my section got closed at 11….unheard of. so i did double coverage for the card change at midnight, then got sent to open more games…at 1am…unheard of. there was talk of us all doing over time, of me definitely getting stuck since i was 7-3 but they managed to get me out an hour early. shouldn’t complain then right?
might be going to the linkin park projekt revolution tour with eric from work. he asked if i was going cuz he wants to go and has no friends LOL. we ran into him at ozzfest last year, he looks like david drainman from disturbed. he’s the kid i licked chocolate off his head at the christmas party LOL. but it all depends if i can get the day off. will have to talk to him about it tomorrow, since i was pulled away from his table to open the new ones when we were discussing it. i’ve been compulsively checking orgy’s site, because there was a rumor they were going to get added to the tour’s 2nd stage as the headlining act…and if so, then i’m most definitely going. i should have bought tickets for it last saturday when they had 15$ lawn tix…grr…
i think i’m going to try to force myself up tomorrow to dye my hair. i think i’m just going to do the underneath hair red, and some red streaks on the top layer. but once i screw it up i’m sure i’ll end up covering the whole head.
from chucky p’s new book, an article about juliette lewis….reminded me about me. reminded me about others.
“just because i don’t smile at everyone, and ask them how they’re doing, i have to be sad?”
“people have reduced marilyn (monroe) to a sex symbol, but the reason she had so much power is she made people light up. she had a joy. when she’s smiling in a picture she’s a blend. she’s in a female body, this beautiful woman, but she has that child-love shining through, this kind of child-light that makes other people light up too. i think that’s what’s special about her.”
and one from an article about…i don’t really know who it’s about…andrew sullivan, whoever he is…
“Aloneness is…that’s life. It’s the quality of our aloneness that matters. whether it’s quality solitude. i am a solitary person. i always have been, ever since i was a kid. i guess it’s hard…it takes alot for me to let somebody in.”
its before 12 and i’m awake because of messed up collage dreams (only way i can describe them) and because my neighbors are inconsiderate. i don’t really want to wake up to fireworks outside, and blind melon “no rain” really loud.
and besides that all i want to do is go back to sleep. hide away from my head and from feeling…the way that i do.
i said i wasn’t going to post about how i was feeling anymore. but i can’t sleep to stop.
before i get into the deep part….rupaul was just on tv…as a man. and he looks like a black version of jay gordon.
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“you can’t always get what you want, but if you try sometimes, you might find, you get what you need.” – rolling stones
i’m trying to decide if mick jagger was right. he’s most definitely right about the first part…it’s the 2nd part where i need some convincing….i think i’ve been deluding myself into thinking that i historically go with the flow…roll with the punches my life is thrown…take things as they come.
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i’m going to try to start a daily (more likely semi daily) random memory posting. and for today….
11th grade advanced placement history class. we had just written a paper about Franklin Roosevelt and Hoover (Herbert? wtf is his first name? Henry?). we were going over an exam, and our teacher, the wonderful Mr Afshani, said that FDR was a republican. and we all paniced. we had all just written a paper about how FDR was a DEMOCRAT and he’s telling us now that he wasn’t!?!?! panic the way only smart people who are concerned with grades can panic. until we all were like HES A REPUBLICAN?!?!?!?!?! we cleared up the confusion and it became a big inside joke. he signed my year book with it.
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i want to write an autobiography. but not about me. i’m boring. one about someone else. an alter ego much like chris gaines (i can’t believe i just referenced garth brooks). i think it would be fun to write an autobiography if i had interesting things to write about.
reminds me of my writing project from may that i still haven’t started. i haven’t even thought about it lately. at least i had been thinking about it for a while. somewhere along the line however, i just stopped.
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(you can skip this) i have something wrong with my eye. i get this thing where my left eye gets itchy and the bottom lid gets swollen as if something bit me in the eyelid. i used to think each time something really HAD bitten me, but nope. it happens every now and then, but it has happened a few times this week, which is odd. i’m trying to figure out if i’m allergic to something or if it’s stress. i don’t feel particularly stressed this week (esp compared to other points in the recent months) but…it keeps happening. it usually makes my eye start twitching too. which hasn’t happened much yet. minor eye twitches is one of the most irritating things ever. if you’ve had it, you know. no one can see it twitching, but you sure can feel it, and it drives you crazy. i definitely know the twitching is a stress response. whatever. now you’re all educated and maybe disgusted. whatever.
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i am so lame and entirely too excited for vh1’s i love the 90s….next week! tho i won’t see any of them for a while stupid job. i think one of the ultimate careers for me would be to be one of the people who does the research for all these fun vh1 shows.
