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dreams…something about a nin dvd coming out, so i went to the store and bought it, brought it home to watch with adr2 i think…and some others. it wasn’t a concert video, but clips of different stuff. and after watching the first set it stopped working. so i decided to go back to the store to get another one, and a radio station was there doing some kind of promo where you could win the dvd. but i didn’t win. suddenly chris and alex were there so i kept trying to make them go try to win the dvd for me. then i was on a trip with the toronto ue meetup group, camping or something. and that whole thing was weird. then for whatever reason i was at the richardson complex. i think chris and alex were there to begin with, but then disappeared. other ppl i didn’t know were there, and i don’t know why we were there, except that we were inside the fence just hanging out. then we watched as a guy who was also inside the fence got out through a hole in the chain link. i was like oo!!! a way in!…even tho we were already inside the fence…then leighanne was there for a short time, and i was like, look at the hole in the fence, we could get in except it’s way too visible to the functioning hospital. so we were trying to think of a way to get inside the fence that we were already inside without anyone seeing us go through the hole. she disappeared, and suddenly a person was opening the door to let ppl inside for $25. so hell yeah i was going to pay $25 bucks to finally get inside the kirkbride. and conveniently i had my brand new dSLR camera with me, so it worked out. we walked into an area that looked familiar to me from other photos, tho i don’t think that’s the case in real life. i was so amazed i sat on the floor and started crying hahhah. i thought about texting dan that he was visiting too late, cuz now i had finally gotten into the last frontier of buffalo urbex without him. looking around more, it didn’t look like a hospital at all. went downstairs into another floor/basement, which apparently had been used in a horror movie cuz there was all sort of scary crap and bloody maniquins and stuff. walked by a lunch counter, which i said i had a photo of from when the hospital was open. then upstairs to a room with either skylights or no roof, and you could see city hall and other buffalo buildings as if the hospital was down town. so i was trying to take a picture out the skylight of city hall but it kept moving haha. then i was trying to take a picture of the 2 towers of the hospital out the skylight..even tho i was in the hospital….made no sense.

and i just remembered that in the dvd part of the dream, one of the vid clips of the band had the band members in storm trooper costumes and me and adr2 cracked up laughing

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i must say that this is the strangest description of job requirements i’ve seen… “While performing the duties of this job, the employee is regularly required to stand; walk and talk or hear. The employee is occasionally required to use hands to finger, handle, or feel and reach with hands and arms. The employee must occasionally lift and/or move up to 10 pounds. Specific vision abilities required by this job include close vision, distance vision, color vision, peripheral vision, depth perception and ability to adjust focus. May be required to work extended hours and different shifts.”

walk and talk OR hear…LOL. and you might have to move your arms sometimes. wow. this listing didn’t list “may have to deal with anger or violent situations” like some of the other listings i’ve seen.

i’m stressed out. i’m not entirely sure why, but my dreams are certainly telling me i’m stressed out. i don’t really think it’s because of the surgery, cuz i really feel that it’s no big deal. my biggest concern is finding out the date, and having it be right before cassie visits. i dunno. i just don’t feel like dealing with anything or anyone right now.

i dealt to a kid yesterday who sorta looked trent-y…but only sorta. his face didn’t really look like trent, but it sorta did. he sorta had a trent nose. and he definitely would do things with his lips that were SO trent. and there was a kid who looked like rob sheridan. weird. tonight i got to do overtime. so even when i’m not scheduled until 6am i still get stuck after 4. ah well, i’ll get double time for my extra half hour. money money.

and speaking of money. i am thinking about getting a part time job at hot topic. 40% off for friends and family, and get this…they reimburse you for concert tickets. where the hell was this information last year!! lol. tho i’d probably end up spending my couple buck paycheck there every week, it would be nice to have extra money to put away for a camera, and tattoo, and europe…in no particular order. apparently i won’t have to stay over night in the hospital unless i don’t feel well, so i won’t have to pay the nice $500 co-pay. that’ll help the “other things fund”.

