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parents came, and left. brought me my magazines (bono time and rolling stone)..bono is everywhere. hah. there 2 pics of him in RS and then the Time stuff. and apolo was in time too!!!!! a pic of him on his knees on the ice after he was awarded gold. too cute. so yay for me. and then looking through RS and i’m like WOAH THAT’S TRENT! HE LOOKS LIKE JESUS! it’s a pic from the virgin record signing last month. TOTALLY LOOKS LIKE JESUS…the long hair and beard, oh yeah. jesus. right there in the magazine. “I didn’t realize that i’d saved many peoples’ lives” said Trent Reznor after Nine Inch Nails’ first ever record signing at New York’s Virgin Megastore. “They told me, ‘I was going to kill myself if it wasn’t for your music.’ It’s kind of a cool thing to hear, but about the tenth one in a row it’s like, ‘Jesus Christ’. I probably would have killed myself if it wasn’t for my music.” After autographing NIN’s new live joint, and all that could have been, for swarms of fans, Reznor hinted to RS about new NIN material in the works. He says he hopes to wrap it up for a fall release, but adds, “I didn’t say what year.”…..yeah when i saw the Jesus Christ comment in the little blurb, i thought they were saying he looked like Jesus (since he does)…

 

i’ve spent a long time thinking that dave gahan and martin gore from depeche mode are gay. i don’t mean they’re a couple, just individually gay….i mean COMEON have you SEEEEEN Dave Gahan? HE’S SO FLAMING. but apparently THEY’RE BOTH SO NOT GAY!!!!!! they’re married (or multiply married and divorced) with kids! this is so not right!!! they can’t be straight!!! they’re depeche mode!!! dave prances around on stage like freddie mercury, who was SO NOT STRAIGHT!!!!!!

 

duuuuuuude. that guy who collapsed during the pregame ceremony before the Leafs/Sabres game last night DIED!!!! how horrible! he was going onto the ice to represent his uncle who was named one of the Leafs 25 best players, and collapsed when he was about to go onto the ice. AND HE DIED! how horrible.

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my 7th grade science teacher died….heart attack… last month. no one told us (us=me, eric, danielle)…and i was just talking about mr guido being dead… he dropped dead of a heart attack a few years ago…blah. oh and yeah eric just reminded me about mrs forton…she’s dead too. 7th grade english teacher….and our high school principal is dead…and mr skibinski who i never had is dead…and mr frank who i never had…

 

so…yeah. temporary redesign in anniversary of the ONE YEAR ORGY ANNIVERSARY! this is not the next delirious redesign that i mentioned in previous entry…this is only in honor of the anniversary. that’s why it sucks. i mean, i really don’t like it, but it’s ok for 3 days.

I can’t believe it’s already been a year! a whole friggen year!!! gahh…it was such a great 4 days…*sob* i miss them. the anniversary isn’t really til tomorrow, but whatever.

 

a thought just occurred to me (of course cuz i’m doing homework)…how is buying used cds any different than downloading mp3s? because artists and record companies aren’t getting any money from the sales of used cds. it’s pure profit for recordstores who sell them. and since i refuse to buy cds new anymore if i can find them used, i might as well download them, because the artists aren’t getting my money either way….

 

i’m psychic. this has happened twice now. my adolescent psych proff is pregnant (she claims it’s a souvenir from the honeymoon…yeah, that’s quick!)…she said shes 14 weeks pregnant. so you can’t really tell unless she holds her clothes to her…but first day i saw her (2nd day of class since i skipped the first day due to all the bullshit) i’m like, she’s pregnant. i just thought she was, and today she told us. 2 years ago when i came back to geneseo in the summer to look at my social psych exam to see why i got a B instead of my deserved A in that class, i ran into dr shanahan. i talked to her, and i thought, she’s pregnant. a few weeks later she emailed me and told me she was having a baby. then the day before dr shanahan had her baby, i was thinking about how i was supposed to meet with her the next day, but watch she wouldn’t show up because she went into labor. sure enough i go to find her, dr mounts comes out of his office and said she was having the baby (2 weeks early). i’m going to end up being one of those people who meets a person, and says something about them being pregnant, even tho they haven’t found out yet, and they’ll all be amazed by my talents….like on tv…was it ER…yeah. i don’t even watch that show, but i saw a rerun like that. haha.

