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the cable went out friday afternoon. it made me realize just how addicted to cnn i am. no cable, huge storm about to hit, and i have no means of communication. i was stressin. seriously. i’m sick. today the tv was back but no internet, spent an hour on the phone with adelphia after getting home from oktoberfest in order to get it working again.

today was the first, hopefully now annual, oktoberfest at buffalo central terminal. i think it’s safe to say it was a big success and we were all a bit worried, because we have an advertising problem. aka we have no money to PAY for advertising. but we had a really good turnout. ran out of food. nearly ran out of beer. the band, the frankfurters, were awesome for a german oompa band. so this was really good for us. made some of us jaded members more optimistic again.

saw the most fabulous thing ever today. lei, james and i were out putting up our signs in the neighborhood and this lady came riding by on one of those adult tricycle bikes, with a basket on back, and a boombox bungee corded onto the back, blasting old school rap. it was SO GREAT. after that we got ice cream at the fabulous gran grans ice cream stand. they got a paint job and a different name since the first time i took leighanne to the terminal 3 years ago.

and nobody knew what “sig heil” meant. we know now. and it’s not bad. we figured it was probably bad, cuz it’s associated with hitler, and were afraid to ask people what it meant incase it was offensive.

so yeah. had a good time. if things go well tomorrow i will be doing some shooting with a few kids from toronto. should be good. i should sleep probably.

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you know it’s time for bed when: the tv program changes and the first thing the woman says is “thank you for waking up with us today”

you know it’s time for a new toothbrush when: the bristles fall out in your mouth

and no, i will not take off my u2 wristbands. not for another 2 days at the very least. a week is tradition.

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bearing all catastrophe, tonight was my last night flooring. i looked at my schedule for next week and i am back on the dealers schedule. i also apparently forgot to request off for oktoberfest…so i need to find someone to pick saturday up for me or i’ll be using my last sick day for it…and i like to have a buffer day. ah well. i was afraid that everyone in upper management was mad at me…no one said 2 words to me all day today. finally the shift manager, around 2, mentioned me having one day left til the switch, and he was fairly cheerful and didn’t seem mad. so that’s good, cuz i didn’t want to deal with immaturity.

ok and friday did it, i’m totally in love with bono again. the 3 shows this tour haven’t given me the feeling that hamilton did, i’m not sure anything can, but yeah. in love with bono again. but that mother fucker played discotheque at tonights show. I KNEW THAT WOULD HAPPEN. and apparently eddie vedder dropped by.

the boot of wednesday night sounds great. real good quality. friday hasn’t appeared yet, hope it does.

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i am still right here

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i feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders, and i don’t even know if the shift manager is going to accept my resignation. i gave it to the assistant shift today, started to cry immediately upon entering the office. he said he didn’t understand, asked if there was a problem with someone there, i said no, and he asked if i needed help from HR or the employee assistance program. i said no that i’d be ok. the shift manager will be in tomorrow afternoon so he’ll find out at that time, and the decision has to be made by him. if they don’t let me i don’t know what to do. cuz i can’t go on like this. dealing today alone made things so much better already. i have a feeling they’ll ask me to stay on through october because of the things going on all month, and i will as long as i get in writing that november 1st i return to dealing full time.

how did it get to be 4:50am?

i got a flyer in my door today for an open house at the quarry on the 17th. i am SO going, since i’ve wanted to go illegally since i moved here. it says “bring your family and learn about your neighborhood quarry” as if every neighborhood has a quarry. ha it just amused me.

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i am trying to resign my position at work and return to full time dealing. planning on doing it tomorrow when our shift manager returns from his days off. i’ve just had enough. i know it’s not something i can speak about without getting very upset, so i wrote it all down in a formal letter to give to management.

mike is resigning from the ctrc, and i am not far behind. i had actually been planning on doing so this week, without any knowledge of mike’s decision. i am going to try to hold off, but we’ll see how things go. i can’t handle the way things have been there this year.

i go to the doctor tomorrow for my depression. hopefully that, plus these other steps, will begin to make things better for me.

u2 in toronto this week. board meeting thursday *dreading*. everything is falling apart.

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I decided to switch to live journal instead of movable type for delirious. I don’t want to pay for the movable type upgrades, and the old versions are likely to have more and more problems – spam, hacking etc. I also like the lj features of the friends list, being able to lock and hide entries from everyone or just certain people. So there we have it. If you have an lj and want to add me as a friend, the username is le_soleil_faux. Or you can just read the journal as you see it now, in the context of my entire site. As of now, anonymous comments are allowed, but we’ll see how long that lasts. In that event, anyone (adr1) who wants to leave a comment will have to create an lj account (they’re free and you don’t need a code anymore).

The “blog archive” link will take you to all the archives from when I used blogger and MT. lj archives can be accessed through the calendar link, notable entries if i ever use that function, and the bottom navigation system.

So there.

