any man who claims to want anything beyond sex with a woman is full of shit.
maybe that’s why i liked james, because he wouldn’t have sex with me, felt like there was something more to what turned out to be not a relationship. but in the end i still got used, figure that one out.
yesterday’s game at work i wanted to shoot myself. tonight i watched college football. then i watched a recap of college football. then i watched close to 4 hours of sportscenter. i can tell you every single stat shown on sportscenter. like how the red sox pitcher was the first rookie in red sox history to pitch a no-hitter. he’s the 2nd pitcher since 1900 to have a no-hitter in his first 2 games. he’s the 21st rookie to have a no-hitter since 1900. (tho oddly, i couldn’t tell you his name) the red sox also had a no-hitter in 2001, and 2002. in addition to today, jason veritek caught for all 3 games. Appalachian state beating michigan 34-32 is the first time a 1-a football team has been beaten by a 1-aa team. biggest upset in college football. what else can i tell you…:P and in between i managed to count 16 decks of cards. but i did not deal a single hand tonight. i’ve never been so tired from doing nothing.
it also turns out that my breaks were completely shot on my car. how should i know? they still worked ha. don’t you think they should have noticed they were bad when i had my inspection in june? they didn’t totally disintegrate in 2 months. dad put new ones on and i do notice a difference, now haha.
i listened to most of joshua tree today. i still find it fairly boring. some of the songs i didn’t even remember when they started. maybe it’s because i hear the first 4 so out of context most of the time, but it feels like the first half and second half are 2 different records. the first 4 tracks don’t seem to fit at all with the rest. i also don’t like bono’s vocal style at that point – sort of singing out of the back of his throat. i had downloaded a rattle and hum outtake awhile back, and it was the worst thing i have ever heard. bono sounded horrible, that throat singing thing (that’s the only way i can describe it). and in a way, because i like 90s u2 so much, the u2 of joshua tree doesn’t even seem like the same band as achtung u2. what a freaking difference. how ever did they come up with achtung to follow joshua tree? haha some illuminati conspiracy i’m sure 🙂 running to stand still, album version, isn’t too bad once you get past the first twangy guitar notes. and bono’s performance is very good on it. still, you haven’t heard that song until you’ve heard it live…
and i love trent. pissed off youtube clips from europe haha.
now that my weekend is over and everyone elses is beginning…
wednesday i was supposed to go to the terminal with a photographer who was donating 200 to shoot the building for some exhibit in manhattan. at 10 am, not likely, thankfully bill was going to be at the building. like i said, i WAS supposed to go, was planning on going at 1 until my phone alarm went off about my doctors appt. i’d been waiting for this doctors appointment oh since i got back from europe, and had been thinking about it all month – that is until the day of the appt. had totally forgotten about it. it pretty much killed the rest of my day and i never made it to the building.
kitty is chewing on some negatives. wtf cat.
thursday i had nothing to do and ended up finally using a pattern i bought last year for a shirt, with the “swamp thing” fabric i also bought last halloween. went pretty quickly, just needs some finishing touches that i bought today. i killed my conch piercing though. the head hole was too small, when i tried it on the earring got caught and now it hurts. right after it was supposed to be healed too (though wasn’t was still oozing at times). it’s red and blah. oh well.
friday was running around and work. i decided if i ever kill myself i’m going to do it in some horrible gruesome way at work. like slit my throat at a table. tho i don’t think i could ever actually DO that though. *shudder* i hate high limit roulette because it’s always the same asshole playing. we get into screaming matches, tho he’s been “good” lately. but god, it sucked tonight. super busy also because of a boxing match. and the holiday. it is looking like my first 40 hour week since europe hahaha. nice big check for me.
so in my u2 mood i listened to how to dismantle an atomic bomb for the first time since..well since it came out ha. decided to give it a 2nd chance – since in the complicatedness that is my u2 fandom, i never like a u2 album at first listen. it has to sit on the shelf a bit and age before i can appreciate it. so htdaab is not as bad as i remember, i listened to the entire thing except yahweh. i just couldn’t. that song is SO bad. it has fun moments, it has way too sappy moments (miracle drug), it has mature moments (songs towards the end), it has the suck moments (yahweh) but over all it’s not too bad. it’s certainly no achtung, and it will never be a “desert island” record, but it’s tolerable. it also will forever remind me of someone.
