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bowie is headlining moby’s summer tour thing. it came to the docks last year (at least i’m pretty sure it was the docks) so hopefully it’ll come around this year… cuz it’s bowie! don’t care that i counted today and only know/like 7 of his songs (should i name them? let’s….space oddity, fame, let’s dance, china girl, modern love, ashes to ashes, under pressure, i’m afraid of americans…oh that’s 8. haha)

right, and bowie is my new swear word. so don’t be surprised 🙂

 

psychology day.

– mingled with the proffs. spent quality time with dr kallio and um…kelly beach (she’s not a dr)…talked to her about the insanely hard test on tuesday. she’s dropping 2 qs, so i’m like i don’t think that’s going to help me. and i told her that it’s my 4th developmental course, and it’s all review, but i didn’t know anything etc. she’s like i feel really bad cuz everyone’s telling me it’s so hard etc. so talked to her for a while about her baby, and class, and going to the new orleans conference. dr kallio is going too, presenting research he had his research methods class conduct. haha good way to go!

– i told myself that i wouldn’t talk to the UofR kid James (cuz he was there) cuz i didn’t want to know if i was still in the running for the sleep lab job, or if it was filled. i just would rather not know. well of course, i talked to him. blah. i’m one of the 3 “finalists” in consideration for the 2 positions. he said everyone was really impressed with my research experience and my ability to talk about it. he said the thing that was working against me is that the other 2 candidates had experience working nights and/or were very confident about their abilities to handle working nights. he asked me if i was still interested in the job, and so i lied and said yes but that i was looking at some other offers, and that my parents might be moving so if they do, that i don’t really want to stick around here. he told me to be persistent if i really want it, etc. blah. i don’t really want to know this. because i don’t want to be offered the job and then turn it down, since i don’t want it. i just would feel bad. i told dr kallio this cuz he’s like “oh so i saw you talking to james” (i had talked to dr kallio earlier about the job, since he wrote me a letter of recommendation). dr kallio told me not to feel bad about turning it down, that’s how the job market is. and he told me some of the stuff that james talked about regarding the job at the info sessions (which i didn’t go to cuz i feel like i’m dying), but i already knew most of it (like being able to take classes, getting publication credits, etc). so i dunno. blah. i mean, half of me feels good that they realized i’m capable of doing the job (well a monkey could actually do this job), etc. but i really don’t want it. dr kallio agreed that it’s not the greatest thing in the world, especially for the pay. so maybe i’ll talk to my other proffs and see what they have to say about it. blah

 

every time i hear APC’s version of “vacant” i get super excited about what the song might sound like if the Tapeworm Project would ever get done. and now with the new picture on nin.com of maynard, danny lohner, trent and that other guy…looks like some work is being done on it. let’s hope.

and on a completely different note. why the hell is billy idol playing in south dakota, but not buffalo/rochester/toronto?!?

i really need to invest in more depeche mode. maybe this weekend i’ll do some cd shopping. (or i could go buy songs of faith and devotion from half.com for 3.50 hehe)

over the years i’ve gotten into the habit of naming appliances. my car’s named Tom. danielle’s TV that we had in our room the last 3 years is named Bob. freshman year when my computer was being a bitch and needed all of its guts replaced i tried to name it. i intially named it trent (this is pre-nin fan era) but then didn’t like yelling at trent. so i unnamed it and never thought of one…. until monday when i was trying to study. i’ve named my computer Khruschev. 🙂

 

i need something to inject into my head to make it feel better. or a new brain. whichever. and i think i’ve overdosed on sweettarts, because they’re actually becoming slightly repulsive. i got chicks, ducks and bunnies from the easter bunny, and of course the green ones are apple now. so that means there is only 1 kind in the bag that i like. the red ones, which are edible in small doses (like the hearts) are really disgusting as big chicks, ducks or bunnies. and the whole bag is practically red. very disappointed.

 

 

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old snl with wayne gretzky lol. wait did i spell that right?…i don’t think i did. anyway. wasn’t a spectacular episode really, but Wayne’s World was pretty funny. Fine Young Cannibals played. i have a bone to pick with the people who edit these old SNL’s to fill an hour on comedy central. when it’s good musical guests they only show 1 performance, when it’s good Dennis Miller hosted Weekend Updates they never show it. take today’s…FYC played twice, no weekend update. DENNIS MILLER IS HILARIOUS! SHOW THE DAMNED WEEKEND UPDATES! and the episode that was before this, Geena Davis and John Mellencamp. 2 performances, no weekend update. arg. irritates me.

anyway. i forgot to mention earlier that i almost died this morning. choked while trying to swallow my medicine. so it got all stuck in my throat, made me choke more. then it didn’t swallow it just got stuck. finally i was able to swallow it. but then my throat was all wacky for like an hour.

wow so tired, maybe i’ll take a nap.

