really?

i just have to say. WHO THE FUCK CARES ABOUT PARIS GOING BACK TO JAIL?!?! she is famous for no fucking reason. she has no talent, and does not deserve any of the publicity she gets. especially not helicopters and every news channel following her drive to the courthouse as if she is fucking OJ in his bronco. she got a DUI!!! who the fuck cares?! throw her in jail if that’s what you do for people in that sort of trouble and be done with it. jesus fucking christ. THIS IS NOT NEWS!

and in other news. will this fucking madness ever fucking stop? i’m so ready to quit again.

well i could have found what to do on my birthday. jeff martin at town ball room, june 28th. the question is…do i really want to see jeff martin solo again? i’m not sure…

game 5 of stanley cup finals, in the 2nd the ducks lead ottawa 3-1…and the 3rd goal, an ottawa guy put it in his own net. i would laugh my ass off if that becomes the game winning goal. go ducks!…and now it’s 6-2 ducks hahahahha and yes, that goal is still the game winner….hahahahahah

EatsTooMuchJam1: GO OTHER TEAM
vacant enigma: FUCK OTTAWA
vacant enigma: haha
EatsTooMuchJam1: Oh, wait. Am I rooting for Canada?
EatsTooMuchJam1: Fuck that.
vacant enigma: exactly
vacant enigma: GO DUCKS
EatsTooMuchJam1: Go Ducks!!!!!!!!!!!

i realized on my way to work that i don’t have a soundtrack for “angry”…tho some people would think that everything i listen to is angry, i don’t feel the same. nin has alot of emotions but in general, it’s not really anger. and neither is most of the rest of stuff i own…i needed something angry and the closest i had was korn. suggest to me angry stuff to have on hand for when it’s needed. 🙂

victoria beckham’s – aka posh space – hair is so fucking hot…wish mine would look like that if i got it cut the same way.

i am beyond frustrated and irritated with all the terminal drama as of late. i’m not gonna get into it…just…it’s 2004 all over again, and our season hasn’t really even started yet. minus the art thefts.

i think i have a brain tumor. the rest of me feels fine now, just my head. took 4 prescription painkillers today, feel a bit high, but please please please, i beg of them, please work to finally kick this headache out. i fear it won’t work. if it doesn’t, tomorrow is painkiller detox, since i’m off and have no plans, in an attempt to stop any rebound effects. ug. i may stop taking the iron supplements, because in the past i had gotten headaches from higher doses of iron, which apparently the ones i bought are more than the ones i used to take (that have been discontinued).

sick

ug. whatever is making me feel like crap, please stop. now that i bought fruit i don’t really want it, but i ate some today. today was a weird day in this illness, which i’ve experience before, where i’ll be ridiculously hungry all day long. even if i eat alot. and i did eat alot, i still feel hungry. but on top of that, i’ll eat, and then feel sick. most of work was ok, til i ate at 3am and immediate thought a gremlin was going to burst out of my stomach. it’s been over 2 hours since i ate and i still feel terrible. GO AWAY GREMLIN. arg. make it stoooop. *whine* need to sleeep.

need to take car back to carubba tomorrow because the window in the door they replaced is all pitted. as if it has sat out next to any of our many chemical factories for 20 years, and the acids and chemicals ate away at the glass. yeah. not accepting that. plus the headlight shakes now, and i’m told it won’t pass inspection this month if it shakes. good thing i used geico’s “auto express” because they guarantee their work and parts for the rest of the time you own your car. so damn straight they are giving me a new window, and fixing my headlight. hopefully they can order the glass, or do whatever they do, and i can take it in for a quick replacement on wed/thurs. i don’t want to have to ask for rides to and from work again.

can’t complain about geico with all this. it was quick and easy and not stressful. and most importantly the rep who called me about my claim SPOKE ENGLISH! american english! not india english where i can’t understand a word they are saying, and then they just keep talking faster and making it worse. now i know people in india need jobs, but i need to be able to know what to do about whatever i’m calling you about. when my identity was stolen last year, dear lord, whoever i talked to was completely unintelligible. and the fact 800$ had been stolen from me and i needed them to fix it, it’s sorta important that i know what the person is saying. but anyway. i’d still recommend geico for your car insurance needs. ha.

now to try to sleep with my gremlin.

