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another super saturday night in high limit blackjack. myyyy favourite.

today was highly uneventful. i sat home til work since i got up so late. i think i need to actually leave the house tomorrow and do some shopping. and get gas. cuz i have zero.

i finished “geek love” the other day. definitely a twisted story. very cool though. i liked it. it’s not really like anything i’ve ever read before. just, the story, plot, characters…very different and creative. i liked it. and it was about circus freaks…!!! there are some weird coincidences…like chucky p talks about the book and author in “fugitives and refugees”…there is a character in the book called the bag man. he wears veils and things around his face cuz he shot it off with a rifel…much like…er exactly like, the main character of “invisible monsters”…i wonder if that was delibrate on chucky p’s part.

now i think i’ll try the other book of the chucky p-esque author that carolyn gave me for whatever holiday. it’s called “crash”. i think it’s actually a novel, and not a collection of short stories like the other one i wasn’t terribly fond of or impressed by. i’ve got so many books to read.

i was talking to the guy who told me i looked like anime, the same day brian sent me the link to that cartoon site cuz the character looked like me. he said i should seriously look into a lawsuit LOL. i’m like um…it’s not like on seinfeld when the mannequins looked exactly like elaine. he says he knows a really good laywer, this guy who represents the googoo dolls and other artists in the area, and charges 500$ an hour if you win the case, who would sue the cartoon ppl for me LOL. maybe if i need some cash i’ll look into it hahah. i could pay off all my school loans haha.

 

it’s official. i’ve gotten the summer cold. my throat hurts like a mofo.

i’ve read 15 pages of “crash” and it’s already the most fucked up thing i’ve ever read. so far, the main premise is getting sexually aroused from car crashes. great. i’m so biased towards this author cuz of the “war fever” book, that i have a feeling i’m not going to like this book. and i don’t think i’d ever like to know the author in real life. i’m getting the impression he’s a bit of a wack job. oh well.

off to walmart and stuff

 

both heather and carolyn complained to me that they’re not getting emails. it seems i’ve now been afflicted too. i don’t think i’m getting everything i should be getting, so if someone wrote to me and i haven’t answered…that’s why. i haven’t gotten it. i also can’t seem to send any email today, through adelphia’s mail servers…i can through icenine webmail.

and speaking of icenine, my business cards finally arrived. yay. i’m a professional now.

i can’t go to walmart without spending tons of money. i went to buy some face meds, a barbie doll, and a congrats card for latitia’s new baby. i ended up buying a comforter set, and speakers for my comp. and FUCK i forgot to use my coupon on the face meds. the comforter is black and white with chinese symbols and dragons on it. i liked the red chinese red one my mom tried to order for me, but was discontinued, so this will do for now. it was only 40$ and it comes with pillow shams and dust ruffle. i didn’t buy the sheets, cuz i am just gonna use the red sheets. step one in trying to have a completely black and white (and red) bedroom. i also got a cheap 3 ring binder, and some velveteen fabric (to use with all our pleather fabric we bought for pillow making), to make a nice cool album to show my photos at the fundraiser. hooray for me.

i wonder if my new speakers will work with my sub…same company. since i dunno what part of my current speaker system is broken, maybe i can still use the sub with these new speakers…ah the return of sound. looking at my sub maybe the fuse went…then i wasted 15 bux on these new speakers lol.

amanda did write back. she wants me to call her, cuz she doesn’t have reliable internet access to do the email thing. but i slept too late today to call today. oh well. so glad we’re sorta back in touch though.

worked 8-4. jenn and i switched games so i could be on roulette instead of in high limit blackjack, then i got taken off my roulette game to stack chips all night. that was less than stellar. then got sent to high limit anyway, to send jenn home haha. went to the bar after. i wasn’t going to stay long, but stayed til 6:30. there was this whole thing with brendan wanting to come home with me, but i didn’t think it would be a good idea. i was told by someone that i have a very distinctive look. i asked if it was a good or bad thing, they said for me, it was good. i took that as a very nice compliment. slept til 3:30. yay me.

this kid at work, rocco, is going to go to the lacuna coil/anthrax show in rochester on wednesday with me. it might be slightly weird. we were in mini bacc class together, so we’ve talked, and he’s a roulette dealer so we’ve talked about that. but like…3 hours in a car might be a bit ackward. but that’s ok. i don’t have to go by myself anymore.