 

so i slept pretty damn good last night. went to bed at midnight, got up at 10. was only minimally awakened by housemates, and the snow plow thing, and the people across the “street” who don’t know how to shovel. so i was really happy. but then i got a super bad headache. great. and then we talked about shit in adolescent psych which depressed me…so blah. i need to do reading since this weekend will be shot. eric gave me directions to the greece mall from house of guitars, so i get to go find my skirt at hot topic, and see how badly it looks on me, so i can not want to buy it anymore. but i desperately need a new belt. this one is a piece of shit. the hole i usually use has almost ripped entirely through to the next loosest hole. not good. and then the other side of the hole i usually use is totally being torn apart by the belt buckle. so yeah. need a new one. but i hate buying belts because they’re so not worth the prices that they are. i’m sorry but i can’t justify spending 15$ on a belt. and if i wanted a leather belt, they’re like 50$… no thanks. i figure i want one like the belt i have…mine now is thick black, with silver studs. but i figure i should get one with the metal studs that are hollow and thats what the buckle goes through, so then it wont rip apart. yeah. go me. good thing they’re “in style” so i’ll be able to find them at every store. normally things i want aren’t in (yet) so i can never find them.

i think i’m gonna make cupcakes soon. i really need something smaller that i can eat to curb my constant hunger. so tonight or tomorrow. adr enjoys baking hahah…..and preparing a delirious redesign… not too different, just version 10.2… or are we on version 11 now?….10 yeah. so it’ll be 10.2 but dunno when i’ll have it done. maybe tonight, depends on how much reading i get done now.

 

 

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February 13, 2002

i was at home…it was my townhouse but it was my real house. i was in my room in the townhouse, but it was really big, and i had lots of desk surface space. it was really almost completely empty, so i wanted to put a coffee maker on it. it must have been really windy or stormy or something, because i looked out the window and the view was of the view from my real house, not at school. and there was a huge tornado off in the distance. so i freaked out, and went to tell danielle there was a tornado and we should go in the basement. then i ran downstairs to tell my mom about the tornado, but she wasn’t home, it was my neighbor jenny. she was watching tv in my living room. so i was like, look outside and tell me if there is a tornado because maybe i’m dreaming. she looked outside and saw it, so i wasn’t dreaming, but she didn’t appear to care at all that there was a tornado coming and we should go in the basement. so i looked outside again and there were at least 5 other smaller ones touching down. so i was like, well screw you guys i’m going in the basement. so i went downstairs, and somehow i had unknowingly dragged my mattress down off my bed into the basement, i guess so i could go back to sleep. it was all deformed though. so then i was looking out the window, which apparently my basement had windows, and Ziggy was out in the back yard, and there was a tornado coming right towards my house. it was weakening, so much so that it was see through…as in it wasnt full of the dirt and dust which makes a tornado visible. there were some dead leaves swirling around in it, that’s how we could still see it. leaves and branches were getting sucked into it, etc, and then it went right where Ziggy was, and sucked Ziggy up into it. She had her front legs up, almost as if she was worshiping it, when it sucked her up. So i was like, no Ziggy no, get out of the tornado. And then Ziggy seemed scared, and was trying to grab on to the flying branches, and eventually grabbed onto one that was attached to the tree, so she didn’t get blown away. then a bat came flying towards my house, but when it got close enough to the house, it was a dog.
possible explanation: god, i dunno LOL…but i should have known it was a dream once i saw that jenny was in my house, since i haven’t talked to her in years. breifly at the APC concert last spring, but before that, like 4 years.
possible interpretation: well i’ve heard tornados are supposed to signify stress or life changes…but that makes no sense, because i just went through a period of crisis…so…if anything, this life turmoil should have been represented in dreams as tornados 2 weeks ago, not now, once everything has settled.
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February 12, 2002

i was at kmart with danielle, adrienne and eric. we had tickets to go see janet jackson, and the entrance to the arena was in kmart. so we were walking around kmart trying to find the door to the arena. it took so long to find that we were late to the show and missed the beginning. dunno what happened to eric, so then it was just me danielle and adrienne watching the show from the second last highest row…but it wasn’t that high. there was no one else in the section. i dont remember there being a show, but supposedly there was. then these people came and sat behind us, and there were 2 little kids. the one kept kicking my seat, then he had his feet against my shoulders and was pushing me. so i got up and moved seats. then the kid’s white trash mother said he wouldn’t do it anymore, so i went back to my seat. then the woman touched me, and i freaked out, she was laughing at me and was like, wow you’re touchy. so then someone else was on stage singing. the people had set up the stage for “escapade” but then someone else came out and sang because janet was taking a break. then they took the set away without doing escapade. then aretha franklin came out and sang, and i was so confused. then we were back in kmart and we were in a checkout line. i was really confused about these other people coming out to perform instead of janet, and someone asked me if i wanted to see kelly illig sing next. and i was like HELL NO. so the cashier made an annoucement over the loud speaker that there was a bad weather warning, so people should consider leaving, to avoid the snow. so we all went out and got in eric’s car and were driving through the parking lot. so then i was like, dude, you guys can do whatever you want, but i’m going back to the concert. i wanted to see “if” and even tho janet didn’t do it at the show i was at in real life, i thought it’d be my luck to leave this show and have her do it. so i went back in kmart, and again, ran around trying to find the door to the arena. i found it, and then in the arena i had no idea where to go to find my seat. so i got out my ticket and was trying to find the right aisle to enter. so i finally did, but it wasn’t right, so i had to run down some stairs, and finally got to my section. it was super far away, and janet was doing “if” so i started walking towards the stage by the railings and got up pretty close, so i could see. the arena didn’t look like a real arena, it was really weird. and there was hardly anyone there.
possible explanation: not all that sure
possible interpretation: why do i bother even doing this part anymore lol
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February 9, 2002