 

well that sucked. really bad. hardest exam taken in 4 years at geneseo. AND IT’S IN FREAKING ADOLESCENT DEVELOPMENT!!!! whatever. probably got close to 15 wrong. 1 point each. i should get in the lower 80s then. there goes my 4.0. the entire test was taken from the book. none of the note specific things like stereotype threat, and the pygmalion effect were on the test. not even as essays. basically i would have had to memorize the text to do good on the test. whatever.

i wore sandals today!!!!!! but of course it started to pour when i was walking home. no coat, no umbrella, sandals.. yeah of course. but today feels like one of those days in the summer, when it had been really hot for a while, but finally a cold front came in so that the temperature dropped from the 80s to the 60s, and it’s kinda cloudy and drizzly. of course, today is the other way around..it’s been cold, and now it’s warm. but dunno why, it just felt like mid summer cold front to me today when i left the house. i like days like today. today would be probably my highest temperature possible if i was controlling the weather. but sunny might be good.

so now i don’t really have to do anything the rest of the week. my clinical paper is due in 2 weeks, and i could read the chapter i have to write on, but don’t really feel like it. now i don’t know if i’m going to do the chapter on forensic psych, because if i’m really serious about doing something in schools so that i get the summers off, i should probably do the chapter on school psych – since i really don’t know anything about school psych except that u do alot of testing (IQ, personality etc). but whatever.

i hope the rain isn’t coming in my window.

 

 

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totally did not want to go to class today. was going to skip but didn’t, of course. and computer art is such a joke. i mean, nothing EVER works. ever. it’s funny to the point of absurdity. last wed he was going to show us how to burn a cd. but the computer didn’t have the right program, when he installed it, it didn’t work, etc etc etc. this time, we’re doing more text stuff in illustrator (which is the only thing the program is good for) and he doesn’t know what he’s doing in regards to linking text boxes. so we sat there for like 10 min while he tried to figure it out. then we were supposed to steal these files from him, but as students we didn’t have access to the folder so he leaves to call CIT for them to fix it, for like 10 minutes. never got it fixed. then we are going to burn a cd, but the computer can’t access the server to get anyones files to burn…ended up burning the same cd he burned earlier in the morning. that was the only stuff on the comp to use. and then i think my proff is completely mental, because he starts talking about how next time we’re going to start using a new program. so i’m sitting there thinking, that’s odd, i thought we already were shown the 3 programs we use in this class. he’s like, we’re going to use quark xpress to make your cd covers and i wont get into the program now but you can do this and this and this in it. um…we did 3 projects on quark xpress before spring break!! we know how to use it already….so totally dunno what he’s talking about. whatever.

didn’t want to go to clinical either but went. pointless. again. got our tests back tho. as expected 30/30 on the short answers.

test tomorrow in adolescent. it’s onlike 5 chapters or something. it’s gonna suck. oh well. i realize i waited so long for my trent tape from carolyn to arrive, and was freaking out that it took like 2 weeks, but now that i have it i still haven’t watched it. lol can’t watch it today, it’ll be too much of a distraction. must study now.

 

i am amused by the stupidest things. kurt asked me if i was familiar with Chris Vrenna. of course i am. then i thought he was going to say Tweaker was playing at fredonia or something. and then i’d have to go, even tho i hate Chris Vrenna, and don’t know Tweaker…just cuz he knows Trent. and yeah, that whole degrees of separation thing. And then i could have met Chris, and made out with him, and technically i could say i made out with Trent… since they say you are kissing every person your partner ever kissed before. LOL

yeah studying….not going very well AT ALL. and i’m all thrown off since its 7 and still light out. it’s like i have another 8 hrs to study, when i really only have 5. this blows.

 

studying – so not good. 2.5 chapters left, 2 hrs til i’d like to go to bed. not happening. and i’ve done such a bad job with the rest. what sucks about developmental courses is that they seem to make perfect sense. so it’s like, i don’t need to study this, it’s common sense. but then you get to the test and it’s like um…yeah don’t know this. HOW CAN I GET AN A IN NEUROPSYCH YET DO “BAD” IN DEVELOPMENTAL COURSES!?!?!?!…ok i did good in developmental psychopathology (A), and social and personality development (A-)….i did “bad” in child development (B)…I’ll probably get b+/a- in adolescent. AND ADOLESCENT IS JUST ALL THE SHIT WE TALKED ABOUT LAST SEMESTER IN SOCIAL AND PERSONALITY DEVELOPMENT BUT IN LESS DETAIL!!!! SO HOW CAN I BE DOING “BAD” IN THERE?! blah.

 

 

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my jaw is going to fall off. with some of my teeth. something is severely wrong. hurts so bad. i thought maybe my filling fell out, but nope. my teeth just hurt, and now add my jaw to it. it’s like, dislocated or something. blah.

went to rit last night for 2 hrs. got pizza, watched tv, no big whoop. tired. stupid lost hour.

wow something must be wrong with my email, cuz i haven’t gotten any in like, an entire day. and i get at least stupid mailing list stuff every morning.

this was a complete waste of a post….there’s a tv dilemma tonight. sabres game starts at 6, but fear is on at 8. considering sabres aren’t going to make the playoffs, i guess i don’t need to watch the whole game…and cannot miss fear! oh lookit that, i got email hahaha.

