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ok philly was the best of the 6 shows so far this leg. with 3 more to go i have high hopes for toronto. but yeah. this was definitely the best.

first off, we headed to wachovia spectrum at eleven stopping for lunch by eastern state on the way. when we got to the arena at noon it didn’t look good for us getting into soundcheck – rumor was only about 50 people got let in each show. met a few cool people, all of which were going to wilkes-barre sunday too. since it seemed that people kept cutting into line the whole afternoon we made a deal that we’ll all try to get there at 9 tomorrow and whoever gets there first we can go in line with them. plus the one couple are staying across the street too so we’ll have a bathroom etc.

around 4 everyone got let into the arena for soundcheck, SCORE!! we were all seated in the back of the seats to wait for things to get set up. various band members came on stage and were doing their thing. aaron started playing “eye of the tiger” so everyone clapped, being in philadelphia and all haha. trent came out and it was just really really cool to see. cuz he was just walking around playing the guitar as opposed to performing (and it IS different). they started playing “dead souls”!! half way through they let us out of the seats and up front to the barrier. so friggen cool. from “dead souls” they went into “the frail/the wretched” which is always rocking whether the lights are on or off. then shock of shocks, they did “a request for this old classic”….deep!!! omg never expected that. very very cool. after trent commented to remind his light guy to fix the super mario look of the lighting. they finished up with “wish”. lemme tell you, soundcheck was just so cool. such a great thing to do for the people who have stuck around the last 5 years, and yeah. just in awe. trent was very humble, thanking everyone, and stating how doing soundcheck with everyone was much more intimidating with the lights on and them all exposed and naked on stage. and every girl and probably a lot of guys wished that was really so hahaha.

they had let a lot of people in for soundcheck, so there was no meet and greet. we were sent back to the seats to wait til 6:30 to go back on the floor again. let me tell you, philly was the most entertaining of shows. we had a couple sitting in front of us, who suddenly out of no where apparently started fighting (it was hard to tell) and the girl starts crying cuz the guy broke up with her. so then it was like an hour of her crying and asking why he was mad at her, and just really funny shit. the people behind us kept making cracks about their fight etc, which was hilarious. one of them and i both took the girls picture as she cried on our phone hahahaha. and trust me, it wasn’t mean. they were ridiculous. “i hate you so much i want you far far away from me i never want to see you again, i can’t believe you broke up with me at a nine inch nails concert.” haha

so finally we were let back onto the floor. they did it sort of disorganized like but it was ok. ended up…one back, aaron’s side haha. i mentioned after the show that we HAVE to go to jeordie’s side next show cuz i’m getting a stiff neck from looking in the same direction so many times. suffered through dfa1979 and the queens. i don’t know how i managed the first 3 times seeing them without ear plugs. wow i just so dislike them, almost to the point of hate. only 3 more times…

so nin was incredible. being crushed is seriously the only way to see a nin show. being up front and not getting crushed is nice but it really is not the way to experience the show. there’s nothing like it. opening was the same. but we got “something we can never have” again, plus “dead souls” for real which we weren’t expecting (they had done the song at NYC soundcheck but not at the show), and “even deeper”. no reptile, but that’s ok. i got drenched with water that trent threw at aaron. felt good that’s for sure.

1. pinion
2. love is not enough
3. you know what you are?
4. terrible lie
5. the line begins to blur
6. march of the pigs
7. something i can never have
8. the frail
9. the wretched
10. closer
11. burn
12. gave up
13. eraser
14. right where it belongs
15. beside you in time
16. the collector
17. wish
18. only
19. even deeper
20. dead souls
21. suck
22. hurt
23. the hand that feeds
24. head like a hole

there was this drug addict next to me before the show started, seriously he was on acid, who kept leaning on me cuz he couldn’t stand. i shoved him and told him to get the fuck off me, so he called me a bitch. well he got off me. then later i ended up behind this guy who was at barrier and didn’t move or do a damn thing the whole show. so i made it a point to try to hurt him as much as i could during “the hand that feeds” and i think i succeeded cuz he moved his hand to right where i was punching him in the kidney. ha score! my shoulder is way fucked up right now from the very last crowd surfer who came over during “head like a hole”. it hurts reaaaaaally bad, as does the side of my neck. it’s making me feel sick.

so the people of philly continued to be entertaining even as we left, as a car in the parking lot would only let us in front of them if adr2 sang with the song they were blasting…”jack and diane” LOL they let us in anyway.

so yeah. definitely best show so far. off to wilkes-barre now. more tomorrow!

