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it’s a nice sunny day out today. still sorta chilly, but suede coat weather instead of down filled coat. yay. adolescent psych was kinda funny because we got to be mean and list all the cliques that exist in high school. everyone was being so politically correct at first, and naming like the jocks, and the populars, and the smart kids…but then this girl was like um..band people, not band GEEKS but like band people. lol so there were lots of “people” instead of geeks. and then it got less PC, when we named the Sluts LOL. and the ethnics LOL. but then we had to work in groups, so i ended up talking to this girl who has been in a few of my classes who has the same big silver bracelet that i do. she always seemed cool, and she was nice. so that was cool. she bleaches her hair, so i might ask her how she does it LOL. depends if i end up sitting near her again, since some girl always takes my seat and i have to find somewhere else open. she doesn’t follow the classroom norm of no assigned seating but everyone still sits in the same seats every class. blah on her.

anyway. spent an hour in the computer lab doing my comp art project. had no clue what i was supposed to do. he said make a form. so um..wtf is that? the examples he had to show us were like chore charts…so that’s what i did. a chore chart. it’s stupid but whatever it’s done. and i printed out my calendar which turned out to be in way brighter colors than i thought. but whatever.

gotta go meet with dr schneider at 4. i emailed her about what a curriculum vitae was, since i didn’t know. she volunteered to help me make one. i guess it’s like an academic resume. the job at UofR says i can send one, but it doesn’t matter if i have one or not because they will help me make one if i get the job. but i figure if it’s something i can do now, might as well start.

and now i’m also going to apply for a job in colorado (boulder). it’s another kind of research assistant job. it’s a research lab director position for 2 years, same pay, same benefits. it’s doing cognitive neuropsych tho…which is less interesting to me (although the same sort of thing as the UofR one probably). not too sure what the cost of living in Boulder is compared to Rochester, to know if i’d be able to support myself on that pay rate in Colorado. Pretty sure I could in Rochester. And i probably wouldn’t get the Boulder one because i don’t meet all the “requirements”….they want experience with children and cognitive developement. which i don’t have. but i have the research experience and the management experience they ask for. so i figure it can’t hurt to apply there too once i get my resume and this vitae thing done.

i’m applying for this job and i want it SO BADLY! like, i’m shocked at how bad i want this job. it’s doing research in the sleep lab at University of Rochester for the next 2 years (or something). it’s 20-25k per year, full benefits. it’s 4 nights a week, overnight shifts, full time. so yeah sucks that it’s overnight shifts, but nothing i can’t handle. apparently they’re looking at sleep and depression WHICH COULDN’T BE ANYMORE INTERESTING TO ME! and i fit all the requirements/things they’d like in someone. you can take courses at the Uni for FREE after working there a year. yeah, this is so great. of course, even tho i’m a perfect canditate, it’s only 2 positions which will probably go to people graduating from U of R….but i can try. getting this job would be super great, and would settle my post college unemployment fears and at least give me some plans for the next few years.

i
love
trent.

trent interview on muchmusic tonight. they had some exclusive online clips on the website. yeah they’re a whole 30 seconds long. practically worthless. except that i love his voice LOL…but he’s bearded which takes away from the lips, so that was a bad thing. but it’s still all good. 🙂 carolyn is taping it for me. so i have to repay her.

the sucky thing about the interview is it’s a whopping 10 minutes long. heather taped a muchmusic trent interview for me a year or two ago which was also like a whole 10 minutes. so now i’ll have 2 tapes that have 10 min segments on them and nothing else. lol.

i almost passed out in the shower today. it was way too hot in here last night, of course got woken up at 7ish, shower was too hot. so blah. sat on the bathroom floor for like 5 minutes til i felt ok again. was going to skip poli sci, but i went anyway. next is comp art, dunno what we’re doing. but i’m so tired. then i have to meet for research at 3. blah stupid longass day. no time to eat or just sit here (well except now haha).

i just saw the most amusing commercial, perhaps ever…it’s a black guy and a hispanic looking guy rapping in an aisle of a store. they’re advertising Big Ds Hair Supply store on West Main in Rochester. It’s one of those budget homemade type commercials. they’re rapping about Big Ds being the place to be, and naming the different products the store sells, as products scroll across the bottom of the screen – wigs, human hair, etc etc etc. then it ends with hispanic guy rapping “Big Ds is the place to be.” and the black guy goes “word” ROFLMAO omg so hilarious.

