grammy ramblings

i’m trying very very hard to watch the grammys. but it is TOUGH. 34 minutes, and the only thing of interest was madonna’s opening, and even that wasn’t that spectacular. coldplay (at least i think it was coldplay) reminds me why i hate the newest u2 records. and did they steal one of edge’s guitars? whoever the black guy was singing “everyday people”…maybe you could think of more words for your next song. ok, alright, i get it, you’re gonna take it slow. move on now. he might have stolen the record for number of pitches in one held note from mariah carey and x-tina. i thought it was going to give me an aneurysm.

and i’m not even looking forward to u2. i really don’t want to see politician bono on his soapbox. bowie is to get a lifetime acheivement award. i think it’s his first grammy ever. i’m not sure he’ll be on the show though…

will edit as the show continues…

oh hey and u2 is on right now. bono doesn’t look too bad haha. they should just come out and do banjo “vertigo” really surprise everyone. and GAH my mom…calls in the middle of “one” just like she called when u2 was on the grammy’s 4th year in college. and wow mary j blige’s voice just does not fit well with bono’s. but it was pretty good. ha they cut them off before bono could say anything.

yay bowie! i’m real glad that these lifetime acheivement awards are getting about 5 seconds of mention.

wow kanye can sort of read. and haha at the pittsburg guy getting booed.

and edge is now my fav member of u2. he just is. and hole ee crap i hate paul mccartney. but helter skelter is alright. would have been better if he invited bono to do it hehe. such a great guitar riff that song…

oh hey, another 5 second acheivement award.

mariah was actually pretty good. it wasn’t the total slutwhore crap she was doing when she went crazy and threw crockery (that one’s for carolyn lol).

so sly and the family stone get a whole song and dance segment for their lifetime acheivement award. i want a bowie tribute. how fun would that be?!? and fantasia from american idol…is she supposed to be the next tina turner? sly had a killer mohawk.

i’ve been distracted since in exploring the library of congress. god i’d love to work there…

so what award did u2 just win? song of the year? sometimes you can’t make it on your own. maybe if no one in bono’s life dies in the next 4 years, u2 will have a better album next time around.

kanye’s little prerecorded blurb about starting the 5 second delay now was pretty funny. the performance sucked.

ok this is beyond boring now….

work drama

there was all kind of drama at work the last few days. a while ago, probably late nov, early dec, around the same time i was being stalked, a dealer called S got fired for using the N word in front of a black supervisor and some black players. i never really knew the whole story about it, but i guess she said it because the supervisor, A, had been sexually harassing her and grabbing her all day. i had heard that it actually was the players that turned her in for the racial slur, not A. but she was fired for it.

then shortly after that another dealer, R, went to a female pit boss and asked them what to do if you were getting sexually harassed. R ended up filing a report about being sexually harassed by A.

now i’ve known about this since december. one of the people R asked for advice told me about it when i was complaining about my stalker. R was really upset because nothing had been done to A about it. she expected him to be suspended and fired just like S was. but then it gets complicated. R was good friends with S, and it seemed like she might have been setting A up because A is the one who got S fired.

it is not a stretch at all to think that A was sexually harassing anyone, because he was always a big flirt, asking everyone out, etc. it’s seriously not a surprise at all. but it does seem kind of odd with the whole S fired thing, etc. especially because of that A was supposed to have said: “let’s fuck on the table, the cameras won’t see”. that just wasn’t a thing he’d say. even when his exwife who hates his guts was asked if that was something he’d say, she said no.

so anyway. now it’s a few months later, and R is upset because still nothing has been done to A about the harassment. she was advised to go to HR about it. when she did, she found out that her complaint was never filed with HR. which is typical of our managers, given the fact that they told me it was my fault that stalker was stalking me. i highly doubt that any of my complaints against the player were filed either. once at HR, they took over, and A was suspended and fired on Monday night. he said he wasn’t going to fight it cuz R was native and she’d win anyway.

so none of us who know the whole story know what to really think. all i know for sure is that our management needs some serious sensitivity training, and need to be a hell of a lot more unsexist. it’s just not right. maybe this incident will get everyone to realize there are things that can’t be said, there are things to be done when behavior crosses the line, and people will be more careful.

