2009 in review

2009 in review….

i don’t remember much…

a plane crashed in clarence.

i went to my last nine inch nails show.

then i went to my last nine inch nails show again.

and then i went to my last nine inch nails show again FOR REAL.

went on vacations to pittsburgh and west virginia, and chicago.

i had a successful veggie garden.

got to see u2 again with cassie.

michael jackson died.

russell died.

mike died.

got back in touch with many many old friends from the MJ days.

and i can’t remember much else haha.

*edits from my friends*
lee: you dreamed about a taco truck and a fat guy surfing on lake erie.
mike: you dreamed about me and mike meredith and played blackjack with the sabres

which reminds me: nkotb.

cassie: a duck stole your muffin

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas.

Wow it’s been a month since I last posted. I’ve had nothing to say really.

So one good thing that MJ’s death has brought, is getting back in touch with so many friends from “back in the day”. Facebook has made it so much easier to find eachother and stay in touch, and we’ve actually gone back to chat on IRC haha. One thing that has come out of all of it, is that I’m going to Los Angeles to meet up with Emily, who I haven’t seen since London 97, and Jackie who I never met. We’re trying to get some of the other “foos” to join us too. It just started as a whim road trip, doing the MJ “tour” of the star, cement hands, his grave…and ue-ing neverland. Disneyland came up, and the fact that I’d never been astounded Em and Jac and it became part of the trip too. We joked that it’d be awesome if Disney brought back Captain Eo…and LOW AND BEHOLD THEY ARE!!! It’ll be back playing starting in Feb, just in time for our trip (March 4-11)!!! SO EXCITED. AND…I am so excited about taco trucks hahahah. The whole trip is gonna be ridiculous fun. We’re gonna try to see the Price is Right, and get down to San Diego for Sea World too. Any other suggestions on things to do from people out in the area are welcome. I know pretty much nothing about LA since I never really had the desire to go haha.

I recently realized that this is the end of the decade, and that sorta amazed me. It feels like I was just with Carolyn in Toronto for the millenium, freezing watching fireworks. Time is flying for sure. 7 years at the casino, 6 more months until 30….I find new grey hairs every day. It’s stressing me out hahaha I’m going to stay 27 if that is ok.

nin tour song stats

there exists a site (nintourhistory.com) that makes counting how many times i saw certain nin songs alot easier than me going through all my setlists. so this didn’t cut and paste very well but here it is. btw, i changed 2 of them because the site has the Erie setlist wrong, they list march of the pigs twice instead of mr.self destruct so i fixed those 2 numbers.

Total Shows Attended 51
Total Unique Songs Seen Performed 97
Total Songs Seen Performed 1181

1 Ghosts I 2
1,000,000 11
17 Ghosts II 3
19 Ghosts III 7
21 Ghosts III 1
25 Ghosts III 1
31 Ghosts IV 7
5 Ghosts I 6
6 Ghosts I 1
8 Ghosts I 2
999,999 8
Atmosphere (Joy Division cover) 1
Banged And Blown Through (Saul Williams cover) 1
Beside You In Time 17
Burn 39
Closer 48
Complication 1
Corona Radiata 1
Dead Souls 13
Deep 2
Discipline 11
Down In It 9
Echoplex 10
Eraser 26
Even Deeper 12
Every Day Is Exactly The Same 7
Final Solution (Pere Ubu cover) 2
Gave Up 48
Get Down, Make Love 2
Getting Smaller 2
God Given 8
Gone, Still 2
Head Down 9
Head Like A Hole 51
Help Me I Am In Hell 15
Heresy 8
Home 6
Hurt 50
I Do Not Want This 3
I’m Afraid Of Americans (David Bowie cover) 3
In This Twilight 7
Into The Void 9
Just Like You Imaged 1
Kick In The Eye (Bauhaus cover) 1
La Mer 12
Last 7
Letting You 10
Lights In The Sky 1
Love Is Not Enough 17
March of the Pigs 51
Me, I’m Not 2
Meet Your Master 1
Metal 3
Mr. Self Destruct 10
No, You Don’t 8
Non-Entity 7
Now I’m Nothing 1
Only 40
Piggy 23
Pilgrimage 4
Pinion 27
Please 1
Reptile 22
Right Where It Belongs 15
Right Where It Belongs V2 1
Ruiner 4
Sin 13
Something I Can Never Have 20
Somewhat Damaged 11
Starfuckers, Inc. 8
Strange Kind Of Love (Peter Murphy cover) 1
Suck 33
Survivalism 22
Terrible Lie 44
The Becoming 3
The Beginning Of The End 7
The Big Come Down 17
The Collector 8
The Day The World Went Away 7
The Downward Spiral 2
The Fragile 3
The Frail 32
The Good Soldier 6
The Great Below 1
The Great Destroyer 3
The Greater Good 7
The Hand That Feeds 48
The Line Begins To Blur 23
The Mark Has Been Made 1
The New Flesh / Pinion 3
The Warning 6
The Way Out Is Through 2
The Wretched 25
Vessel 5
Wish 51
With Teeth 5
You Know What You Are? 23