 

carolyn would grow a mullet if i see american beauty or girl interrupted without her hehehe….*inside joke*

i think i have a sinus infection. that’s what’s making my face hurt. well according to webmd.com it makes sense. if i went to the health center they’d probably say i’m pregnant *inside geneseo joke*. the “good news” is…the doctor i always saw at the health center died. yeah i realize that’s not good news. but this is the guy who told me my throat hurt because i was sniffling too much, when i really had mono. he never believed me when i said things were wrong. like when my arms were going numb, and by the evening it felt like i was having a heart attack and dying last year. he was like, well nothing is wrong with you. turned out to be a side effect from medicine i was put on. would have been nice of him to know that kind of information. so at least now if this gets worse and i go to see them, i’ll get some other doctor. i hope i get the nice lady who i had once. i saw her after the NIN show when i thought i broke my spleen (cuz i had mono at the time)…she actually told me where my spleen was (which i sorta knew) and how i’d know if things were wrong etc. the bitchy lady who told me i had mono was just like, you have mono, don’t get hit in the stomach. and she told me to come in every week for a checkup on my spleen. when i went in the next week, she was like why are you here?! i’m like DUH CUZ YOU TOLD ME TO COME IN AND CHECK MY SPLEEN.

blah teeth/jaw/face really hurt. i should go do some work now before hockey/fear

 

 

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March 30, 2002

i was at the grocery store, shopping or whatever. i left the grocery store and there were lazers shining all over the place. it was part of the new homeland security system. there were blue lazers making square patterns on the ground, almost outlining every parking space. then there were other red lazers pointing to various other locations. it was the first test of the homeland security system, so no one had experienced it before and it was quite a shock to leave the store and have hundreds of lazers shining at you. at first i didn’t know what it was so i asked someone and they said it was like a surveilance system. the government could monitor where every single person was and what they were doing when the system was turned on. it wasn’t on all the time, just when the country was on high alert for terrorist attacks. the lazers just monitored where you were when you crossed them. i was really amazed that this system had been present and working the entire time i was alive but no one knew about it until now. then it turns out that it wasn’t just a surveilance system. if you were doing anything wrong a lazer could be pointed at you and you could be zapped and killed by it. i was really pretty outraged at this, because even if it was just a surveilance system it was a violation of our constitutional rights as US citizens.
i went to my dad’s new job at the power plant with him, my mom and my aunt. i guess we were going for a tour. we got there, and it was near the ocean. we got into an elevator which went up a few floors. then it had rockets that shot it out of the building and over the ocean to an offshore building. it just flew over there, and then would land and burst through a pair of doors, and then travel on a railroad type track. then it was like an amusement park ride, and the driver of the elevator was making it go upside down over and over again. so we were all trying to hold on to something, so we wouldn’t fall around. then maynard from tool was there, and he was getting sick from going upside down. so eric, who now was there, took him and made him lay down on a few of the seats in the elevator (which now had seats) until he felt better.

i was walking around explaining to someone how the CN tower isn’t really the tallest building, that there’s all kinds of different ways to measure structures and stuff.

i had all of the orgy boy’s screen names. we were at a party and I was IMming Jay and talking to him. I think i was supposed to be amir. then jay started getting all self pitying, about how he was lonely, and no one liked him. so i was like, cut the crap i’m really sick of you talking about how much you suck all the time.
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March 28, 2002

yesterday: i was driving around in my car and there was a hole in my tire. so i guess i stopped driving around, and looked at the tire. i could feel the air wooshing out of the tire. so then it went totally flat and i had to change the tire. i didn’t know if i should call AAA or my Chevy roadside assistance. i figured since i paid for AAA i should use them. so i got a phone book to look up their number but i couldn’t find it. i couldn’t find it no matter what i looked under. so i decided to call Chevy. So i was trying to remember that number, but couldn’t (even tho it’s on the car).
today: i won a grammy. half the time i was at the grammys, which were in a big gym with folding chairs, and half the time i was in my room in blake watching it on tv. and while i was watching tv i was switching between the grammys and a sabres game. so they were giving away the first award, and i won it. so i went up and i was like “wow i didn’t even know i was nominated. i didn’t even know i had an album”. so then i was really excited that i could tell everyone that i won a grammy. it didn’t look like a grammy. it looked like a weird oscar. it had little wings, sorta looked like something egyptian. so i was showing people my grammy and i wouldn’t let go of it. then i was looking at it and realized it was someone elses name on it, and they had somehow given it to me instead. and the sabres won.
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March 19, 2002

from trent to justin…
i was with a bunch of people and i don’t know what we were doing but we ended up in a fashion bug in a plaza. we went into the wrong door, and the section of the store we were in was the maternity section. but we didn’t realize it. they had THE ugliest clothes, and all maternity, i was like who the hell wears this?! then i realized we were in the wrong part of the store and went over to the good part. they had racks and racks of clothes up to the ceiling. you had to use stairs to look at the top shelves. so i was looking at a top rack of jackets, but i was like no, no more jackets. so i got down. then someone said hi to a girl who had walked in, and it was britney spears. so i was all glaring at her. then she left. then nsync was there, i guess they had come with me and the other ppl i was with. so i got down off the stairs and justin was sitting on this bench/shelf thing, really bored. and i thought he was used to shopping and all that. then i don’t know why, but i went over to him and we just hugged eachother for a really long time as everyone else shopped.

i also dreamed the sabres traded varada.

and something about politicians…specifically bob dole and al gore. it was some kind of debate, or presentation where a bunch of politicans were making speeches about a certain topic. someone had insulted al gore, and he replied something that was completely insulting to bob dole, but also so entirely hilarious that everyone was cracking up laughing. but i can’t remember what was said.