more new photos
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bus chv hs htf by ~fragilemidnight on deviantART
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kill your tv by ~fragilemidnight on deviantART
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holy toledo part 2 by ~fragilemidnight on deviantART
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so the other day a man comes into work and plays at my table. he has 2 broken wrists. as the game continued i noticed, even with 2 casts on, he cut the chips very very good. he was obviously a dealer. turns out he deals across the river at fallsview. i eventually ask him what he did to his wrists. he said that a player who had been losing for 10 years took a baseball bat to him. the loser hadn’t been playing with the dealer, the dealer just happened to be who the loser took it out on. w.t.f. it seems pretty unbelievable, so my supervisor and i pretty much discounted that. and that’s cool, making up a story like that is something i would do to make my injury more interesting haha. but in telling others about the guy today, 2 people – one of them being tony – had heard that a dealer in canada had gotten attacked with a baseball bat by a player. that the player had been waiting in the parking lot for him/someone. w.t.f. i can’t find anything on the web about it, and i would assume that it would have been in the fallscanada news paper, or police blotter or SOMETHING. but wow, i really don’t want to hear stuff like that especially now that we park a half a block away instead of a mile away…
if one were to want to say…acquire some mace/pepper spray, even tho it’s illegal, how would one do that. it’s illegal in canada to so i can’t import it. i’m assuming sellers of mace would not ship to states where it is illegal (or is it legal anywhere? i really don’t know…)
and i was only worried about players shooting me 😛
had tons of dreams about boyx last night, as well as being thrown on a craps game and told what to do and finding it not as hard as everyone says. that one was cuz they’re offering classes again and i’m getting pressured to finally learn craps. no thanks, you can keep your $.25/hr. i also didn’t wake up until 4 and that irritated me. i don’t usually sleep THAT long, almost 11 hours LOL
more from dan’s visit
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bathroom diptych by ~fragilemidnight on deviantART
steel city 1 by ~fragilemidnight on deviantART
giant deer head by ~fragilemidnight on deviantART
still in my u2 mood…
the amazing thing about the boston 05 bootleg is not the band, and it’s certainly not bono or the setlist. it’s the incredible amount of crowd participation. u2 crowds are usually up on every single song – you don’t get alot of casual fans at the shows because the tickets are so hard to get. but the boston bootleg in particular is RIDICULOUS. you can hear the crowd singing, loudly, on almost every song. it’s pretty surreal. i can’t imagine what it’s like for the band.
i also had forgotten how rude/funny bono was in the buffalo 01 bootleg. during “in a little while” a guy had crowd surfed up to bono on the tip of the heart. bono said “you’re a little overweight…for flying. you weren’t designed to fly, friend.” hahaha.
and “where the streets have no name” is one of the most incredible live song experiences ever. there is really nothing that compares to how “streets” builds, and the band comes in, and it’s just…as close as i’ll ever get to a religious experience. the lighting the band used for it during the elevation tour was the most perfect too. the spinny light things. honestly, i can’t remember what the lighting was like on vertigo tour, so it must not as been as good haha.
since the boston 05 bootleg had 25 songs i’m adding 4 more to my setlist (i’ve excluded all songs that bono’s voice can’t handle anymore, like “the unforgettable fire” and “lemon” etc, tho lemon, especially as macphisto, would be so fantastic)
1. last night on earth
2. do you feel loved
3. stay
4. so cruel 🙂
on top of this kate sent me an article about daniel lanois, where he says that him and brian eno are working on u2’s new record, and the whole thing feels like the achtung baby era again. exciting tho i’ll believe it when i hear it. they also said that how to dismantle an atomic bomb was a guitar record and look how that turned out LOL!
i also dreamed that boyx came exploring with me somewhere. and about jehovah witnesses going door to door and having doors slammed in their face at each house. and that i was in london, or rather, had recently been and forgotten to go to camden market.
i was so so bored so i decided to use the new fabric i bought and make a bag. was going fine, tho threads kept getting caught on the bottom and tangled etc…don’t know why…but then the needle broke, and now it’s jammed and i can’t move any of the parts. same as last time i broke it, and there were no parts of the needle in the bobbin area. grrrrrrrrr. and i was almost done!!!
i should post something more than photos of being silly….so, photos from the week he was here, that he is not in hahahahah using annoying deviantart embed codes 🙂 i just noticed they existed hah
under pressure by ~fragilemidnight on deviantART
north office
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north office
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north office
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comparison of the -5 degree trip to battery factory and the +90 degree trip
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battery
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battery – it’s showing up englarged, that’s why it’s blurry
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toledo is bitchin’
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battery
power city by ~fragilemidnight on deviantART
ha wtf
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my hand looks like i punched someone. boyX has been the only one to notice, and so he’s started telling people i punched someone hahah. if only that was true, instead of my blood vessel randomly burst for no reason.
so since i heard a song at work a few days ago that reminded me of “Running to Stand Still” i’ve been in a big u2 mood. that has included going through bootlegs to find a good live version of above song, and actually listening to the boston 05 bootleg for the first time. i was reminded of how shit ass the order of that setlist was. there are still moments that make me smile, and moments i wish bono would shut up, and songs i wish weren’t in the setlist. and i was reminded about songs i didn’t like and still don’t (ie miracle drug). i also listened to pop giants, the last popmart show, which is great great great.
so that led to me thinking of my ideal u2 setlist…
1. mofo
2. until the end of the world
3. beautiful day
4. city of blinding light
5. the unforgettable fire
6. out of control
7. love and peace or else
8. hold me thrill me kiss me kill me
9. gone
10. with or without you w/shine like stars
11. acrobat
12. please
13. love is blindness
14. mysterious ways
15. sunday bloody sunday
encore
16. bullet the blue sky
17. running to stand still
18. dirty day
19. discotheque
20. where the streets have no name
21. walk on
i limited it to a fair 21 song set heheh. they’re getting old you know 🙂 and for the fun of it, songs i never ever want to see ever/ever again
1. yahweh
2. the playboy mansion
3. miracle drug
4. grace
5. the wanderer
6. peace on earth
7. miss sarajevo (sorry haha)
8. miami