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i’m having some michael jackson issues.
1. for the first time i’m having a hard time conceptualizing that the person who made thriller is the same person who is in the media lens now. the other day me and danielle watched mj on mtv for a while, they showed billie jean and for the first time in my life/my mj fandom it occured to me that he used to be black and now he’s not. i was like woah, this is amazing, cuz it’s a black man who made a video that broke barriers etc…all the stuff he gets praised for as an 80s artist…i was just completely impressed. i just had a really strange progression of thoughts when i saw that video the other day.
2. there is something about him that makes me really uneasy lately. i mean, he really looks bad. and it’s not just the plasticness of his face and all that i joke about. there is something else, which makes me think he really doesn’t want to do any of this anymore. it’s like he’s tired. and scared. so i was reading the mj article in the bono Details magazine and there was a quote in it about his tribute concerts. “when Jackson finally pulls up in some customized black limo-cum-Popemobile (he’s wearing a silvery, sparkly blazer and, on his arm, the inevitable Liz Taylor) he doesn’t look unhealthy or even particularly odd. But his eyes have a disturbingly empty, even fearful, quality about them.”….THAT IS EXACTLY IT! that is really what is bothering me about his appearance.. not the unmovable upper lip, not the inability to express emotions – it’s that his eyes are dead. he doesn’t look like he is happy at all, it doesn’t look, even on stage, like he is having fun..and that makes me very sad.

i’m having a hard time coming to terms with my “relationship” with michael lately…i don’t know what it is. there are times when his flashes of brilliance blow me away, and then there are times where sometimes i question my sanity. he is a genuis and is incredibly talented. and i love him even if i dont like pop music, and never in my life like pop music again. there is no question he started it all, and all that. but i’m so scared for him and i don’t know why. i think he’s going to die soon – some kind of tragic-princess diana-esque kind of death. and while i will mourn in some way for the loss, i’ll also be somewhat…”happy”…because i think it’s his time to go. i’m not making sense in my own head, so i can’t imagine how this makes sense. and i also realize that no one who reads this can relate at all to what i’m saying since only a few of my friends are mj fans. and those that are dont share my feelings about mj’s death. lol. mj cant get old. big stars should not be allowed to get old. james dean is remembered as the rebel without a cause, and marilyn monroe is remembered in the white dress over the subway vent. michael jackson needs to be remembered as the musical genius in the sparkly black jacket and sequined white glove. if he gets old, and i’m talking like 60s+, he’s not going to be remembered that way. and i’m scared of that.

danielle and i went pumpkin hunting today and listened to Dangerous in the car. we discussed a future MJ tour of the US and the possibility of a Buffalo date at the arena…i got so excited at the thought of camping out in line over night/tailgating…seeing all my mj fan friends again, thinking of who all would come to Buffalo to see the show with me…just how much fun it would be. god i hope that happens.

stars that shouldn’t have aged:
1. marlon brando
2. al pachino

stars that haven’t aged in years:
1. david bowie

stars that are better now that they have aged
1. steve tyler and joe perry
2. keith richards lol

i forget the rest of the people i had in those categories.

have i mentioned recently that i want bono’s flag jacket? i want it more now than ever due to these pics of him in it in Details…it is seriously the coolest jacket ever and not just cuz it’s bono’s.

 

 

as if i could be any more in love with bono i go and read the details magazine article and i’m just omg. it was just so entirely cute. it showed he was human and caring, and even though it’s a in-print interview with some journalist, he is so charming…omg omg omg.

people say bono has a big ego, which is probably true. everyone famous has an ego…but i think part of it is the whole self mocking ego bit that i do, as well as eric and carolyn LOL….a lot of bonos ego-ness is a stage thing i think…of course i dont know him, so LOL….but there is nothing wrong with having an ego when you can also laugh about yourself, which it is so clear that bono can do and does often.