notes: don’t want to be hugging justin. let’s get trent back in there.
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March 18, 2002

i was with some friends in some room. it was me, eric, danielle, mary, a few others, and trent reznor. we were all sitting in an informal circle, and throwing a ball around to eachother. i guess we were playing a game, you had to catch the ball, but ppl were dropping it all the time. then there was a rule you could drop it 14 times, and then you were out. the whole time i kept trying to do stuff that would make trent pay attention to me, or get closer to him. he wasn’t ignoring me, but wasn’t really paying attention either. it was really hot in there, so i went and layed on the floor by the open back door. it was right near the chair he was sitting in. then danielle was showing everyone some bio project she did. trent was flipping through the pages, so i went over to him and looked at it with him. it was about some bacterial parasite kind of thing. and then he was touching me, and i was like what’s going on. and he had this smirk on his face. i guess he was pretending he was putting the bacteria on me. so then we sorta started fake fighting, but it was all flirty. then we were in the mall and he was chasing me. we weren’t running, but i was ahead of him and kept looking back at him, and he was all smiling. i kept thinking it was like the video with david bowie, when trent was chasing him. so then he caught up to me, and said something about how he was really into me, even tho it didn’t seem like it, and that we should get married.
somewhere else in this dream we were all talking about poetry, and some people were reading theirs. i wanted trent to read some of his but he didnt. and then he said something about how his poetry isn’t like everyone elses.

notes: woo hoo!! marrying trent!!
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March 5, 2002

1. i was at patrick swazye’s house, and it was like MTV cribs, but not on tv. and it wasn’t being filmed. but he was taking me danielle and adrienne (i think) around his house. the whole back yard was filled with this massive water system of pools, lagoons, waterfalls etc. he was telling us about some game people play in one of the pools, called night diving. we were going to play but it was too cold. he kept talking about how disappointed he was that we couldn’t play night diving. i never heard why he said we couldn’t so i asked, and he said cuz it was too cold. then we went to this other pool that had archways held up by greek columns at the end of it. there were steps into the pool, so we all sat there and put our feet in, and it was very very cold. then he left to do something, and when he came back he was dave navarro not patrick swayze. dave jumped in the pool despite the coldness, and we all followed. then eric and mary were there, but they were totally in disguise, looked nothing like themselves. then we were in a basement, listening to music and just hanging out. i think dave kissed mary on the cheek, or hugged her or something, and she was freaking out cuz she loves him etc. then he put in a country song, and me and eric were like wtf is this shit?! and apparently it was supposed to be that super popular patriotic country song that i’ve never actually heard, and apparently the cd dave put in was mine. i was like, no way do i own this crap.
2. i was walking by some field and when i looked up to the sky there were 3 or 4 stealth bombers flying around. it was in america, so i thought they were just doing practice maneuvers or something. so i was watching them fly around thinking about how super scary looking they are, so futuristic, and how if i was in a country really under attack i’d be scared shitless to see them flying around. then they started dropping bombs. i figured i was just walking by a practice area, and they were testing bombs. i dont know if it was practice or not, but then the other side of the road where i was, there was a shopping plaza. there were all kinds of people around. there was also a power station (like electricity power station). well the bombs turned into nuclear bombs (i think) and there were all kinds of fires. then the power station started exploding and shorting out, and started on fire. well me and the people who were around realized it was on fire, and that it was going to cause a huge explosion. so we all started fleeing in the opposite direction looking for a place to hide and be safe. we kept running and running and because we were apparently on a military base there were all kinds of chain link fences we had to run through, it was like a maze. we tried to hide behind big structures that were around, but then realized we weren’t safe so we kept running. i found a hole in one of the fences so i went through and some people followed me. then we ran to this building that apparently was a church. so we hid in the foundation of this building, in the catacombs. it had a dirt floor, and looked like trenches had been dug into it. so we hid there, but then didn’t know if it was safe to leave again. dont remember much else, except people who lived up stairs of the catacombs came down and found us, and told us we were in catacombs (because we had no idea where we were), and i think there was a tv in one of the other rooms so we could find out what was going on up above.

notes: another dream about airplanes where they didn’t crash. the whole dream was terrifying. not a night mare but i was super scared throughout the entire dream.
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March 4, 2002

a few dreams:
1. i was going to graduation. apparently it was high school graduation, and it was at the high school. it was only all high school people there, but it was a voluntary ceremony. and this was just a practice run through. we passed jordan and he wasn’t dressed up so we figured he must not be going. so my parents are driving down nash road and my dad asked me where we were supposed to go to do this. i said i had no clue, just look for where all the cars are. so we get to the school and go inside. there is a reception room that we go into, and it’s a book sale. while we’re waiting for the ceremony to start and for us to go out on the back lawn we were looking at books. some lady wanted me to help her find a book, but she didn’t know what it was called or what it was about. the books there were all childrens books. then she saw it on a shelf, it was a series of 3 dr seuss books. so she thanked me for helping her, and i was like, ok but i didn’t do anything.
2. my alarm went off and i got up and turned the tv on. i started changing out of my pajamas when i realized my window shade was wide open. i figured that it was too early in the morning, because it was pitch black out, for anyone to be outside watching me change. then trl was on the tv, and the guest on the show was Apolo. he cut his hair off. so he comes out on the show and carson starts talking to him. then there was a commercial. well i was freaking out because i wanted to watch Apolo on tv, but i had to wash up and get dressed for school. so i ran to the bathroom to wash my face quickly so i wouldn’t miss apolo. well something was wrong with the water, like it was congealing before i could raise my hands to my face, and it was so heavy. it was taking me forever. then i looked in the mirror and i was ed norton. i went back in my room and trl was back on, and carson asked apolo if it was true he’s never had a girlfriend. so apolo was laughing and sort of embarassed, and all the girls in the audience were all screaming for him.
notes: no idea. i remember some flashes from other dreams too…like seeing the sister of an old friend in a store, but i ignored her.
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March 2, 2002

