Category Archives: Personal

still one of the most sickening images from sept 11th is the video footage of bush sitting in a classroom doing nothing. i don’t really know what i would expect a president to do when getting information of the country being under attack, but i would expect SOMETHING. not just to continue sitting there staring blankly into space. i can’t imagine that was the response of FDR when he recieved news of pearl harbor…

i’ve pretty much stayed away from shows on 9-11 until now, mainly because for the first time i have nothing to do except watch tv. alot of the information is new to me. like the complete breakdown of communication in government that morning. that bush couldn’t get the white house on the phone, and the white house couldn’t contact air force one. and that his motorcade taking him to the plane went the wrong way and had to turn around. then fighter jets sent up from a base near DC went the wrong way, out over the ocean instead and had to turn around. that the information about the 4 planes being hijacked was not sent to the military.that the military didn’t even know that flight 93 was hijacked until it had already crashed.

god cheney just looks evil.

about 10 years or so ago, in that interesting period of fandom, i knew a guy in kuwait. i had met him along with many friends i still talk to now, on IRC. another person who we both knew ended up going to kuwait to visit him, they were “dating” until all this drama came up – the whole muslim arranged marriage thing. there was alot of other stuff that happened that i don’t really remember anymore. then a few years ago there was a vh1 mj fan special and i knew the people on the show. one of them was this woman who had dated the guy in kuwait. i remember emailing her after all this time to see how she was and if she ever heard from him but she didn’t.

watching the sept 11th shows on cbc and i remembered him. i ended up finding her website, and her story about visiting him and got his name – Khalid Matar. There are probably thousands of ppl with that name, but nothing really comes up on the web for someone who could actually be him. wouldn’t it have been terrible if he had been on one of the planes? i can’t remember if he had ever come here to visit her, or if he had ever been here, but in his very poor english it never seemed as if he hated the US haha.

watching all this stuff about intelligence, makes me think about being a spy and how instead of needing to know russian, you’d need to know arabic. i wonder if aunt trudy could get a job with the cia…she knows 6 languages including arabic and lived in saudi arabia for years.

the news, tho we’re not sure it’s correct, is that melody fair and the blue bird bus terminal on wurlitzer are to be demolished for a walmart…

now i’m not one of these walmart haters who blame the entire world’s problems on walmart. yeah they pay people shit, and make tons of money, and all those other things walmart is accused of doing/being, but hey, they sell things cheap, and i’m not rich so…but a walmart down the street from my parents. that thought makes me want to gag. i just can’t…fathom…a walmart down the street. it’s a totally weird location for a superstore like that. it wouldn’t have blvd frontage, just erie ave frontage…and…there are no other commercial attractions there except tim hortons. i just don’t get it. mom thought maybe she heard the story wrong and that it was walgreens…which would make more sense, except that would be the biggest walgreens ever if it was to use the melody fair and bus property…ug…a walmart in a residential neighborhood. barf.

prostitute boat racing on jackass. ha.

home and fixed i guess. i saw some pictures of the operation and it looked like i had alot of stones. he said there may be some stuck in the common bile duct so that if it turns out i still get pains i have to go back to the specialist and he can take that one out. yuck. anyway. things are fine. throat hurts from tube down my throat and of course the cuts don’t feel super nice but i’m fine.

so it was decided that phill and i are gonna get sabres season tickets. and the best part of it is, i don’t have to spend any money LOL. he’s gonna pay for both seats, then as we sell the games we’re not going to, once he’s gotten back all the money, we split the profits. it’s really the same as if i was gonna give him the 860$ now, then keep splitting money as we sell games. and this way is much easier and makes much more sense. in the end, we’ll be going to 6 games for sure, he’ll probably take his brother to a few, and i can take adr when/if she’s home around xmas, and we sell the rest. i worked out all the math, and we’ll make about 400$ each in the regular season, and who knows what in the playoffs.

listening to piggy from rochester made me all sorts of stupid giddy just knowing that while he was singing my face was in his stomach. and he was holding my hand. that it was MY piggy finally. haven’t gotten to “everyday is exactly the same” yet hahaha. i commented to adr2 that it’s a good thing you cant hear her yell “don’t let him go” to me during piggy, but that would have been hilarious if it had turned up on the bootleg hahah. still amazed at the quality of the recording. and i want a bass guitar just so i can learn to play “Burn”.

i’m selling my ti-85 calculator. and it’s almost sad, how dorky is that? lol. me and ole 85 went through alot…lots of tetris during studyhalls, programming it to store my calculus notes so i could cheat on tests…the entire pi chart values…is that what its even called? haha i hope stef’s kid doesn’t mind that it’s covered in stickers and sparkly nailpolish LOL. i forgot about that part.

surgery in 12 hours. back tomorrow i guess.