Progress Statue in one of our shots. It is
on the album “Tomb of the Mutilated”, on the back cover of the CD. All the
shots for that album were done at the old central train terminal. Anyway,
thank you very much for getting in touch with us about that, we never knew
anything about that sculpture, so this info is really great! If you need
anything else, please let us know. Always great hearing from somebody from
Buffalo!
Thanks,
Alex Webster, Cannibal Corpse”

i ♥♥♥ club diablo. AND it’s right next door to where i was SUPPOSED to move downtown, until they told me i make too much money. but wow if i lived there, i’d be at diablo all my days off haha. any bar that has 4 nin cds in the jukebox, and selections include “physical” is my kind of bar. and the dj later played “only” so it was like, yeah. my 2nd home haha. it was good to get together with everyone. we took a stroll down the street to see the clock at m&t bank, finally used up my disposable b&w camera. that’ll be interesting haha. tried to convince amanda to go get tattoos but no luck hehe. everyone left, so i went with deedee and her friend to the pink on allen. bad memories of that place but thankfully didn’t run into anyone i knew. ran into a coked up girl in the bathroom who wanted to cut my hair though haha. she apparently used to make 150k a year at some fancy salon downtown. and you quit that job?!?!?! lol

and i ♥♥♥ the chick-hawk. i’d wear it every day if i wouldn’t get sent home from work. it needs to be black and blue tho. if only i was black, so i wouldn’t get sent home from work for having crazy hair colors.

and now i’m hungry.

omg im so lame. watching Flight 93 on A&E and i so totally can’t stop crying. holy crap. i don’t think i’ve seen any images of the actual 9-11 attack since it happened. it’s still as horrible as the day it happened.

i feel so so so so sick. something is very wrong with my head and it’s making my whole body feel just terrible. my head hurts but it doesn’t. if i don’t move it won’t hurt, but i still feel weird. once i move and walk around or up stairs it’ll hurt bad again. dizzy and yuck, eyes feel weird. nauseus, stomach weird. tired. even if i call my neurologist tomorrow i won’t get an appt for at least a month i’m sure. by then i might be fine. or i might be dead. something is very wrong. i feel like i’m in withdrawl but i haven’t stopped taking any of my meds. ug ug ug

dream

dreamed i had a wonderful boyfriend and it was depp as willy wonka. hahah

i finally finished the Fellowship of the Ring. and i still think it was kinda boring. i spent half the book waiting for the story to begin, then i realized oh this IS the story. i don’t have all that much interest in reading the other 2 books, though i probably will once i get through the pile i have now to read. i am currently reading howard zinn’s A People’s History of the United States. it tells the “other side” of major historical events, most often from the perspective of the victim. the first few chapters are on columbus and the colonies’ treatment of indians, the slave trade, and we are now on…i forgot. but so far it’s good. but i’m a dork like that. i’m in a “brain turning to mush so i must read educational books” phase.

i’m tired of being so tired and always having a headache.

i have motivation to clean my house cuz i made plans for a bunch of people from work to come over on thursday for game night. how dorky are we. it’s supposed to be mahjong night, but since none of us (me, tony, phil, pat) really know how to play, it’ll probably turn into some other kind of game night. pat has tony’s mahjong book right now to learn to play, i have no clue at all hahah. cuz it’s not like mahjong on the computer lol

urbex today with chris, rob, and 2 of rob’s friends who i forget their names cuz i’m a jerk like that. met them at the terminal, and while i was waiting this woman pulled up with about a 5 year old kid. they were looking around, and i offered to show them inside and the girl just about died haha. she was so excited. i wish i still got that excited seeing that place. haha. anyway, went down and met chris at silver creek high school. hurt my shoulder getting in, but i think i actually fixed it. it bent in the opposite direction that i use it to deal. so i think i’ve kinda stretched it the other way and it feels better now haha. i was hoping for alot of snow, but since this winter has totally sucked, i had to settle for just a dusting on the auditorium chairs. it would be really beautiful with tons of snow. i was hoping for the flooded basement to be frozen, but when i tested the ice out it broke. boo. anyway. had a good time with them. hopefully i’ll be able to go out with them again (they live in PA and OH so…). maybe if there is a big cold snap and snow i’ll go back out there.

next week is bethlehem steel. woo!

fav urbex locations
1. cargil veranda
2. concrete central “cord room”
3. flintkote machine room
4. silver creek green room
5. bct glass walkway