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i wasted my money and bought a 3 pack of those listerine strips. well i lost the one pack already. i figured i could take them to work cuz we can’t chew gum. but somewhere i lost it. hopefully it’s in the car…

but whoever thought of them? who thought, let’s make this stuff that is super concentrated mouthwash and put it on a strip that dissolves on your tongue? my first encounter with them was at the 103.3 christmas party when orgy played. orgy was handing out promo orgy packs of them. gay nate offered me one, and i was like wtf is it, is it drugs? he was a known druggie, so it wouldn’t have surprised me. it was the weirdest thing. then there’s the whole ozzy incident “it’s not gum!!”

anyway. i was on roulette relief last night. i was going to leave early, til i saw my schedule and i had a good placement, and it was holiday pay. but by midnight i was so tired, i signed the list to get out. i didn’t think i would cuz i was the last one on the list, but i got out at quarter to 2. not bad. i’m so tired again. maybe class will be short today. we’ll see.

 

i got my 100 box of crayons with the 4 new shades, and the “Vote for the shade to keep”….4 of 5 old shades have to say good bye to make room for the 4 new shades (which are ugly). the 5 shades you can get rid of are…blizzard blue, which is considered one of the flourescent colors, never colored very well anyway…magic mint, again, a flourescent…i’m ambivalent to it. teal blue…mulberry, which i like, and…BURNT SIENNA!!!!! how could they?! how could they even dare to get rid of burnt sienna. without burnt sienna my entire crayon essay is destroyed!! to add insult to injury, the online voting for the colors ended on the 31st!!! i can’t even try to help out poor burnt sienna…….besides that, the 4 new colors…one looks just like mulberry, one is another light blue color, one is this hideous semi-flourscent green, and a kind of bright orange. i might have to update my crayola essay, because what the hell is cerise?!? it’s a red crayon of some sort…

so i got my crayons, but i forgot coloring books. so i had to stop at d&k on the way home and got myself some 19 cent coloring books for little kids. haha. they rock.

first day of school. off to a good start. i got there, and a kid comes over and says, it looks like you would like one of these, and gives me a flyer…for a piercing parlor LOL. i thought that was amusing. i get in the building, and look for room 147…146….148…wtf is 147. IT DOESN’T EXIST. i hear my name, turns out my old neighbor jenny sidoni is in the class, and all the people are standing outside since room 147 doesn’t exist. it’s a small class, only 16 people. my geneseo class was probably 25. seems like it’ll be a decent class. but i can tell it’s going to be at a somewhat lower level than my first class. he’s requiring 4-8 rolls of film for the semester…um…yeah i take like 8 a weekend. hahah. i didn’t look into the hand outs yet, he said he’s going to give us an assignment sheet at some point anyway.

the bad thing is that i don’t think we’re gonna get in the dark room before the fundraiser, or with enough time for me to print my own fundraiser photos. i think i might go through my negatives and get 4×6 reprints of the ones that are going to go in the album, then wait and see how things in class are going, so i can maybe do the 8x10s myself. but we’ll see.

work tonight at 7. i’ve got a massive headache. i think flourscent lights give me headaches. i have to sort my crayons now. i think tony and i are gonna go up to casino niagara tomorrow night after my oil gets changed.

and no one understands the whole vacation thing at work…no one knows what to do, when to do it, blahblahblah. someone is calling HR today to find out details, like if we can switch vacations. cuz kevin doesn’t even want vacation, but he’s at the front of the list and said he’d ask for the weeks i want, so that if i don’t get them we could trade. that’d be great if we could do that. i’ll just have to wait and see i guess.