i think, as of now, if i was to meet any of my fav celebrities, i’d have the most personally embarassing reaction to meeting bono. i wouldn’t faint, i’m so not like that…but i’d probably act like a complete retard, and he’d be like, ok ur dumb, bye. hah…

why is everyone i like shorter than me…bono is 5 freaking 7…ug. trent is like 5’6″ or 5’7″….that’s so incredibly akward to be a girl meeting your fav singer and being taller than them. how are they supposed to lean down and kiss you if your taller than them?!?! LOL i guess jay gordon makes up for all the short people i like lol.

ok i need to stop. so what did i do today? me and danielle drove to avon in search of pumpkins and to go to Tops market (since we’re stuck shopping at wegmans :P)…we found pumpkins but were driving to fast to stop, so we kept going to find the Tops first. We were so excited to be going to tops YAY we’re dorks. it was the cutest little Tops ever. And they had Details magazine so it was all good. then we went back to pumpkin guy. he was nice, funny, missing teeth townie LOL…cheap pumpkins tho. Danielle got a big one for 3 bucks, i got a bit smaller one for 2…her pumpkin would have been like 7 bucks at Wegmans. so tonight is pumpkin carving night while the hockey game is on…

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i’m all for crappy weather…rain, snow etc…but wind i can’t deal with… so wind + rain = bad….cuz u can’t use an umbrella, and even if you manage to use one without it blowing inside out, the rain still hits every other part of your body that isn’t covered by the umbrella…i would really wish it would stop torrentially downpouring and slaping into my window/roof in front of the window… or at least a nice 5 min grace period so i can walk to class would be nice.

dr lynch has been in a really good mood this week… not that he’s usually in a bad mood, he seems like a happy enough guy…but it’s been weird. he swore like 4 times today…like “whenever the hell they wrote it”,..”i should get the hell out of the way”…and the other day he kept making all kinds of weird funny comments. it’s strange. he’s a cool guy. dr kirsh knows my name now. he says hi to me and stuff when i see him. he’s got a class in the room before mine, so i’m always walking in when he’s leaving, and he talks to me. i’ve been here 4 years and have never had this many professors who actually know who i am all in 1 semester. dr ballard knows who i am, but there is only 15 people in that class so i would hope she knows who i am LOL…dr loftquist still doesn’t know who i am, doesn’t even recognize me as being in his class and i’ve had 2 classes with him…

so i really practically live in Sturges Hall cuz all psych and sociology courses are in that building and i used to do my research there…well the building sucks. it really needs to get remodeled and technologicalized…half of the building, the half that faces the quad, it’s hotter than hell in those rooms. every room has radiator heat, but in that half you can’t turn them off…even if you turn them off, and open the window, it’s 90 in those rooms. then you go across the hall to the rooms that face the valley, and there is no heat in those. so you freeze… i go from one side of the hall to my next class on the other side and have to put my coat on lol…

 

i was having a dream that i was taking the GRE so i woke myself up. then it started to rain so i couldn’t get back to sleep before my alarm went off. but i was sorta asleep at one point, and started dreaming about the song “guns in the sky” by inxs.. i think i was trying to compare it to u2s “bullet the blue sky”…but when i woke up out of my half sleep i had “guns in the sky” in my head, and was singing it as i took a shower. i’m surprised i remember the words, it’s been a long time since i listened to the Kick cd.

more and more i’m appreciating the amazingness of the song “stay (faraway, so close)” by none other than u2, surprise… dude i haven’t watched that video in over a week. i’m slacking!

i’m in a sorta good mood right now. but now i have to go to class in the rain, and it’s like 30 outside…

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there is something i don’t really understand that has happened recently in the wake of the whole terrorist crap. the compilation cd “god bless america” or whatever it’s called is #1 on billboard charts…now i realize i’m entirely unpatriotic most of the time, but really…can that many people be craving to hear the same 3 “go USA” songs over and over again that they’re running out to buy an entire cd full of them? how many times can one listen to “america the beautiful” and “god bless the USA”?….even when i considered myself to be slightly patriotic i didn’t want to hear those songs. i’m sorry, but one time is enough for hearing whitney houston sing the national anthem…and celine dion A CANADIAN!!! singing some US patriotic song…i really don’t need to hear that even once.

