i managed to not wear a coat to class today even tho it was snowing. haha go me. it wasn’t cold out i didn’t think. i have a fleese thing on, and i was perfectly fine (although snowed on). i hate wearing my coat to class cuz it’s so big, it’s hard to put it on the desk chair and stuff. so no coat today = good thing. mainly it’s not cold cuz it’s not windy at all. yay.

now this sorta oddly coincides with eric’s mtv rant from last night. last night danielle and i watched mtv cribs at ozzy’s new house while eating our nachos. they always play music in the background (if you didn’t know) and they were playing Sunna’s “I’m not trading”. we were like OMG THIS IS SUNNA! and so then in adolescent psych today we watched an episode of MTVs Flipped about bullies. the very beginning of the show they played Econoline Crush’s “Make it Right”…then later on they played Disturbed’s “down with the sickness” (even tho i hate them), and something else that was cool, and then APC’s “3 libras” i was like DUDE they use cool music in their shows, why don’t they ever fucking play the videos for any of these songs?!?! fucking retards. i need to get a job with them. end of story. they should let me host my own show. i could be a female carson. play cool vids for an hour, interview people, oh yeah. i’d rock.

also in adolescent psych today we were talking about peer status (popularity) and what the characteristics of popular people seem to be when people conduct research on them. just proves my point that the jocks and cheerleaders who are commonly associated with the popular crowd in all reality aren’t popular. and that people like me and my friends actually were. in terms of how many people actually like the people in various groups, i am right. because those in the “popular” crowd were only liked by the other people in that crowd. everyone else hated them. in the studies of this stuff researchers ask kids to list 3 or 5 people who are their friends, and then 3 or 5 people they dislike. on my list, all the dislikes would be “popular” kids. because they were assholes, and stupid. not to say that these “popular” kids would be then put into the rejected peer group, because they’d still get nominated as friends by the other “popular” people…they’d be considered controversial kids, because they are both liked and disliked. the characteristics that researchers find make up popular people i can’t find in any of the “popular” kids in my high school. the people who posessed these characteristics were my friends. and this all makes sense as to why Brooke was prom queen. because she was nice, and smart, and had all the characteritics of popular kids in the research. everyone liked Brooke because she was nice to everyone. so i consider her to be “the most popular girl in high school”. i can’t think of anyone who would say they hated her.

i know i’ve mentioned this before (at least i think so)…but i didn’t realize when i was in high school how many people knew who i was. because i wasn’t in the “popular” crowd, so i kinda just blended in. or so i thought. but then more and more i’m finding out that certain people knew who i was, or “looked up to me”…people i’d never seen before congratulated me on being in the top ten later on the night it was announced when they came trick or treating to my house. i was like woah, i don’t know you, but thanks. and then this girl who was dating julie’s brother a few years ago turned out that she knew me, and thought i was cool cuz i was smart (she was a year younger than me, and in the “popular” crowd)….so it’s just weird. i dunno. nevermind.