i was part of the superbowl halftime show with u2. it wasn’t like the real performance, cuz the stage was a circle not a heart, and not hollow. me adrienne and 2 other of my friends were running around the circle stage, cuz apparently this was part of the show. then at the end, we were in line for a meet and greet with u2. there were these square glass shelves separating all the people in line from u2 and the body guards and workers etc. my mom’s godson paul was one of the people working behind the glass shelves. the shelves came up to my shoulders, and this was so no one could attack u2. paul was handing out tshirts to everyone in line, for u2 to sign. then danielle was there, and she went over to paul and hugged him and wouldn’t let go. so paul gave me a shirt, and i went to talk to larry. larry didn’t look like larry really, but it was larry. so i give him the shirt, and he signs it. then i realize i have a camera so i’m like, i dont know if i’m allowed to take a picture but i am anyway. so larry looks up and sees my camera and smiles. so i’m thinking, the u2 girls are gonna love this pic of larry smiling. so then i go onto the next one, and it turns out to be Johnny from econoline crush. but apparently he was supposed to be in u2, and everyone knew this. so i’m like hi, larry still has my shirt. so then larry gives the shirt to johnny, and he asks for my name. and i’m like sara. and so johnny goes, hey bono, we got another sara. and bono (who actually was bono and looked like bono) said oh, with an h or without (something like that). and so i’m staring at bono and i’m like no H. and he’s like, oh, sometimes i just wanna keep putting letters on that name forever. so i was like ??? but i was just like, it’s bono, omg, i’m going to talk to bono next. so then johnny signs my shirt and he’s just staring at me.
i was in a gang in the ghetto. i was a new member, but then i was the leader. we were walking around looking to cause trouble, but no one was challenging us. so we were all pissed off. so we were sitting in a parkinglot against a building and we had bought two toy golf sets. apparently it was illegal to possess these toy golf sets. so we wanted to attract the cops to have a confrontation, so we left the sets by the street so they’d see them and stop. well they did. the cops come over and are talking to us, and we’re just like whatever. then they’re like you realize no one is allowed to have these. we’re like yeah. so. so then one of the cops, a woman, opens the golf set and takes one of the clubs out. she walks over to us, and starts whipping one of the male gang members across the back with the club. so now i’m getting pissed cuz i was actually witnessing LAPD police brutality. so i take the club, and i go up to the cop, and i’m like listen here you mother fucker (with a nice ghetto accent) if you come around here anymore, bitching about our golf sets, you know what i’m gonna do? i’m gonna take this golf club and shove it up your fucking ass. my favorite thing to do with golf clubs is shove them up fucking cop’s asses. so that scared all the cops off, and the rest of my gang was cheering for me.

possible explanation: not really sure
possible interpretation: haha
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February 8, 2002

U2 was playing in buffalo at the football stadium. i had been telling people about how i didn’t have tickets, so i was upset, but i wasn’t going to bother trying to find any cuz it was going to be on tv. so it was the day of the show, and somehow i was there. i was sitting in one of the middle levels, on adam’s side of the stage. so i’m sitting around and talking to a person that was next to me. then suddenly we were on the floor, a few rows from the front, and we had seats near he aisle. the opener came on and it was kid rock. but he wasn’t playing normal kid rock songs. the person behind me was saying that she really didn’t enjoy this kind of music, and i had figured as much for some reason. then lindsay was behind me i realized, and there were other school age kids around, and they had to do some project where they needed a copy of the openers set list. people had been handing the setlist out to everyone, but they were all different. and then the songs that were actually being played were not the same as the ones on the setlist. then brian may came onstage and played 2 queen songs, and one imported freddie mercury’s voice to play while brian was playing keyboards. so the opener finished, and then i was back home watching it on tv. my dad came home and wanted me to do something with my car, look under it or something. and i was like nope, my concert starts in 4 minutes. then i must have had the wrong channel on because i missed the very beginning, and turned to it in the middle of the song. bono had on regular dorky clear glass glasses on instead of his usual tinted ones, so that was weird. then i was at a water park, but it was a beach. and it had pure white sand, and everyone was in white bathing suits. so i went in the pool and was swimming, then i got out to walk around. i guess i was in this other pool and i saw people giving kids water to drink out of the pool. that confused me cuz usually pools have tons of chlorine in them. i was walking back to the first pool, and there was an announcment about how these pools have a new method where they dont use chlorine, but that meant that body fluids in the pool would stay in there, or something, so that people needed to be careful about cutting themselves etc. there was a kiddie pool next to the big pool and it had been evacuated cuz the water was all brown. then i was home again watching tv again, and it was a show about U2 at an amusement park. they were showing camera footage of u2 on rollercoasters. they were showing this one coaster, it was red, and larry and bono were on it. larry looked like joshua tree era but bono looked like recent times, and bono was screaming but larry wasn’t. then i realized i was on the rollercoaster. so i’m shouting MOM I’M ON TV! and she’s like what? and I’m like yeah I’m on TV! so she looks, and they’re showing the footage, and sure enough I had been on the roller coaster at the same time, with all the neighborhood girls. but we were kids, so the footage was really old. i looked like i was 5. and since a bunch of 3-5 year olds were on this coaster with u2 it must have been a baby ride. then they showed footage of u2 on this water ride. there were a bunch of rubber rafts connected to eachother, that then went through a log ride type set up. but when the ride was going down the first hill, bono’s raft malfunction and became unattached from the rest, so he went flying over the hills on his own (all the rafts were supposed to detach after the last hill to go speeding off to the end). so it was really scary because he could have gotten really hurt cuz it malfunctioned.
then this other dream about being in a bar after the superbowl, but it was decorated for christmas, and it might have been partly a church because someone asked me if i’d go up the tower and ring the bells so i did. and to do that i had to hit a heating duct every time i wanted the bells to ring.