it was a sorta nice gesture for the NHL to conduct their preseason games by adding a rendition of “God Bless America” to the beginning of the ceremonies (or at least the Buffalo Sabres did…) but i was very glad to see it only lasted throughout the preseason. it’s over kill…oversaturation is bad. beginning economics tells u that, and i think one can apply that principle here as well. i can’t possibly be the only person really tired of it all…

i think even if i was patroitic i still wouldn’t be going and buying these cds, and craving these songs, and i’d still be quite sick of it all…

ok so there is one or two of these tribute things that i’m planning on buying (gee can u guess which ones?? “what’s going on”, and mj’s tribute thing…cuz i’m so transparent)….but they arent just various stars singing “god bless america” over and over again…at least i know the “what’s going on” one isn’t, dunno about mj….

and speaking of mj (almost entirely unrelated)…MTV premiered his “ghosts” movie last night as “Michael Jackson’s Haloween Special” LOL…and they put commercials in it…u can’t put commercials in that movie!!! it was irritating. but it was when MJ still looked sorta good LOL…he could smile and make funny faces, which he wouldn’t be able to do currently since he has lost all ability to show emotion due to the plasticness of his face. I STILL LOVE YOU MICHAEL!!!

ok well i’m tired. i got woken up (out of a good u2 dream i might add) due to the sheets of torriental rain slapping against my window and the roof in front of it. why oh why did i pick this room with the roof in front of the window? it was so deafeningly loud…is that a word? deafeningly?…whatever. i think it’s nap time after i type up my dreams from last night.

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ok yeah i probably should mention my weirdness as of late. i was at wegmans with danielle yesterday, she was in line, so i went to look at the good old buffalo news on the news stand. i was bending down there, and i suddenly looked at the inside of my elbow. the light was casting a shadow over it, and made it look really dark – like a bruise. i suddenly thought that i was a heroin addict, and that me being a heroin addict was completely normal.

so then 5 minutes ago, i was scratching the inside of my elbow on the other arm cuz it was itching, i look over, and its all red. once again, i have this completely normal rational thought that i was a heroin addict.

WTF IS THAT?! why am i having these thoughts that are like “yup i have track marks because i’m a heroin addict” when 1. i dont have track marks 2. i’m not a heroin addict…???? why is that the most logical thought to form in my head when i look at the inside of my elbows?

i must have been a heroin addict in a past life…or i have a twin who is currently a heroin addict and i feel her…that is almost as logical as having these thoughts that i’m a heroin addict LOL

then for fun i found this link on someone’s blog that u answer questions and it gives u the list of 25 recreational drugs ranked in the order that i’d probably prefer them based on my answers… it gave me #1 hash #2 marijuana… i thought they were the same thing… but anyway, yeah, i didnt get any fun drugs til # 5 or 6, crystal meth LOL.. and heroin was down in the teens…

someone from CIT is coming to look at my computer. i don’t know why i bother contacting them because the people they send are students and most of the time i know more than they do…but i changed my wallpaper from pylon man love, to the ultra sexy macphisto picture, just for the CIT person to enjoy 🙂

 

i had another dream about playing asshole (the drinking game) with u2…lol

 

 

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pylon man love – please dont ask me why it’s called that, cuz i actually have NO clue…i saw the pic, someone else had posted “pylon man love”….

Pylon Man Love

Pylon Man Love

and the story behind it:
Sunday August 3rd, 1997

Later on a classic U2 moment occurred when Bono and a few other folks went out for the evening. The band had been pestered by a couple of paparazzi photographers all day, so for the evening’s outing we went by car to avoid any further hassle – after all, the gig was yesterday, so theoretically the fuss should have died down to some extent. Anyhow, our paparazzi friends were not to be deterred and jumped into their car to follow. The result was of course a car chase through the streets of Gothenburg, which got increasingly out of hand. Coming down a side street, Bono spotted a pile of red traffic cones by the side of the road. Without a word he pulled the car over and signaled everyone to assemble a road-block with them as the paparazzi car appeared around the corner. Mayhem ensued, with people running all over the place wielding traffic cones and the photographers taking aim as best they could. Then the fatal blow. As the photographers got out of their car to get a closer view, Howie B. circled round, ran past their car and in one graceful motion swooped in and stole the car keys. Everyone jumped back into our vehicle and sped off, leaving the photographers gutted to find their steed disabled. I can still hear Howie laughing now.