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walked to walgreens cuz i have nothing to do in the hotel room. was tempted to dye my hair blue for tomorrow but i know it’ll just bleach orange, and then blue on top of orange is puke, so it would be horrible. but i managed to finally find the bono rolling stone mag out right now. i can’t get through the article, it’s massively long and i’m just not in the mood. but he looks good in it. and he makes a quote on the current album that is right on: “it’s the best collection of songs we’ve put together – there’s no weak songs. (i disagree of course) but as an album, the whole isn’t greater than the sum of its parts, and it fucking annoys me.” hahah great!!

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went to byberry today. we found it fairly easily, and oddly, maybe it was just timing, but the security truck right away came and drove by where we were parked on a residential street behind the property. he went down the street, turned around and sat there watching us. so of course he saw me and adr2 and a tripod and getting jackets on etc. he drove back and by us again and we pretended to get back in the car. we didn’t know what to do cuz he so knew what we were doing. so we drove around to the other side of the property, thought we could go through the woods from this big office complex. so we went into the woods which seemed great til we found the creek. backtrack again, back to the residential neighborhood. parked a few streets up and walked to the property. then we’re walking into the complex and there’s someone else walking and watching us. great now what. well…no one came after us, so we just stayed.

sadly i was really disappointed. i can’t tell what it was that we went in, because the map shows a whole lot of stuff that i don’t think is there anymore but i think we went in w6 and n8. we walked around c10 and c11 but no way in. they looked like much older buildings, so we thought they’d be more interesting than the ones we went in – which seemed too new for my taste. the place is really destroyed, stupid graffiti everywhere. graffiti in meyer malting is really cool, good artistic tagging etc. this was just, so and so was here, and welcome to hell crap. but TONS of it. so it was yuck. and every floor looked the same, and it was uninteresting sameness. so yeah. maybe if we had been able to go with a “guide” they’d have been able to show us highlights. most likely won’t be making another trip back – possibility of finding brains or not. i took half a roll of film and maybe 15 digital pics (it’s completely useless without a tripod).

we are going to go to the pines and concord instead of hudson psych on monday with a “guide”. so i’m looking forward to that. should be much better than today.

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hello from bellmawr new jersey. so the last few days…

tuesday left around 1 and headed for dc. it rained the entire way, which was yuck. we just missed being able to go to reptiland in PA, sadly. and there was one stretch of highway, we’re talking about 500 feet, that had the funniest signs and billboards in it. i can’t remember any of them, but believe me, they were funny.

as always, there was construction right where we needed to get off the highway to find our hotel, so we got mixed up and turned around. it’s really normal and no big thing. got the hotel, which had a really scary shower in my room – burned from cigarettes but it looked like someone was killed.

wednesday the day of the show, i got an email from the spiral about ticket pickup – that they were going to open will call early, at 130 due to the large number of spiral members going to the show. so that pretty much told us that we’d never make it into sound check there. so we decided to go around dc for the day, went to the vietnam memorial, then walked to the white house – er, tried to. all the streets around the white house are blocked off blahblahblah, but they wouldn’t let us down a normally open side walk that runs behind the white house but really really far away. couldn’t even look at it, let alone flip it off. we asked why we couldn’t go there, and one of the guards said “cuz he is.” drove to georgetown and found a whole foods for adr2 and bliss to get food. then finally headed to the show.

the show was great. 1 back from barrier, aaron’s side…again. haha. autolux is off the tour now, replaced with death from above 1979, who are from toronto. yeah, didn’t like them. would rather suffer through autolux. and queens of the stone age. forgot how anthony michael hall singer guy makes me ill. but! ear plugs work wonders, and made them tolerable.

nin was great as expected. alex learned some more songs, “you know what you are” and “the collector” were both added. set rearranged a bit, but same basic songs. these reviews are just going to be me repeating “reptile!!!! burn!!!! so great!!!!” hahaha aaron through a keyboard into the audience at the end. like the old days. i want a broken key haha.

