sometimes i feel like i’m 80 years old. i realized bacarrat makes my back hurt. so once again, it’s killing me. and my knees hurt…dunno why cuz i’ve never had problems with my knees. maybe the very subtle change in weather from rain yesterday to snow today…dunno. i just feel old physically. i should start doing the ab workout again.

i remembered something today that made me smile momentarily in another wise boring day. i realize i’m not really unhappy, i wasn’t unhappy today…just bored. and i’m so tired of being bored. i sleep so long cuz i have nothing else to do. and absolutely no motivation to do some of the things i could do (like update institutional green). i need a muse. i need inspiration. i need new music from u2. haha i thought i’d just throw that in there lol

i am going to force myself to get up tomorrow at 12:30…i probably am lieing right now though. we’ll see. i need to cash my rebate from cingular, and take my keys back to the nacc, and try to pay my cable bill again. and i need to cook, so i stop eating absolutely craptacular food. i might make chili. dunno. gotta see if i have all the ingrediants i need.