possible explanation: was reading u2 book, discussed amusement parks and rollercoasters with housemates during dinner
possible interpretation: whatever
posted by sara @ 8:35 AM//

February 3, 2002

i found our missing ice cream in the fridge. i went into the fridge to get something, closed it, and then was like WAIT… I opened it again and 2 pints of peanut butter cup ben and jerry’s ice cream were in there, all melted. so i took them out, and told danielle i had found them, and put them into the freezer to refreeze. if they were ok refrozen we would keep them. then i looked in the fridge again and found leah’s half gallon of strawberry, all melted. i told her, and when i went to pick it up the melted ice cream oozed all over the fridge.
possible explanation: we were discussing the stolen ice cream last night
possible interpretation: i think it’s really self explanatory

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grammy commentary
vh1 preshow
– i want JC from Nsync’s jacket SO bad… damn jacket fetish of mine.
– everyone wants to be bono…the train guy, JC, Chris from nsync…all had bono-esque glasses on. sheryl crow said u2 was hot haha
– why does everyone want to see train?! ppl actually like them?
– since when is there a “best rock instrumental” category? and why isn’t trent nominated in all the spots in it?
– i thought pam anderson had her breast implants taken out….
actual show
– THEY WERE ON FIRST THEY WERE ON FIRST!!!!!!!! GAAAH THAT WAS SO GREAT! except i didn’t like the camera work, but AHHHH YAY! and of course my mom calls right in the middle… i’m like CALL ME BACK! so she calls back, WASNT THAT GREAT! i’m like AHHHH I LOVE THEM! so she wants to go see them live now hehehe. when they showed the audience JC was all standing up, like he should be!!
– AAHHH YAY!! they won the first award!!! bono is so funny….bono bono love you bono. they beat nsync.. so justin was right re: the award nsync beat u2 out of… “shut up u2’ll get grammy’s” hahaha
– why the hell did patti labelle and lady marmalade get a standing ovation and u2 didnt?!?! HELLO who got you through september 11th? U2 did… fuckers. lol
– 2 u2 songs lost to train?! wtf is this? lol
– i’m sure bono enjoyed the destiny’s child bit….
– god i so hate “Gone” by nsync….and why the hell is nelly performing with them? i’m ashamed that i like JC. lance has rad leather pants on. OH that reminds me. Bono had on NIIIIIICE grey leather pants on!!!!!!! yum!
– so my mom calls again during Nsnyc – “don’t they remind u of new kids? but they’re doing michael jackson moves” hahaha
– ok i’m tired of watching this. so bored.

on another note. this email war is getting out of hand…insults being thrown back and forth, it’s really pointless. and now it’s not even entertaining.

– WOO HOO U2!!!!! HAH @ edge he’s so cute!! and bono being prolific…talking…what he does best. haha so they started playing the “get off the stage” music hehe
– god it’s still on for another hour….
– and god how did u2 not win for album of the year!?!?!?!?!?!….so not right!
– and u2 lost again….i think it’s so cute they’re all there with their wives/girlfriends…well except adam, they never show him so i dunno who he’s with lol. but mrs bono and mrs edge are there, and pretty sure larry’s girlfriend is there…
– oh please with the illegal filesharing crap. fuck you. oh please, all these new bands at risk of being marginalized because of downloading… no they arent getting any promo and airplay cuz everything is dominated by crap. oh fuck this shit. the music food chain is at risk, you’re losing money and no one buys records BECAUSE EVERYONE OUT THERE SUCKS!
– YAY RECORD OF THE YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sooooooooo great!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

that was way too long. even with all the u2…way too long.

