work was whatever…i got to play “angel of death” today…lol. can’t talk about it.

but i was thinking, isn’t that agulera/justin concert in buffalo soon? what if justin came into the casino and like, played at my table. i don’t even LIKE him/nsync but i’d so freak out lol. i’d try to all play it cool, and then i’d go on break and flip out. that’d rock so hard hahaha.

so yeah…it’s light out…i dont even feel like going to bed. plus its like, so fucking hot in here, all the windows were closed when i got home. and there is 0 breeze whatsoever.

so tomorrow/today…need to go to bank and deposit money, do laundry, maybe get groceries, even tho i don’t know what i’d buy…see if my dad has any negative sheets he never used so i can steal them…a binder for the negative sheets…organizing negatives and photos (which i really just want to do now)…and then the birthday crap. once again, everyone invited. oh, i gotta go to the liquor store then too. i forgot we have a blender, so i need ice cream, baileys and kaluha…and lime juice.

 

i’m wearing a skirt for the 3rd day in a row  i know, i know. today is the one i bought at the outlet mall in april with the netting in front. it doesn’t stretch, so it’s hard to walk in. i dunno how i’m gonna get in the car lol.

off to do my crap today.

i hate hot weather.

a perfect circle album out sept 30th…good thing i’ve been saving my personal days, cuz when all my bands go on tour i’m gonna need them.

working tomorrow night now, which is good. after only 20 min yesterday, i’ll be back up to 40 again. went home an hour early tonight cuz they had no place to send me. oh well.

official invitation to anyone locally who reads this: my birthday outing, thursday in the square, followed by suffering through me taking night pictures of the psych center and terminal, followed by alcohol at the apartment. rsvp or something. lol. it’s not a party. it’s not even a non party…just…i have off, so yeah.

so friggen stuffy in here. need fans desperately.

 

got my pictures back from first ward and the psych center, they are up on the site, but please don’t go look at them til july 1st …i’m almost out of bandwidth for this month, again, and i don’t have ty to blame this time. i don’t know why i’ve used so much again this month…but i’ll post my favs after july 1st, and if you wanna see the rest go ahead. i’ll prolly go over bandwidth anyway, but at least this time there is only 5 days left of the month

 

 

*pissed*  in the 5 min i spent in wegmans buying corn, some asshole parked all crooked next to me, so i almost couldn’t get out of the space, and pushed a cart into my front bumper. now it has a nice giant scratch on it. fuck off asshole .

but yay to fishy. finally was here for the ups man to arrive, and got the package from her. juice glasses with fruit on them, one being a lemon…and rad vintage poster coasters..hah that sorta rhymes.

last night eric came over around midnight, and we ended up sitting around and watching the nin dvd on my new tv. holy crap that tv is amazing. dvd looks so much better on it, if that’s even possible. such a nice picture. i was captivated lol.

did my running around today. had to go to tonawanda to the eckerd and walgreens cuz the niagara falls ones are all downtown near portage. too far. ghetto. went to tonawanda instead. yep.

have to go full grocery shopping, maybe tomorrow. and get my pics tomorrow. yay.

wow…sometimes my life…is just…wow.

ok, i’ve felt incredibly rushed since saturday. getting home from the silos and rushing to work, then work sucking, then sleeping in sunday, going to work, work sucking again, and then the lunch meeting today. i need to do errands but i forget what time i work tonight so i’m gonna show up for a 7pm start just incase…so i have no time to do the errands either. i want to look at a lamp/chandelier at home depot to maybe buy for the future…and corn from wegmans.

but ok. went to lunch at the vietnamese place with the terminal president. he is wonderful. he’s totally hooking me up. basically any time i want access to the terminal all i have to do is call him. he brought me some things from the fund raiser they had last year, like the original menu from the opening ceremonies of the terminal in 1929. he’s going to mail me a bunch of other stuff. he’s going to let me know about the board meeting in the fall and stuff. going to get access to the tower soon, and like i said…access pretty much any time i want. i showed him my pictures from last weekend, and he’s like…wow you really got around..you weren’t supposed to go there LOL. i’m not sure he noticed that some pics were from the basement hehe. he’s comping the other 2 summer tours. he said to call and cancel my reservations, but i’m just gonna pay anyway…they need the money, and what’s 20 bucks to me? especially if he’s going to let me in on my own. he thinks i’m interesting… lol. i always laugh at that, cuz i find myself to be so boring. my good stories are only cuz i know lots of colorful people.