*ego post*

so today was “let’s tell sara how great she is” day…

first off, tommy called a week or 2 ago and i didn’t answer or return the call cuz 1. i’m a jerk and 2. i really don’t have anything to talk to him about, nor am i interested in anything he may be doing – like golf. well he apparently went to the casino saturday right as i went to the hospital and everyone told him i left sick and he called. i felt guilty for not returning the first call, so i called him back sunday as i was going into work. he apparently was at his sisters wedding, and probably drunk, and didn’t seem all that concerned that i was having surgery but it’s hard to tell. anyway, he asked if i had gotten the sabres jersey and i said yes and thanked him for the 82084th time, and he goes “see i come through for you.”…um excuse me? was that ever something i accused you of not doing? was that one of the reasons we broke up? hardly. 1. it’s hard for someone to not come through for you when you don’t expect anything of them anyway. and 2. i haven’t asked anything of him, except to grab me a vintage sabres jersey if one happened to come through salvation army. whatever. he kept asking me to come to the holiday inn to have drinks with the wedding people or something. he said he’d call later in the week. then later that night he called again while i was working, leaving no message. please, don’t do me any favors. i really have nothing to talk to you about, and really no interest in hanging out or anything. so just don’t bother.

then as i was sort of expecting, david had been working up the courage to tell me how great and wonderful and smart and fun and great i am. which he did today. thanks. it’s nice to be told that you’re great.

then joe from high school and i played the most ridiculous game of phone tag ever. really it’s my fault because i lied and told him the mouthpiece of my phone was broken so i can’t call anyone, they won’t hear me. and he can’t text out right now apparently. so he would call and leave a message, i’d listen to it, and txt him back. like 5 times. FINALLY he was able to get to my myspace and write to me on there. and apparently he has always found me intrieguing and always wanted to get to know me better. so i guess it wasn’t just my fault i was always too intimidated to talk to him in high school, i apparently intimidated him as well. which i find hilarious. i know i have a mean look that i use at concerts and in subways and airports, but i think of myself as the least intimidating person ever – since i’m pretty much scared of everyone.

i hate to break it to any of these people that once you get to know me, i’m really not as fascinating and great as they apparently think i am right now. i’m boring. aside from a few trespassing outtings here and there, and going on tour with NIN, i don’t do anything, i’m a dork, and i run out of stories to make myself seem interesting very quickly. lol. i don’t even have grandparents to make christmas an experience anymore hahaha.

and it’s really too bad that i hate men and relationships. i really don’t want any of this to end up in me having to turn someone down. i have a problem saying no. but i’m really tired of doing things that i don’t want to do. really, i just need to tell people i’m a lesbian, so everyone would leave me alone. i’ve never had a girl hit on me before so i think i’d be safe lol.

anyway. just needed to be all egotistical and tell everyone how great i am. 😛

hahaha buzz ballads, a collection of the best alternative music power ballads….hahahahahahahhahahah. bush, staind, hole, 3rd eye blind, goo goo dolls, tonic…hahahahahahah musicspace.com hahah holy crap it’s so the soundtrack of high school and college

i decided to finally listen to the nin rochester bootleg. i don’t know why i waited, given it was THE most personal show of the tour, but i did. and holy shit it is a GREAT recording. it almost sounds soundboard or ALD (tho ALDs usually sound a bit strange). the vocals are the clearest of any bootleg i’ve gotten, and the levels of the instruments, bass especially, aren’t totally out of whack. little to no crowd noise, no one talking in the background. it’s fantastic. piggy was coming on as i pulled into the garage, so we’ll leave that very special version of piggy for tomorrow 🙂

the guy with the cleveland bootleg that we listened to in the parking lot after the show never emailed me, and it hasn’t appeared anywhere. boo. he said he was recording my bday show as well. oh well.

phill and i are considering going in on sabres season tickets. the cheapest ones left are 21$ a game, for like $800something/seat total. we’re trying to figure out the resale value of the tickets, and when we’d break even – since neither one of us would be able to go to even half of the games, we’d be selling the rest. it wouldn’t be too bad, we’d definitely get our money back and then some – especially if we ended up scalping playoff tickets. but i dunno. the immediate outlay of money scares me.

too many visits to the emergency room. had a gall bladder attack at work that i just couldn’t work through so i asked to go home. it was really really bad, and the emts wouldn’t let me go home they made me go to the hospital. grrrrrrr. all i have to do is wait til it goes away then i’m fine. instead i spent 3 hrs at the ER just to tell them that i know whats wrong, and it’s being removed on wednesday. so of course then it’s quarter to 3 and my car is still in the employee parking lot. so i called everyone i knew locally cuz my parents are in the finger lakes, and everyone was either sleeping like normal people, or still at work. i got a cab to take me to my car, where i thankfully had left my bank card, then to an atm to get money to pay the guy then back to my car. aggravating. stupid EMTs. and they gave me the biggest IV needle ever, like wtf.

i definitely can’t wait til wednesday though. no more of this.