so yesterday danielle and i went up to eric’s to hang out there for a while before the arrival of the tonawanda gang to go to the lacross game at blue cross arena. hit a few stores because they needed to buy some stuff, back to mary’s. then everyone arrived – joe, janet, john, john’s girlfriend, white boy, and this other kid who i’ve met 3 times but don’t know his name. plus me danielle, eric, mary, dan, karl and kellee. got pizza and chilled there. went to the game. it was fun. had no clue what was going on, and buffalo lost, but i guess they always lose to rochester. so then back to mary’s to party. it was a good time. it was fun being in a big group of (mostly) people i know. and i hadn’t hung out with joe for a while so it was cool.

then we had to drive home. we left at like quarter to 1. it was like 60 mph winds, and light snow. almost got blown off the road a few times. almost turned around and went back to eric’s to sleep there because i was afraid i wouldnt make it back to geneseo. but the wind got better and i was able to make it back. i guess joe and them (who left before us back to buffalo) had to pull over at one point. but dont know what happened after that. john and his girlfriend left when we did, followed us to the thruway, hope they made it ok. so now it snowed a bunch, and it’s still super windy. so it really sucks. i parked in the faculty lot cuz i wasn’t about to park a mile away in our parkinglot and walk home in the weather. but it’s still so shitty i’m not about to do that today either. so my car is going to stay in the faculty lot til the weather calms down, or until tomorrow morning. or i can leave it there and get a ticket…which normally i’d ditch on, but given my current probationary status i don’t think that’d be too good of an idea. dunno.

was going to go to wegmans to buy hair bleach and dye, but i really don’t want to go outside.

oh and our house is falling apart. there was a new ceiling leak last night according to bill. then danielle and i heard this loud metal banging type noise. i thought she broke something, she thought i did something in here. we don’t know what it was, because we can’t find anything broken. but now the walls in the kitchen have suddenly sorta…bowed? i don’t know what word to use. there is this weird kind of crack – it’s not really a crack, but i don’t know how else to explain it – about an inch and a half from the corner of 2 different walls. the corner of the wall now extrudes from the rest of the wall by a few millimeters. it wasn’t like that yesterday. so we don’t know what to do about that, if we should tell someone. they’re not going to fix it, but at least let them know our house is breaking. blah.

how is it that i can be reading for class and get real tired, put the book down and close my eyes for a few minutes and fall asleep for a good 20 minutes. and with music on (marilyn manson this time lol). but i can’t fall asleep at night, even if i read school work before bed. as soon as i turn out the lights, no matter how tired i’ve made myself by reading, it still takes me an hour or more to fall asleep. arg.

i always forget how much i enjoy the antichrist superstar album.

my dad got a new job. at the power plant. so no Vienna (like he’d get it anyway)…and now he only has to drive 20 min to work instead of an hour and 20. so that’s good.

and the sabres game… vs detroit. SOOOOOOO GREAT!!!!!!!! we were up 3-0 at the end of the first, on HASEK!!!!!! and now its 4-1 near the end of the 2nd. happyhappy

sabres ended up winning 5-1. almost 3 shutouts in a row for martin biron. and hasek got pulled before the 3rd period ROFL. he didn’t even sit on the bench after that. chicken. it was a great game tho. proves that buffalo can be a good team if we want to. frustrating to think we could have played this way the entire season, instead of the last 20 games while trying desperately to make it into the playoffs. we’re gonna work so hard to try to get into the playoffs that if we do, we’ll be too tired to get past 1st round just like 2 years ago. didnt make the playoffs til the last day of the regular season, then lost horribly in the 1st round vs philadelphia. but of course, we made up for that in 1st round vs philly last year 🙂

need to finish polisci readings. it’s about nuclear war, which is at least interesting. especially given the US overhaul of our nuclear policy. bush campaigned for reducing nuclear arsenals, but now wants to put more research into development of new nuclear weapons that can deeply penetrate the earth. sure things have changed since the election and now…but it’s a very scary thought, because i don’t think bush is completely rational. and even tho the claims are to use nuclear weapons to destroy enemy bio and chem weapon stockpiles etc, nuclear weapons are hugely damaging to the world. and while i’m not exactly a scientist, it doesn’t seem to me to be a really bright idea to nuke a chemical or biological weapon storage facility thus exposing the atmosphere to not only nuclear fallout and damage, but bio and chem as well from inside the weapons. the heat and radiation from the nuclear weapon might kill the biological whatevers that are in the bio weapons, but i would think the chemical ones wouldn’t be affected that much…but like i said, what do i know. i know that the nuclear side effects of nuclear weapons are pretty damn bad and that they shouldn’t be used.
there is this group called the Bulletin of Atomic Scientists, and for years they’ve kept the “doomsday clock”. it debuted to the world at 7 minutes to midnight. the premise is that when the clock reaches midnight, there will be nuclear war. they move the hands of the clock various directions every now and then in response to world events, and stuff like that. the closest was 2 minutes to midnight, in the 1949. it was 3 minutes a few times over the years, and it had been at 9 but they just moved it in feburary to 7 again. kinda scary. http://www.bullatomsci.org/

