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canal fest never ceases to amaze me. the amount of disgusting people there was overwhelming. but yeah. it always amazes me. when you think it can’t get any worse(better) it does. we saw some fine specimines tonight. including 2 hashbrown guy who wouldn’t let us take his picture last year. haha. so eric, danielle and i spent the evening walking around, and sitting on the bridge. we played the “gum game” once, which was a mighty fine time.

canal fest is also quite depressing. we see the usual NTHS trash walking around. this year included 2 of the more trashy white trash folk from high school – both with brand new babies. ok, the one girl is the rat faced girl who shares my birthday. the other one is this really ugly fat girl, who no matter how much she weighed, she’d always be ugly. both had really young babies. HOW DOES THIS HAPPEN!? WHO FUCKS THAT?! AND HOW DO I NOT HAVE A BOYFRIEND?! lol

but anyway, good time as always. after that we went to dennys on maple but it was closed til 2 am, so we went to IHOP instead. change is good lol.

 

sara’s amazing ab workout = get bronchitis

ok, since i have no memory i don’t know what my plans are for the next two months. if anyone remembers something i’m supposed to be doing, that isn’t on this list, let me know.
aug 4-6 = toronto for david bowie
aug 25 = tool in hamilton
that’s all i remember lol. i just need to know so i can request off more days if i need to. for some reason i think i was supposed to be doing something else…

i got called for another job from posting my resume online. this time from teletech (or something) who do customer service for verizon. i said no right away to the sales position, but the other position is straight out customer service. working the fones for people who have questions i guess. i told her i’d call back. it’s 9$ an hour, 40 hrs a week. i don’t really want to do that….grrr. hate this job crap. my neighbor down the street apparently got me an application for M&T banks offices, and i’d rather just work in an office than have to deal with customer service on the telephone. i hate the fone lol.

i was looking for cds to buy on half.com. i feel guilty that i haven’t bought untouchables yet, but no one has it cheap enough for me lol. looked for tea party too, but nothing cheap. and i don’t understand how people can charge so much for tool’s Opiate… it’s an EP for gods sake!!! it is not worth 12$!!!!!! it’s not worth 8!!!! 7.99 plus shipping was the lowest on half.com. insane. still no opiate for me.

 

i downloaded the pre-release of netscape 7. it’s hideous. it looks like i’m on a mac. and when will people realize, macs suck. it still doesn’t read my css right…it’s just awful. i tried it because i hoped that the mail program would be nice. it had what i’m looking for, multiple account setup, but it just looks hideous. so i’ll stick with netscape 4.7 for my email.

and i realized that jeff martin DOES sing different lyrics in heaven coming down than all the typed up lyrics ive found…and it’s the real lyrics, not the ones in the book, that really struck me at the show. i found this really great mp3 of temptation live, but it’s cut off, of course…arg. i found depeche mode live at kroq 1998, and of course, can’t download it. arg.

i told my mom about how my one manager at work reminds me of my cousin warren. she asks me how tall he is, and i was like he’s shorter than me. she’s like, you always like short guys. i was like ?!?!?! where’d that come from. did i say i liked him? no. she’s like, well you could date him. haha. first off he’s got a girlfriend, secondly, he’s like 30 (to which my mom replies, that’s not too old for you…?!?!?), and third, HE REMINDS ME OF MY COUSIN and that’d just be gross. lol. i forgot to mention that there’s this kid at work, who lives in NT also, who reminds me of Ed Norton.

 

canal fest day 2. i forgot alot of what i was going to say about it now. eric, danielle and i headed over for the parade. i think this year is the first year i’ve sat there through the entire parade. LOL. we were standing behind old people who ended up moving, so we got to sit on the railing of the bridge. we kept giving candy to the girls that were standing behind us. i only wanted the double bubble gum lol. the parade was the usual. of course everything has special meaning after sept 11th, so everytime a military, police, or fire company walked by everyone clapped. someone in the area bought a fire truck that responded to the WTC on sept 11th on ebay for $6,500 so that was in the parade. some fire company made a really nice float of an american flag with black WTC on it, and then had people posing like that famous “Raising the flag at WTC” picture. some politician was giving out mardi gras beads, but when they walked by they didn’t give any to anyone… so i screamed that i was a registered voter…still didn’t get any beads, so someone is not getting my vote.