Wish and March of the Pigs was played at every show, Hurt at all but one.

metallica buffalo

We only had tickets to the metallica show for, oh, 7 months, and it finally arrived. eric had gotten us floor seats, justifying it with “well it won’t be any worse than other pits we’ve been in”, and in the end it was the most ridiculous GA crowd i’ve ever been in. no it wasn’t rough, there was NO ONE AROUND US…the metallica stage is truly 360 (unlike u2), at center ice, with the crowd fully surrounding the set up. we had been hanging out in the parking lot since 3:15 but didn’t get in any lines until we saw them open the doors inside. we joined into a line which went super fast, and when we got in we could still get rail. that was a surprise to say the least. they really utilize their entire stage, with mics set up for james hetfield all around the stage, so no matter where you stood you were never really “in front” or “in back”. lars drum kit rotated, and the other 3 wandered around all night. but for some reason everyone clumped together in the traditional front and back of the stage. we were toward the side, hanging around with plenty of space. i actually left during the 2 openers to hang out with frank and jenn in the concourse, and when i went back after lamb of god finished i expected to have to fight to get back to eric and his friends – nope. walked right up, STILL. i was amazed. surely the floor would fill in by the time metallica started. nope. had so much room i could have danced like a freak all night and never touched anyone. ridiculous.

so as i said, i left during the openers so i have no comment. they were volbeat and lamb of god.

i am not familiar with a big chunk of metallica’s catalog, so this really was a show where i had absolutely no expectations. i could care less what they played cuz most i don’t know, and could just appreciate it as a sort of outsider. from beginning to end they were really together and on fire, and even tho i hate lars, he didn’t do a bad job hehe. they had pyro as expected (and no one started on fire! ha), which you could definitely feel the heat of on the floor. my only disappointment, if i could have one, was when they came out for the encore they started playing “bleeding me” (eric thinks it was “outlaw torn”) which is one of my favs from “load”, and for whatever reason lars stopped them all. they look confused about it too, but whatever. would have liked to hear that one (or “outlaw torn”, if eric is right, that one is great too).

1. That Was Just Your Life
2. The End Of The Line
3. Creeping Death
4. No Remorse
5. One
6. Broken, Beat And Scarred
7. Cyanide
8. Sad But True
9. Turn The Page (Bob Seger cover)
10. All Nightmare Long
11. The Day That Never Comes
12. Master Of Puppets
13. Damage Inc.
14. Nothing Else Matters
15. Enter Sandman
16. Blitzkrieg (Blitzkrieg cover)
17. Phantom Lord
18. Seek & Destroy

they stayed on stage quite long after “seek and destroy”, throwing out TONS of picks, and drum sticks (which lars wasted, by trying to lamely throw them into a bullseye sign someone had made, and kept missing). it was funny to walk out of the place watching people struggle to deflate the giant black metallica balls that came down from the roof during the last song. i walked out empty handed but that was fine with me, i’d rather have a true fan get souvenirs.

so it was a pretty good show. having hair to headbang with was sorta fun haha. would i pay so much to see them again, i’m not sure. i’m getting old and cheap haha.

oh and btw…my hot water tank exploded sometime between 6:30am and 2:30pm on monday. woke up and went to go to the basement as usual and the carpet was all wet. shit. so after a waterless day, a plumber came around 9pm to look at it, turned the water back on then came at 8am tues morning to replace it. so we’re back in business $1200 later.