 

it’s decided. when leighanne and i take our urbex trip down to philly for eastern state pen, and asbury park, for all the asbury goodness, we have to stop at the crayola factory. the end.

and i realized when we take this trip, we’re gonna need like 40 rolls of film. all that asbury goodness.

and hands down, i found my all time favourite crayon name…”woodstock mud brown”

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there is a new 100 box of crayola crayons, with the whole “name the new shades” contest and a “save the shade” contest…of course i have to go buy them. i’ll need to get some coloring books too while i’m at it….

pai gow 2 days in a row. 2 pai gow, and 1 black jack game relief tonight. that’s possibly one of the best relief strings you can have, outside of roulette. was a good time, despite my stupid mistakes.

everytime brian and i go exploring it rains. never fails.

stop #1. buffalo malting. james came along too. neat building, lots of graffiti. not all too sketchy, at least i didn’t think so. we were in plain view of lots of people when we were on the roof, but i wasn’t worried about it.

stop #2. buffalo soap company. how fight club. that was a bust however. it’s still being used by various companies. went down a one way street the wrong way, and of course a cop drives by. gave us a hard time, even tho brian played lost.

stop #3. concerete central. attempted brian’s new path to the building, which required walking acrosss a railroad bridge. no problem. except for my slight fear of walking over sewer grates, which the entire bridge was made of. first trip over was very anxiety provoking haha. that was a bust also tho, paintballers had staked out the territory for the day. back over the bridge, ug, but it wasn’t as bad the 2nd time. seemed to go on forever the first trip over haha.

stop #4. the ship. still can’t get on it, but i had never seen it. totally want to get on. i can’t imagine what it’s like on deck.

and there we have it. didn’t take all that many pictures, cuz the light wasn’t all that great inside buffalo malting. half a roll left over from last week, then a full roll. the ship pictures are on a 3rd still in the cam. dunno when i’ll get them developed. maybe i should save them incase we need to develop something for a class assignment soon.

now i don’t know if this is common casino practice or not, but…we have to decide when we want to take our 2 weeks vacation when we all qualify for it in december. all of july and august are blacked out, along with all major holidays. that leaves basically, spring and fall. ok, no problem. i wanted to go to vegas in the spring anyway. i’m #344 on the seniority list. that means 343 other dealers get to choose their vacation time before me. we must take 1 full week at a time. we have the first session, where we pick 10 choices soon, then in a few weeks, we have to pick when we want our 2nd vacation. to me, this makes ABSOLUTELY NO SENSE. why should we have to be planning vacations 6 to 10 months from when we’re going to actually take them? it’s irritating. i could see a month, even 2 months advance notice…but march is 7 months from now. who knows what will be going on by then, i can’t plan a vacation now for 7 months from now. that’s insane. and it sucks. blah. and i get screwed even tho i was a day one employee, because i switched to deal in may, i don’t get counted along with all the other day one employees. seniority is determined from when you started in the department.

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there is this kid at work, zhang, who i think is so adorable. not like, i wanna jump your bones adorable, but…just so funny and cute. he’s chinese, so he’s got a heavy accent. we’re all sitting on break, and everyone starts talking in ebonics. including him. he says how he had to “jack some food” to eat on break. and then someone was asking him where his bling bling was and he says “i have no bling bling”. so it went on with more of him talking about jacking some bling bling, and getting pulled over by the five-oh, and going back to the crib to drink some 40s. LOL it was hysterical.

and i was on pai gow tonight. and i didn’t fuck up this time.

 

so i went to the mall today. it was PACKED. the holiday and no tax and everything. i had this idea in my head i’d do alot of shopping, and well that didn’t happen. i went in 3 stores…maybe a few more, but i only went to look in 3 stores…delias, hot topic, and guess. delias didn’t have the black satin jacket they have online, so that was crappy. hot topic was too hot and too packed with little kids to look at anything. funny conversation overheard tho:
a mom: *holds up a marilyn manson shirt* are they gonna let you wear this crap at school?
a daughter: of course, this crap is the hottest shit out there.
mhmm…

found another coat i loved at wet seal. black almost ankle length leather, with fur collar. looked awesome on me. 119$ and not warm…so didn’t get it. i looked at guess to see if they maybe had the dress that was on the guess outlet site, but no luck. lots of really nice really expensive clothing tho. i wish i could wear short skirts, cuz i saw alot of cute ones today. ended up buying myself new underwear and stuff. for whatever reason i seem to get alot of holes in mine.

stopped home to pick up diary, my speakers (which do work…), and some other stuff. dad checked my oil and almost went off on me again, like before i moved out. have to go over there wednesday for him to change it. i’m like 3 months and 10,000 miles overdue. oh well.

i have a massive headache now. ug. i hate the mall.

going out to scope out 2 new locations with brian tomorrow. gotta go defrost some film hehe.

and my smilies still don’t animate on my screen.  maybe some setting somewhere got changed on me. i installed a firewall so…i dunno. oh hey, it was zone alarm. there’s a block animation thing in the “ad blocking” section. that’s why it wasn’t doing anything. great. fixed hehe.

