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adelphia sucked, and the rigas family were criminals but i HATE time warner. taking a month to send me the password to my online bill pay (which only works 30% of the time anyway…it’s worse than myspace), causing me to be late in paying, then sending me 2 overdue notices when i actually DID pay, then doing server upgrades last night that could last “between 20 min and a few hours”, but my internet still not working until 9pm tonight after spending 45 min on the phone with them…they tell me it’s not them, its my router. well you know what, it was working just fine til you turned off the internets around midnight last night when i was talking to cassie on IM. grr. so i’m back up, without the router. the guy said to reset it but i’m not trying until i do all the stuff i need to do now that my life is turned back on.

but in the meantime i was productive and made another purse, which adr2 liked so i gave it to her. it was easy and went fast, must make another. i still have like 4 yards of spider web mesh i bought last year to use lol. dunno what i was thinking. need more black and skeletons tho.

so adr2 came over to revive our “must do something every week” thing. went to the corn maze. i forced her to do the velcro obstacle course even tho she didn’t want to and she loved it 😛 told you so. now she wants to go back just to do the velcro thing. we came up with another thing to do for some future week. we are going to start a new tradition and take halloween portraits every year at walmart, or sears or wherever. in costume. hey, we’re paying for them, they’ve gotta take whatever pic we want. we tried to think of costumes and came up with, for the first year, ghosts. just white sheets with holes cut in them ROFL it’s gonna be so great. anyone else who happens to be in town is welcome to be in the halloween family portrait. can’t wait!

i’m not gonna explain the previous post. it’s the truth. no big revelation there. and i stick by it. but i will say, the doctor dropped my dosage of meds, so sun and mon were very very bad days. i am feeling better now tho. 2 more weeks at 25mg, then alternate days, then nothing. we’ll see how this goes.

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any man who claims to want anything beyond sex with a woman is full of shit.

maybe that’s why i liked james, because he wouldn’t have sex with me, felt like there was something more to what turned out to be not a relationship. but in the end i still got used, figure that one out.

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yesterday’s game at work i wanted to shoot myself. tonight i watched college football. then i watched a recap of college football. then i watched close to 4 hours of sportscenter. i can tell you every single stat shown on sportscenter. like how the red sox pitcher was the first rookie in red sox history to pitch a no-hitter. he’s the 2nd pitcher since 1900 to have a no-hitter in his first 2 games. he’s the 21st rookie to have a no-hitter since 1900. (tho oddly, i couldn’t tell you his name) the red sox also had a no-hitter in 2001, and 2002. in addition to today, jason veritek caught for all 3 games. Appalachian state beating michigan 34-32 is the first time a 1-a football team has been beaten by a 1-aa team. biggest upset in college football. what else can i tell you…:P and in between i managed to count 16 decks of cards. but i did not deal a single hand tonight. i’ve never been so tired from doing nothing.

it also turns out that my breaks were completely shot on my car. how should i know? they still worked ha. don’t you think they should have noticed they were bad when i had my inspection in june? they didn’t totally disintegrate in 2 months. dad put new ones on and i do notice a difference, now haha.

i listened to most of joshua tree today. i still find it fairly boring. some of the songs i didn’t even remember when they started. maybe it’s because i hear the first 4 so out of context most of the time, but it feels like the first half and second half are 2 different records. the first 4 tracks don’t seem to fit at all with the rest. i also don’t like bono’s vocal style at that point – sort of singing out of the back of his throat. i had downloaded a rattle and hum outtake awhile back, and it was the worst thing i have ever heard. bono sounded horrible, that throat singing thing (that’s the only way i can describe it). and in a way, because i like 90s u2 so much, the u2 of joshua tree doesn’t even seem like the same band as achtung u2. what a freaking difference. how ever did they come up with achtung to follow joshua tree? haha some illuminati conspiracy i’m sure 🙂 running to stand still, album version, isn’t too bad once you get past the first twangy guitar notes. and bono’s performance is very good on it. still, you haven’t heard that song until you’ve heard it live…

and i love trent. pissed off youtube clips from europe haha.

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now that my weekend is over and everyone elses is beginning…

wednesday i was supposed to go to the terminal with a photographer who was donating 200 to shoot the building for some exhibit in manhattan. at 10 am, not likely, thankfully bill was going to be at the building. like i said, i WAS supposed to go, was planning on going at 1 until my phone alarm went off about my doctors appt. i’d been waiting for this doctors appointment oh since i got back from europe, and had been thinking about it all month – that is until the day of the appt. had totally forgotten about it. it pretty much killed the rest of my day and i never made it to the building.

kitty is chewing on some negatives. wtf cat.

thursday i had nothing to do and ended up finally using a pattern i bought last year for a shirt, with the “swamp thing” fabric i also bought last halloween. went pretty quickly, just needs some finishing touches that i bought today. i killed my conch piercing though. the head hole was too small, when i tried it on the earring got caught and now it hurts. right after it was supposed to be healed too (though wasn’t was still oozing at times). it’s red and blah. oh well.

friday was running around and work. i decided if i ever kill myself i’m going to do it in some horrible gruesome way at work. like slit my throat at a table. tho i don’t think i could ever actually DO that though. *shudder* i hate high limit roulette because it’s always the same asshole playing. we get into screaming matches, tho he’s been “good” lately. but god, it sucked tonight. super busy also because of a boxing match. and the holiday. it is looking like my first 40 hour week since europe hahaha. nice big check for me.