1. Pinion
2. Love Is Not Enough
3. You Know What You Are
4. Terrible Lie
5. The Line Begins To Blur
6. March Of the Pigs
7. The Frail
8. The Wretched
9. Closer
10. Burn
11. Gave Up
12. Eraser
13. Right Where It Belongs
14. Beside You In Time
15. The Collector
16. Wish
17. Only
18. Reptile
19. Suck
20. Hurt
21. The Hand That Feeds
22. Head Like A Hole

partook in the absinthe after the show. it is…definitely a strong acquired taste. i could see how the more you drink it the easier it goes down. experimented with the amount of water and sugar til it got tolerable. haha. definitely got drunk off it, high alcohol content, but there was no halucinating or anything. it’ll be interesting to try it again.

thursday was driving to nyc day. again, we decided not to leave super early cuz, come on, it’s nyc. there’d be tons of people in line by the time we got there. so we left around noon and headed up north. checked into the hotel we booked here, changed, then headed to newark to take a train to penn station. we decided us driving in manhattan would not be too smart. newark was bad enough as it was rush hour. took forever to get down the street to penn station. anyway…

the show. i had a seat for this show, cuz my presale was messed up and GA sold out before i got one. so i was by myself. had a good seat, front of a section so no one was in front of me. i actually fell asleep during death from above, i got really tired suddenly haha. and i could sit! someone was snoring behind me during queens. nin show. great show. added “something i can never have” which was great, i didn’t think we’d see it in the arenas. emotional as always. no i didn’t cry. i still haven’t cried to that song live. so 😛 no special guests on stage, but james iha was there. they trashed the stage at the end, aaron destroying the drum kit and his guitar all at once. alessandro started tearing apart his keyboards. i didn’t notice trent destroying anything really, and jeordie was just really funny, cuz everyone else is throwing stuff, and he just gently puts his bass down haha. it was great.

1. pinion
2. love is not enough
3. you know what you are?
4. terrible lie
5. the line begins to blur
6. march of the pigs
7. something i can never have
8. the frail
9. the wretched
10. closer
11. burn
12. gave up
13. eraser
14. right where it belongs
15. beside you in time
16. the collector
17. wish
18. only
19. reptile
20. hurt
21. suck
22. the hand that feeds
23. head like a hole

driving back to the hotel, got lost. haha surprise!!

tomorrow is spending the off day in philly exploring.

good time so far. looking forward to the rest of the trip.

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had my 2 fillings, face was numb until i went to work. went as a pirate. and i made a pretty hot pirate if i do say so myself. my mom gave me a pheasant to wear since i had no piraty accessories but i couldn’t attach it. so most people didn’t know what i was til they realized i had an eye patch on my forehead (obv couldn’t wear it to do my job). if only it had been busy at work, like on a weekend (when they should have let us dress up), i’d have made super tips. they should let us dress slutty all the time haha. the shoes killed me though, totally cut the top of my feet up, so definitely not wearing them to any shows. or i’ll have to tape my feet up before hand lol. and everyone got to see my tattoo. “what does it mean?” “if you don’t know i’m not telling you”

jenn and jeff came over with megan as a pumpkin. very cute. she wasn’t scared of kitty this time. took kitty to my parents, and he didn’t freak out and go hide in the basement. so it’s a 2nd home for him now. as expected, the pumpkin full of candy that i left on the porch for trick or treaters was stolen pretty much immediately. oh well. someone got a bunch of old chocolate.

VACATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and wow i have so much shit to take lol

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ok apparently the duty free shop in lewiston and the falls, and someplace on industrial drive on grand island, sell urban decay cosmetics?!?!? gonna have to check that out, cuz they have a product i want that is out of stock on the site. maybe it’s in stock at duty free. still confused about grand island though.

stressing over what to wear to work tomorrow. i can’t really go rock star-y cuz i need my clothes for the trip. i could wear the pirate outfit i bought last year and didn’t wear, except i don’t think it looks piraty. and i could wear the fishnet dress i bought for my birthday gift from tommy since i have no other reason to wear it. blah.

so don’t want to get up in 4 and a half hours.

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nice day out at flinkote with dustin and his friend marcine. the machine room is still one of my favourite urbex locations ever. fence gates added to all entry ways but none were closed or locked. they had locks on them, they just didn’t use them. so it’s as accessible as ever. we found a really really nice bike in the lowest level, so there might have been someone else there. didn’t see anyone though. and i came home to an IM from chris that he was going to lockport. haha.

and i had no idea the 80s song “We Don’t Have To Take Our Clothes Off” was by Jermaine Stewart…A MAN! have you ever heard that song? years and years and years i thought it was a woman singing. but nope. it’s a man. wow.

i had the asbury park dream again. this time i was explaining the dream to an ex friend on a bus. but it was the same dream.