 

a boy stopped by our house last night so we could all sign a petition requesting monetary compensation because of the state of our townhouses. he had really nice dimples. he does card tricks on the TV station haha. but yeah, the petition. it’s a list of complaints about the houses…things that were wrong, problems that weren’t addressed, etc…and signatures. they got 106 signatures last night. the kid and his housemates who are organizing the whole thing sent an email to all the residents in regards to the status, how to get in touch with them, and what the plans are for the petition. they’re going to send it to various school officials, the state dormitory board, and state senators. of course that email spurred “hate” email from various other residents about how we knew when we signed the lease that they were going to be incomplete, etc etc and how it’s a lot better living here than in the dorms or in a cardboard box. well i figure – if you’re happy, don’t sign it. if you’re not happy, sign it. it’s not going to hurt either way. but for those people who don’t sign it, if we end up getting money back, i don’t think they should be allowed to recieve any of it. of course it won’t happen, and they’ll be free riders. but whatever. i think we added about 10 more things onto the list that weren’t already there, or had been added by others.

since i had 3 exams to study for this week i had a lot of time to day dream lol. i realized i spent a lot of it reminiscing about the past few years. if i’m reminiscing about the good old days now of summer 2000, what is going to happen to me when i’m 60?!?! lol. i kept thinking about how great summer 2000 was, and summer 2001…if the concerts of 2001 were smooshed into 2000, everything would be perfect. i kept thinking about just random shit, like driving home from denny’s at night, and papa roach’s “last resort” would be on, and even tho we didn’t like the song, we’d leave it on and sing. i dunno…it’s just happy memories. i thought about going to see econoline with joe in Missasauga with his manslut friends, and how when we were leaving i told the mansluts how manslutty they were, and they were irritated at me. i was irritated with them because of the way they treated the girls that were hanging around trying to impress trevor (lol), and the fact that they had taken joe’s extra guest passes, and then ditched to drink and meet women or something, instead of watching the show…then in the car joe and i started hysterically laughing because a commercial came on the radio that was “2 lame guys trying to get laid” hahahaha.

and speaking of thinking about random things, i was trying to sleep last night and randomly remembered when 4 of us from the French 3 in 10th grade collected money, and bought mrs marcielle flowers and delivered them to her house when she had an operation towards the end of the year. and how she made videotapes of herself doing french lessons for us, because it was almost time for the regents exam. now i’ve suddenly gotten into the habit of dropping just about everything in the shower. i dropped the soap today which totally made me think of Mr Guido (RIP) and the whole soap on a rope stuff in 9th/10th grade. all this reminiscing makes me feel so old LOL. god…really what am i gonna be thinking of when i’m 60? lol

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what the hell is wrong with michael jackson (ok, don’t answer that)…apparently he’s not performing on the grammy’s tomorrow. after that whole big deal with the AMA’s vs Grammy’s and people not being allowed to perform on both etc…he was supposed to perform on video tape on the AMA’s but right before the show, he pulled out. and the whole time it was said he’d be on the grammy’s, but they are tomorrow and there are no plans for him to be there or perform. so wtf…he started out this whole Invincible promo campaign way better than past albums – with the record signing at Virgin, and TRL…the surprise MTV award performance with nsync….and DUH…you really should be performing on the Grammy’s….and what about the single releases. he royally fucked up with the singles on HIStory, releasing They don’t care about us a full year after you are not alone…that was a huge mistake. and i thought invinicble was going good in that sense, cuz he did you rock my world, and immediately released butterflies…but did he release butterflies? i know it hit radio, but i thought there was supposed to be a cd single release in the US but i haven’t seen it anywhere…so wtf is going on? and now the release of unbreakable was supposed to be april 8th (far too long in my opinion) but it’s been pushed back with no info on when it’ll be released. and i thought cry was supposed to be released, especially after the whole sept 11th thing…he should have learned from his past, that it’s a good idea to overlap singles…did he not learn anything from Thriller?! hello….billie jean was released when beat it was #1 on the charts (or vice versa, i forget)….god he needs a new manager…like me.

meanwhile i’m getting sick. my left tonsil feels all swollen during the day. and my stomach is all weird. i just feel like, sick, and weak. i hope it’s just test anxiety even tho i could really give a shit. but i hope it is so that it’ll go away when i’m done with this test. i hope i’m not getting the flu..i guess it’s been going around. mike was sick this weekend, and my stomach hurt fri and sat nights. BLAH. don’t wanna be sick! i managed to avoid it thus far….arg. stupid people always sitting around me in class hacking up a lung.

so back to studying. got another hour before the exam to cram shit into my head.

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well poli sci exam was the most ridiculously easy exam i have ever taken. took me 10 minutes. and that’s not even 10 minutes because i dont know any of the answers, like cognitive psych last year was…this was 10 minutes because it only took me as long as it did for me to read the questions lol. 15 multiple choice, 5 fill in the blanks, 5 short answers…yeah. hooray for 100 level courses!!!

so next is clinical psych. instead of studying any more for that right now, i’m going to go play mario. i still might skip comp art. i was just there to print out my ugly combined images incase we need to turn something in. but i don’t think we do. and i don’t even think our proff is here today. i forgot what day he said he wasn’t going to be here, but i didn’t see him and he has photography right now so he should have been there. so i’ll walk my ass up there, and see that we’re not doing anything, and come back and study. now, mario!