this one was from february. i was hiking in watkins glen with my mom. i had gotten into a fight with my boyfriend – brad pitt. so we were hiking in the glen, and something happened… an earthquake or something because the glen was falling apart. we were trying to get out before the whole thing collapsed. we were going down the stairs, but they turned into just like a mountain slope. it was a pile of rocks we had to almost rock climb down. i was thinking, this isn’t normal, ive been to the glen a thousand times, and it was never like this before. so me and my mom got out of the glen, and we looked back in and some of the caves were collapsing, and there was a group of people stuck on this bridge that was cracking and going to fall apart. so then brad showed up because he was scared i was still trapped inside, and he was sorry about the fight and didn’t want me to die. so he found me, and we went back in the glen to save all the people who were still in there. then this water started rushing down the glen, so we’re running with all the people trying to get out. we get out just as the water floods the whole glen and everything collapses. then we were on tv being interviewed about saving everyone.
from last night
i was watching a parade, and i was i front of the crowd watching it. a float came by and U2 was on it. bono was playing bag pipes. the others were standing there holding bag pipes but not playing them. then the parade stopped to wait for something, so the float was right in front of me. i was super close to it, i could lean on it. so i was like yeah u2 is right in front of me! so bono was sitting there writing in a notebook, and he kept looking up at me, but it was like he was really shy or embarassed. then adam was next to bono and he started talking to me. he kept talking and talking (i dunno about what), and bono would laugh, and look at me. then i started wondering why the parade wasn’t moving yet. but then bono asked me for my email address. so i got onto the float, which turned into something more like a tour bus. so he gave me the notebook so i could write in it, and he had Sara PhD on the notebook and then space for my email. I guess i had a phd in something he was interested in (not psych) and wanted to talk to me more. so i wrote down my email address, but it was really illegable. so i was like ok i gotta write it again because you’ll never be able to read it. so adam was laughing at me i guess because i had bad handwriting. so i wrote my email address down again, even tho i couldn’t remember what it was, and gave it back to bono. then bono called edge and larry over to talk to me.

notes: i had another brad pitt dream that he was my boyfriend the day before the one i remembered. and both were nights before exams, so here’s hoping that’s not a trend or i’ll wanna have exams more often lol.

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one more day til back to school. gotta read my articles before this afternoon starts. joe’s supposed to call and let me know what’s going on today when he gets out of work.

went out with eric last night. lol we have such exciting lives. we went to target, walmart, drove around a lil bit, then to denny’s for a while, then to the 24 hr walmart which is not actually 24 hours anymore 🙁 now what are we gonna do?!?!?!? i guess that means 24 Tops is the only thing left….

finished interview last night when i got home. the ending was entirely different from the movie. and the book made alot more sense with the whole death of claudia thing. in the movie i was really confused about what the hell was going on. but the book it’s a bit different, and it makes more sense. so it’s all good.

oh and i don’t like the fact that there are actually movies i want to see now. i want to see panic room, and so i guess me and danielle are gonna go see that when we get back to school sometime. then at the movie yesterday we saw a preview for “murder by number” that is way better than the tv commercial. AND tommy gnosis is in it!!! soooo have to see that now. i don’t like spending money on movies! too expensive!!

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yay for digital cable. boo for the fact that everytime i turn on mtv2 it’s hiphop and r&b hour. and we are currently getting all the premium movie channels we’re not supposed to get. i was flipping through the channels last night, and i’m like what the hell channel is this? it was like American West or something…and then i don’t get how it’s like blahblahblahWEST and blahblahblahEAST channel…like um? wtf does that mean….and of course flipping through the channels at 11:30pm isn’t a good idea, cuz then u get porn. i didn’t believe danielle about how bad it was, but yeah…porn. and we dont even get that playboy channel lol. legends of the fall was on and i was gonna stay up and watch it, since i’ve been reading interview, and all i can think about is long hair brad pitt…but i just went to bed. that movie is way long.

so i should get dressed and read my articles for my paper before joe calls after work. that gives me…um…3 hrs to read my articles (yeah that’s gonna happen, i also have to finish Interview before i go back to school, and of course that’s way more important hehe)

 

o.m.g….Death To Smoochy…. so completely insane and SO COMPLETELY GREAT!!! omg it was so hilarious. the commericals do it no justice…and all the scenes from the movie in the commercials come in like the first 20 minutes of the movie. omg Robin Williams is insane, and so goddamn funny…and ed norton… god i love him. the best line of the whole movie is near the end, robin williams. SO FUNNY. i won’t say what it was, cuz i don’t wanna ruin it for carolyn. but this movie is so great. will need to own on dvd. it’s completely nuts. i’d see it again. definitely. oh and carolyn…Smoochy is a nazi lol.