Monday August 4th

This morning’s headline in the Gothenburg daily paper was by a picture of the two photographers from last night and said (in Swedish) “Can we have our car keys back?”. Actually, we;d already left the stolen keys at the reception of the hotel (where they knew we were staying), so they’d eventually find them. Besides which they did get a couple of classic snapshots of Bono wrestling with these giant red traffic cones, so they had got some kind of result. It was all very funny, but all the same it was probably a good time to leave town.
from u2.com

why this is significant:
we currently have 2 orange pylons in our storage room, that we liberated from the parking lot this weekend… along with a curious george doll with no eyes, that we found sitting on the stair well….a pumpkin from the corn maze….my rad “the history of the music video in the 80s” poster advertisement for the lecture that is on tuesday night (featuring none other than michael jackson and u2)…and the 2 parking lot closed signs that we liberated 2 weeks ago 🙂 we tried to liberate the sign on the outside of a porta potty, but it was a sticker – wouldn’t come off….we might have liberated something else this weekend, but i can’t remember what it was….the pumpkin liberation was a drive by…LOL. carolyn did the dirty work, we drove by with the car for a quick get away 🙂 hoodlums, all of us

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carolyn and i have come up with a final count of 24 attending last nights party… of course, i don’t think we were all there at 1 given time LOL…it migrated outside, and next door…and to the hospital…but yup, 24. for me, that’s a huge success!

 

ok so at the party yesterday, all these boys who were visiting our neighbors decided to come party with us. they brought a camera. so i asked them if i could see the pics when they were done, gave them my IM name etc…well i totally didn’t think that they would actually come through… but an hr ago i got all of the photos in a zip file LOL…they are really funny, maybe i’ll post some later

 

cuz i don’t have anything else to be doing right now hehe

Last CD/vinyl/tape you purchased: ummm. let’s see….the tea party “transmission” i think…
Last music you listened to: u2
Last show you went to: u2 last saturday in hamilton 🙂
Last thing you watched on television: some stupid show on MTV starring Sum41…it was that or Mariah Carey…
Last thing you ate: spaghetti, biscuits, salad
Last item of clothing you bought: umm…i have no idea when the last time i bought anything was so…um…yeah, sorry, no clue
Last thing you said: “that’s gay”
Last person you saw: danielle.
Last time you felt scared: i’m scared every day about my lack of a future
Last time you cried: last saturday at u2…. *dork* hahahah NO WAIT.. even more *dork*… last sunday, in the car, listening to u2 LOL
Last time you said you were sorry: probably today, cuz everyone i hang around with constantly apollogizes for nothing
Last time you got into a fight: i don’t really get into fights.. i guess disagreement would be my mom last sunday… brought down my u2 high, grrrr
Last time you lied: probably today, i dunno… can’t think
Last person you kissed: i’m going to assume you mean a boy…and not family…LOL i dont even know who he was…
Last time you said “I love you”: sunday
Last time you felt inspired: i felt a bit inspired but then i couldn’t make a proper graphic so it went away..that was probably…tuesday
Last person you emailed: um.. either the u2 hamilton bootleg guy, or carolyn about pylon man love
Last movie you saw: i saw about 10 minutes of “Breakfast club” today
Last wish: LOL actually i wished last night cuz i saw a shooting star…and i’m so predictable that carolyn replied “i guess it didn’t come true cuz bono’s not here right now” LOL
Last words: that i said outloud? i already answered that.

