Category Archives: Personal

i had a dream that i had beautiful dark hair.

so i dyed it again. it’s now dark red again. waiting to see how many spots i missed hahah.

i feel like myself once more.

so someone at the casino was bored and reading through our gaming compact…and found that we are supposed to have 1 floor person for 2 pai gow games…after a year and 8 months of having 1 floor for 4 games…so now we have to have 2 floors in the pai gow section until the compact gets ammended…which is absolutely absurd. nothing ever happens in pai gow. as one person put it, they could floor a whole pit of pai gow alone. and now because of this i got suited up tuesday to floor pai gow, when i was supposed to be dealing (and supposed to be getting my evaluation and raise finally). ug. pai gow is the most boring section to floor (but i love it, cuz i love the game), and now we each only have 2 games to watch….can you say slowest night ever?! the only good thing is that we’ll be on hour and a half relief strings instead of 2 hours in that pit. on weekends there will be 8 possibly 9 floor people in one pit LOL (yes i know none of you get this or even care, so)

my hair is dripping red all over haha.

 

yay my hair. it’s this dark red orangy plum color…does that make sense? who cares. thats what color it is. now if it would look a little less fried….

spin magazine is one of the funnier mags out there right now. they do a top 20 list every issue. #1 this issue: “creed’s breakup, ironically reaffirming our faith in god” ROFLMAO oh wow that’s hilarious. also in this issue, top 50 rock frontmen of all time. #2 is mick jagger, “bonus: may have had sex with david bowie” ROFL prince is 1, bowie is 9, bono is 10. for bowie “he combined listless bordem with vague intensity”…..ok that line is how i want to be percieved when i’m famous LOL. hey trent is 32, nice.

as soon as my newly purchased domain propigates, i will have a new email address for everyone to use.

 

uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuug basement flooded. smells like shit in here. baaaaaaaaaaarf

uggggggggggg was up way too early to go to the terminal for the tours/clean up this morning. i didn’t even really sleep, there was no point. then did nothing while i was there. came home around 1 and got a few hours of sleep in. grandparents called and woke me up and they are just so irritating to talk to. especially when they wake you up. blah.

i’m still so exhausted. i was sick all last night at work, i feel ok so far, but still not right. stupid stomach in revolt. i know when i have to stand up for long period once i start work i’m going to start to feel crappy again. that plus the exhaustion. ug i wish i could sleep. i’m thinking of going to the dr and getting sleeping pills. ambien or something. even tho i didn’t want to take pills anymore….ug. i wish i could call in sick….

somehow i was recommended to be part of the steering committee for the office products expo 2005, one of 9 people continent wide, to start planning and making decisions for the event. funny, seeing how i didn’t go to this years expo…but sorta cool eh?

toronto toronto. had a lovely time. it didn’t rain on us, and since it was cloudy, it was not hot. didn’t really do anything in particular, walked around, went in a few shops, got dinner, went looking for a portable chess set then played chess in dundas square, walked around more looking for a coffee shop/bar and did manage to find one. sat there for a while before hitting the road back home. it was very nice.

if you’re interested in seeing the pictures from dansville taken on the z2 (which is now back in it’s box ready to return), theyre up here. not too shabby. not that i think they’re particularly good artistically, but the camera can take decent pictures…well…when i was able to focus it. reaaaaally don’t like manual focus on digicams. got the hang of it as the day progressed, but still don’t like it. especially in low light. nature of the beast i guess. at least the beast in my price range haha. oh i forgot to watch the mov i took with it, of the pouring rain…

today was dansville. a bit creepy with the thunderstorm, but pretty as ever. i can return the camera now

got updated on i love the 90s. 92 and 93 much better than 90 and 91. and 94 and 95 even better. so things are looking up. amanda said the jay and silent bob segment is annoying… that’s because THEY are annoying and completely NOT FUNNY. hammer’s segment is annoying because he’s on crack. the other segments are fine, imo. but yes, definitely getting better. much funnier this time around.

now trying not to fall asleep while i wait for james to show up. going to toronto tomorrow for his birthday.

i’ve decided that while i love fog, i really don’t like it. it just really really creeps me out. makes me very very tense, especially if 1. driving or 2. alone. so driving in fog alone, doubly bad. i really hate when the fog is low, but not quite on the ground, so that it creates a ceiling effect…you’re driving or walking right under it. makes me very claustrophobic and just…tense. there was pretty creepy fog through the pennsylvania mountains on the way home from asbury. inspired me to write a…”poem”…about it. when leighanne and i stopped to try to steal the “land of make believe” sign, we thought a chainsaw was bound to start up and people would find us in the car dead in the morning. all because of the creepy ass fog. ick.

so yeah. foggy tonight. ha.

now i would say that i must get off my ass and do something tomorrow, but tomorrow involves 2 hours of i love the 90s before i can even shower and get ready for the day…and by that time, i most definitely will have less motivation than the little i’ll start out with. supposed to deal tomorrow. yay.

also…my phone is getting txt msg spammed. i got about 10 today from an 888 number, that said nothing. doesn’t make sense, cuz isn’t 888 toll free? i thought maybe it was from someone trying to txt me from cingular.com, but nope, that gives a different #.