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so in my u2 mood i listened to how to dismantle an atomic bomb for the first time since..well since it came out ha. decided to give it a 2nd chance – since in the complicatedness that is my u2 fandom, i never like a u2 album at first listen. it has to sit on the shelf a bit and age before i can appreciate it. so htdaab is not as bad as i remember, i listened to the entire thing except yahweh. i just couldn’t. that song is SO bad. it has fun moments, it has way too sappy moments (miracle drug), it has mature moments (songs towards the end), it has the suck moments (yahweh) but over all it’s not too bad. it’s certainly no achtung, and it will never be a “desert island” record, but it’s tolerable. it also will forever remind me of someone.

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i dreamed about perez hilton. haha i’m a nerd. i was with someone else, possibly heather, and we had gotten called to babysit for someone. we had to meet the person at a starbucks type place to pick up the baby. so we go to the place and it turns out the person we’re babysitting for is none other then christina aguilera. so we sit down at her table for a bit with her, and who is across the restaurant with an entourage? britney spears. and she puts a tape into a tape deck and starts singing… or “singing”. it’s some new song she’s working on that she’s playing for her entourage. so me and heather and christina are trying to listen to the song, which is absolute crap, and decide if she’s just lipsynching or not. christina said that britney was totally lipsynching, because she can tell those things. then i guess christina leaves, and i’m like holy shit i so need to email perez hilton about all this!!!

also dreamed i was going back to europe for a week in march for nin shows, and 2 and a half weeks of nin shows in the us in september. i was trying to find someone to go with me but couldn’t.

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so the other day a man comes into work and plays at my table. he has 2 broken wrists. as the game continued i noticed, even with 2 casts on, he cut the chips very very good. he was obviously a dealer. turns out he deals across the river at fallsview. i eventually ask him what he did to his wrists. he said that a player who had been losing for 10 years took a baseball bat to him. the loser hadn’t been playing with the dealer, the dealer just happened to be who the loser took it out on. w.t.f. it seems pretty unbelievable, so my supervisor and i pretty much discounted that. and that’s cool, making up a story like that is something i would do to make my injury more interesting haha. but in telling others about the guy today, 2 people – one of them being tony – had heard that a dealer in canada had gotten attacked with a baseball bat by a player. that the player had been waiting in the parking lot for him/someone. w.t.f. i can’t find anything on the web about it, and i would assume that it would have been in the fallscanada news paper, or police blotter or SOMETHING. but wow, i really don’t want to hear stuff like that especially now that we park a half a block away instead of a mile away…

if one were to want to say…acquire some mace/pepper spray, even tho it’s illegal, how would one do that. it’s illegal in canada to so i can’t import it. i’m assuming sellers of mace would not ship to states where it is illegal (or is it legal anywhere? i really don’t know…)

and i was only worried about players shooting me 😛

had tons of dreams about boyx last night, as well as being thrown on a craps game and told what to do and finding it not as hard as everyone says. that one was cuz they’re offering classes again and i’m getting pressured to finally learn craps. no thanks, you can keep your $.25/hr. i also didn’t wake up until 4 and that irritated me. i don’t usually sleep THAT long, almost 11 hours LOL

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still in my u2 mood…

the amazing thing about the boston 05 bootleg is not the band, and it’s certainly not bono or the setlist. it’s the incredible amount of crowd participation. u2 crowds are usually up on every single song – you don’t get alot of casual fans at the shows because the tickets are so hard to get. but the boston bootleg in particular is RIDICULOUS. you can hear the crowd singing, loudly, on almost every song. it’s pretty surreal. i can’t imagine what it’s like for the band.

i also had forgotten how rude/funny bono was in the buffalo 01 bootleg. during “in a little while” a guy had crowd surfed up to bono on the tip of the heart. bono said “you’re a little overweight…for flying. you weren’t designed to fly, friend.” hahaha.

and “where the streets have no name” is one of the most incredible live song experiences ever. there is really nothing that compares to how “streets” builds, and the band comes in, and it’s just…as close as i’ll ever get to a religious experience. the lighting the band used for it during the elevation tour was the most perfect too. the spinny light things. honestly, i can’t remember what the lighting was like on vertigo tour, so it must not as been as good haha.

since the boston 05 bootleg had 25 songs i’m adding 4 more to my setlist (i’ve excluded all songs that bono’s voice can’t handle anymore, like “the unforgettable fire” and “lemon” etc, tho lemon, especially as macphisto, would be so fantastic)
1. last night on earth
2. do you feel loved
3. stay
4. so cruel 🙂

on top of this kate sent me an article about daniel lanois, where he says that him and brian eno are working on u2’s new record, and the whole thing feels like the achtung baby era again. exciting tho i’ll believe it when i hear it. they also said that how to dismantle an atomic bomb was a guitar record and look how that turned out LOL!

i also dreamed that boyx came exploring with me somewhere. and about jehovah witnesses going door to door and having doors slammed in their face at each house. and that i was in london, or rather, had recently been and forgotten to go to camden market.

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