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people have gotten to used to the “happy sara” and now that i’m more back to my “normal” self, ppl are having issues 😛 haha

totally spaced out in class again today. IT’S SO BORING! Thank god i don’t have to take any more sociology courses, i couldn’t stand sitting in another one….but anyway, spaced out again… not about u2 or mj this time (although there were periods of that, just the main space out wasn’t dealing with either of them)….i started thinking about how me and danielle cheated at the fish game at the canal fest in 2000. i totally forgot we did until she mentioned it in a survey she filled out when the word association was fish. we didn’t cheat in like, we told them we got a ping pong ball in the bowl when we didn’t. but we paid for our ping pong balls, and then started picking them up off the ground near where we were standing when they weren’t looking to get extra tries we didn’t pay for HAHA. we won 3 fish. but so i’m thinking about this, and almost started laffing in the middle of class. hah oops.

so i came back from class and went through my now daily routine of checking the u2 interference msg board…there was a thread posting the pictures from the new Vanity Fair mag, and there is one of all 4 of the guys…and i’m like wow bono looks like a woman in that picture…actually he looks like michael jackson for some reason…and i’m like ok yeah i’m weird, it’s just me being stupid…so i go through the replies to the pictures, and get to one where this girl is like “call me a cow but that picture looks like bono took a trip to michael jackson’s plastic surgeon” LOL…and another reply from someone saying she thought the same thing…someone else who said first reaction was that bono looked like a woman SO IT’S NOT JUST ME! hahaha i really don’t know what it is about the picture that makes him look like a woman…i think it’s the hair…i dunno, it just occured to me to be very funny…

well i got email from residence life regarding the shit ass closet doors…she will contact the contractors and see what can be done about them… they must have a form mail that they cut and paste to everyone with a complaint haha….i guess someone did come to look at danielle’s leaking window…apparantly since she’s on the corner of the building she’s going to have a problem (not quite sure why that is) but that it is leaking because not a single window on any of the buildings has been caulked yet…BRILLIANT! well when the fuck are you gonna do it since it’s going to snow any day now!?!?! and what about our front door that doesn’t shut/seal correctly? i put in a work order for that the first week we moved in….

nap time

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my favourite author is chuck palahniuk…by far. he has the most interesting books, he’s insane i think. he wrote an article/response to everything that happened last month. i’m not sure what my opinion on it is…initially i was sort of disturbed by what he had to say. basically it was a recount of his day on sept 11th. then i kinda began to understand that being in oregon, one is very far removed from everything that happened. i still find it hard to accept that life, as chuck described it, in oregon on sept 11th seemed to be very normal. conversations regarding pornographic internet sites, abuse of perscription medicine, and an overall lack of empathy for what was going on….it doesn’t really sit well with me. while i understand that life can’t and didn’t stop due to what happened i find it hard to believe that some people didn’t stop to rethink their entire life, future, and think about how trivial most everything else is/was….i’m not quite sure how one goes about surfing the internet for websites about beastality when your entire world is changing. alot of what chuck said in his article, i saw his point… the repetitve showing of the same 5 camera angles of the airplane, the same shots of the towers collasping, over and over to the point of exhaustion…

perhaps the “normality” of their actions in oregon were a coping mechanism that was different than the coping mechanisms of those of us so much closer…i suppose it is hard to relate to such a thing when you have virtually no connections to the place…but it’s not like i had so many connections either…a few friends in the area, i’ve only visited the city once…and the fact that i have friends all over the country who reacted in a way much like my reaction, or my area’s reaction as a whole….i dont know what i’m saying really…i just think their reaction was much more abnormal in their continuation of their “normal” lives…and that sorta bothers me.

i give up. you can read chucks letter at chuckpalahniuk.net

 

my word of the day is “oracle”….not sure why. i was leaving the building after class, past a class still in session where the proff said something about so and so protected the oracle.. and since then it’s been stuck in my head, and i’ve used it a few times. lol.