Rolling Stones 1997!

for some reason or another i’ve been involved in a lot of talk about first concerts, and classic concerts, bands that don’t exist anymore and what not, and it got me wondering what the setlist was for my first Rolling Stones show in 97. god bless the internet

1. Satisfaction
2. It’s Only Rock’n Roll
3. Bitch
4. Let’s Spend The Night Together
5. Gimme Shelter
6. Sister Morphine
7. Anybody Seen My Baby
8. 19th Nervous Breakdown
9. Out Of Control
10. Memory Motel
11. Miss You
— Introductions —
12. All About You (Keith)
13. I Wanna Hold You (Keith)
14. Little Queenie (center stage)
15. Crazy Mama (center stage)
16. The Last Time (center stage)
17. Sympathy For The Devil
18. Tumbling Dice
19. Start Me Up
20. Honky Tonk Women
21. Jumping Jack Flash
22. Brown Sugar (encore)

This Is It

I ended up going to see the Michael Jackson movie, This Is It, by myself today. It was probably for the better, I didn’t cry, but quite a few times especially in the beginning I wanted to.

I don’t know where to start in “reviewing” it. I think it is a fascinating look into what goes into putting together a giant pop music spectacle. It’s also a great look at Michael as a person and as a brilliant performer. He knew exactly what he wanted from the band and the dancers and what was best for the “show”. (“it needs to simmer” haha) I think some people take it for granted, what a great talent he was. He wasn’t like pop singers now, who get songs handed to them, videos put together for them, and they just show up and do it. MJ had his hands in every aspect of his career – he wrote songs and music, he came up with video concepts, he choreographed, designed sets and costumes. He was an artistic genius, even if you are not a fan of pop music. The songs are just absolute classics, perfect pop songs. I forget sometimes. The movie showed him at his most comfortable, I think, at work, on stage doing what he loved. He was in control, he was himself. He was likeable, and not at all “weird”.

There were times where you could tell MJ was not giving it his all, since all this footage was just from rehearsals, and it was still fantastic. This was going to be a great show. I was so completely impressed at how much he actually sang. As MJ fans know (and Britney Spears fans ha), pop stars do not sing live alot. The HIStory tour was mostly lipsynched, and I expected that to hold true if these shows had ever happened. But nope, the majority of the songs they showed were sung live and were incredible. He still had quite the voice (though “black or white” seemed akward being sung high, same with the end of “earth song”). “Human Nature” is always a favourite of mine for showing off his voice and it didn’t disappoint. “The Way You Make Me Feel”, which I so badly wanted to see at my 2 HIStory shows, was great. “Thriller” had a funky cool ending and great visuals to go along with it. “Man in the Mirror” got to me, but like I said, I managed not to cry.

I wish they would have shown more of the aerialists and “pole dancers”, or mentioned what song they were performing in at the very least. That could have been amazingly cool (I can only hope it was “Who Is It”, since it was being played during that part, but I doubt it).

The filmed bits for songs like “Smooth Criminal” and “Thriller” were cool and had a musical theatre vibe to them that I liked. But I’m slightly disappointed that the routines were all from the past. For MJ wanting to give people something they hadn’t seen before, seems odd that there was no new choreography in the show. I understand it’s hard when these songs are so classic, with videos so iconic, people don’t want to see an all new routine for “Thriller” etc. I admit, I too want to see these iconic moves, but there are songs such as “They Don’t Care About Us” that didn’t have a hugely choreographed dance sequence, which could have been reworked from the HIStory tour routine, but totally wasn’t. Oh and I could TOTALLY DO WITHOUT THE GIANT BLACK WIDOW SPIDER! Jesus christ, that was unnecessary.

I hate the orange pants. LOL I just hate orange. He looked good, though skinny, but healthy and completely able to perform. If he was in pain, as he said before, from knees or whatever, you couldn’t tell. He looked happy, and proud of the show he was going to put on. I don’t understand why he wore wigs out in the media, his real hair, curly and pulled back looked so much better. The dancers all looked so ridiculously excited to be part of the show, I feel bad they weren’t able to get to London, but happy they got the chance to at least work with him in planning it all.

Everyone who ever liked any MJ song should see this. Anyone who ever paid attention to him, even if just for the “freak show”, should see this. Any dancer or aspiring pop star should see this.

Now the depressing part…We shouldn’t be seeing this, we should have been seeing it for real in London. Blame can be laid upon many people, like the thisisnotit campaign claiming it’s AEG’s fault he died, to my personal belief that if the autopsy report says he was healthy, he shouldn’t have died, but he did because Conrad Murray gave him propofol. (goddamnit when is he going to be arrested?!?!). MJ had a drug problem, he had a doctor problem, he had a yes man problem. Yes, I think as thisisnotit does, that people should have stepped in at some point, but when was that point? Just now when he agreed to the shows and was overworked, or years ago when he started having a drug problem? This might have happened without preparing for a tour, or without AEG, as these doctors prescribing him anything were around regardless. It’s sad, but I am sure this is going to happen again to some other pop star (Britney? take notes dear). I don’t know how to fix this hollywood problem of doctors doing whatever celeb patients want, but it need to be fixed or we’ll lose more and more of our stars. In the end, ultimately this is where I think the blame lies…MJ wasn’t addicted to street drugs, he was addicted to things he could get (and did get) from his doctors like Arnold Klein. People gave MJ whatever he wanted, seemingly without a care. Someone should have cared.