speaking of politicians tho, i finally got to see the hot county coroner LOL. danielle’s been telling me about him for 4 years now, and i finally saw him. her dad was working at the republican tent today so we went to get free drinks, and the coroner was there. yeah, he’s hot. i was staring at him, and he looked at me then away, then back at me and i was still staring at him, and he looked away then back at me AGAIN and i was STILL staring at him LOL. then the 3 of us were standing with our drinks, and he comes over and just goes “Hi” and walks away LOL. it was great.

we saw more people from high school, people actually worth talking to. found out some gossip (which is the whole point of going to canal fest) and guess who else i saw…psycho ex boyfriend. and he has 2 kids now. a girl and a boy. he’s got long hair, goatee, but looks the same. seeing him made me want to throw up. just purely due to the fact that i dated that piece of shit.

hmm what else. i bought devil horns. hehe they light up. unfortunately, i was secretly hoping to run into a certain someone from work. grrrrr make it stop. lol we didn’t go to the beer tent cuz it was super jam packed. there were 2 marching bands in there playing, and tons of other people. and it’s just not that important to us lol. maybe tomorrow, i work til 6 again. which means i’ll probably leave at 4:30 lol.

i am so good at not having feelings it’s kinda scary. i’ve pretty much irradicated the “crush”. it didn’t even occur to me to wonder if he was going to be at work today until halfway through my shift when i saw on the list that he came in at 5. then when he came in (again i got sent home as he walked in the door practically), there was only a slight moment of uh..whatever you want to call it…noticing him, i guess.

anyway. work was slow. everyone was getting sent home. the really hot kid was serving today, and it bugs the hell out of me that i can’t figureout who he reminds me of. he was wearing glasses today. oh and he has a tongue ring lol he could possibly be one of the hottest people i’ve ever met lol. besides that nothing real eventful happened today. this guy came in with an Elevation tour shirt on, so i was like hey i like your shirt. talked to him for a few minutes – he was british, and hadn’t seen any of the elevation shows but had seen u2 3 times, once during the lovetown tour (joshua tree era). so that was cool. there is a mandatory host meeting on friday morning at 9:30…yeah i have off friday, and now i have to get my ass up at 8 to get to work for the meeting. arg. so not showering or anything (even tho i was bad and realized that work-boy would have to be there too, so i should look nice, i’m ignoring that thought lol).

this week brings the *greatest* week of the entire summer – Canal Fest. lol can you understand my sarcasm? lol. the parade is tomorrow so i’ll probably end up going for that…maybe this year i’ll actually venture into the beer tent. hahahaha. i actually would like to take some black and white nitetime shots of the insanity, but i still have a roll of color film in my camera…

went downtown with eric and adrienne tonight. went to an irish pub bar near chippewa. they had a live band playing, cheap cover charge, so it was cool. it wasn’t all clubby and blah. ran into jon (joe’s friend), so talked to him for a bit which was cool since i haven’t seen him in a long long time. we had a good time.

i feel kinda weird. i mean i’m sick, and can barely breathe. i’m hoping this doesn’t turn into bronchitis again like 2 years ago when i was on my death bed for 2 months (but still went to work every day even tho i couldn’t breathe or talk). but then i feel mentally weird too. i’m just really tired of everything. i’m tired of this area. i need a change. i’m sure i’ll get over this by like, tomorrow, but…i dunno. i’m just not all that happy i guess. i think that ties into why the song hit me at the concert last night. but not sure, since i swear he sings different lyrics live than any of the ones i’ve found….whatever.

and i pretty much have no voice… sick, concert, yelling at work so i could be heard, yelling at the bar and in the car so i could be heard.. not happy throat.