wellll the townhouse saga continues…can’t remember if i mentioned it or not, but at least 4 weeks ago a worker came in, sawed a big hole in the wall, moved the smoke detector about 10 inches to the left of where it had been in the family room, and reinstalled it. spackled over the old hole, plus the new hole, and then left. 2 weeks after that, right before fall break I think, our roof leaked into our closet (every townhouse had this problem)…2 workers knocked on the door to see what kind of water damage had been done, said they’d be in to paint the inside of the closet ceiling. i asked them if they were going to also paint over the spackled holes of the smoke detector. again, right before fall break, a worker shows up to look at the closet, this time to assess if we had the right parts installed so they could put our closet doors in, we didn’t have the parts. he said we’d get the closet doors over the 4 day break. we come back from break, nothing has been done… nothing painted, nothing installed (there were other things that they were supposed to do including fire extinguishers, finishing the cabinets, something with the storage rooms…)….fine

so yesterday i emailed the director of the complex, asked when we’d get our closet doors. she said she didnt know but would let the workers know about it….this morning, danielle discovers her window is leaking, because it was not properly installed and there is a crack between the windowsill and the wall, where water is pouring in onto the window ledge next to her bed…calls emergency maintence, who said they would let the contractors know. ok…i leave, get back from class, there is a worker ready to install our closet doors. YAY! – not. the doors are installed…they are the most piece of shit doors i’ve ever seen. oh they are the same doors installed in all the other houses…except our doors have big areas of paint that have been scraped off, mud caked on the doors, other various scuffs and scratches…completely UNFINISHED…no one has been here to fix danielle’s window…nothing that requires paint has been painted. what is the purpose of emergency maintenence if they don’t come right away to fix the problem. they didn’t come right away to get our hot water to work either….

so i emailed the complex director again, thanked her for getting us closet doors, but told her that we’d rather not have them if the workers are going to leave them there looking like complete shit. no response yet. we are going to take pictures of the doors in the event that in the next 7 months no one returns to our house to paint them….

and then there’s the parkinglot problem. all last year us future residents were concerned about parking, considering that most of us are seniors, most of us have cars for things like student teaching and internships…we (apparantly stupidly) figured that we’d be provided our own parking lot. we’ll we were wrong. yes a parking lot was constructed, but no it is not exclusively for us. while we were all annoyed at that, what can we do? they assured us there would be plenty of parking for the townhouse residents since they built the new lot. well is there enough parking? of course not. did we all anticpate this problem LAST YEAR, of course we did. i’m not quite sure how the residence life people did not forsee a parking problem, when the lot that has been built for us is closer to the south side of campus than the townhouse complex….there is nothing preventing lazy freshman from parking their cars in OUR lot, and walking across the street to their building. that leaves no spots for us. well fine, there is also another parking lot below the fields in front of the town houses. it’s about a 5-10 minute walk from my door to the lower parking lot. last night leah was forced to park in the lower lot, because there were no spots in OUR lot….and it was 10:00/11:00 at night, and none of the parking lot lights were on… so that means a small young girl walking through a dark parking lot late at night…how is that safe? not too sure…

we’re paying so much extra to live in these townhouses, PLUS we all had to pay an extra 100$ to park on campus, i think the least they should do for us is to provide us a parking lot that is 1. exclusively ours 2. much closer to our buildings than the present lot. There is an ENTIRE field in front of the town houses that could be EASILY turned into a parking lot. Why they’re not doing this? not too sure. they claim that they are leaving the field there to be used as an athletic field, as it has been used the past however many years… thats fine and great except in 4 years going to school here i never once saw anyone playing any sports on the field….we also have about 5 other fields to play athletics on….big expanses of green grass that are perfectly fine….WHY CANT THEY JUST THROW SOME ASPHALT ONTO THE FUCKING FIELD AND MAKE A PARKING LOT FOR US?! I DONT UNDERSTAND HOW THEY CAN THINK ADDING 20 PARKING SPOTS TO A LOT 10 MINUTES AWAY WOULD HELP US AT ALL! AND HOW DID THEY NOT SEE A PROBLEM IN THE FACT THAT EVERYONE ELSE – FRESHMAN, COMMUTERS, NORTHSIDE RESIDENTS – WOULD TAKE ALL OUR SPACES?! COMMON FUCKING SENSE TELLS ANYONE, EVEN PEOPLE WHO DONT GO HERE, THAT SPOTS CLOSEST TO CAMPUS ARE GOING TO BE TAKEN BY COMMUTERS… THAT MEANS OUR PARKING SPACES!!!

i don’t even feel any better after that rant….fucking a.