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dream: there was another hurricane in the atlantic, headed for new jersey. specifically, asbury park. (oh hey, if we’re bored on vaca, we could go to asbury!). i was worried about the casino, because it was so run down, and i remembered leighanne saying that each hurricane made the building a little more vulnerable and accessible. i didn’t know if it had been torn down yet, so i went there. and it hadn’t been torn down, but all the medusa heads had been removed, and the carousel house had no walls anymore. i walked around the building and though there were no walls i still couldn’t go in. then the palace was still there. it had been partially torn down, then the walls were rebuilt with big windows. the stuff inside was still demolished as it was last year when i was there in real life. none of the fun paintings and tillie heads were on there, they were replaced with holes and windows. i didn’t understand any of it.

had to work 9 hours tonight cuz of daylight savings. so my pay check will be for 40 hours and 15 minutes of overtime. that’ll be helpful considering the next 2 checks are going to suck so bad. plus the toke rate this week should be pretty good. money! work has been uneventful. jenn’s husband jeff got promoted, so that’s good. she may have to leave swing shift tho. so i’ll see her never. shes coming over monday with the baby dressed up for halloween so i gotta remember to go get some candy. i’m leaving a plastic pumpkin full of easter candy on the porch for the kids monday haha. chocolate doesn’t go bad!

what else. going exploring with dustin tomorrow, and i think he’s bringing someone. i think we’re gonna go to lockport but not sure. he had some places i had never heard of that someone else was going to be checking out so maybe we’ll just go with them, who knows.

the serial killer book is not scary. it’s really interesting. on john wayne gacy at the moment. my dad’s high school serial killer isn’t in the book, bummer.

i feel like i have alot to do and no time to do it before i leave. gone all day tomorrow. 2 fillings monday morning, take the cat to the parents, jenn and megan, pack, clean my desk off, and the office and bedroom floor incase my mom feels like cleaning she won’t put all my stuff away in strange places. gah. and i only have 5 rolls of film and i feel like i’ll need more for byberry and hudson psych. i’m sure i’ll need more. oh yeah, gotta see if my dad has another 35 mm to lend me, so i don’t use the digital but still have color.

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because my life is lame and so totally wrapped up around a band….jerome is leaving nin. for reasons unrelated to his health. from his post it sounds as if it’s possible he never was sick to even begin with. i don’t know. trent’s nin.com posts sounded frustrated and disappointed. makes me uneasy. cuz yes their lives matter to me.

i had a dream about nate last night. it’s fucking with me. sitting in the back of my mind all day, sorta thinking about it all day. just messing me up. in the dream i had gone to get food at mcdonalds. i ordered and he was working there in the grill preparing food. he brought the food to the bin and looked around. he looked at me, sort of paused, looked away. i kept staring at him as he did it 2 more times before finally giving a sheepish wave and nothing else. he was going bald which made me happy.

3 years later and he still sits in my head fucking with me. 3 years and i still don’t know what i’d do if i ran into him somewhere. 3 years and i am still bitter and hateful. i wish i never met him.

and i’m suddenly freaking out about money. i need to move. i have too much crap to move back to a small apartment.

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warning, ego post

i’ve decided that men cannot beat me at dr mario. and i’ve came up with my theory as to why this is. boys just don’t think as quickly, or as efficiently as girls. a girl who was good at dr mario, i’m sure could beat me. but even boys who are good can’t touch me. it’s sad really. i was watching tommy play alone after i killed him about 24 times, and i just saw so many more moves than the ones he did, and when he used the same move i would have, he found it and played it much slower. and that is why i always win. i just think so quickly when we’re talking spatial orientations.

and apparently i’m going to see cold with phill and dave in cleveland on nov 22nd. anyone else wanna go?

and i’ve gotten hookups to go urbex some places on the trip next week.

and joe clarified that the tea party really did break up. jeff martin moved off to ireland and didn’t even tell the other band members. classy guy.

and i folded all the newsletters today, getting lables and stamps tomorrow. finished laundry. found the 2 shirts i thought i had given to goodwill, in my trunk as i thought YAY. still didn’t map the driving route for the trip though, and still didn’t book the DC hotel. i’ll figure it out.

and something is really wrong with my shoulder. just carpal tunnel or tendonitis or something. gonna mention it to the dr when i go next month, maybe she can give me some exercises to do.

tonight’s commercial: “the biggest dump in the class”

and OMG just found out wonka comes out on dvd on the 8th. 2 disc special edition now preordered from deepdiscountdvd.com YAY! i’m hoping for killer extras.

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