 

wow i really feel like shit. i’m not sure i could possibly be more tired without being dead. and i slept ok last night too (after i got up at 3 am to try to find cough medicine in the dark – since i couldn’t breath laying down without coughing). if i didn’t call in wednesday, and if i wasn’t closing tonight, i might have called in today. my head is pounding despite taking excedrine, coughing is driving me nuts. but at least i’ll have stronger abs when this is over. blah. so tired…

 

eric and i were talking today, and something came up that seems pretty appropriate.
eric: feelings suck
me: yeah, that’s why i pretend i don’t have any
and that’s what i’m going back to now. forget this “crush” bullshit because it’s only going to turn out the same way it always does, and it’s never been a good way. the way i see it, there’s 2 outcomes. 1 – it’s going to end up the same way things did with tim. even if i started hanging out with work-boy, i know i’d fall for him, and nothing would ever happen except me feeling like shit about it, and being in emotional pain anytime i’d have to see him. 2 – i keep thinking that i have a crush on him, and he continues to not really realize i’m alive, leading to the whole pain bit for me again. i don’t really want to deal with the way i get when i like someone and nothing is happening. in my experience it is never worth it. so from this point on, i don’t have a crush on him, and i’m not going to go out of my way to try to make anything happen.

so work today was interesting i guess. 3 mentally retarded people got lost LOL (i can laff cuz i’m going to hell anyway)…well they might not have been lost, but they dissapeared and the group couldn’t find them…they were missing for like 3 hours. state park police and the city police were searching for them. haha. the “chuck norris wanna-be” security guard from the buffalo orgy show, and static x at waterstreet came in tonight. i wanted to ask him if he did concert security, but i’m almost positive it was him. lol. what else…talked to one of the bartenders who used to live on wurlitzer drive. he lived near this bitchy girl from highschool and he said her mom was one of those neighbors who was always spying on them, and then telling his mother what he was doing bad haha. then he asked if i knew this kid john, and i’m like yeah i live across the street from him. so it was cool to talk to him, since he is really intimidating. hahah. pretty much everyone intimidates me there. we’ve also gotten a whole bunch of new videos to play…they played “falling away from me” today, and “it’s been a while” besides the other new vids. more good stuff than bad. haha anyway, i got to go home at 10 instead of when we closed, which was nice since i’m dying. i drank some cough meds before, but they’ve worn off now. i was choking on the way home.

on the way home i saw a shooting star. i was going 70, and it was bright enough to catch my attention. it was pretty cool. too bad i don’t believe in signs, and omens, or i could interpret that as a good thing.

random: listening to korn makes me really paranoid. haha.

alright, this “crush” as everyone keeps calling it is getting out of hand. i saw him for not even 5 minutes today (he came in, i got to leave) and i’m like gah your so cute. i had an excuse to touch him, and the fact that i noticed that, and actually touched him is super bad hahah. ug. i hate this.

anyway. work was fine. pretty slow for most of the day, given it was a beautiful saturday afternoon. there were 5 hosts on?!?!? so needless to say, we were cut left and right. i had the choice to leave early twice but i wanted to stay for 2 reasons. i managed to stay til 5:30. good enough i guess. i am so tired. i have off tues and friday again next week. i haven’t worked a friday yet lol. i close thurs, sat and sun. saturday is gonna suck. i hate having to stay til 1. *ahem* and i do not get to work with a certain someone *ahem* cuz yes, i checked *ahem*

i’m about to drop dead of starvation, so need some grub NOW

if i had a genie to grant me wishes right now, my first wish would be to be healthy. whatever i had yesterday turned itself into a major sore throat. it feels swollen almost shut, and now i’m coughing too. besides my killer headache. ug. i have to work at 5, i feel like dying cuz i’m so tired.

so yesterday. after i got out of bed, sat around for a bit. had dinner, went to walmart. carolyn and i got free candy and pop for filling out credit card applications hehe. she bought dirty dancing on dvd, so we watched the extra stuff, and picked random scenes of the movie. we watched the bonus material on se7en too. i forgot how amazingly pitiful brad pitt sounds at the end of that movie. it’s great. i have to watch the whole thing again sometime soon. and the depeche mode dvd haha. we watched the hidden track on the dvd, of martin gore singing in the dressing room while putting on makeup…he’s not wearing any pants haha.

i am not at work. why? because i’m sick. i had to call in. 5 years i worked at mcds and called in once. i work a week and a half at hard rock and already have to call in. i talked to james, he seemed pissed off. i’m so not lying tho. i didn’t fall asleep til sometime after 4. between 4 and 6am someone decided to make cotton candy out of my intestines, and swirl them around with a big stick. not happy. took medicine in hopes i’d be better by the time i had to go to work. no luck. ug. so i went back to bed to try to sleep between being hunched over in pain. my mom just came to wake me up and see if i was ok, which i am sorta. better than before. she went to a bakery with carolyn. i guess i’m going to try to get dressed and stuff now. blah.