artists and models

tonight was hallwall’s annual fundraiser Artists and Models, this year held at the terminal. went out there with mike, initially to sell merch but there was no room and it was too dark so we just looked at everything and drank and hung out with the crew. it was a very cool event, very different, attracted a very diverse crowd. aside from one asinine decision by a certain person in the organization to let “performance artists” use one of our baggage carts, the one restored cart, which led to it being covered in paint…it seemed to be a very chill good successful event. the event ends at 2am, and they say it’ll be cleaned up right after but…the place is trashed and we have a tour at 11am. that’ll be interesting. there was nothing set up on thursday when we were meeting there, so we had no idea what to expect. lots of custom made blow up things…like those lawn decorations everyone has at holidays. except instead of snow men and christmas trees, there were penises, and a naked woman with a big vagina, octopus, WMD, a space ship, the 2 headed horse of sins….etc. it was pretty cool, i wanted to keep the WMD one and bring it home. adr2 met me there and we took a look around and flyered 400 cars for the show. let me just say, next time there is a flyer on my car i am reading it because wow it’s a pain in the ass to flyer cars hah. ran into an old elementary school classmate, which i found to be very odd. but it was fun. adr2 took me home, and i went back with my camera because it looked cool to see colored lights coming out of the arched concourse windows – tho it didn’t quite turn out in the photos. ah well.

sick

i’ve felt like wicked crap all week. waking up with headaches, being unable to get a good sleep, feeling puke-y. just generally unwell, for no apparent reason. then i realized that i felt sick like this at the beginning of last summer too. how did i figure it out? the fact that i have an apple in my fridge from last june. when i feel this way all i want to eat is fruit – and i don’t crave fruit normally. but the apple reminded me that i felt like shit in june last year too haha. it’s still green, and not mushy…wtf radioactive apples!

i’m reading memoirs of a geisha, and it’s a used copy. reading last night a newspaper article fell out of the book. from the ny times, 2001, it’s an article about the woman who’s life the book is loosely based on, and her lawsuit against the author. on the other side of the article, a picture of bono and edge hahahahah. it was about u2’s elevation show at madison square garden. i found that sort of amusing.

the car is back…maybe…it’s not outside my house my parents must have taken it back to theirs. need it, need desperately to go to the store. need fruit! cuz i’m so not eating that apple.

car

my car is finished already. NICE! it’s just a matter of picking it up now…nice of them to call and tell me 15 min before they closed today…and they’re only open until noon tomorrow…but still. good thing i didn’t book a rental.

nin, translated and retranslated

seriously. this is amusing me to no end. so for my own amusement….i continue

“closer”
– permits the fact, that the holiness which permits the thing which is pierced is polluted, as for me, who permit the fact that you violate the damage
– with my all existence, which I like and obtains with God, the close animal inside, we would like to have sexual intercourse
– where as for me, with you, I have lived on the wood inside my stomach, which can be rubbed
– due to God, through all forests we would like to have sexual intercourse

“the becoming”
– and the blood stops the pump in order to make me rot
– you do not think that me who bound by my with the string murder
– but to elbowroom while being possible
– everything am bad is damaged hiding in my rear, I feel

“burn”
– me me, where I swallow with the fire, am your rescue person of degradation

“down in it”
– you can be concerned that my eye where method, at this point in time, looked at me excessively long
– everything which is not liked under any condition
– it crawls because now it can amuse
– but as for the needle of weight of my eye, and the all worlds, there is already my back section

“eraser”
-Dream you need you me where you hate me the pulverization where I turn off me the being broken eye which is lost the sexual intercourse which is used for damaging the discovery which is tasted

“gave up”
– me look, you took, you took, my remainder which you took and is broken to the part which is broken with respect to my everything which is broken
– Being covered with desire, and the vaseline which are not known because I who was broken and am broken
– you burn with the organizational decrease

“hurt”
– only factual quality in order to kill that entirely
– to see am old and am well known
– did I who damage by yourself become something?
– for the second time I maintain by myself I find method

haaaaa

1: Find the lyrics to your favorite song
2: Go to http://babelfish.altavista.com
3: Run the song through the English to Japanese translator
4: Copy it and then run it through the translator again, this time from Japanese to English.
5: Post the song (title and performer included please) along with these directions in your own journal.

As for her as for her to whom she leaves the road of the honey in order somewhere she who expands the insect which permits her herself who was opened sufficiently is to show in me from in the blood of the insects under kind of her skin from thousand other things Ohio state which drips exactly and possesses as for liar Ohio state my valuable prostitute my sickness my contagion me where I am beautiful as for the demon which very is impure as for the depth where I reach being limitless from the contact which necessity of my caress which she pollutes in order to lighten this loneliness which I now have known is infected the angel Bleed Ohio state which the method of stating clearly you speak liar Ohio state my valuable prostitute my sickness my contagion I where I am beautiful very am impure

LOL wtf is with the “ohio state” stuff hahahahaha……hahahah “ohio state, my valuable prostitute” hahahahahah