aaaaaaaah queen of the damned!!!!!! so great!!!!!!!!!!!! i was right…you can’t go wrong with vampires and rock music!!!!!! gah it was so great. so what if people who read the books and then saw the movie don’t like it. any movie that has a nipple ring in the first 5 minutes MUST be good 🙂 it was like a giant rock concert with vampires, and AHHH it was just SO FUCKING GREAT!!!! so hyper now!!! me and danielle had to go buy the soundtrack LOL.

spring concert… moxy fruvous and guster… WHO THE HELL ARE GUSTER?! fucking fuckers. last semester here and we have a shit concert AGAIN!

ok this is it. WHO THE HELL ARE FUCKING GUSTER?!?!?! because APPARENTLY they are well known enough to charge fucking 20,000-40,000$ FOR A SHOW?!?!?!? NO ONE KNOWS WHO THEY ARE. THEY DONT HAVE A NEW ALBUM. AND I HAVENT HEARD OF ANY OF THE SONGS ON THEIR OLD ALBUMS. SO WHO FUCKING THOUGHT THIS WOULD BE A GOOD IDEA?!?!?!?!

GOD I HATE ACTIVITIES COMMISSION!

i managed to not wear a coat to class today even tho it was snowing. haha go me. it wasn’t cold out i didn’t think. i have a fleese thing on, and i was perfectly fine (although snowed on). i hate wearing my coat to class cuz it’s so big, it’s hard to put it on the desk chair and stuff. so no coat today = good thing. mainly it’s not cold cuz it’s not windy at all. yay.

now this sorta oddly coincides with eric’s mtv rant from last night. last night danielle and i watched mtv cribs at ozzy’s new house while eating our nachos. they always play music in the background (if you didn’t know) and they were playing Sunna’s “I’m not trading”. we were like OMG THIS IS SUNNA! and so then in adolescent psych today we watched an episode of MTVs Flipped about bullies. the very beginning of the show they played Econoline Crush’s “Make it Right”…then later on they played Disturbed’s “down with the sickness” (even tho i hate them), and something else that was cool, and then APC’s “3 libras” i was like DUDE they use cool music in their shows, why don’t they ever fucking play the videos for any of these songs?!?! fucking retards. i need to get a job with them. end of story. they should let me host my own show. i could be a female carson. play cool vids for an hour, interview people, oh yeah. i’d rock.

also in adolescent psych today we were talking about peer status (popularity) and what the characteristics of popular people seem to be when people conduct research on them. just proves my point that the jocks and cheerleaders who are commonly associated with the popular crowd in all reality aren’t popular. and that people like me and my friends actually were. in terms of how many people actually like the people in various groups, i am right. because those in the “popular” crowd were only liked by the other people in that crowd. everyone else hated them. in the studies of this stuff researchers ask kids to list 3 or 5 people who are their friends, and then 3 or 5 people they dislike. on my list, all the dislikes would be “popular” kids. because they were assholes, and stupid. not to say that these “popular” kids would be then put into the rejected peer group, because they’d still get nominated as friends by the other “popular” people…they’d be considered controversial kids, because they are both liked and disliked. the characteristics that researchers find make up popular people i can’t find in any of the “popular” kids in my high school. the people who posessed these characteristics were my friends. and this all makes sense as to why Brooke was prom queen. because she was nice, and smart, and had all the characteritics of popular kids in the research. everyone liked Brooke because she was nice to everyone. so i consider her to be “the most popular girl in high school”. i can’t think of anyone who would say they hated her.

i know i’ve mentioned this before (at least i think so)…but i didn’t realize when i was in high school how many people knew who i was. because i wasn’t in the “popular” crowd, so i kinda just blended in. or so i thought. but then more and more i’m finding out that certain people knew who i was, or “looked up to me”…people i’d never seen before congratulated me on being in the top ten later on the night it was announced when they came trick or treating to my house. i was like woah, i don’t know you, but thanks. and then this girl who was dating julie’s brother a few years ago turned out that she knew me, and thought i was cool cuz i was smart (she was a year younger than me, and in the “popular” crowd)….so it’s just weird. i dunno. nevermind.

