i dreamed i was climbing mount everest. after climbing a long time i turned around for the first time and saw the most amazing view possible. vivid bright blue lake, with intense green trees surrounding it, perfect sky. just the perfect stereotypical view off a mountain. it was after seeing the view that i realized that i was climbing mount everest. i remembered i had a disposable camera with me and took a few pictures. but i only had 3 or 4 left so i thought i should save a few for later in the climb.

jerry is coming over tomorrow afternoon. i will try not to cry at him while he is here. probably won’t be doing any exploring because of time. but that is a-ok.

i had a very long dream about nate this morning. he had come home. i ran into him in a JC Pennys type department store, but it wasn’t a surprise. it was if i was supposed to meet him there. he was wearing all white. he looked good. we didn’t really say much, walked around the department store and cashed out at a register. it seemed like everyone knew him, or that all the girls wanted to know him. and i was getting really jealous, because i almost assumed that because he had sought me out that meant he wanted to get back together with me. the cashier was complimenting a snow globe he was holding. it was a snow globe that i had purchased on my way to the store, when i had gone through a restored central terminal, and inside the globe was the bronze buffalo from the building. i gave the girl dirty looks and said it was MY snow globe and that I had bought it, not him. and she just ignored me as if i wasn’t there talking. then we were in some kind of strange house, trying to get somewhere where we could sit and talk about niger. i left him somewhere to go use the phone so i could text lei that i was with nate. when you used a payphone it was like a vending machine, and it gave you a disposable single use cell phone (and you could also get a disposable single use gameboy). i went back to find nate and almost asked him if he had seen the new phone vending machines, forgetting that he has been in the middle of the “dark continent” for 2 years and has no idea what has gone on in the rest of the world.

not the best way to wake up today. thanks.

also massive headache.

the cat has a new routine in the morning. it’s to come sit on my head. with its face either in my neck, or in my ear purring into it. i imagine it’s quite cute but no one is ever here to see it.