 

yep skipping comp art. walked up there, our TA said he wasnt here, and we’re just supposed to work on our blended images. so i’m like, yeah ok well i’m gonna leave then lol.

forgot to mention before. the weird girl brought the necklace for me. i was hoping she’d forget. and when she walked in, i thought to myself, i’m going to say no…i’ll say i like it but don’t have the money so i’m gonna pass. she puts them down on my desk (she brought 2)…one was this orangey snakeskin choker, and she’s like “it’s stuck together with funtac because it’s mean for a drag queen” lol so i’m like hah that’s cool. then the other one is a buckle kind, black with the silver diamond pyramid things. and then STUPID ME i say YES! so now i owe her 10 dollars on wednesday. ARG! IM SO STUPID! I hate my inability to say NO!!!!! arg. i said no to the snakeskin one even tho it was cool. and then she complimented me on my shirt – my 18 year old glitterized duran duran shirt. she’s like, duran duran is awesome, and i’m like yeah. she’s like especially “come undone” so i’m like, yeah that’s my fav song. BUT ARG I DONT WANT THE NECKLACE. ooh maybe i can sell it on ebay.

i lost my auction for supermario world for SNES so it’s a good thing leah brought it back with her this weekend. she didn’t think she had it, but turns out she does. i had a nice half hour game just now. it was great. love mario.

 

wow my mom is really pushing this Ireland thing. i haven’t really thought about it much again since last time i looked at flights, and got all those “signs” to go to Dublin…i emailed her last night to save me the Time Magazine with Bono on the cover. she writes back, “what’s the date, i ususally read them and throw them out…. ps. i think you should go to ireland. it would be alot more fun and probably cost the same”. so i write back “the bono one is out now/soon. he’s on the cover, can’t miss him”….so she writes back “what about the trip to ireland” LOL… so i wrote back “i want to go to ireland. i want to go across country. someday i’ll go to ireland. this summer i’ll go cross country. unless you wanna pay for me to go to ireland this summer to” haha

but jesus…Ireland was a fleeting thought danielle and i had in november, we looked into it, but not seriously. and all those “signs” i got…yeah. ok. but really. i can’t exactly afford everything i wanna do in the next few months. now with Vegas i need to buy new clothes, and then have money to spend there. right after that is New Orleans, and fuck that I AM GOING TO NEW ORLEANS! lol. even if i something happens and i dont go cross country I AM GOING TO NEW ORLEANS! and i can get that paid for by the school… or at least part of it… or all of it if i flew i think. dunno really. but anyway… i cant exactly afford to go to Ireland, and Vegas, and New Orleans AND cross country. I can go to ireland any day…LOL that sound’s funny. but really. this is going to be the only time in my life where i can afford (not monetarily…more like afford the time) to go across country. once i get a real job and an apartment and what not, i can’t randomly take 2-3 weeks off to drive cross country. so i’m doing it now. it’s much easier to take a week off to go to ireland…

hah my mom wrote back “no, just one trip” hahahah so i write back “cross country.” hahaha

ok time to eat and study

 

done with 2nd exam…harder than the first. got 4 wrong on multiple choice (he gives us the answer key when we leave)…and the short answer.. dunno. i answered them. but we barely spend any time on these founders of clinical psych. so i really dont think i know enough to write 5 points worth. but whatever. it’s done. who cares. next…. adolescent psych. i gotta go over the history, since i skipped the first class when we went over that LOL. the rest is all review… research methods.. comeon now.

checked my mailbox today, and we have pamphlets about the senior challenge 2002. it’s a fundraiser for the class gifts…or whatever. so this year, my class is raising money for a memorial to 4 ex geneseo students killed in WTC attacks….a new lectern or something…a tree in memory of a proff who died…and 4000$ in scholarships. they want to raise 25,000$ the biggest amount ever raised by a class, and are asking for each classmember to donate 100$…. OK NO!!!!!! A HUNDRED DOLLARS! i was thinking i could afford 10 maybe, since i’m spending 10 on a damn necklace i don’t want. I don’t want to contribute anything, i hate geneseo. but i’d be nice and donate a few bucks. BUT A HUNDRED?!?!?! And they say, it’s not due til june 2003, so it’s only 2$ a week. HELLO!!!! I’M GOING TO BE LIVING IN POVERTY CUZ I WON’T BE ABLE TO GET A FREAKING JOB! and i’m gonna waste 100$ on this?! no. sorry.

so now i need food, might play mario, and then start studying

 

i suddenly just got really giddy. i put in the APC/NIN toronto bootleg cuz i haven’t listened to it in a while. so APC finished, and terrible lie started. and i am so used to listening to and all that could have been, that now that i’m listening to MY show… i got so excited. cuz i was like, omg i was THERE… i actually saw nin live!!! this is MY show! lol i’m such a dork.

meanwhile i’ve done the shittiest job ever studying for my exam tomorrow. well it’s not my fault! i know all of this already. so i end up just staring at the pages not reading it, and day dreaming. thinking about things i’m gonna do tomorrow, and how badly i want to play mario. and then i spent an entirely too long amount of time talking to some people on IM…

and suddenly it feels as if a tumor has exploded in the back of my brain stem. wow this doesn’t feel right.

and adrienne is coming to visit this weekend. it’s the orgy anniversary weekend, so she’s coming up friday. she’s bringing a blender!! bailey’s milkshakes!!! yay. and 2 sabres games to watch, and we’re gonna go to house of guitars, and maybe eastview mall if i can get directions from house of guitars to the mall, and then remember how to get back home. i need to go to a hot topic to try on the skirt i want.

ok so must study now!! arg.

