holy mother of good luck. trent will be in vegas on april 1st, so that settles when i’ll be going to visit adr!!! she had wanted a show she could go to, and it’s just the most perfect timing ever. that’s when i was figuring to go anyway! yaaaaaaaaaay!!!!! i’ll look into flights soon. half the ppl from work already have theirs. i’ll talk to them tonight.
i’m not sure if there is anything more amusing then reading the badly translated chinese on cheap dollar store products:
“craft modle for children’s intelligence development. in order not to eat, when do it, children need parental vision and guidance”
“lovable pet amusive little dog play”
“lovely lamp clock suit both refined and popular tastes”
“fashionable head ornanment”
horrorscope: You’re mostly harmless, but not everybody has the common sense to see that. Your delightful sense of humor is best saved for those who are in on the joke. Humorless types simply won’t get it.
hahah that one is funny.
i had this wicked dream all typed out and the computer restarted and i lost it. maybe i’ll feel like typing it up again later.
horrorscope
The only thing you can count on is that nothing ever stays the same. Once you get that that’s the punch line to the cosmic joke, life will become so much easier. Things are evolving, but that’s good.
hmm
i wanna live for you
god i hate who’s the boss. carolyn, how on earth did you watch this addictively a few years ago?
work was ok. i was let out of high limit for a while…was an extra cuz they didn’t open the bacc table, and ended up back there on blackjack at the end of the night which was ok. anything but bacc.
when i think of something psych related – from psychopathology to perception – for fun i make up experiments to test what i am wondering about. i still would never want to actually go and run them as a job, but it’s fun to think about. for me at least. and it stops my brain from going to mush. tonight i was wondering if you can really tell the difference, visually, between a car going 35 mph and 40 mph. my thought would be no.
half way through fellowship of the ring. i still find it somewhat boring. it’s boring punctuated with really fast bits of action, and then boring again. but it’s ok enough for me to keep reading. i have a pile of books to read now, mom bought a bunch off my wishlist for xmas. and i found the “Everyone has a bono story” novel buried on my desk haha.
year in review 2005
happy new year. goodbye 2005 and good riddance. with the exception of anything reznor related you sucked.
so let’s do this thing. 2005 in review:
january – “it didn’t turn out as horrible as it started.” (regarding work) – i don’t really remember much of the first few months of the year beyond losing all my friends and being upset all the time.
february – “Jenn has run into some complications and is not going to be able to carry the baby full term.” – same as january. i had my gallery show, opened feb 12th.
march – “spent the morning in the er.” – ah yes my trip to the er for my ulcer that i didn’t know i have. and 3 words – trent fucking reznor. went to reno and invited basically, a complete stranger, to come with me. and it worked out way better than i could have ever imagined.
april – “i think i just sorta had a date…” – started dating tommy
may – “i wish i had some sort of talent or skill that i could market and work for myself, while able to live as comfortably as i do now, so that i could completely embrace the counter culture.” – the new nin record, with teeth, was released. and the 2 best concerts of my entire life – the nin club shows in toronto. followed by the spur of the moment trip with adr2 to philly for 2 more club shows.
june – “since everyone else went to toronto this weekend, i will go by myself tomorrow.”
july – “What is the point of itunes, when you PAY to download music, but then CAN’T BURN IT?”
august – “i hate my life” – met josh, dan, and dagr at the terminal. at least i think that was august haha.
september – “i’ve been watching cnn all day, and most of the 5 hours that i did nothing at work yesterday.” katrina. and my addiction to cnn. a fun and successful event at the terminal – oktoberfest. and oh, u2 shows.
october – “a bunch of fans of the show Fear on mtv put together a 7 dvd set of all episodes and bonus stuff.” 3 more nin shows, trip to chicago.
november – “had my 2 fillings, face was numb until i went to work” – the major nin road trip, 7 cities, 10 days. most excellent time.
december – “put my xmas trees up today.” – whirl wind trip to cali.
the year is more a less a blur of pain, hurt and upsetness, with isolated moments of pure happiness.
and for resolutions? of course i could say i am going to fix myself, and get better, and do something with my life and time. but i wish it was that easy. and if i made that resolution, who would i really be fooling?
