Category Archives: Personal

i had this wicked cool dream about meeting trent reznor at a hot topic that he owned (?!). he was really nice to me, and i didn’t freak out. he was just super friendly, talking to me about different things. then i was going to leave cuz i was done at the store, and i said i looked forward to the new album whenever he ended up releasing it, and he sorta clammed up and didn’t say anything.

i woke up to my alarm playing “closer”…weird.

 

merry christmas to me. i’m buying myself a home theatre system with my christmas bonus from work. i think i’m going to get the panasonic 600 watt progressive scan dvd home theatre system. 5 disc changer, am/fm, plays any kind of dvd/cd/vcd/photo disc imaginable, a sub and 5 satellite speakers. oh, and most importantly, it has dts. going to go out to best buy and circuit city tomorrow to see if it’s set up and i can listen to it, then i’m buying it from dell cuz it’s about 100 dollars cheaper from dell. DUDE I’M GETTING A DELL.

then i can have a nin dvd watching party. or watch it by myself, you know, whatever.

threw me right into baccarat tonight. gah. it went decently enough, til the very end. someone walked on commission on my side of the table. i didn’t know who it was or when they walked, or even if they had been gone before i switched to that side or when i was on stick. then i got tapped out to go home, so i don’t know what they were going to do about it. but yeah. it was a bit stressful cuz the VP of table games and the entire casino…head…guy…CEO or whatever were watching the game. yeaaaaaaah. good time for a break in dealer to debut. but it was ok. no glaring mistakes, etc etc etc.

 

i worked 1 hr and 45 minutes tonight. i couldn’t stop choking on my game, tears streaming down my face. it was fun!

so saddam was captured. super. maybe that’ll put an end to all this iraq occupation bullshit.

but i doubt it.

and you know what this means right? bush is going to get re-elected. can the world survive another 4 years of this idiot?

hello again.

so leighanne’s mini visit went well. tony got her at the airport and brought her here. we went to the casino to kill a few hours and a few bucks. came back this way, stopped at tops so i could get milk and cough meds. tops has a mouse problem. tony and leighanne saw a mouse running around behind the milk cooler. barf. after the mouse/tops stop we went to dennys then called it a night. around 4am. haha. did the christmas thing. super de duper xmas gifts gah. a serial killer book, a freak show book, and a fallout detector, so i’ll always know when it’s safe to come out after a nuclear attack!!! best thing ever. the fallout detector came with old civil defense nuclear saftey books. and lots of bells, courtesy of The Fly.

friday i had to get up butt ass early to go to the dr, just to sit there for an hour, so i came home and took a nap before going to the terminal to meet russell. he left us there, and i showed leighanne around to all the places she couldn’t go cuz of the gimp foot at the picnic. we were there for about an hour and a half. then we decided to go pay a visit to horsefeathers, snoop around for more terminal stuff they’re hiding. got to horsefeathers, and i locked my keys in the car. stupid gloves – i can’t feel anything so i didn’t realize i dropped the keys in the backseat when getting my purse. so i had to call my roadside assistance that i have for another 6 months and 6000 miles. they said someone would be there within the hour. 5 min later the tow truck showed up and got my keys out. nice and smoothly. so that was good. i bought myself a present at horsefeathers, to add to my newly started “weird gadget” collection…now aside from my fallout detector, i also own an explosimeter…apparently it was some gadget you took into the mines, and it would test the air and stuff, and you could tell if something was going to explode. neat.

from there, i drove out to the marine star to show leighanne. at the marine star leighanne experienced real buffalo winter…wicked wind off the lake, wind chill factor all over the place hahaha. i had forgotten my sinatras gift certificate so we went to the parents house for dinner, then rented the godfather and came back to watch that. i told her we’d need a good 5 hours for the movie, she didn’t quite believe me hahah. and in the time we spent watching godfather, it snowed 2 inches. hahah god continuously smotes us. watched u2’s popmart concert after that. gah *drool* popmartbono

took leighanne to the airport this morning and came back and went to bed. it seems no one else got snow except us. haha. i have a full blown cold. and it sucks. my head is all stuffed up…but it’s not in my nose…my nose is only slightly stuffy, i can still breath, but the rest of my head is stuffed, and going to explode and really hurts. blaaaaaaaah. i dont like taking cold meds either cuz they make me go bonkers. i dunno how i’m gonna work with this headache though.

i really need to do laundry and i have no money so i have to take it to the parents house…and thus waste a whole lot of time by not being able to do anything while i’m there. i better go shower and get started.