then watched most of forrest gump on cinemax 2 when i got home. i forgot what a great movie that was. omg i’m freezing.

but anyway. i was watching mtv before and there was a news thing on the whole R Kelly sex scandal thing…and ppl are like, he still makes good music, so regardless of what he’s done, i’ll still buy his records etc etc… and i’m sorry, but how is having sex with a 13 year old girl any different then MJ being accused of child molesting… cuz R Kelly having sex with minors IS STILL CHILD MOLESTING. it’s the exact same thing. but of course no one is treating R Kelly like how everyone treated MJ….everyone’s saying “oooh R Kelly…innocent until proven guilty” WHEN THEY HAVE HIM FUCKING HER ON A VIDEO TAPE (cuz that was a brilliant move on his part)….but MJ… he’s guilty forever more, even tho there is so much evidence that the whole thing was a scam. forget. not talking about this. it just pisses me off.

eric will be home tonight, so prolly end up doing something later. i need to do my homework. not gonna get done, cuz spending most of the day tomorrow at joe’s watching the sabres game and hanging out, and going midnight bowling. i guess i’ll do it sunday hehe.

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yay for people giving me gifts. first off, david is wonderful. he’s giving danielle the extra apolo pics from rolling stone for me. she was like, sara gets RS, and david is like yeah i KNOW but the pics are back to back so she’ll need an extra copy… LOL isn’t that nice? and then he got a Homie for me (which i ended up getting the same one at tops last night). and then adr taped my favourite 90210 episode for me…yay.

now if i could only get carolyn’s trent tape…it’s only been 3 weeks now. i guess they’re not sorting mail over break so it might be sitting in the mail room.

so last night was interesting. randomly invited kurt up to meet at denny’s. he came up with his friend joe (too many joe’s out there), and i met them there with danielle and adr. it was cool. sat there for like 3 hours taking, and had food of course. good times.

of course the night i actually stay out, and don’t get home til 1:30 i gotta get up early to buy tea party tickets. so i did that. not sure what tix i got… i got 3 for me danielle and adr, that were like orchestra section 1 row h…and then i got 6 for joe (different joe, joe from tonawanda) and his friends that were like orchestra section 2 row c or something…so hopefully they are good tix, so joe won’t murder me.

tonight is sabres game at some bar with joe and jon, and adrienne and danielle if she decides to go. and tomorrow totally going to see Smoochy. making adr go with me haha. she said it looks stupid and i’m like it looks great!

and i started my new medicine, and i’m not sure if it was supposed to work right away, but my head didn’t hurt at all yesterday til we were at denny’s at like midnight, when it probably had worn off….so we’ll see how it goes today. i’m not dead so that’s good 🙂

 

i’m sorry. i apologize in advance for this post.

trennnntttt!!!! omg i watched the “becoming” still video just now for the first time in a while, downloading it to see if i can convert it…oomggg…. that’s me right now. huge smile on my face. it’s involuntary. i just sat here watching and then realized i was grinning. and i realized when exactly that it was i smiled…this one part during the song, and just..was so great. it’s the lips. lol.

and also wanted to say before, reading Interview with the vampire makes me really want to start writing my long dead jayde/evan/raine story again. people who read it said i wrote alot like Anne Rice, which i TOTALLY do not see AT all…the only thing similar between my story and Anne Rice is that both mentioned vampires and part of mine was in new orleans. yeah, that’s SO similar. anyway..yeah so i’ve been thinking about it alot the past few days, and we’ll see…maybe i’ll get inspired. i might start it over again, cut out the whole evan part that wasn’t supposed to be in it to begin with but sorta happened..

 

haha found one of my really old IRC logs from 1997… so funny. i don’t remember this stuff at all. like i’m talking about seeing Ed Wood. I’ve never seen Ed Wood…maybe i saw 5 min or something on tv haha..(my nick was MissTink or Glimmer)

Legende–> Cyndi: Do you think being MJ’s watch is better, or his white T-shirt or his wedding ring?
Keyyooo> watch, white T-shirt, or wedding ring…?
Keyyooo> better for what?
Keyyooo> 🙂
Legende–> Cyndi: I wanna be something that stays on MJ 24/7.
MissTink> lol
MissTink> how about underwear
MissTink> lollollol
MissTink> sorry
Keyyooo> LOLOLOL!!!
Legende–> I wanna be his underwear but that’s where he lets off gas.
Legende–> I wanna be his T-shirt but Tina said that I’ll get tore apart and I’ll absorb all his underarm sweat.
Legende–> I wanna be his legs then. 🙂
Keyyooo> LOLOL!
Keyyooo> I’d prolly like to be his.. *ahem* dingly thing between his legs, but umm.. he pees out of that. 😛
Keyyooo> LOLOLOL!!!
Keyyooo> 🙂
Keyyooo> JK!!!
Keyyooo> 🙂

i can’t believe i was friends with some of these people lol

Keyyooo> LOL for some reason, I can imagine Michael doing something similar to the PHENOMENON video, only he doesn’t hump the microphone stand, and put nearly naked women in his lap! LOLOL!!