here’s hoping for a much better 2006.
there is an article on yahoo right now about how bono’s poverty campaigning almost split up u2. and you know what, the rest of the band has every reason to be irritated or whatever about bono turning into a fucking politician. “But Bono said he now feels the other band members recognize that U2’s audience appreciates what he is doing.”….we appreciated it in the “off season” between albums, between making a shitty record, between tours. you are a bloody rockstar bono, act like it! more of us miss the OLD bono, than appreciate the NEW bono. i don’t care if you spend every dollar you have on political and economical causes, but first and foremost, you’re in a rock band. you can talk to president bush and everyone else til you turn blue about poverty, and african debt, etc. but when i go to a ROCK CONCERT i don’t want to hear about it. i don’t want to hear the declaration for human rights, i already know it. you’ve converted every fan that you can already, to your causes, to the one campaign. you’re not gonna reach anyone else. give it up. save it for the down time. “They are hugely supportive spiritually and financially of the work I do, but they are in a rock ‘n ‘roll band, and the first job of a rock ‘n ‘roll band is not to be dull,” Bono told British Broadcasting Corp. radio. and you know what, you ARE boring now. i’ve decided that’s my problem with bono and this year’s tour. it’s not exciting, it’s not fun. u2 has always been a political band, had a sarejevo hookup during zoo tv, always championed various causes. but it’s gone way too far now. i don’t care if bono supports the right for grass to grow in sidewalk cracks, i don’t want to go to a show and hear about it. it’s just become really obvious that bono cares more about his causes than this 25 year old music career. he even said it himself, that he’d rather be remembered for the good work he has accomplished politically than for his music. and it’s just beyond apparent now. you can tell when you see him, or read interviews, or attend a show. it makes me sad. i don’t want to go to a rock concert and listen to and see just another puffed up bull shitting politician. i can get that at home on the news. i want to go and see a good, exciting, fun rock show. and that’s not what you get from u2 anymore. sorry bono. i did love you. i just can’t right now. enough already. go back into the studio and create a good fucking record, leave the political work to the politicians.
gah jeff martin played buffalo tonight solo acoustic. tonawanda joe emailed me that he did psychopomp with a hurt insert. GAH!!!!!!!!!!!! must. be. bootlegged!
kate told me this wicked rumor about work, and our raise, and back pay. and holy crap if it was true, it’d be friggen amazing. however. i highly doubt it’s true, since soooooooo many casinos pay the same as mine. *vague*
and i am so tired of midi baccarat if i’m on it tomorrow i’m gonna go postal.
exploring
went exploring with chris today. the intended target was toronto hydro in the falls canada. i didn’t realize it was right on the parkway and practically in the park. so that meant lots of traffic and people. but it didn’t much matter, it’s badly fenced, but beyond the fence no noticable entry. beautiful building though. gonna see about getting permission to go in.
drove around trying to find this other place i accidentally drove by once. didn’t find it so headed back to the states. ended up going to carbosil again. someone/thing knocked the school bus completely over on its side!!!!! but that wasnt the most exciting thing about carbosil this time… there was a white case, opened up…sitting there. and on the side it was labled GUIDED MISSILE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! of course, no missile, i looked all over. but why on earth was there a carrying case for a missile in carbosil? didn’t notice it last time, but i don’t think it was new. god if it was?!?!?!
came back to the house and showed him some stuff. looked at the book he had done, and i’m gonna get one of my own i think. mypublisher.com nice stuff.
work tonight at 10. blah blah blah blaaah. i’ll be sleeping all day tomorrow. up too early today.
holy crap the most awesome job in the area just opened up at the power authority where my dad works. its a photography job, sounds way cool, pays great. of course, it’s an internal posting only right now, and i don’t know how to do everything it mentions in the description. but it’s high school grad and up, and i can do that! haha and i can learn. i can’t imagine it’s a full time position. whatever.
also, entertainment director opened up at work. of course they want 10 years experience in entertainment booking in a multi venue situation. but i could so totally do it. book for 3 places in the casino, take care of the celebrities, and pay them. EASY! god i’d do wonders for that place in that job. haha.