 

ooooh yeah, another townhouse problem…the heating and air conditioning….i wont get into the AC issue but the heat….it is now cold out side. so our heater decided to automatically turn on the other day, and it was extremely sweltering in here. so we turned it down. fine. the brilliant contractors, and architects, whoever, decided the best place for the air ducts is on or near the ceiling. that’s spectacular when you’re dealing with AC, but how does that work with heat? please tell me. because this means that katies bedroom, which is on the 3rd floor near where the furnace is, gets the majority of the heat…the 2nd floor where i live, gets some heat, and the first floor gets none. there is no hot air coming out of the vents in the family room. it is 5 degrees warmer in my bedroom than it is in the family room. where is the thermostat? in the family room….so that means that the heat will always be going on because it is so fucking cold down there, while the rest of the house is boiling hot…. smart builders. how am i so uneducated in the craft of building and construction yet i know you cant put heating ducts on the ceiling, with the furnace on the 3rd floor, and expect the house to be heated properly?

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well i woke up today in a less than happy mood…then i got sorta more depressed that PCD could be setting in. BUT I AM STILL SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW! it went away!!! yaaaaay!!!!

so i was really tired in class today, and it’s so boring..i totally tuned out for who knows how long, and i dont even know what i was thinking about. ok obviously, it started out as thinking about u2/bono…but then it totally somehow morphed into thinking about michael jackson, and his new album that comes out in 2 weeks FINALLY!…and then i realized, wow i’m really not paying attention. so i kept trying to not tune out, but i kept tuning out into trying to figure out how i started thinking about bono and ended up with mj…i also was thinking about how i’m not as happy today as i was yesterday…

then i came home, and got my stupid ass computer to work finally…and what is the first thing i did (besides check email)…go travel to read the u2 interference msg board LOL…and it made me so happy again!!! there is a thread that somehow went from looking for bootlegs of the hamilton show, to everyone talking about how they’re from upstate NY LOL….it was just kinda cool that these ppl are in the area, a bunch from rochester, some from buffalo and UB…i feel like i’m becoming part of the “u2 interference family”….why this is important to me, i’m really not sure LOL.

it’s kinda weird… cuz this obsession/whatever is really alot different than my MJ one in a lot of ways…the way it started, the progression…the fact that i have self control (sometimes) and that i’m currently not going to let myself become this full blown u2 collector….and it’s totally not making me feel the way that MJ did….i dont think that’s because this is any less of an obsession/whatever than mj was…i just think the time in my life that the whole mj stuff occured…it was like, during the whole i’m a teenager, need to find my idenity stuff…MJ really helped me define who I am, even if just to myself. and during alot of the whole MJ thing, i was really unhappy…it really didn’t make me happy until i started going on the internet, and found other people who were in the same place as i was….after that, it was great, mj made me happy etc….With this U2 stuff…i’m just giddy…none of the whole, finding who i am stuff has anything to do with why i’m so into them right now… i guess you might be able to interpret it in that way, since my entire life is about to change in the next 8 months. but i don’t think that’s it…i’m stoping this train of thought right now.

don’t worry adrienne, PCD will be averted when you get here this weekend if it has set in or is about to….and if for some reason it cant be averted, sit me in front of the tv and make me watch the ZooTV video 🙂 hope u did good on ur test

 

“all that you can’t leave behind” is one of the most uplifting records i have ever heard….i honestly think it’s the only cd i have that makes me happy…i have so many cds that i LOVE and could not live without, but they don’t make me so entirely happy to be listening to them… they act as a release of frustration, or relaxation, or are just brilliant etc…and this isn’t just a happy reaction due to the fact i love u2 so much at the moment…because i have 3 u2 cds in my stereo right now, and this is the only one that i sit here with a smile on my face, even tho it’s definitely not as good of a record as say…achtung baby….its just… uplifting!