DaveB> key- a week or two ago, pat asked moonwalk a question about mj (i forgot what it was) And moonwalk was like “of course, i would do anything MJ says” and so pat was like “if MJ wanted to have sex with you would you?” and he goes “of course i would. i am not gay, but i wouldnt want to upset michael..”
DaveB> it is called obsessivness, moonwalk
Moonwalk> oh well…
Moonwalk> who the fuck asked you…
MissTink> OBSSESS MUCH!?!?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TygerLily> ew you know what is really gross
Mijac> jelly babies
Mijac> horrible things
Mijac> no ammount of ketchup or sugar can change the fact that they are sick and evil and not fit for my consumption

TygerLily> sara..
`Glimmer> what?
TygerLily> remember you kept asking why english people put wood in their ice cream?
TygerLily> lol
`Glimmer> yes LOL ha
TygerLily> lol
TygerLily> remember that gay conversation we had on the train
TygerLily> about it being “legalised”
TygerLily> LOL
TygerLily> and the old man was watching us
`Glimmer> YES AHHH HA HA HA
TygerLily> and he seemed to be getting excited LOL
`Glimmer> lol
i don’t remember that conversation AT all

Keyyooo> LOL yeah.. Tell Tarl what SHRIMPING means LOL! 🙂
`Glimmer> Tarl do you know what Shrimping means
JJsNasty1> I KNOW WHAT SHRIMPING MEANS lolol
`Glimmer> LOL PAT
JJsNasty1> i heard about it only like.. a month ago tho
nerdweeb1> NOOOOO!!!!!!
`Glimmer> lol em
nerdweeb1> Don’T!!!
* nerdweeb1 covers her eyes!!!!
Keyyooo> LOL TELL IT TELL IT!
`Glimmer> Shrimping is after you have anal sex, the person GIVING the anal sex sticks a straw up your ass and sucks the cum out
`Glimmer> nice huh?
nerdweeb1> U get yer kicks off of the most bizarre stuff, key.
Keyyooo> LOL!!
Keyyooo> LOL I know…
nerdweeb1> All I have to say is..I would NEVER suck ANYTHING out of ANYONE’s ASS! PERIOD!
Keyyooo> I’m strange like that.

Aludra> i was attacked
Starlee> i was attacked by geese
`Glimmer> I was attacked by a duck
Starlee> lol
`Glimmer> not funny
Aludra> hahahha!
`Glimmer> i’m cold
Starlee> i knew u would say that..lol
Keyyooo> I was attacked by a dog once.. bit me in the face.
Keyyooo> and yet I have three of ’em!

`Glimmer> MCHAMMER HAS A NEW VIDEO
Aludra> mchammer
Keyyooo> He does??
Aludra> OH M. C.
`Glimmer> YEAH AHHH
Aludra> lol i was like, sara is really obsessed with mcdonald’s

Aludra> no
Aludra> you’d prefer an astronaut
`Glimmer> I’d prefer a football player
`Glimmer> but that’s besides the point
Aludra> lol
Aludra> NAMED SCOTT
`Glimmer> NO I DO NOT LIKE SCOTT AHHHHH

Moonwalk> if madonna beats out mj it will be a very cold day in hell
`Glimmer> I guess you better get your jacket on then huh?

Glimmer> I should get offline I gotta come bcak on tonight at 9 with Mand and AFshani
omg i forgot i arranged an aol meeting between me mand and afshani…i don’t think it ever worked out tho…hahah

that was fun.

 

just got back from the bar with people. me danielle and adr went with joe to a bar on sheridan to watch the sabres game. jon showed up for awhile, and then rick showed up during 3rd period. drank a bit, had a good time regardless of the sabres sucking. cuz yeah, we sucked. bad. danielle was drunk so she wanted to dance. went out in the parking lot turned my car radio on so she could dance, as i discussed tomorrow with joe. he’s gonna go with me and adr to see Smoochy. and now it’s 11pm and i’m home 🙂 hahaha. totally getting drunk saturday night at bowling. i drank today with my meds and i was fine, so yeah. totally. i already told joe i wasn’t driving anywhere, someones gotta come pick my ass up. lol.

i think i’m gonna go play with our digital cable now. i smell like a bar, blah.

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since when do elementary schools have dances? we never had dances…we had skating parties at rainbow rink…we had a sock hop that no one went to in 5th grade. but now they have dances? was driving by my first elementary school, and there was a messages on the front board about the Valentine’s Day Dance….(yes it IS march lol)….do elementary school kids even want to go to a dance? they don’t like the opposite sex. i mean come on, even in middle school boys and girls segregated most of the night…i can’t imagine an elementary school dance. then of course u probably get the few slutty kids who are like, freak dancing, at 10 years old…all the girls look like britney spears, and they’re all shaking their ass…omg…this is a horror movie. must stop thinking about it.

 

since i’ve been home, ive put on mtv 4 times, and every time has been the exact same video. some black girl. EVERY. SINGLE. TIME! and what a great song it is… “oops there goes my shirt over my head… oops there goes my skirt dropping to my feet…” WTF IS THAT?!

that reminds me. i went in to a store in the mall, and there was this song playing…dunno what it was but.. it was the theme song from The Price Is Right… i’m like OMFG I CAN’T BELIEVE SOMEONE MADE A SONG AROUND THE PRICE AS RIGHT SONG!!!!!!