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they played new kids on the block at work today.

i already know my pay check next week is going to be screwed up. they have me in for 7 hours overtime when i clocked out today, and it should be 8 because of the extra hour on monday. not looking forward to having to have that fixed. oh well.

i almost got 2 speeding tickets today…on the way to work and on the way home. going to work, i was going 65 when i saw the cop, and i was passing someone. he pulled out behind me, followed a bit down robert moses, but never pulled me over. then just now coming home, a state trooper was sitting on the lasalle expy. he was probably asleep tho, and i was only going 60. but it would have sucked either way.

on tap for tomorrow, laundry i think…maybe some website stuff. we’ll see.

 

gah i had a dream i cut myself… like…purposely. like a cutter. cut down my forearm twice with a plastic knife. my left arm. but it healed real quickly, as if i was a vampire. haha. but still… i’m not a cutter, and i’ve never ever had so much of a thought of cutting myself.

i got a bill from geico for 8$ on my car insurance. i was like wtf, my ticket was reduced to non-moving violation, i shouldn’t have an increase. so i called…stupid NY state increased the mandatory “new york law enforcement fee” from 1$ to 5$ and called for back pay for anyone who got insurance in june, aka me. the other 4$ was a “premium installment change” from geico. good thing i called, and didn’t just blindly pay it, cuz he guy said he can take off the 2nd charge, so i only owe $4 now haha.

i can’t figure out why my smilies don’t animate anymore. even if i go to the url of the image directly, they’re not animated anymore. i asked around on the MT support boards, and to the guy who’s code i used to hack my MT pages…just have to wait for a response now. oh well.

i think it’s time for a new layout. so…soon.

and i’m having a hard time restraining myself from listening to the new APC songs that are on the NYC bootleg. i’m limiting myself to just the songs from the first album. but gah…the temptation is unbareable.

my mom is funny. she sent me postal mail of an ad from vogue mag, of some model in a coat. she thinks the coat would look good on me. AS IF I NEED MORE COATS. but cuz of that, i went out in search to find it…i went to the guess website, and bought this coat:
it was only 22.99, onsale. yay. if it doesn’t fit i can take it back to the store too. there was a rad dress i liked on the guess outlet site, but no returns on that, and if it doesn’t fit i’m screwed. only 25$ tho, 82% off the original price. i feel like i should buy it anyway LOL. but the jacket will be a good photo jacket, as leighanne said, lots of pockets for film and whatnot.

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August 2003 Dreams

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August 23, 2003

i was at my house and it started storming. there was all kinds of lightning. i was outside eating dinner on the sidewalk in front of my house, with my parents and brendan. the lightning was further off to the south of us (so across the street from my house). it was constant…as in the lightning just stayed “on” in one place. then we realized that it was 5 funnel cloud/tornados, with the lightning goign on inside them. it started to get really windy, so brendan and i ran inside. my parents were still outside, and we were yelling at them to get inside. so they came inside, and we managed to shut and lock the screen door, but left the main door open. the wind stopped, and my dad and i were looking around outside, then we saw a funnel cloud go right over us. not touching down, but just directly over the house.

there was some other part where we were all at some type of boardwalk resort, and tornados/bad weather, and i was really scared and trying to find brendan.

then something about being back in high school. but it looked like my middle school building. my locker was on the first floor, near the far end door. i was going down to lunch, and trying to remember where my locker was to get my lunch bag. i was supposed to be meeting brendan in the caffeteria to eat, but i got distracted. i was frustrated cuz it seemed i never locked my lock properly each time i left my locker, so it would always be open when i went back. so i was trying to fix it. then i was distracted on my way down the hall, by a student setting up “smoking joes r us”, selling candy, because of some kind of ban on cigarettes. finally got to the cafeteria and was looking for brendan, but he ended up finding me first.