so yeah, that went really really well. i had mentioned expanding our book project to the terminal as well and he was all for it, said he’d help with whatever we needed. yay!!

since i was already near the psych center, i paid a visit. cased the building, our hole in the fence has been fixed…but it’s absurd how easily i could crawl underneath the fence in some areas. brIAn had said he went into the nurses quarters the other day, so…so did i LOL. the fence is cut and sorta peeled back, easy enough for me to get in. the building is wide open. i got a bit creeped out so i didn’t spend much time there, plus i was unprepared since i wasn’t expecting to do any exploring – no flashlight, semi decent clothes on. went into a few rooms, went up to the 2nd floor. left after that. i really didn’t want to be confronted by…1. security, or 2. any psychos hiding out inside, since i was by myself. left there, continued my walk along the perimeter and this guy comes up to me and is like “you know you’re not allowed to be walking around here with a camera.” i’m like..ooookaaay. he’s like, seriously, you’re breaking like 15 federal laws. i’m like…ooookaaaay…he’s like, security will tell you if they see you, if you have any pictures of anyone on your film you’ll be in huge trouble. i’m like…”i appologize?!?!?!” i dunno what that was about. i guess it would sorta make sense, that i should be photographing any of the patients at the complex…but i wasn’t. and i think it was pretty obvious that i wasn’t. so whatever. i finished up my roll of film and headed out. haha right around when the guy confronted me about the camera, i noticed an open door in one of the cages. looked inside…it’s institutional green LOL. i only had black and white film but i had to photo it anyway heheh.

so 4 rolls of film taken in to get developed again. *is going broke* *wishes everyone would pay her the money they owe her*…bought a roll of 3200 speed black and white, cuz the lights get turned on the terminal on thurs. want night pics of the hospital too. so guess what my friends…after thursday in the square, we going photographing  it’s MY birthday, I say so!! hehe but the film was 7 fucking dollars. there is no way i paid 7 dollars a roll when i was in photog class. definitely need to find another film source.

and i’ve decided the only reason i have a cell phone is to call leighanne lol.

 

why i need to win the lotto…aka why i’m not allowed to go to home depot —-

home depot has the best deco 4 bulb “chandelier”. i saw it in the paper, with no price listed, so i figured i’d go check it out. it was so awesome omg i want it. it’s 159$ tho, and since i don’t have a house of my own i dunno what i’d do with it til then lol. but it’s so great.

then they have THE BEST area rug..of course it’s the most expensive one they sell. 500$ i think, for the 8’x10′ BUT ITS SO FRIGGEN COOL omgomgomg haha. NEED THAT CARPET!

oh yeah, i only worked for 20 min today. went in at 630 incase i worked at 7…didn’t…worked at 8. then i was in pit 1 on relief, so i signed the early out list when i saw that. started at 8, relief gets the first break, came back down and was sent home. haha so i got paid to sit up stairs for 20 min. of course my check will only be 32 hours again…unless i pick up wednesday, a few ppl were interested in taking my day off, but we’ll see.

a perfect circle album, august!! yaaaaaaaaaay

work was blah. was on kill me now, aka let it ride. and it’s funny cuz i don’t even have to asked to be switched out, james just always does it for me. so after a few hours i got sent to assist on roulette, bounced around a bit, ended on blackjack for the last hour. i feel like i didn’t do anything at work this week tho, cuz i never had a game and if i did i had no players. oh well.

got home at 4, went to dennys with adr who had just gotten home. that’s our first denny’s trip since we moved in hehe. someone was trying to play cds or something over the dennys music, and had the bass turned up real high…but either they blew out the speakers at some point, or they really just don’t have a good system because the bass sounded like…i can’t even explain it, but it was like someone kept dropping something haha. it was awful, let’s put it that way.

 

yay got an early birthday gift from my parents. a nice big tv… now all we need is cable.