i have a phone number written down here, and i don’t know whos it is. hah. i suppose i could call and find out, but i’ll pass on that. 614…where is that? that’s not the area code, thats first 3 digits. oh it’s NCCC. nm haha.

i rejoined the LC mailing list to see if someone bootlegged the toronto show, like they did the may show…and they did. yay. so i’ll get to have my first bootleg of a show i actually attended since u2. now i just need new speakers for my comp.

got more scary horoscopes today…and i had wacky tornado dreams again. not the first time recently either. anyone who says they’re not stress/changing life dreams is full of it haha. i only get them when things in my life are changing…like freshman year in college when i was having them 3 to 4 times a week.

got sick around 4am. i was starving, since all i ate was the steak sandwich with brendan. but i felt sick, had to puke, nothing to puke up… always love dry heaves. i ate one of adr’s yogurts so my stomach wouldn’t eat itself, went back to bed. got sick again. great. slept til 10.

straightened stuff out with NCCC. they’re voiding the check i sent, and sending it back to me. so i have my 418$ back. 2 weeks til class starts. or a week and a half…i hope they have good facilities, good dark room and stuff. i was telling adr, if they have a crappy dark room, and have to develop film in bags instead of a pitch black room, i’m paying the 2$ to color tech to develop my film for me. i hate developing film. it’s the worst part of the whole process. time consuming and messy, and if done in bags, annoying as hell.

i haven’t gotten my APC ticket in the mail yet. bah.

so anyway. i am now the proud recipient of another magazine i never subscribed to – This Old House magazine. super. and i got the new issue of Time, and I forget who mentioned it, i think it was brian, that he couldn’t wait to see the next issue. i stupidly thought, why? is there something cool gonna be in it?…he goes, no, the blackout. and what’s on the cover? BLACKOUT hahah. he’s psychic!!

i need to do laundry. before lunch i gotta call stupid NCCC because they sent me the tuition bill for the class last week. it said return with payment. so yesterday i mailed them a check for 418$. today i get a proof of payment statement, saying they charged it to my credit card. so they now have $836 of my money. and i’m getting it back damnit!

my hands are so dirty from work, ug, need to scrub them.

so…been meaning to kind of mention it. it’s been a year since i started dating nate. it sort of blows my mind to think how fast it went. i’m not sure i recognize who i was a year ago. i’m not sure if that’s good or bad. 3 more months and he’ll have been gone for a year already. time really seems to be flying. even the first few months he was gone, looking back, they flew too. i don’t remember time feeling like it went that fast before.

another part of this…is a weird coincidence. all my relationships, whatever you want to call them, all started in summer. met psycho in summer, were dating by winter. met tim in the summer, had whatever we had in august. met ian in summer, started dating this time 1999. met nate in summer, started dating a year ago this week

my internet sucked so bad last night and this morning. i think it was smote. so fishy laid her hands on my modem and healed it. now it works great. that fishy’s got magical powers i tell you.

 

so…last night. casino niagara still closed, until further notice. roulette!!! yay. and it was super busy, it was great, had so much fun, made lots of tips. all good. this girl was helping me out cuz i had piles and piles of chips to pick up after each spin. so we’re talking and she asked me if i was a dancer, because of the way i stand. i said no, but that brendan had asked me the same thing a few weeks ago (but my first thought was exotic dancer, for whatever reason, and that made me laugh).

 

anyway. i’ve just about narrowed down the pictures i want to print for the show. still debating on how to show them, but i’m thinking now some kind of album would be better. cuz i’m going to take my dad’s pictures too…and it’ll be easier to transport and set up etc. i’ll have to look for some kind of nice album.

 

congrats to eric who finally got a job hahah.

i went nutso today and bought all kinds of pictures of old 20s/30s movie stars. girls. not guys. all glam and stuff. of course the one i really wanted was no longer available but that’s ok.

i think there were other things i was going to say, but i can’t remember anymore. gah. i need to find something for dinner other than ice cream.

i was on pai gow last night…only 5 weeks after i finished the class. needless to say i was a bit rusty. fucked up commissions all night. if they put me on minibacc i’m going to tell them i don’t think i can do it. i’ve forgotten it all.

it was a busy night again, with casino niagara closed. hopefully we made some decent tips. of course it would figure we make decent tips on the week i only had 4 days. oh well.

