today went out to the first ward with leighanne. which was really nice. first time i’ve gone out there on my own, and i’m proud of myself that i managed to access places accessed before with brian. and i thought i wasn’t paying attention to where we were going. we didn’t go in anywhere, just drove around and took pics and set off an alarm. but yeah. it was nice. and there were deer everywhere!

might go to lockport with jerry on wednesday, waiting to hear back from him, and it all depends on the weather of course. if it’s super crappy then we’ll just chill here for awhile. but i checked out flinkote on thurs, and it’s still looking lovely. my luck there were ppl surveying so i couldn’t wander…did i already mention this?

spent the whole day with bandaids on my fingers, until about 2am. only one person asked me why, and i told them i had a run in with a cheese grater. as soon as i took the bandaids off i was back to picking at my skin relentlessly. ug. tony said they looked painful and they look far better today than they did yesterday. tomorrow’s excuse will be that i tried to slit my wrists and missed. or that i had an carpentry accident with a disc sander. or that i fell and grabbed a hot iron. though i like the cheese grater explanation best.

i dont feel good