*sings* movin on up…to the…high limit room. GAH i was in the high limit room all night. it was funny, cuz frank was like, you can handle it? are you sure you can handle it? are you SURE you can handle it? YES I’M FUCKING SURE. stood at a dead table for 2 hours, after that dealt maybe 15 hands, got moved around ended up back in there at a table with players… handled it just fine thanks.

they’re starting a pai gow and mini bacarrat class july 7th, so i’m going to take that. it’s 3 weeks long, it’ll give me another .50 in my paycheck. go me. bringing in the bux now  hahah

off to the silos. it’s funny the looks i get when i say that. jenn’s like… um. WHY?

 

gaaaaaah!!! the grain silos were soooooo coool. we went around doing outside shots for a while, then went inside cargill-s. *dies* it was so friggen great. took 3 rolls of film, camera being a bitch again though. *kills it* gotta figure out what’s wrong with it. prolly won’t get pics developed/back/online til wed/thurs ish again. definitely going to have to go back. it was drizzly and stuff, i wanna get back on a nice day when the lighting is different. so brian, thank you thank you!!

now gotta bust my ass to finish getting ready for work and head out.

the most difficult and time consuming process for me in webdesign is finding the right font for the site. i’m such a dork. i agonize over what font to use. lol.

i have a lunch meeting on monday with the terminal pres. vietnamese food. should be interesting. got a bunch of info on publishers in the area, or who have published books about buffalo. spent 4$ on a friggen starbucks mocha malt frappuchino…frappuchino’s are just icee’s for grownups. it was damn good, but 4 bucks…not happy. bought more black and white film. emailed photog proff from geneseo about buying film in bulk. got my car inspected. la la la…

going to the grain silos with brian (the website guy hehe) on saturday. i haven’t been down there, so it should be interesting. anyone know why tripods are so friggen expensive? saw one today for 129…good thing my dad has 9283497 camera things, and i won’t need to buy one ever.

my eye really needs to stop twitching. i thought we solved this problem a few months ago. gr. and OH YEAH…besides the fact that i decided my skin dr doesn’t ever work…mom finally called and got through for me, got new prescriptions. BUT i only get one of each, then i have to go see her. so made an appt for that, went to get my meds today…yeah. my insurance doesn’t cover it and it was 40$…so i didn’t buy it. sorry, not spending 40$ on clearasil, cuz that’s all it is. AND besides that, the stuff i get from the dr is only 4% benzol peroxide, and clearasil is 10%..so i just went and bought clearasil. i hate drs/insurance/etc…

well i didn’t win the 140 million…not sure if anyone has. but woo boy if i had…the terminal would be mine…

gonna try to get up early and go get my pictures. they’ll be up sometime tomorrow, but maybe not til late depending on my date and stuff. gotta figure out where i’m going to put them too.

have i mentioned i hate my computer?

 

*drum roll*……. i’ve got pictures  !!!!!!!!! gahhh. some turned out really really well. i have a few favs, mostly of the glass walkway. as i expected half my first roll of color film didn’t turn out cuz the camera was being a bitch, and i was fucking with the manual settings. but after it recovered…that camera takes some damn good quality pictures. but next time i’m not bringing any color film. urbex doesn’t do well with color i don’t think. so i grayscaled all the pics after i scanned them and they are much better. putting together a new site to house them, so it’ll be a while before they go live…maybe tomorrow. i can’t stay up all night doing it tonight cuz i gotta get up early to get my car inspected, and run some errands. maybe go to the lasalle square library…but maybe not hehe.

i had my date tonight. we went to dinner and to see bruce almighty. had a good time. the movie is good, but they did indeed cut my scene out. bastards!! haha. i love jim carrey. he’s so funny. i think that’s the first jim carrey movie ive seen since man on the moon… i don’t count the majestic cuz it was on the plane to vegas and i didn’t watch/listen to it.

off to start my new site

there was a raccoon stealing garbage in our parking lot.

i am in so much pain from running around the terminal. my legs hurt so bad i can hardly go up and down stairs haha. i’m such an invalid.

i can’t get my pictures til tomorrow cuz they wont be done til five today, and i go in at seven…no way i can get out there and back in time, unless i really push it, and wear my uniform to get the pics haha. i guess i can wait til tomorrow when i get up. pics will be up tomorrow before i go on my date, if it’s still on. dunno… gotta call him.