I don’t know what else to say.

*edit* MJ wore an awesome long (thigh length) black coat with a black cross on the back at one point. want. want so bad!

swine fluuu

i am not a doctor, but i don’t understand what the big controversy is about the swine flu shot. why are people scared of it? why are there suddenly concerns over risks? i see things about it having the potential to cause paralysis due to a certain ingredient that is made from/out of mercury. ok that does sound scary, but…the regular seasonal flu shot has the exact same ingredients, and the exact same risk of paralysis. it says so right on the consent form you sign when you get the regular flu shot (oh wait, i’m probably the only one who actually read all of it). people who get the flu shot every year are suddenly scared of this new shot. isn’t this shot EXACTLY THE SAME but with a different dead flu virus in it? (if it turns out it’s not the same, why not? seems like the regular flu method is pretty proven and would work for any flu virus).

is this fear completely a result of news media fear mongering? are people that suggestible? why do people insist on not believing their DOCTORS when they explain the concept of flu shots?

i don’t understand NY state medical professionals opposing forced swine flu shots. why would you oppose that? you work in medicine, you know all about how these things work, and you know you are going to be exposed to this flu and probably get it. why would you risk getting it and passing it along to more people?

is this all related to some ridiculous fox news fear that the government is trying to control the population through swine flu injections? the thought of that is absolutely absurd. why are people suddenly scared of government population control under Obama, when this was more likely (tho still absurd) under Bush/Cheney? (an aside, my father told me he heard a political joke being told at work – a rerun joke, if you will, from the Bush era – one that makes NO SENSE when applied to Obama “An aid told Obama that a bomb had gone off in Afghanistan and 2 Brazillians were lost. Obama replied, “how much is a brazillian again?”…just a note to republicans, that joke only makes sense if your president is RETARDED).

i just don’t get it. i got my regular flu shot on saturday, and if i am able to i will get the swine flu shot too. i handle money that has been peed on, not to mention the chips and people who blow their nose in their hands, and the degenerate gamblers who could be on their death bed but would still come in and gamble. if swine flu gets as bad as it is estimated to, i will get sick for sure.

dream

dreamed i decided to be Duckie from Pretty in Pink for halloween, and apparently i worked or went to school with molly ringwald, and I convinced her to be herself so that my costume would make sense ha.

dream

dream: my parents and i decided to go to church, so we went to the one on nash that i went to pre-school at when i was 4. i think they are methodist. it ended up being way bigger on the inside than you thought it was seeing it from outside. the altar was in the center of the room, with 4 sections of seats making a shape of the cross. for some reason i sat by myself. the service started and everyone stood up to sing, except me and my dad. i stayed seated and apparently i was sitting wrong because a lady across the aisle started moving my feet and positioning them in the correct way, i guess to worship jesus. when i left the church all 4 of my tires had been slashed. i guess the church didn’t approve of me and my sitting.

fun in court

today was my day in small claims court, cuz my exbf owed me money. court was supposed to start at 9:30 and i got there maybe 9:10, first one there. a few people came in, and there appeared to be 4 cases. we’re waiting and waiting, and surprise, he didn’t show up. quite expected. the judge comes out around 10 and says that no one there had paired up yet, so he wouldn’t be able to dismiss any cases legally until 10:30. yep, none of the 2nd parties showed up so 2 cases were dismissed cuz the person doing the suing didn’t show, and that left me and a guy from a car place who’s defendants didn’t show. still had to go up to the judge to discuss the situation, and i showed him the note i had The Degenerate sign proving that i loaned him the money (the judge seemed surprised that i had a note haha). needless to say, i won. i guess they send stuff to me in the mail about getting my money.

it was irritating though. i understand people being late because of traffic or whatever, but to have to wait an hour to see if someone is going to show up is a bit ridiculous. of any place that should value promptness it should be court, and if you don’t have enough respect to plan ahead and get to court on time, they shouldn’t have to wait for you.