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because i don’t want to study, i cleaned the bathtub. THAT’S RIGHT… i CLEANED the BATHTUB! unheard of. and now i’m watching Huey Lewis and the News behind the music. yeah i used to LOVE them when i was like 4. the first video i remember seeing is a Huey Lewis video…I think for “stuck with you”…whatever video it was that took place on a beach, and snorkling and stuff. I had a tape with Huey Lewis on one side, recorded off the vinyl record my parents had, and Tina Turner “Private Dancer” on the other hehe…ah the memories.

 

fun with email: “He shot a GALLON on my FACE !!!! =)”

“Remember that girl in high school??:
No way, I cant believe it. I went to high school with the blonde
chick in this site. She was so prissy back then I would have never
guessed that she would be doing nude modeling now…

I guarantee that no one in school would have thought she had
such a hot body, Damn, check it out dude.

Anyways I’ll let you get back to work, take a look when you get a
chance. She’s the one named Julie 🙂
Julies Pics

Gary”

“YOU HAVE TO SEE SPRING BREAK FUCKFEST!”

this one says “live hardcore twinks”…whats a twink? there’s one that’s “naked celebs of hollywood” from B. Speers.hahah

 

 

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amy came over just now. scared the shit out of me. i hate answering the door. but at least we have the peep hole now. i almost didn’t answer. haha. but yeah. probably gonna go over to their house for dinner tomorrow night. so that’ll be cool. just gotta be back to watch Apolo 🙂 or i can tape it again hahaha. and speaking of olympics… US vs Canada in mens ice hockey…haha that could be fun 🙂 but yeah, amy invited me to a party down the “street” but i had already messed up my hair, and my stomach hurts so i declined. her movie theatre closed so now danielle and i can’t go see queen of the damned for free. gonna have to go to the theatre here in geneseo and actually PAY. hahaha. oh well.

something is seriously wrong with this poptart. it’s supposed to be brown sugar and cinnamon, and it tastes like apples. it definitely has a fruity taste that is not normal. it’s gross. yet i keep eating it.

 

blah so tired. didn’t sleep much last night. i haven’t been sleeping good in general. god i HATE being such a light sleeper. cuz i don’t have to get up til 8:20 and 10:20 during the week, but bill and leah get up at 6 or 7, and when they get up, that means i get up. and danielle gets up before me too…so when danielle gets up, i get up. DAMN LIGHT SLEEPNESS!!! i haven’t been able to get a good nights sleep in 2 weeks probably because i wake up at every little noise. last night i just couldn’t fall asleep… when i was still awake at 2 i turned the tv on and flipped channels… wow there is nothing on tv at 2am. ended up watching an old episode of Cheers, and then tried to sleep again. still no sleep. then of course, i woke up when bill and leah did at like 7.

so i went to international politics class, and i’m sitting there. there is this girl, she’s sorta weird. like, her “Dorky thing” about her on the first day of class was that she was shy (mine was that i have a website lol)…she has really good posture. and it’s just weird to see college kids sitting with good posture in those crappy desks. anyway…she’s just kinda odd. so she comes in and sits down. she was looking at me, i could tell, so i was staring at the floor trying to ignore her. then she’s like hey. so i’m like hi. she’s like “i have this spiky collar i bought that i want to sell. for 10 dollars, i bought it for 13. do you want it?” hahaha i’m like ummmmmmmmm…so i told her to bring it in and i’d take a look. and damnit i wish she hadn’t asked me cuz i cant say no!! blah. maybe it’ll be significantly too small or something. cuz i really most likely don’t want the damn spiky collar, and i dont want to spend 10 bucks on it… and is it weird that she asked me? i guess i “fit” the image

i bid on ebay for super mario world for superNES lol. i was so pissed when i got my SNES and it had donkey kong country instead of mario. but then DK rocks so hard, so it’s ok. but i still want mario. i bid 4 bucks, and its 4 bucks shipping. that’s cheaper than getting it at the flea market. leah bought Funhouse for regular NES last night hahaha. i want mario NOW damnit!

