i had a tornado dream wednesday night. that, along with the trent dream, are very telling regarding my current emotional state.

i’m pissed at my mom. nothing new. rejoicing over the fact that i do not have to go to detroit for Christmas. especially now that i really don’t wish to talk to her for quite a while…though we’re doing christmas on thursday before they leave for detroit.

i need to do something to relieve all my stress. because as always i’m taking it out on my fingers, and i’ve peeled pretty much all the layers of dead skin off my fingers around the nail. it’s ugly and increasingly painful. and i can’t stop.

but i did find out something quite exciting, something i had been excited about over a year ago that never panned out….if you want to know, ask, i’m not going to mention it here for a while…don’t want things to fall through. again.