10-6 is the worst shift ever. and it’s especially bad when you’re in high limit, and it’s 400 degrees in there, and the pit boss is watching your every move. something was severely wrong with the AC/ventilation today. it was beyond hot inside, and you could see the smoke cloud hanging above the flags – which never happens. the ventilation in that place is amazing…except for today. and casino niagara was closed again – is closed til monday – so we were hella busy again. the high limit room is never busy, and it was busy tonight. sweated my ass off. so exhausted, but i can’t fall asleep yet. gotta wait for my meds to kick in first.

i didn’t do much today. brian came by around 6 to go look for barns. hung out here after til i had to get ready for work. good times. apparently i’m a good barn finder haha.

if i wake up in time to accomplish anything, maybe i’ll get my hair dyed. we’ll see. gotta find out what’s going on with the family on monday.

 

red hair red hair, i love you red hair. i think i did a pretty damn good job on my hair, considering i did it myself. well…i can’t see the back but i’m assuming there are no big brown patches that i missed. i don’t understand how my mom is the only person who seems to run out of dye when doing my hair, even when it was short. she’d always miss spots cuz she used too much in other stupid places. i went out and bought good colorvive shampoo, so hopefully this won’t fade as fast as every other time.

 

something i thought was funny about ozzfest…or ozzfest just made me think of it. but…how much of a 360 adr and danielle have taken. in high school when i was listening to antichrist superstar all the time, adr was having none of the mansony-goodness. when danielle and i started living together at school, she was not into anything that i liked. now…we go to ozzfest and they’re both disappointed that manson wasn’t allowed to play. haha.

gotta make some dinner soon

well we had power, but no internet today. ok the power went out again between 9 and 10 am. the shutting off of all the noisy appliances (AC, fan, fridge) woke me up. and someone called at that ungodly hour of 9am, but hung up when i answered the fone. fuckers making me get out of bed. the noisy appliances, and my cell phone turning on when the power went back on, woke me up again. plus another phone call that i was not about to get out of bed for, and the answering machine didn’t pick up for whatever reason – rang about 15 times. arg. everyone should know by now, don’t call here before noon.

anyway. so i had no internet once i got up. what to do with myself all day long. well i ran out of eyeliner, so i headed out to target, bought some crap. stopped at dots and bought myself some clothes – yet another pair of black pants, more casual and light than my other 5000 pairs, and yet another black skirt, knee length but with a cool zipper all the way down the front.

back home i played with the modem trying to get it to work, no luck. so i tried to call adelphia. there was no dial tone. i hung up, turned it on again, no dial tone. then someone said hello. haha. it was brendan. the phone never rang on my end. i think our phone is fucked up cuz it does that alot. like half rings, but then takes forever for a 2nd ring. he wanted to come over to repot my plants (and no that is not a sexual metaphor). called adelphia after that. it was kind of funny. basically their message said “if you are in any of these states *all the state in the black out*, you probably don’t have internet, or have intermittent internet, or slow internet. we know. so hang up now”. okies.

so brendan came over and we went to get pots and dirt and stuff, i ended up buying hair dye cuz it was cheap. hung out here for a few hours, went to get dinner, then he went to work.

work was actually pretty busy because 1. we were giving away bills season tickets, and home opener tickets, and 2. casino niagara was closed. i was on roulette, which was a good thing. i’m 10-6 tomorrow tho, suckage.

tony and jenn are probably going to go to APC with me. jenn said she’d put in a request off form for that day, and tony should have the day off normally, and said he’d go. so that’s cool.

and cyndi fucking lauper is playing at the casino on the 26th. i so totally want to go. i’m going to try to switch my days around that week, so i can have tues/wed off for cyndi lauper, and lacuna coil. CYNDI LAUPER! lol craziness

i dunno what’s going on for the weekend. gotta email brian about exploring, then brendan wants to get together either sun or mon (his days off)…and my uncle ed and aunt laurice are coming in monday night, and i’m not sure if i’m supposed to have dinner at the parents house or if they’re just going to come to the casino to see me. gotta find out.

my parents came over to shove shit into my freezer, since they had no power and i did. that was around 10. eric came over too. he got a call around 11:30 that the power was back up in wurlitzer park, so i guess mom will come by in the morning to get her food. i had to defrost my film to make room hahah.

jenn called at some point too. she was trying to get people together to do something, but didn’t know what. cuz the casino was shut down. no one who was scheduled had to go in. they’re reopening at 6am i guess. crazy blackout.

 

i’ve got a massive headache all of a sudden, so its time for bed.