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i hate my room. i like it. i like the way it’s set up. but i hate that i have the roof in front of my window. normally i don’t mind this, cuz that’s how i have my room at home. but at home we have gutters. at school we don’t. so during the half hour or so long downpour at 4 in the morning, i got to be woken up by the insessant pounding of rain on the roof. and it’s not normal sounds of rain. it gains velocity as it rolls off the 3rd floor roof, and down onto mine. omg it’s deafening. doesn’t help that my head is right by the windows too. ARG. it’s so annoying. so now i have a headache. i hope they give us an end of year survey about the townhouses, and have a space for suggestions so i can put “gutters” on it….and oh yeah!! the commons building that was supposed to be done in October,….at latest November…end of December….when we get back from break in January….still not finished…however is open for us. we are allowed to go there and do laundry in the 7 whole washers and dryers they have… AND they are side loading not top loading, apartment sized washers. SO WHY COULDN’T THEY PUT A SET IN ONE OF OUR STORAGE ROOMS!!! THEY’D FIT!! THEY’RE ON TOP OF EACHOTHER!!! so pissed about that. and bill said our mailboxes have been put into the common building too, which i’m assuming means i’ll have a new address soon. how fucking annoying. it’s 1 mailbox per townhouse, so that’s cool. someone can go and get everyone’s mail….but I DONT WANT TO CHANGE MY ADDRESS WITH 3 MONTHS LEFT!

and oh yeah. leah and bill found a crumpled up walmart bag on one of our kitchen chairs… inside was 2 of my spoons, some of leah’s spoons and some of leah’s plastic bowls….so now only 1 of my spoons is still missing.

i dreamed about vampires all night. don’t remember any of it really. there was some part where i was looking at a magazine bono was in, there were pictures of him in a candystore, and then i was there. and bono had bought pixi sticks, so i wanted to as well. the lady said i could just have them, and gave me a bag to put them in. then i walked around the mall with my mom and the bag apparently said “i am satan and i’ve come for your soul” so people kept coming up to me and harassing me about the fact the bag said i was satan…anyway.

i’ve found myself liking the 2nd disc of The Fragile alot lately…which is odd cuz i used to like the 1st disc alot more…and especially the first half of the first disc. but i keep finding myself being like, yeah this is so great, to stuff on the 2nd disc. not like it wasn’t great before, i just preferred the 1st disc. yeah i’ll shut up now.

and instead of recommenting in my comments to mary…Mary: i dont consider you a NIN fan convert cuz well..it’s not like u didn’t like them, u went to the show etc..and then there’s eric…so even tho you listened to downward first thing in the morning LOL you don’t count. BUT….when you buy an Orgy cd,… then you’ll count as an orgy convert :)….like Adrienne…heheh and oh yes, you will buy an orgy cd at some point heheheh

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ended up watching interview with a vampire after all. danielle and i went to the other independent movie rental place, and they had it. i liked it. very homoerotic. not a bad thing. especially not a bad thing when it’s brad pitt lol. aaaannnyway. i was a bit confused at parts, but i think i figured them out. the vampires killed claudia cuz she killed lestat. and then through the whole part after she killed lestat i was like, how can he be dead if he’s in Queen of the Damned…well that was worked out in the end lol. definitely want to read the books now tho. that’ll be my summer project. and yeah, as if i needed another reason to go to new orleans hahah…

so cuz i’m a dork i taped the olympics tonight cuz apolo was skating today. so i’ll have to watch tomorrow. i saw the first heat he was in, but then we watched the movie. and i know he won gold. cuz i cheated and looked on yahoo LOL. yaaay!! hehe

 

there is this really funny music video review site called Fuck MTV run i guess, by this kid who’s blog i read. i found their review of Creed’s My Sacrifice (1 star) to be highly amusing. so for your enjoyment, i stole it.

“My sacrifice, indeed. It pained me to watch this video.

Somewhere in Scott Stapp’s vision of grandeur, he believes that there is a piece of paper, written mostly in old-world legalese, that says “In the event that Jesus cannot perform his Christly duties, it is hereby decreed that the lead singer of a crappy rock band should take over his role.” (Ed. Note: This piece of paper is currently in the private collection of U2’s Bono.)

I wonder how the Pope feels about Scott declaring himself as Jesus. I mean, it was obvious with the whole “Arms Wide Open” thing that he was gunning for the job of Savior. And now, well it looks like he just decided the job was his without anyone officially giving him the title. I can imagine the Pope watching this video and saying “who died and left him boss?” while watching Stapp invoke every symbol and image that is associated with Jesus.

Now, I’m an atheist. But even I know that somewhere in the ten commandments it says something about not worshiping false gods. I think this applies to self-worship, too. Bad, bad Scott. Breaking a commandment.

So you have the water images, the fish, the raising from the dead… all that’s missing is a dalliance with a questionable woman. I think the Pope might be, as we speak, writing a cease and desist letter to Creed. I mean, they may forgive him for his bizarre performance during that odd halftime show in the NFL playoffs, and they may forgive him for stealing from Pearl Jam (thou shalt not steal) but this video… I think Scott’s got a lot of repenting to do before they let this go.

reviewed by Michele C”

ROFLMAO omg that was so great.

 

 

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