IDIOT! experienced casino-ites were discussing it, and they said it’s the biggest percentage win they’d ever seen. AND THE PERSON GAVE IT ALL BACK!

tunick art installation tomorrow. should be interesting.

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from the negativity department…

i got my hair cut. i don’t like it. it’s too dyke-y short. whatever.

but i got to meet spencer tunick for all of 5 seconds, and it looks like i’ll be working with the discovery channel next week.

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still not dead.

i have no more books to read in my house, so i’m reading “invisible monsters”…again…

there’s that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should’ve been paying attention. Well, get used to that feeling. That’s how your whole life will feel some day.


when you understand that what you’re telling is just a story. it isn’t happening anymore. when you realize the story you’re telling is just words, when you can just crumble it up and throw your past in the trashcan, then we’ll figure out who you’re going to be.

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i’m not posting until i have things to say that aren’t negative.

i want to do home improvements but i have no home to improve….

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i have a horrible schedule. i work nights, i never get to see anyone. i get 2 days off a week where i can see my friends and spend time with people. so it really irritates me when people tell me they’re going to hang out with me, or that we’ll do something, and then it doesn’t happen. it irritiates me even more when people don’t even have the courtesy to let me know that said plans aren’t going to happen. plans change, things come up, cancellations are made, fine. no problem, just fucking let me know.

theres really nothing i hate more

once again, danielle never showed up. this is the 3rd time now. once again, not a word from her as to why. i thought it might be different today because she was coming over with a purpose – to clip the dogs nails. but nope. guess not. i can’t say i even know her anymore. and james didn’t come over either. let me know he lost his keys around 9, but then said he’d try to come over. its after 12 now and i’m tired.

if you don’t want to hang out with me fine. if something comes up and you can’t, or you decide you don’t want to hang out with me, fine. just tell me. and don’t give me some stupid bullshit excuse either. just say it. nate would always do that, with the “i’m tired” excuse. bullshit. you’re not going to bed right now, you’re going to end up doing something – and i don’t care. you want to hang out with your family, fine, just don’t lie to me.

i don’t think i ask too much from my friends. i don’t think it’s too much to expect people to follow through on things. i don’t think it’s too much to expect some courtesy either.

so back to work tomorrow. see everyone (maybe) on my next 2 days off.

 

watching “while you were out” because i have nothing better to do, and this episode takes place at a house with a woman who is obsessed with legos. to the point where she furnished the house with lego furniture. and she is completely stressed out and having ocd reactions to the fact that they are taking all the lego creations out of the room they are redoing. to cope with the change she started making new lego things. the tv ppl accidentally broke one of the lego creations and she looked like she was going to cry. i think she needs an intervention. besides that, she’s doing it for her husband who hates the lego furniture. they’ve been married for 20 years, and she doesn’t know what he does for a living, and she doesn’t like participating in the things he likes to do, like soccer (for example). seems like she’s got some issues. i loved playing with legos and everything but…come on now. she hates everything they’re doing to the house. she hates the prize she won. she hates it all. WHY’D YOU EVEN WANT TO BE ON THE SHOW?! haha i don’t get it. i think they realized it was a strange episode because they keep doing commentary from both the tv ppl and the woman after the fact, and are going to do a “what the room looks like now” segment haha

and i’m sorry that i’m a jerk.

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ROFLMAO

“President Bush offered up a new entry for his catalog of “Bushisms” on Thursday, declaring that his administration will “never stop thinking about new ways to harm our country and our people.” ”
ROFLMAO

so it was a nice day, i figured i shouldn’t sit here all day. so leighanne and i took a trip to the command center. didn’t stay long, lots of people around, and bad vibes. after that we tried to go find the model city “Ghost town” which was a bust as well. ended up in youngstown for ice cream, and driving back home. but i did get out of the house for a few hours.

james is supposed to come by tonight, dunno about brian. danielle is also supposed to stop buy to cut the dogs nails at some point today.

last night, we watched blair witch project, and forrest gump. while blair witch isn’t the same on the small screen at home, it had been long enough since i last saw it (when it came out on vhs) that it did make me a bit anxious, and got the heart racing a bit. but no where near as terrifying as in the theatre when it was still unclear if it was fiction. forrest gump is one of the best movies ever. it’s just so wonderful and cute. and i cried…again…how many times have i seen it? always cry at the end.

little forrest sees dead people.

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went out with tony after work tonight. went to the casino (i won!) then to denny’s to eat. it’s been a long time since we’ve hung out, outside of work. first time we’ve really talked in a long time. and we didn’t even really get into anything too deep, but it was really nice. he is a really great person and a really great friend. sometimes i forget (in a way). he made sure i know he’s there for me to talk to about anything if i need to. how’d he put it… hah…”without the ackward pauses in conversation” haha. he said it was nice to see me outside of work and smiling again, because he noticed that i don’t ever smile at work anymore. because i don’t. because i’m burned out. it was really nice to spend time with him, and smile again. feels like i haven’t in a while. so yeah. had a good time.

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