the asbestos book is pretty interesting. for one, i didn’t know asbestos was a mineral. i thought it was man made. and i didn’t know that the health affects of asbestos were known…get this…over 2000 years ago! the ancient civilizations noticed slaves and workers who wove asbestos into fabrics would get sick and die. reading another “environmental disaster” book made me look into more info on the local environmental disaster that we call WNY…read about Bloody Run, which was nice information to know. no book about it unfortunately. trying to get one on love canal off book mooch but nothing is there yet. and i still want to write a book about the manhattan project in niagara falls. some day some day. (yeah right) off to read more

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holy mother of god, best quote ever. from colbert report tonight…

“many people have criticized the bush administration for failures in intelligence…mostly the failure of the president to be intelligent”

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recent dreams:

the government decided to restart it’s nuclear testing program, and started detonating atomic bombs at the nevada test site again. when i found this out i wanted to try to be one of the people who got to observe the tests from the press hill. i guess i found out right before any of this was happening tho and i wasn’t able to. then i thought, oh adrienne must be able to see the tests from las vegas. then suddenly i was in the area or something, and i got the bright idea that if they were doing tests, i should be able to see them from any of the surrounding areas. so i was gonna drive out to the desert to try to watch. i got delayed and the test was performed, and it was so huge that i was able to see it from wherever it was that i happened to be.

adr2 bliss and i were trying to go to bethlehem steel, and we met at some location, and bliss was driving. she was like, wtf are we gonna do, we can’t walk in through the gate with armed police standing there. and i was like DUH we’re gonna go in near the marine star, and they were like oh, yeah smart. so bliss started driving toward the marine star from wherever it was that we were and we couldn’t find the right street. so we got out of the car and started walking down this very strange stone path, much like the trail through watkins glen, just not pretty. then suddenly there would be weird pipes and machines blocking the path, and one pipe spontaneously combusted, and it all seemed really dangerous. so we decided not to go. then i guess it was another day and i was trying to talk to adr2 on IM about going that day, and she said “only” in response and i was like wtf does that mean, and it was some sort of thing she bought and it really made no sense. but i guess it meant they weren’t gonna go. i really wanted to go shoot the coke plant at sunset so i was just going to go by myself, but i knew my mom would freak out so i didn’t.

i was doing something at the richardson complex, outside, and i was in the back of the property when i noticed someone going through a revolving door in the fence. so i figured, hell i’m gonna go in too and finally get to see the building. so i got my laptop bag to look professional and i went in, and walked in the back door which led you into the lobby of the admin building. the whole thing was pristeen and perfect looking. i had some sort of thought about it being the nicest kept kirkbride in the country.

in other real news, i’m so totally excited about this slide show i put together on dvd for the terminal. someone had one up on youtube and bev liked it and asked if we could show it on a loop at the train show. well the persons slide show didnt necessarily use the best and most recent photos, so it really gave the impression that it was still a bombed out shell. so i put a new slide show together last night, took me about 6 hours (including searching the web for photos i wanted but didn’t have), and i set it to the unfortunately titled – for this slide show – nin song “leaving hope”. i set it to “ripe with decay” first, cuz that also seemed to be appropriately titled, but besides the odd coincidence of a weird background noise that sounded like trains playing right when i began showing trains, it didn’t really fit. too many loud points that didn’t coincide with the images. “leaving hope” worked much better. but i’m a dork cuz i’m really proud of it, and i swear if russell picks it apart and tells me what i should have done i’m gonna stab him. *edit* ok i just watched it again, and i’m really really really proud of it. i think it looks great. haha well done me!

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gah daily show, so great.
press question: what did iraq have to do with the world trade center?
bush: nothing.