ah the return of the tornado dreams…

August 06, 2003

so i went to the tour at central terminal, and was planning to ask russell about all the cleaning and new additions to the terminal. so i’m in the building with the tour group waiting for russell to finish his speech, and two of my friends from work show up. so i’m like cool, i can show them around. so russell finishes up and we start to wander off. i asked them where they wanted to go and they were just going to wander around. i wanted to take them down into the basements first, before going around the main concourse, but they didn’t want to climb through windows and what not. so i was following them around the kitchen area. there was a room (that doesnt exist in real life) that had french doors on it, and you could see inside. it was some sort of office with a desk and lots of paper work, but the room was totally fixed up. i was a bit confused, but assumed russell had made himself an office inside the building. walking around more, i’m still trying to get them into the basement. so we go into the kitchen, and the kitchen is totally redone into a working functional kitchen. counters, and cabinets, appliances, running water…i was like wtf is going on. then the basement stairs were there, with working lights, and the stairs were all fixed up. so i was like..um…ok. i went down the stairs and the basement was totally redone as well. russell was down there doing something, but there were lots of shelves everywhere, with stuff on them..artifacts, and other things, and he was sawing some wood or something. i wasnt sure if i should go down and bother him or not, but i did. i started asking him about all the renovations and stuff. i cant remember what he was saying to me. i went back upstairs and kept finding more and more rooms that were redone and functional. there was a bedroom. then the tour group had a catered lunch in the building. i was freaking out and wanted to cry because everything was getting redone, and in an ugly modern
way. i wanted to call brian, cuz he didn’t come to the tour, and tell him all the stuff that had changed since our illegal trip in. i was just really upset at it all, because i liked it in ruins so much.

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my stomach hurts…which just further contributes to my recent theory that humans really should have evolved by now to not have stomachs anymore, and should be able to take all nutrients through an IV.

i bought an LC shirt and their Unleashed Memories cd, cuz it has the Halflife EP as bonus material (and it was only 12$) at the show last night. realized the shirt has a hole in it. it’s not ripped, it’s as if the 5 year old little girl in the malaysian sweat shop missed both pieces of fabric when sewing it. it’s along the seam on the side. maybe adr or her mom can fix it for me. hopefully, cuz i like it.

the new pictures from monday are up on institutional green…i don’t feel like posting highlights, but they are two very good rolls IMO. one’s the rea terminal, the other is bct. i have a handful of leftover images on the roll in my cam still.

washed the bathtub, but it’s far from clean. it’s gross but i couldn’t get it any cleaner. gah. need a scrubby or something.

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Lacuna Coil in Rochester

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lacuna coil is so cool.

after running around to see my mom, and get my film, and all that, headed out with rocco to rochester for the lacuna coil/anthrax show. found the place just fine, but once we got there…absolutely no where to park. something must have been going on at the beach because there were people every where (and omg my comp screen just turned blue…wtf is wrong with my monitor, i thought it was getting better). more people than should normally be at the beach, even tho it was a nice evening. finally found a place to park and had to walk through a big dirt field to get to lake ave, and penny arcade. the place is small, and so was the crowd. some local band, loopus or something, played first. not good. lacuna coil followed. same set list as the buffalo show, 40 min or so since they weren’t headlining. they sounded awesome, the crowd was into them. the 2 indian guys who were in front of me and heather at the buffalo show were in front of us at this show too. the one looked at me and sorta nodded. later, after LCs set, he came over to me when rocco went to get a drink and started talking to me. he remembered me and heather, but he didn’t want to talk to me before cuz he didn’t want me to get in trouble with the guy i was with LOL. and oh yeah, during LCs set, some kid was standing next to me and kept trying to hold my hand. weirdos. so talked to the indian guys a bit. they went to the cleveland show, but not toronto. e-town concrete apparently aren’t on the bill anymore, they went to do ozzfest i guess, so anthrax was up. they were surprisingly good, considering i knew nothing by them, and was expecting music i wouldn’t really be into. for whatever reason i thought scott ian was the singer tho, and that’s very wrong hahah. he plays guitar.