 

went to the neurologist today. they had room for me, woke me up at 9:30. so went there. then had to get blood work done. did that. and he gave me medicine..it’s heart medicine. apparently works on heads…but i still think he’s dumb, cuz i still think i have an aneurism, and one day i’m going to die because he didn’t give me a brain scan.

so since i was down on elmwood, i was gonna go to frisbees. yeah they were closed. or at least it appeared that way. there was a shady looking character standing outside, and all the lights were off inside. so i just kept driving. then went to the mall. tried on 3 things at hot topic. the dickies dress, another dress that was just like it except it wasn’t dickies brand and it had big giant saftey pins on it, and this other skirt that had these clip things on it. dunno how to explain that one. well the skirt was really rad, except id need a large and they didn’t have one. oooh and they had the first skirt i wanted, that i tried on in rochester, and they had it in the right color…but not in my size. but anyway…the 2 dresses were really cute. but yeah. they are really short. and i’m so not used to wearing short things. so i didn’t buy it. gonna think about it still….tried on a dress just like those 2, but different material, at express. it was longer than the hot topic ones, so maybe i’ll buy that one. but arg… everything is super short. so anything i buy is gonna be weird. and my mom’s all like, you’re going to look like a slut… and i’m like, um, yeah that’s sorta the point.

so now i guess i’m gonna go find something to do, read or something. cuz it’s super cold down here.

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well i’m shocked. i got email from the sleep lab. they want me to give them names of references to contact because they were impressed by my experience…and i still gotta email the head director guy…must do that tomorrow. yes.

 

must see death to smoochy…. so love ed norton. but for some reason, in clips from the movie, i still cant see him as anyone other than “jack” in fightclub. really wanna go rent american history x now tho.

heather sent me some pics from yesterday. the one i look horrible in, it’s me and ty sitting on a bench in eaton center. this girl was about to walk right into the picture (u can see her coat in it) so i was cringing and so i look all dumb.

but now, got my haircut, look horrible. 😛

 

we’re getting digital cable! or at least my dad has to call adelphia because he wants to get digital cable, but needs to find out about splitting it to the other tvs in the house.. or something. but when he said it i was like OOH! he’s like WOAH WHAT i’m like MTV2 AND VH1 CLASSIC! hahah

 

snl rerun….waynes world…best and worst of summer 91 hahahah…omg so funny.

so yesterday was the big toronto excursion to meet ty for the first time. i thought it was gonna be really weird meeting him, but it wasn’t. lol it was alot less weird cuz heather was there and i already know her. so it was like, i knew him forever. so it was cool. we took the Go train to toronto, and went to skydome. had lunch at hard rock cafe cuz ty had never been to one before. then went to the CN tower. the whole glass floor etc. i thought the entire observation thing was the glass floor, but it’s really just like 1/8th of it is glass LOL. but it’s cool, very weird. so we did the CN tower thing, and the skypod thing. it was cool. took some pics that will turn out bad i’m sure lol. the outdoor part of the observation level is all fenced/wired off so you can’t jump off it, but that means you can’t send postcards flying off of it either :(…so no chucky p moment for me. so after cn tower we were going to go to the eaton center. well since none of us knew where we were going, we got off the subway at bloor…then walked all the way back down yonge (4 subway stops or something) to the eaton center LOL. yeah we’re retards. feet hurt so bad. so we went around eaton center for a bit, then back to the Go train to oakville. got dinner at the golden griddle or something, and we were THE only people there. it was bizzare haha. so headed back home after that. i don’t know what my problem is, but i cannot drive slow in canada. i was going 85/90 the entire time.

omg this is one of the best snl’s ever. the gay beer commercial HAHAHAHA schmitts gay hahaha.

ok so joe called me when i was driving home to see where i was, to know if i was gonna go to his house to watch Fear. so him and nick waited for me to get there to watch it. yes that’s right A NEW SEASON OF MTVs FEAR!!!!! omg it was so great. at first we were like, these ppl are wimps..the first guy didn’t want to do his dare, which was push down this big cross inside the church to allow the whatever spirit to come in…it was in mexico. so it’s some big aztec legend thing about this spirit of nature that haunted this silver mine, and all this stuff….so we were like god, these ppl are so stupid. but then the 2nd dare they had to go to the hospital across the river, and there was all kinds of creepy shit going on. like the people were FREAKING out. so 2 girls quit, then 2 guys went and did it and the 1 guy quit…sent out a new guy to join the one still out there and while they were out there, the power went out in the safe house. so the navigator girl was alone in the dark in the safe house with all these banging noises around her, the 2 guys were out by the hospital all alone. finally the power went back on and they managed to finish the dare. but they were so freaked out. then when they were supposed to go to bed it got super cold, and the walls were like, glowing or something…it was freaky ass shit. all 6 people ended up quitting… the first time ever on the show. so next week they send a new team into the mine to do it…MUST WATCH!! sunday night TV is back hehehe

went to my neighbors funeral today. they didn’t talk about the superiority of christianity so it was ok. normal funeral except they had a girl minister.

 

TOTALLY FORGOT TO MENTION…heather, ty and I walked onto a movie set yesterday LOL… they were filiming some movie in union station. we happened to walk by as they were about to film the scene. didn’t see any actors that we knew…i think it was just some filler scene. it had some people walking up the stairs, and 1 woman walking up the stairs carrying a suitcase…and then a guy coming down the stairs…blah. but we couldn’t see what the movie was called… new york something… or something new york…yeah. haha it was rad.

 

 

 

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