in the words of carolyn – it’s “niagara falls-ing” outside right now

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I AM SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’ve NEVER, EVER been as happy as i am right now….i’m sitting in class thinking, omg i am so happy i want to get up and dance around and scream! Of course, i didn’t LOL….and it’s like i’m suddenly super enthusiastic about EVERYTHING!

so this is what it feels like to be HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and the movie that makes me think of terrorists when i see VW mini busses is Back To The Future…thanks to eric for thinking of it for me!

 

i found a picture of bono going through mcdonald’s drive thru….so of course i had to show amanda, since it would be a dream come true for both of us if it had happened to us…here is the conversation that insued (ensued?)

amanda: AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
sara: I KNO
sara: CAN U IMAGINE IF THAT HAPPENED TO US?!
amanda: what McDs???!!!???
amanda: I would die!!
sara: LOL I KNOW
sara: i’d like be shaking so bad
sara: id drop the drink tray all over him
sara: and hed be pissed
amanda: LOL
amanda: we’d hold up the entire line just to talk to him
sara: omg i know
sara: i’d be like FUCK THE DRIVE THRU TIMES
sara: ITS FUCKING BONO AND IM GOING TO TALK TO HIM!
amanda: youd have to call me and I would RUN from home to McDs
sara: TOTALLY
sara: id be like BONO U CANT LEAVE YET UR FOODS NOT READY
sara: just to give u time to get there LOL
sara: and i expect the same from u, if i wasnt working lol
amanda: oh yeah
sara: lol
amanda: when something like that happens..you need to share it with someone
sara: i headr the story behind the photo on saturday…apparantly bono is a terrible driver
sara: and just like took a car, and other tour ppl were following behind him
sara: when he suddenly turned into mcds and was like i want drive thru lol
amanda: LOL
sara: hahah
amanda: dammit…why didnt he come to our McDs!!??!!
sara: and i didnt search for the picture, i just happened to find it today lol
sara: and i’m like MUST SHOW AMANDA
amanda: we should write him a letter “Dear Bono: My friend and i work at McDonalds. We like your music very much. Please come through our drive thru.”
sara: HAHAHAHAH
amanda: its alot better then saying “My friend and I are obsessed with you. If you came through our drive thru we’d ask you to give us your burger wrapper just beacuse you touched it”
sara: HAHAHAHA
amanda: “then we’d rub it all over our bodies…….”
sara: ROFL
sara: carolyn had a different idea for our letter
sara: dear bono: my friend and i work in mcdonalds and we heard about your drivethru experience. i for one would like to say that i’d love to flip your burger any day. come to my drive thru because,like our motto says, we love to see you smile – and id do everything i could to make that happen.”
sara: lol
amanda: ROFL
amanda: “Dear Bono: Please come through my drive thru so i can fuck you in a large vat of our pickles that we keep on the stockroom shelves”
sara: ROFL
amanda: “or if you prefer something a little more irish…a big vat of our Shamrock Shake”

i’m being really selfish and conceited now, but i think i have every right to be. and i think what i’ve been saying that i’m going to paste here i have every right to say….as a preface, this is in regards to the fact i’m incredibly irritated talking to a certain person right now…and it’s ruining my u2 high even tho i just watched the “one” video twice LOL that brought it back a bit…

me: cuz everyone else who has immed me
me: asked about the show
me: and i did the whole OMFG AMAZING ETC
me: but for him it really was like he wasnt interested
me: so that really irritated me
carolyn: yeah just asking for sake of asking
me: cuz ppl should be interested in the fact that i had the greatest day of my life yesterday
me: even tho that sounds so conceited

once again, people only ask you about their weekend so they can tell you about theirs….that’s what has happened in that conversation with the person who is irritating me and i’m not giving in, cuz i don’t really give a shit….i’m really mean sometimes

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