in comp art right now. finished my project 20 minutes ago. yet i still sit here doing nothing and being bored cuz i dunno if i’m allowed to leave. he keeps interrupting everyone working to show us stuff, so i feel as if i need to stay. but i’m SO BORED and have nothing to do and nothing else to work on. not my fault i was fast with my stupid page layout.

i need to update my resume…anyone wanna do it for me? wanna make up some creative language that makes me employable, since i’m not. i need some special skill that makes me highly employable for a high salary. lol. but no i’ll be working at mcds. come visit me.

blah, need to find something to do. dont care, i’m leaving at 12:30.

didn’t end up staying in class til 12:30. at quarter after i was like screw this i’m leaving. so i did. came back here had lunch watched old SNLs went back to class. INXS was on SNL today… so that was rad. the 2nd episode featured probably the best cast line up ever…dana carvey, mike meyers, chris farley, adam sandler, denis miller, phil hartman, chris rock etc etc etc. all the good 80s cast members. always figures that i can’t watch them when they’re good cast episodes, cuz of stupid class.

i actually talked in clinical psych today. and i didn’t die. i didn’t volunteer my thoughts however. he did like a class survey of a question, and since i raised my hand, he’s like ok tell us. but i didnt freak out, and i didnt choke on my own vocal cords, which is what i usually do. so that’s a plus. too bad i really didn’t have anything to say LOL.

just listened to the Planetary demos on planetarymusic.com…Planetary is Jose from Liquid Gang’s new band…yeah sounds just like Liquid Gang (well 2 out of 3 songs did)…and that’s not a bad thing, cuz LG was great. and Jose sounds drunk in all of them, cuz he slurs so badly. he did on the LG album too, but the 2nd song on the page, I forget the name of it, it’s SO badly slurred, it’s like listening to Ozzy talk LOL…

and speaking of Ozzy all day yesterday i remembered to watch the Osbournes show on MTV…even at 10 i remembered. It wasn’t on til 1030, so of course i didn’t remember til quarter to 11. so i only saw not even 10 minutes of it. but it was still funny. they swear at eachother all the time. lol the little girl is telling ozzy to fuck off, and he’s saying it right back, and sharon osbourne just sits there until the girl and the boy start physically fighting, then she steps in. haha so great. so will have to try to remember to watch again next week. yeah that won’t happen.

i dreamed about gatorade last night besides dreaming about trent and julie. i’m not really sure about the gatorade dream either. i think i bought some cuz i was really thirsty, but then i couldn’t find where my mom put it. i dunno.

i hate our laundry facilities. ok not HATE but dislike. first of all, the fact that we have separate laundry facilities, and not a washer and dryer in our own house annoys me. it annoys me even more because the washers and dryers are above one another, not side by side, which means they would fit in any one of our 3 storage rooms. the washer is so small you have to do 500 loads, but then the dryer is huge so you can dry all 500 loads in one dryer. how does that make sense?

secondly. the washers are front loading washers, not top loading washers. well my first 2 loads i did completely wrong, because i’ve never used a front load washer before. how was i supposed to know you’re supposed to put the detergent in this little pull out tray on the side. the pull out tray looked like the lint trap for the dryer. so first 2 loads i put the detergent right into the washers. i don’t really think this was a problem, but how should i know. my 3rd load i did the correct way. there is also a sign on the washer that says “to avoid over sudsing use only 1/4th cup of detergent not a full cup”….well that’s spectacular except for the fact that if you get one of those huge industrial size detergents you have a bigger cup than if you get what i have, one of the tiny little bottles of detergent. so exactly how much am i supposed to use. i don’t think i used enough since there were NO suds at all. then later this kid came in and put in 4 loads, TOTALLY oversudsed all 4 loads. the entire washer was full of suds. i was like, yeah, no way are all those suds gonna rinse out of your clothes in 1 rinse cycle.

so besides all that, the fact that there is only 7 washers and dryers really is a problem. i went at 1pm on a tuesday to do laundry…lucky for me i was able to snag 2 washers, so i only had to sit there for 3 hours instead of six. there’s approximately 180 people in the townhouses…and 7 washers?!?!?!? i was under the impression that at least half of the common building would be for laundry, but instead we get a tiny little room that has 7 machines in it. it’s absurd.