on a better note. there is more evidence that tapeworm will get done this year. 7 or so more pictures on the tapeworm site of trent and the boys working in the studio. and yes, it is josh from APC haha. and sepultura is covering u2’s “bullet the blue sky”….

carolyn is here. when danielle and i went to pick her up at 10:30, the rainbow bridge was backed up completely across the bridge back into the US. when we were at the bridge at 11:00 to go back to the states…no cars. haha. it’s like they magically disappeared. anyway. i’m going to try to win tickets and backstage passes for me and carolyn to see rob zombie at showplace tomorrow night. lol. last time i tried this i did win. i work 11-6 tomorrow, which gives me enough time to get home, change, and go to showplace. if i don’t win, no big deal, i know even less rob zombie songs than i know david bowie songs hahaha. but if we do go, it’ll be carolyn’s 2nd time seeing rob zombie. hah. yeah, i guess she’s going home thurs morning before i go to work. i work at 12 on thursday. i think haha.

i was gonna make carolyn help me wash the car, but it rained and i dunno if it’s going to rain more. dunno we’ll see. need food now. and whatever we do, we have to leave 12-1 open to win the tix

 

new korn video for “Thoughtless” – very strange, very cool. the kid who got picked on was hot.
tool video for “parabola” – insane, as always.

i switched shifts with rachel at work on thursday, so now i work 5-close instead of the swing shift (which is fantastic, cuz i hate the swing shift)…sad thing is i can’t remember who rachel is haha. i know i worked with her once, but no idea what she looks like at the moment.

ok i need to get to bed. worked late tonight, early tomorrow morning. i finally got tested, and got my pin for “passing” lol. i just wanted the damn pin, since i’m a pin junkie (see also: mcds visor). work was fine i guess. i hate night shifts tho, because it dies around 10 and the last 2/3 hrs draggggggg. there is this guy who works there who i love. i probably shouldn’t so i’ll have to stop myself. but i’m super intimidated by him, even tho he’s sorta been talking to me the past 2 days. i got to wear his watch yesterday, and it was the nicest watch ever (cuz i don’t have a watch fetish or anything either lol). he’s got great hair haha. ok STOP now! oh, and i decided that girl gymnasts are the most annoying people ever!

carolyn might be visiting the next few days. but i have no idea. parents are finally home. i guess they had a good time. who knows since they were sleeping when i got home.

 

i got out of work early today! left at 4:30 instead of 6. it was pretty slow, we were really only waiting for tables because they couldn’t clean them off fast enough.

carolyn is coming to visit either tonight at 11, or tomorrow at 10am. i’d rather have her come tonight, so i can sleep in tomorrow hahaha. i’m gonna make her help me wash my car tomorrow :). i can barely see out of my windshield cuz there are so many bugs on it.

i tried to steal someones car today. when i left work, i went to where i parked, put my key in the lock…..it wouldn’t turn. i’m like wtf. yeah it wasn’t my car LOL. it was the same color, but a corolla not a prizm. i was like, that’s not the same symbol that’s on my steering wheel hahah. that’s why the door wouldn’t unlock hehe.

i appologize for the extreme boringness of my blog lately. now that i work, that’s all i have to talk about lol. i have a new layout almost finished. i don’t feel like finishing it, because i’m still so inlove with that trent pic i dont want to change my site yet….

yay mtv2!! if all is right, i’m currently taping the u2 video timeline. of course i don’t understand how to work our new vcr, cuz it’s retarded, and i’m not sure how it all works with the digital cable. i do know that i can’t change the channel while it’s taping. which is gay.

anyway. i guess i’m not going to vanilla ice on friday. eric is going out with his sister and her friends for her birthday instead. i can’t go by myself..1) i only go to shows by myself if they’re bands i really like and cannot miss, 2) have no idea how to get to the venue. i don’t know my way around rochester. blah

i’m using my dad’s laptop again. i hate laptops. i cannot type on them to save my life.

i have to go to work in an hour. my head is killing me. i went out with eric to target, frizbees etc. found something for carolyn, and found u2 promo of summer rain. love frizbees.