 

i must not spend all my money on civil defense things on ebay…BUT…i really want
1. a docimeter…well actually, i just want the docimeter charger. my dad might still have his docimeter…
2. a geiger counter
3. tons of civil defense posters…they just don’t make propaganda like they used to

if anyone needs to get me an xmas present still….*looks up*

….and i need to take more civil defense stuff from our urbex sites. like the survival biscuits and stuff. and a fallout shelter sign.

and about my explosimeter…

Use: Explosimeters are used to verify flammable gas concentration in the atmosphere. Instruments can be used in the immediate environment or can draw samples from remote areas through the use of sampling lines or probes.

Description:

The instrument operates by the catalytic action of a heated filament in contact with combustible gases. The filament is heated to operating temperature by passage of an electrical current. When the gas sample contacts the heated filament, combustion on the surface raises the temperature in proportion to the quantity of combustibles in the sample. A sensor measures the change in electrical resistance due to the temperature increases. A signal is processed and displayed as the percentage of the combustible gas present to the total required to reach the lower explosive limit (LEL) and/or the percent combustible gas by volume.

ug work was rough tonight. aside from being in shitty pit 1 for the 2nd night in a row…i was on the bus and the bus was stopping at the casino when i realized i didn’t have my vest or my badge. super. i’m fucked. got a temp badge and ran up to scheduling to see what to do about my lack of a vest. they were gonna let me go home and get my shit and i’d end up being late. but i managed to catch a dual rate (who are supposed to have a dealer uniform and suit with them every shift incase they have to change) who let me borrow her vest. the only vest that was a small (though too big on me cuz it’s not fitted like mine). so i didn’t have to be late, so that was good. still. running around at the begining of the shift, all the hassle. not good. and fucking let it ride to boot. honestly it wasn’t that bad tonight. i made friends with my supervisor who just switched to our shift. he’s 24, cute, etc. so that made it a bit more tolerable.

the baccarat audition was fine i guess. mine went a hell of alot better than most of the rest of the class. i did make one HUGE absolutely HUGE glaring mistake, just cuz i wasn’t paying attention. but…BUT…the teacher didn’t see, and i managed to fake it out hahah. it’s not something i’d EVER ever do on a game, and I have no clue what made me do it, but whatever. we didn’t get scores or told if we passed or not cuz not everyone had theirs done today. we all have to go back tomorrow still.

we took an hour of the class to go to the employee meeting. we are indeed getting a christmas bonus, this friday. score. they talked about the future more, what’s going on down on the reservation etc. so that was good.

tomorrow leighanne comes. tony is picking her up at the airport cuz he lives right near by, and is coming out here to go to the casino with us anyway. i just hope they don’t end up missing eachother or something. tho i think tony will be able to get her attention. so far so good as far as the bowie show actually happening. every report says toronto is on. besides he had a week to recover from the flu, he should be fine now.

on a related note, i’m getting sick. felt a tickle in my throat last night, woke up with a cough. not happy. i can see it turning into bronchitis again. i can’t do my ab workout cuz it makes my abs hurt so much, that it hurts like hell to cough. oh well.

 

bowie show postponed

 

change of plans. even tho bowie is a wuss and postponed the show, leighanne is coming anyway. and we’re going terminal-ing tomorrow. we get the keys yay. hopefully tony understands my two messages i left on his cell, and he does indeed go get her at the airport LOL.

bacarrat auditions are wed and thursday. if we are considered weak in any area we have to go back next week. weak is defined differently depending on who is there for our auditions. i have no doubt i’d pass an audition from my teacher, but the VP and casino manager…that’s a different story. they made the first class go 8 weeks cuz they weren’t polished enough. we are definitely. not. polished.

david bowie is sick. cancelled 3 previous shows. no idea on the status of the toronto show as of now. grrr. there’s a super great shirt for sale that i’m gonna have to shell out the enormous amount of cash for because it’s just so rad. my only hope is that it’ll be the same price in canadian, and thus cheaper after exchange. that is, if the show goes on.

 

big news regarding michael jackson’s latest troubles. Allegations “unfounded”. i like how the smoking gun blur out the photo of the kid on the page, as if you can’t go watch the documentary and see the boy lol. but good news for mj definitely.

i got the coolest stamps for my xmas cards. andy warhol!!!!! yay.

so i had mentioned to kevin that i would consider going to work in lake tahoe, cuz i heard it’s super beautiful and cool and everything. he kept bugging me to talk to one of our shift managers cuz he came from tahoe. i had mentioned this to anthony, who talked to the shift manager in class yesterday. he said tahoe isn’t a good destination because dealers aren’t making much more than we are, and the cost of living is way higher. but he said california is a good place to go. so anthony and i were considering going out west in the spring to do some auditions and stuff. the shift mgr said they have no craps or roulette out there, so i wouldn’t have to feel pressured to learn craps before i leave the falls. they look highly upon pai gow, which is good. i wish there was somewhere here where i could learn pai gow tiles. apparently the game is harder than craps to learn, but once you know it, you can go anywhere and get a job. the shift is going to give us some people to talk to out there when we decide to head west.