the only good thing really, is that it’s free. but all of campus laundry is free this year 😛

but anyway. i was hoping a certain other townhouse resident would happen to come in and do laundry. i had this whole plan to ask her what she is doing after graduation since she was supposed to go to medschool, and to tell her i was moving to Austria. just to see what her reaction would be. and speaking of the Austria situation, my dad said the company confirmed that they got his resume, so even though him getting the job is a long shot, it’s still a possibility. he at least really submitted the resume (i didn’t actually think he would) so all my religious friends should pray my dad gets it so that i can spend 3 years bumming around europe getting cultured (and avoiding having to really enter the “real world” in may for another 3 years without going to grad school haha).

i also realized that i spent all this time the other day, sunday and monday reading the WRONG political science chapter. great so i read the correct one while doing laundry, and now have to read the part i’m supposed to read for this week later. BLAH. it’s kinda funny, because my textbook is from 2001 yet it’s outdated. i read a part on terrorism and how the US has pretty much been devoid of terrorist activities on home soil…that usually attacks against the US were on foreign soil…and yeah, how wrong is that LOL. that whole chapter needs to be rewritten.

a few people have been talking to me recently about interesting/favourite/weird words…so while doing laundry i thought of a few. first of all, more words need to use latter alphabet letters like V and Z…end of story. that’s why russian (at least russian translated into english) is so cool…lots of Vs and Zs…and since I think that Nikita Khrushchev is the coolest name ever i figured i should learn to spell it correctly. so there you go hah. and Vladimir is also an extremely radass name, but doesn’t really fit unless you’re actually some sort of slavic. i can’t remember any of the cool words i had thought of, other than “ultra”…i adore that word, i don’t use it enough in everyday lanuage. and “pseudo”….love that. i use that more than “ultra”…pseudo reminds me of Phil Collins “Sususudio” rofl @ all the phil collins references lately hahaha.

orgy anniversary day 2. adr, danielle and i took a quite lengthy excursion to the rochester weekend thanks to the COMPLETELY WRONG DIRECTIONS eric gave us! I really think he enjoys getting us lost. because he gave me directions to house of guitars WHICH I FOLLOWED EXACTLY….where did we end up? no mans land. because eric told us to take 104 east when you were supposed to take 104 WEST!!!!!! so 104 turns into a highway with stop lights, in the middle of fucking no where. me and danielle were like uh, this is so not familiar… so we turned around figuring we missed the Hudson street exit. And then since the directions from HOG to Greece mall were to take 104 west, we figured we’d eventually get to the mall instead. So we are back on 104 WEST and what do we find?! HUDSON STREET EXIT!!!!!!!!!!!! SOOOOOOO we take that…but once again incorrect directions. he told us to turn right, we turned right, went on that street…it wasn’t hudson street…it was carter street…and carter street didn’t run into hudson. we ended up in a residential neighborhood. so we turned around, figuring we should have turned left off the exit instead of right. so we turn around…where do we end up this time? THE FUCKING GHETTO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Total complete ghetto. we stop at a gas station to ask where the hell hudson and or titus ave was, the gas station attendant was behind bullet proof glass. yeah. great. so he tells us to go down this one street, turn on this other street and we’ll get to hudson. this other woman said to go back on the street we were just on and u run into hudson. well we followed the guys instructions (i couldn’t really understand him, very foreign) and we finally got to hudson street. got to titus ave, and didn’t realize we were coming from a different direction than normal, so ended up with HOG on the right instead of the left like every other time i’ve gone there. so it came upon us quite quickly.

so after an hour of driving we got to the HOG. danielle and i are cornering the market on Rough Cutt shirts cuz we found another one like the one she got last year before the orgy weekend! So i got that…so then we went back on 104 WEST to go to the mall, which we found. tried on my hot topic skirt…well not the one i wanted, cuz they didn’t have it, but they had the same style in red plaid. so i still sorta want the skirt unfortunately. it’s SUPER short tho so it’ll be weird to wear if i actually buy it on hottopic.com. so i dunno. but then i bought a Project Mayhem pin there, and then at the slut store (which had a serious lacking of slutty clothes this time) they had pleather pants for 10$!! so i bought some. LOL. when i’ll wear them i dunno, cuz vegas and new orleans will be way too hot for me to be prancing around in pleather pants.

but anyway. got 6000 miles on my car now, thanks to all the EXTRA DRIVING we did today because eric seemed to forget steps in our directions. if we would have gotten shot in the ghetto i bet he’d feel real bad

🙂