i’ll say it again, i love metal shows. hah they’re so much fun. the deafness was really bad though. we were sorta close to one of the speakers during LC, and my ear was clicking. that’s always a bad sign. that’s what happened after the kick to the head at orgy, the 5 feet from the speaker incident at APC in boston, and STP at UB…but after leaving, and being in the car, i’m not all that deaf, so that’s really really good. it’s not clicking anymore. we stopped at a rest stop for food on the way home. the whole thing wasn’t awkward at all or anything, plenty of talking (mostly about work haha), so it was good. had a fun time. turns out i worked with his sister at hard rock hahah.

soooooo tired now, but i don’t think i’ll be able to sleep. gonna work on getting my pics up. i got some really nice ones again.

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my arm is going to fall off of my body. i swear. my right arm is completely dead, hurts like hell. i’ve been dealing blackjack too good and too fast lately (seriously…i’m amazing myself at how good i’ve been). my shoulder hurts something fierce, under my shoulder blade, down my arm. ug. it feels unattached, like i can’t control it properly. and i gave up my 2nd day off to work 6-2. crap. 49 hours or so, but my arm…it’s gonna die.

i’m now the proud recipient of a 75$ gift certificate to Sinatra’s restaurant on kenmore ave. because i’m great.

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i got screwed tonight, and not in a good way. started off in pit hell, on let it ride, so i signed the list to get out early. that lasted 20 minutes, before they pulled me off to go in high limit. so i took my name off the list. la la la 4am comes around, and i’m still on my last game i was relieving, and there’s no one from grave shift to relieve me…greaaaaaat. in the meantime i’m dealing to one of the more notorious players in the casino, which was super. 5am rolls around and i’m finally home. a nice 9 hour shift, great. there is one good thing tho. i’m getting a nice gift from the player tomorrow though. a really nice gift.

and i almost met cyndi lauper.

now i’m exhausted, and stuff. i got shit to do tomorrow, like call russell about this website nonsence and blah blah blah.

 

i just can’t read “crash”. read the 3rd chapter last night. i almost threw it across the room, but it was 5:30 am. it’s just so…stupidly fucked up. every paragraph has some kind of sexual reference in it. and for no reason. i don’t see the point of it all, much like i didn’t see the need for all the excessive detailed sex in “choke” either. i can’t possibly imagine what the plot of “crash” is, and it’s not interesting enough to make me want to find out. if i have to read the words “pubis” or “mucosa” one more time i’m going to break something.

onto the next book…one more week til Diary, so maybe i’ll just wait. er wait, it’s this week i think…today even haha. definitely waiting. aunt darleen pre-ordered it for my bday so i should get it some time this week.

 

i decided i might want to get some other lenses for my camera… first off, i have no idea how to figure out if a lens can be used with my camera. secondly, they are way too friggen expensive. so i guess i’ll have to deal with what i have. i’ll have to look into what kind of things my dad has that i could use, since he has tons of cameras and what not. maybe i’ll even tackle trying to learn to use the large format camera. but that requires tripod-ing it and, ug..tripods. haha maybe i should have looked at this site about my camera before i looked for lenses hahah. that’d have been smart.

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went out to see bct today. ended up seeing rea and bct’s other half too. twas good. somewhat sketchy at times, lots of people around for whatever reason. no falling out windows or going through fences though, so that was good.

work semi-sucked. roulette for 2 hours, then yanked off my game to check rack incase they needed to open more tables in high limits, i’d be free right away. that’s bull shit. it was sunday, and it was 10pm. there was no way they were going to open any more tables in high limit. i got my game back around 1am i think. cuz i complained so much lol.

so anyway. i gotta finish getting ready for work. i feel like it should be tuesday, and i should get my 2 days off after tonight, but alas it’s not. blah.

and i’m not sure if i should be ashamed or not…but…saw the new limp bizkit video, and it’s actually not horrible. definitely better than what they were planning for their first single a few months back. sounds more like sig. other album, than the stupid hot dog one. angry not so whiny fred durst. but again, i dunno if i should be proud of this or not. sig other has some really great songs, “don’t go off wandering” for one…

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