well i woke up today in a less than happy mood…then i got sorta more depressed that PCD could be setting in. BUT I AM STILL SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW! it went away!!! yaaaaay!!!!
so i was really tired in class today, and it’s so boring..i totally tuned out for who knows how long, and i dont even know what i was thinking about. ok obviously, it started out as thinking about u2/bono…but then it totally somehow morphed into thinking about michael jackson, and his new album that comes out in 2 weeks FINALLY!…and then i realized, wow i’m really not paying attention. so i kept trying to not tune out, but i kept tuning out into trying to figure out how i started thinking about bono and ended up with mj…i also was thinking about how i’m not as happy today as i was yesterday…
then i came home, and got my stupid ass computer to work finally…and what is the first thing i did (besides check email)…go travel to read the u2 interference msg board LOL…and it made me so happy again!!! there is a thread that somehow went from looking for bootlegs of the hamilton show, to everyone talking about how they’re from upstate NY LOL….it was just kinda cool that these ppl are in the area, a bunch from rochester, some from buffalo and UB…i feel like i’m becoming part of the “u2 interference family”….why this is important to me, i’m really not sure LOL.
it’s kinda weird… cuz this obsession/whatever is really alot different than my MJ one in a lot of ways…the way it started, the progression…the fact that i have self control (sometimes) and that i’m currently not going to let myself become this full blown u2 collector….and it’s totally not making me feel the way that MJ did….i dont think that’s because this is any less of an obsession/whatever than mj was…i just think the time in my life that the whole mj stuff occured…it was like, during the whole i’m a teenager, need to find my idenity stuff…MJ really helped me define who I am, even if just to myself. and during alot of the whole MJ thing, i was really unhappy…it really didn’t make me happy until i started going on the internet, and found other people who were in the same place as i was….after that, it was great, mj made me happy etc….With this U2 stuff…i’m just giddy…none of the whole, finding who i am stuff has anything to do with why i’m so into them right now… i guess you might be able to interpret it in that way, since my entire life is about to change in the next 8 months. but i don’t think that’s it…i’m stoping this train of thought right now.
don’t worry adrienne, PCD will be averted when you get here this weekend if it has set in or is about to….and if for some reason it cant be averted, sit me in front of the tv and make me watch the ZooTV video 🙂 hope u did good on ur test
“all that you can’t leave behind” is one of the most uplifting records i have ever heard….i honestly think it’s the only cd i have that makes me happy…i have so many cds that i LOVE and could not live without, but they don’t make me so entirely happy to be listening to them… they act as a release of frustration, or relaxation, or are just brilliant etc…and this isn’t just a happy reaction due to the fact i love u2 so much at the moment…because i have 3 u2 cds in my stereo right now, and this is the only one that i sit here with a smile on my face, even tho it’s definitely not as good of a record as say…achtung baby….its just… uplifting!
in the words of carolyn – it’s “niagara falls-ing” outside right now