learning 3 card poker again, and definitely learning pai gow so i can get an extra 25 cents in my pay check in july…for each extra major game we know we get 25 more cents…so knowing blackjack and roulette i’ll get the first 25…then if you know pai gow, let it ride, carribbean stud, 3 card, and the money wheel you get another 25…so i’ll be making 4.50 an hour baserate starting july 5th. that’s an extra 20$ a week.

i’m really tired and have a headache again, gonna try to nap (while listening to tool)…

fishy and i need a title for our book…so i can start on the website

 

i’ve been meaning to post this for ages…but…

what the hell happened to jewel. i never liked her, but at least she had some integrity…and now…?? she’s dressing like britney spears, looking whorish, and from what i was able to hear from the NBA halftime show, singing stupid pop copycat songs a la britney and the rest. everyone at work was like “who’s that singing?”….”jewel”…”THAT’S JEWEL!?! WHAT HAPPENED TO HER?”…and she still needs to get her teeth fixed.

my first scheduled night in pit 3. i think i proved my worth. got to talk to john for a few minutes before my shift, so that was cool. and got out an hour early. if i hadn’t gotten out early i was gonna go to the other casino with some other dealers and just not go to bed before the terminal. but i have about 4 hrs i can sleep now.

just gotta get directions to the terminal from here…i just don’t know what way is fastest.

 

sooooooooooo tired. soooooooooo excited i’m gonna pee my pants hehheheheheh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

 

i love buffalo. buffalo is such a beautiful city – you just need to know where to look.

i don’t even know where to begin. i had just a fabulous time at the terminal. i’m glad i left early because i went brain dead on how to get there once i got off the 33 and drove through the ghetto a bit (a lot) lol. so hanging out outside before they started the tour, i ended up talking to the president of the terminal restoration commission (or whatever it’s really called). I have to call him this week because he wants my dad’s pictures of the inside from the 70s. Since this was the first real tour in 15 years, he was there to sorta give the tour – he won’t be at the other 2 dates – so I was glad I went to this one. He had alot of information about the terminal, since he owns it, the history, what’s going on with it etc. I got tons more respect for the fences, and sealing it up so people “can’t get in”…met the kid who runs buffaloexploration.com as well and talked to him lots about the terminal and the psych center. definitely going to be a good contact for the book.

So inside…I was just like…omg. I could barely contain myself lol. There were about 60 people there, and the president guy kept saying he was overwhelmed at the response. He had a few slides someone gave to him from Germany of the terminal when it was being built, which was really cool. We can only hope to stumble across some stuff like that for our book.

I kinda wandered off on my own when the tour moved into the main concourse. There was a staircase to the offices in the tower that was fully illuminated, so I was like hey, I’m gonna go up there. The first floor ended up giving access to the tops of the ticket counters, and since I didn’t know if I was supposed to be up there or not, I tried to stay hidden from the main group down below. The kid from the website saw me up there though, so he came up and we walked around a bit through the offices up there. He found the infamous walkway between the windows, which was just like…omg. Was not going to attempt to go through it, way too much broken glass…and the whole owner being there thing. We thought we heard people coming up so we took off back downstairs. Then of course the tour goes upstairs HAHA…

So I took that opportunity to stay on the main concourse and go behind the caution tape…again trying to stay hidden incase I wasn’t supposed to be there. Found a room that used to have stores in it – a book store, candy store, and novelties…mens bathroom with broken urinals…ladies bathroom…which apparently had a large lounge before the actual bathroom part of it. Some of the old wall hangings (cloth wallpaper) and wall paper borders were still on the walls. It must have been really luxurious at the time. Went back into the main concourse, joined the tour upstairs but decided to continue up the stairs to the other floors to see how far I could go. 2nd floor door was stuck shut, 3rd floor was unlocked…went in there…I think that’s the floor that had all the fallen ceiling tiles that I walked over, some random furniture, etc. 4th floor had…the roof. I about died. Big open window that I went through to get onto the roof of the main concourse. I was just like…oh…my…god. 5th floor is the end of the line. It’s fenced off because the above floors have the machinery for the clocks, security, and cell phone towers on the top of the building. (however, making arrangements with the president to go back with a UB group, gonna see if he’ll let me up farther). Another guy found me up on the higher floors and mentioned the kitchen, which I hadn’t seen because I had been upstairs when the group was down on the concourse. So he took me down there, and the website kid was there – he found the basement. Soooo…the 3 of us went down to the first basement, which was pretty um…dirty and dangerous and dark. He was prepared with a flashlight, me not so smart. But I was able to use the flash on my camera to light up the steps enough that I could find a semi-flat-non caked with mounds of dirt steps that I could step on to get downstairs. There was a hall full of lockers, I guess for the workers, and another kitchen. We made our way down the hall, which was again..dark and piles of dirt everywhere, so you had to becareful with your footing. The end of the hall was more of a kitchen with an old stove and stuff. We didn’t even try to go to the next further down basement, because it was even more dark (cuz by then it was actually underground – the first basement still had windows that you could see the parking lot railings from), and the stairs were covered in even more debris. Would definitely need to be more prepared to venuture further down.