 

HA! the buffalo bills made i love the 90s:1991…1st superbowl with the scott norwood kick. pretty amusing. one of the panelists said, he’s probably the only one who’s moved on, the rest of the buffalo is still pissed. good old buffalo.

my thoughts on the first 2 shows?….i’m almost slightly disappointed. not quite up to the funniness potential yet. has it’s moments of course. still looking forward to the rest of the decade.

happy birthday james

happy birthday amanda

happy “we met a year ago” day with james

happy start of i love the 90s week.

 

ug. slept fine last night. was up early. got out of bed with my alarm, with the intentions to do stuff.

did absolutely nothing

all day

ug. i hate myself. er i hate being like this. why cant i just get off my ass and DO something.

turns out i stood james up at the terminal yesterday. sorry.

work was slow. boring. doug asked me if i was putting in for the full floor promotion. um…i sorta don’t qualify for the position since i’ve only been dual rate since january. i would, only because i floor everyday anyway, i might as well get the pay raise for going to full floor. but yep, don’t qualify yet. maybe i should apply anyway lol.

went and met heather up at the canadian outlets today. did some shopping, picked up a few shirts, but nothing screamingly rocking. found some good deals, way better deals than our outlets seem to ever have. we got lunch/dinner at the flying saucer restaurant, and headed home. the bridge was way backed up so i wanted to leave earlier than i had been planning to. took 45 min to cross, so i had extra time to come home before getting right up and going back to the falls for work. i’d really like to take a nap, but…no time. always fun with heather, gotta figure out a time when she can come down on my days off and spend the night and all that. she can teach me and leigh how to really play guitar. my fingers still hurt.

6-2 tonight yay. doug wants to be out by 12. that’d be nice. i’m tired.

was going to go to the terminal today to try out the new camera. but then i decided not to. i just wanted to go back to sleep. so i did. til 4. i am another of jack’s wasted days, and i hate myself for it.

and all i still want to do is go to sleep. and cry. but mostly sleep. sleep sleep sleep.
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decided i don’t get half the emails i’m supposed to get, and half of the ones i send don’t get sent. seems that way for the past few months. i’ve put so many filters on the domain i think alot is getting deleted. so i need a new email address. suggestions? and i liked my email so much…

stood up again

jenn and adr came over and we watched concert videos, then surreal life before trying to figure out how to play ziggy stardust and all i want is you on the guitar. i’ve got the first 2 notes to ziggy down pat! and a few of all i want is you, then we can’t figure out what’s next – just doesn’t sound right

 

bowie had heart surgery a few days ago. yeah, a few days ago. and it just came out in the news now. he’s already at home recovering haha. get well ziggy!

speaking of ziggy, the cat, she might come live with us for a few days at the end of the month. i miss my cat. first time ever that i have. i joked that i was going to take ziggy home with me yesterday, and my mom said no. LOL. she always bugs me to take ziggy, but apparently not allowed anymore.

i slept. sorta. no i did…and i don’t remember any real nightmares (there was one about doing work in a house and half the house collapsed while we were in it, but it wasnt scary). woke up with a wicked headache around 10 tho, so took some drugs and went back to sleep. and i’d like to go back to sleep again, because i have nothing to do today…might as well sleep the day away.

i’m a loser.

have to figure out what time my dr appt is on monday…the card has been sitting here staring at me since my last dr appt a year ago, but suddenly it has disappeared…hey, just found it. and the appt is not monday…its july 28th. wtf was i thinking….

and new orgy tour dates! starting in august. all west coast, and iowa so far. yay! come back here!

 

so fedex did re-deliver. yay. so i played with the camera. i can’t hold my hands steady to save my life, and i think that is more apparent with digital. even trying to be steady, and auto focus, and all that, i can’t take a focused picture. that’s a problem.  manual focus is even worse, cuz i can’t tell from the LCD if it’s in focus or not. i THOUGHT it was, but no, it’s not. hrmmm…makes me want to just keep sticking with film.

 

my. back. is. killing. me.

but johnny depp is hot. he can fix my squeaky door anytime.

 

nightmare nightmares nightmares ug. no sleep.

 

i hate fedex. they try ONCE to deliver a package, and then you have to go pick it up yourself. all the way out in cheektofriggenwaga. if i wanted to leave the house to buy something, i would have gone to the store! so now i gotta go out again, drive for a friggen hour and half (total) in rush hour traffic to pick up the stupid camera. that i’m just going to return anyway. do they EVER do more than one attempt at delivery?! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

went to rich products with mom to do another taste test. donuts this time. i liked the smoothies better. got 20$ this time though. stopped at gothic city antiques on the way home and i found a headboard. no price, so no buy. probably expensive anyway.

stupid fedex