WTF!!

anyway….making this skirt to hope to wear as some sort of costume for halloween and WOW did i fuck it up. took a whole whole whole lot of improv-ing to fix, but i’ve made it semi wearable. aside from the fact that the material is such crap it’ll prob fall apart after i first wear it. i think i may improv a whole lot more tho. we’ll see. and LOTS of fabric left over again wtf. broke 2 needles and had to figure out how to replace them. things don’t sound too good haha

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to do
1. mail first four books from bookmooch
2. return skirt pattern to joanne’s cuz i bought the wrong size
3. work on halloween skirt
4. clean
5. dinner with parents at steakhouse thurs
6. appt with surgeon fri

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add vulva to the list of words in the babel game…wtf. and pinion teehee

i got a myspace message from jason my senior prom “sorta date” (as he put it haha). that whole going together cuz neither one of us had dates thing and then i didn’t dance with him but played social butterfly all night. pretty neat to hear from him. we were never good friends, but we ate lunch together. haha we used to pay him 5 bucks to drink shots of hot sauce. ah the good old days 😛 but yeah. he spent 6 years in japan, married with twins. very cool. i think only adr will care at all about this paragraph.

so it turns out the scheduler gave most of the 10-6ers tonight 5-1 shifts tomorrow to “reward” us for having given us 10-6s tonight. as if that was a good idea AT ALL. to add insult to injury they moved us all up to 4-12 tomorrow. w.t.f. so it really IS work, sleep, work. luckily i pointed this fact out to grave shift when they came in and that i’d really like to get out early if possible so they got me out at quarter after 4. not like it really makes a diff since i won’t be alseep before 6 anyway….

went to the mall to find shoes. didn’t. it was packed too so it sucked and i was mad. i bought 3 books tho – readers digest complete guide to sewing, a book about the discovery of asbestos as a health hazard, and one about the 1960s.

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i think me and my friends from the casino have way too much fun doing stupid stuff. like betting on pig races. the fair today was quite fun once i walked around lost for 45 minutes trying to find the wine garden where everyone was. ran into phil who had just gotten there, and somehow it turns out we were at the pig races where the rest were going to show up at. convenient. but yeah. way too much fun. went to dunkles for a bonfire, and continued to have more retarded fun. lindsay and i got dave to buy us stuffed animals at the fair. and i ended up with 2 goldfish, which surprisingly, the kitty is not that excited about. but i’ll wake up and they’ll be spilled out onto the floor and half eaten or something haha. i also realized that after a few drinks i can sing quite bowie-esque with much bravado. so when adr2 and bliss and i start our band, i can sing all bowie like.

i can’t listen to tea party without being reminded of what a fucking amazing band they were, and how sad it is that jeff martin solo is so inferior to the band as a whole. and how i’ll never see them live again. i guess 14 times wasn’t enough. i still can’t believe it was 14 times. of course, not all in one year like that other band that i don’t even like :P. haha

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just want to say

you are such a manipulative, liar, fake, user. i don’t know how you live with yourself. anyone who believes a word you say deserves to find out the hard way how much you’ve fooled them. i feel bad for them. i hope they wake up sooner rather than later. enjoy your delusions while they last.

the end.

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dreams from the past 2 nights…

1. something about taking a shower in goth clothes as some sort of voyeur, dominatrix, paid thing…ppl watched me take a shower fully clothed. yeah cuz that’s at all hot

2. that i went to joann fabrics and they had an excellent selection of fabric including a whole section of only black knit fabrics. i’m a dork

3. that i was in college and thinking about dropping out because the degree was going to be useless, but it was my last semester and there was no point in dropping out at that point

4. train derailments. i was at a small train station, but going to be taking a car. the 20th century limited was pulling out of the station and i pointed out to my mom how gorgeous that train was. except it only had 3 cars, and they were red and orange. then we got in the car and started following behind the trains. there were 3 sets of tracks, and 3 trains on them, the far left train being cargo i think, and the far right train being the 20th century. the middle train i dont know what it was. the last car of the left train suddenly derailed. i was like holy crap that can’t be good and told my mom to pull off of the tracks before we hit the car and the other cars derailed and there was a big accident. conveniently there was a dirt road going off perpendicularly from this track road, so we pulled off right before the 1st derailment caused the derailment of the other 2 trains.

5. stress dream featuring a tornado or 2.

6. stress dream about taking a calculus test in high school and not being able to do it. i hadnt even gotten past the first question, which actually was some sort of simple addition problem that i just couldn’t get. i left the room to relax and came back and saw that all these stupid ppl from work were in the class and were doing fine on the test which made me feel even more stupid.

7. some sort of urbex road trip

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