The tour was basically over, people were leaving, but we were still wandering around. Then a bunch of people went back up stairs – to the roof. HAHA so we went back to the roof, and we actually climbed up the domed roof of the main concourse. It was incredible. I went back to the 2nd floor to just try the door again. I pulled real hard and got it open lol, so it apparently wasn’t welded shut like I thought…just stuck. Stepped in their breifly.

After that, everyone really was leaving cuz the president guy had to lock up. Hung out in front for the last people to get out of the building, and talked about some of the going ons and possible future plans. Apparently (and this got me excited to all hell), the group gave a presentation to the Seneca Nation about putting the Buffalo casino in the terminal…!!!!!!!!! I couldn’t think of a more fabulous idea for the building. There are concerns that the guy talked about, and the Seneca’s decided this week to put the casino in the Buffalo Convention Center – but the rumor is if the negotiations fall through for that, they have a secret 2nd location picked out – possibly the terminal. There is so much potential for it there (other than the neighborhood it’s in…)…you have the train tracks…people from New York to Chicago could take a train right into the casino. The tower would be a fabulous place for a restaurant overlooking the city. Apparently on a clear day you can even see the falls from the top. The building is just so beautiful, such a work of art, that if the Seneca’s put the money into restoring it, it would be amazing. The tower could even be restored into a hotel. gah…lol.

It’s totally gutted, don’t get me wrong. But it’s incredible. And with money, it would be amazing again. In talking about the history, the building was in private ownership for 25 years or something, and that is the main reason it went into ruins. As a historical landmark, that only applies to the outside of the building, not the inside…and the asshole previous owners stripped and sold all of the fixtures, and everything inside – even ripped the pipes out of the walls to sell as scrap metal. The clock that was in the main concourse was on ebay a few years ago for 28,000$…the buffalo that was inside was destroyed and removed. UB apparently found the molds for the original buffalo, and re-made it and they have it on the south campus somewhere. The president said he gets letters and emails all the time from all over the country – people telling him that light fixtures, or railings, or mailboxes from the building are on display at such and such a museum, or for sale at antique shops…and they don’t have the money to regain them – which is why they didn’t buy the clock off ebay. It’s sad really.

I took 4 rolls of film, tried to recreate my dad’s pictures…we’ll see how it turns out. Hopefully I have some decent pictures, but neither camera wanted to work properly and ug…But yeah…omg.

After the tour, I ended up going to Corpus Christi church which is a few blocks away with some people from Canada. The church is in danger of being closed by the diocese (sp?), so they wanted to see it before it’s closed. It’s a Franciscan/Catholic/Polish church…I walked in and started to cry. No idea why, but I was just like omg. It is so beautiful inside. There was the fathers day mass going on, and they announced that they got a 6 month repreive on the closure of the church. It was just…I don’t even know. The mass was…interesting…cuz it’s polish, so they had like…polka hymns lol. I tried to concentrate on the amusement of that, so I’d stop crying lol. So after the mass, we walked around to look more closely at the alter and the artwork. Really amazing place.

Gah!!!! The photo place that does b&w was closed, so I have to take them tomorrow, get them tuesday – they’ll be scanned asap.

Got to get in contact with the website kid cuz he’s gonna be a great contact for the book, and I’m gonna see if I can tag along on some future outings.