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from a boston show review: Midway through scary, serpentine ”March of the Pigs” he threw his arms open and sang the song’s melodious coda, ”doesn’t it make you feel better?” with a huge grin on his face. The answer is yes, which accounts for the packed (both Boston concerts sold out) and surprisingly diverse audience that achieved a state of near-spiritual release during the show.

or as adr2 put it in her lj, i never felt so alive…

that is why we’re going to philly next week.

downloaded a boot of the 2nd toronto show. the 1st was recorded but not out yet….need it. neeeed it. i preferred the 1st set list, it’s nice to hear all the new stuff…

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HA! i got this email today:

Hello, I believe I found a book of yours. I was at the NIN show the other day (I can only assume you were too) and I happen to walk through the parking lot after everything and everyone had cleared out. I found a photo book and some scattered pictures with this email address on them. I’m not sure why the book was left there (on purpose or accidentally?) but if you would like it back i’d be happy to return it to you. It appears to have been run over by something while in the parking lot, but it and it’s contents are still in great shape.

Anyway, if you email me back we can arrange to have the book returned.

LOL that is so fabulous. I figured the security guard would have chucked it after i made such a big noise with it. And the fact that it’s been runover makes my day!

working on going to philly. probably not both shows but…we’ll see haha

went to see tommy at his new place. he has no furniture, and we did nothing, but it was really nice

and i’m totally going to take pictures of my bruises.

 

haha one more thing i forgot to mention about tuesday….

in line we entertained ourselves by being big giant dorks and making sentences out of NIN song titles LOL. it was really entertaining. adr2 wrote one on the sidewalk with my sharpie cuz she thought it was funny (and turns out, very appropriate in explaining the experience of being in the crowd) “i gave up it was just too physical” LOL. *dorks*

and i really really need to go back to school to be an archivist…i got a bunch of slides of the terminal from my dad’s friend, taken around the same time as my dad took his. and it’s just so exciting to go through them while i’m scanning them and see the ones from the 70s. but not only did he have ones from the 70s he got reproductions of all the historical ones of the building that the Historical Society has in their library! woo we dont have to pay for them now hehehe but yeah. i could do this all day long. i’m in the wrong career.

 

(And because I’ve lost a chunk of archives from this part of 2005, I’m going to add in Adrienne2’s live journal posts about these shows too)

nin in Toronto was fucking amazing. Abridged version…….Went up with sara in separate cars b/c she had a ticket to the first show and I didn’t. I got a ticket at a discounted rate b/c the scalper wanted to grope me (very amusing until later that night when I got home and started to think about it and got pissed off). The show was amazing!!!!! I ended up in the pit and totally had a blast beating the crap out of everyone and everyone beating the crap out of me. Hehehe as I was in the pit, trent threw his tambourine and it fucking hit me in the head and started to slide down my back and some crazy guy ripped it out of my hair, taking some of my hair with it. Sara fucking touched trent…. Lucky bastard 😉 went home sore and somewhat bruised but happy… of course.

The second show, got our tix, waited in line with much cooler people, though not anywhere near as cool as reno. Saw trent get off the bus right behind us (HOT!!!!). ended up closer to the barrier and got beat the fuck up. I ended up in fisticuffs. It cracks me up that the pit was gentler than just standing slightly to the side of trent near the barrier. We ended up totally spent and ended up crashing to the floor when the show ended (and the floor was fucking sick). SOOOOOOO much more to say, but… ouch. My damages are as follows::

Bruised palms (from pushing on the barrier as to not get crushed. This is fun; I can’t hold anything with my whole hands, only my fingers)
Giant lumpy bruise on arm
Various bruises on upper arms, lower arms, top of hand (wtf??) and on my shoulders and upper back
Bruised heels (again wtf???)
Cuts and brusies on my knees from the barrier. although they are in a pretty pattern. lol
Sore ribs (although not as bad as sara’s I’m sure)
I absolutely cannot raise my arms (fighting is fun people. Hehe)
I cannot turn my head due to crowd surfer landing on my head and cracking my neck a little bit
And the biggie….. I have a fucking bruised kidney!!!! I am so glad I punched the guy who kept hitting me in my kidney. Let me tell you, peeing blood the morning after a show like that is a nightmare. I thought was going to die. My back fucking kills but I looooove pain killers.

The best thing is I cannot wait to do this again!!!!! Hehehe I have never felt so alive. Lol hey, I know… lets start a fight club!

hopefully going to philly to see them again next week. Although, I probably won’t be able to go in front due to said kidney and all, but what a way to go huh? Lol

Need to go get check now so I can pay sara and various bills. Only that actually involves moving. ::groans:: 😉

 

I gave up, it was just too physical.
I had to go deep into the downward spiral
to the great below,
which is right where you belong.

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the scene: 3 girls playing scattegories so that leighanne-concussion-head doesn’t fall asleep

the category: US cities that begin with the letter O

sara: orlando
adrienne: omaha
leighanne: wichita
sara & adrienne *confused stares* cities that begin with O? wichita?
leighanne: spelled ochita

??

ROFLMAO

 

haha this is sick. i am dreaming about finally getting to listen to “with teeth”. i had a dream earlier in the week that i was listening to tracks online, since it’s been streamed off various sites all week. in the dream i felt so guilty and that it was so wrong to be listening to it without having it in my hands. this morning i dreamed that one of my preorders came in the mail today, so i finally got to hear the album. it came with a dvd (or it was the dual disc version or something) and it had footage from the first 3 shows on it, and that you could see adr2 and i in the dvd. so i called her and was like shreiking on the phone that i had gotten the cd and we were in the dvd and was so excited. it was fabulous.

so after i get to hear the album at the party tonight, am i allowed to listen to it, or do i still have to wait til tuesday? hehe

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