i think if/when vegas happens i’m going to see if i can do some auditions just for shits and giggles, since i know there’s no way i’d get hired on the strip with less than a year experience. see if i can make some contacts, and get some tips on what i need to improve etc. make it a learning experience haha.

carnival night – the final 4 episodes. the only dissapointing thing about carnivale is that it’s over. so wonderful. such a great cliff hanger season finale. so many wonderful loose ends to pick up next season. i just hope it’s not agonizingly long til next season begins. definitely a must own once it comes out on dvd, cuz you know it will.

and class was good today. much better than the first 2 days. things may be improving.

 

finally a night off where i can lay in bed all night and do nothing. haha

class was good again today. thing’s definitely have improved. maybe the VP won’t entirely hate us next week.

i bought my mom a book for christmas that i think she either has, or had borrowed and read before. it’s called “too close to the falls” and it’s a memoir of a woman growing up in lewiston. i’m reading it before i wrap it HAH. it’s really good, funny, etc etc etc. the woman grew up and became a psychologist (tho that has nothing to do with what i have to say). there are so many gems in here that echo my thought process it’s unreal. it’s nifty. this line kinda jumped off the page as being so incredibly appropriate lately….“As far as my mother was concerned, there was nothing wrong with science, and blind faith was as ill-informed as atheism.”

completely unrelated. in carnivale, brother justin got let out of the asylum and returned home to his sister. he shows up at his ministry and asks the other minister to baptise him. the other minister does, and the holy water turns to blood on justin’s forehead.

that spurred the telling of the ouija board incident. tony found it to be hilarious.

the ouija board incident.

in 8th grade my little group of friends was still intact. one night in the winter of that school year geralyn and i were at kristen’s house. we decided to play with kristen’s ouija board. we had done this before, on halloween and such. we’re in the basement with the board on our knees in the dark, following tradition and asking who was controlling the pointer. it spelled out Lucifer. kristen freaked out and jumped up. geralyn and i sat there confused. kristen asked if we knew what lucifer was. i said i had never heard the name before. geralyn said it was the name of a cat in some disney movie i now forget. kristen said lucifer is the devil. well that certainly threw us into a state. we thought we had conjured up the devil. kristen was seriously freaking out. so we tried to figure out what to do now that we conjured up the devil. we brought the ouija board upstairs to the kitchen and proceeded to break the board into 4 pieces, drew crosses on it in black magic marker, tried to burn it (it wouldn’t burn), and sprinkled holy water on it.

i wonder which one of us actually made the board spell out luicfer. it certainly wasn’t me, since i didn’t know what lucifer was.

the next day the board was intact again and in the box in kristen’s basement.

true story.

well, except the board reappearing intact thing

tony got a huge kick out of the holy water part hahah.

nate has been gone one full year.

day 2 was better than day 1. though there’s still plenty to complain about. mainly how no one is on the same page…i mean no one in the entire table games department is on the same page in regards to this game. we are SUPPOSED to be getting the new, revised, CORRECT manuals tomorrow. we’ll see how that goes.

anthony and jesse came over after class to chill before work. got pizza and all that. anthony said the apartment didn’t overly smell of pine, but i just remembered he was super congested so he’s probably not the best judge. rocco was maybe going to stop by after getting his uniform from his apartment, but never did. i don’t understand that boy. whatever.

my hands hurt so bad from dealing. the felt, and the dry air are killing them. pain. and when i put lotion on them they burn. not happy. besides that pain cards kept going way under my fingernails and tore the nails off from the skin. huurrrttssss….

in the 3 minutes it takes the bus to go from the casino to the parking lot it went from no snow, to blizzarding. and we’re talking blowing snow, white out conditions, suddenly roads covered in snow. seriously. in a matter of minutes. and the snow looked like dippin dots (which made me want dippin dots, which means i’ll have to go to a sabres game soon since they’re the only ppl who sell them in the off season). then once i got off the lasalle expy, it stopped snowing. just like *snap* that. i love buffalo.

i have 2 christmas trees. i’ll post some really awful pictures of them tomorrow. really awful pictures taken on a really awful really cheap digi cam. that’s why they’re so awful. but….one of the trees is decorated with pine scented car air fresheners.. you know… the little green trees. i thought it was clever. the entire apartment smells like gross pine smell. it smells so much, that the hallway of the BUILDING smells like pine. ROFL. i think it’s calming down though. or i’ve just gotten really used to it.