Drugs

November 14, 2000 – I was in high school and was sitting by two of my ex-friends. I can’t remember what we were talking about, and I think we were eating, but one of them mentioned drugs and I asked what kind of drugs she wanted. She was like You sell drugs?, and I said no, but I know tons of people who do, and depending on what kind of drugs she wanted, I could get some for her. Then we were at my house, and definitely eating at this point. I had gone upstairs to look at some website I had created, and it was about some old man who had 2 wives. There was something wrong with the site though, and it had turned into some Barbara Streisand site at the bottom half of the page, I guess because this old man had married her too. Then I went back downstairs, and they told me Rob Ray from the Buffalo Sabres had called for me, because he wanted to know if I wanted to be the rooter for the next game, and possibly all the rest of the games. Apparently a rooter was a person who came out right before the team did and got the crowd all excited and stuff. I wondered why the hell he would want me to do it, because I don’t like getting all excited, and I’d be highly embarrassed and rather inhibited. And I wondered why he asked me, but apparently it was because of some kind of relationship I had with some other guy on the team (not sure who). So they gave me Rob’s number and I went back upstairs to call him, but was really nervous, so I was rehearsing what I was going to say to him. I was going to say “Hi Rob, it’s Sara. How’s the shoulder?” but I never called him because the alarm went off.

January 12 – Danielle came back from Florida, and we had to go to this school assembly/concert/parade thing. So we’re sitting in seats, and someone down the row lights up a joint. He’s like, this is good shit, and he offers it down the row, but the only one who wants any is Danielle. And she’s like, I’ll take it. So she takes the joint and takes a drag off it, and I’m like what the hell are you doing. And she said, I have no idea. And I’m like what the fuck are you doing, you don’t do drugs. And she’s like, yeah I do. And I was severely pissed off at her, cuz I’m like what the hell is wrong with her. So I don’t say anything, but I’m just really mad, and she’s sitting there getting high. So then like suddenly, I grab the joint and throw it onto the road where the parade is going on. And she’s like why the hell did you do that. And I’m like, u shouldn’t be doing drugs. And then like school officials smell the pot, and they send out these drug guard ppl to find out where it’s coming from and who did it. So then like we’re trying not to be like, obvious, that it was her smoking and me who threw the joint into the parade. So then we’re in our dorm room, or well I am, and she left me a note about how it’s ok that she does drugs, even tho she’s a vet. And the note was done all in pictures, so there’s a drawing of her in the vet clinic only smoking cigarettes, and then one of her outside pumping gas in her car smoking a joint. And it was supposed to explain to me why it’s all right that she does drugs now, as long as she does them outside of work. So then later, the principal, Mr Ruggerio, is interviewing everyone in the school by 2’s about the parade and the drugs, and who was responsible for having the drugs there. So like Eric and someone go to talk to them, and we’re getting nervous cuz Eric knew it was me who threw it, and stuff. So Mr Ruggerio comes to get us, and then tells us to sit in this lobby place, and it has big windows looking out at the valley in Geneseo. So we’re waiting for him cuz he had to go to his office and do something and he was supposed to come back for us. Then an airplane flies by the glass windows, and it’s making these terrible noises and sparks are coming out of them and I’m like omg the plane is gonna crash right into the building. But then it suddenly changes directions, flies upside down, and then lands on a runway of the little Geneseo airport in the valley. So I’m like that was close, but we’re still waiting for Mr Ruggerio to come get us but we’ve been waiting forever, and we see more airplanes and they’re all flying up side down….then we’re like screw this, we’re going to find him and get this over with, so we go down a hall to find his office, but since we were the good kids in school we didn’t know which one was his, but we pass Mr Belbas and Mrs Kormashe’s offices.

october 5, 2001 – i had some friend who was a drug addict, and we were in geneseo and i always went with her to this house near wegmans to buy drugs. it was a REALLY cheap place. so i started using drugs with her when we went to the house, because you paid for them and then were supposed to do them there. so we smoked pot and crack alot. then i started going to get drugs by myself, and the first time i went i was really nervous, because the time before, the cops had shown up. we didn’t get in trouble, i don’t know why, but now i was really scared. so i went in the house, and there were tons of people there and there usually wasnt. so i got one of the menus and was looking for what kind of drugs i wanted to get. i only had $5 so i decided i’d get one joint, and 3 crack. that was 5$. so the woman, who was really fat, came over to me and i very nervously told her what i wanted. she said something about if i knew the police thought i was a sweet girl. and i was like yah i know they do. and the woman was like, that’s a good thing because if they show up they won’t arrest you. so then i was really even more paranoid about getting in trouble. so she took my $5 and was giving me change, for some reason, and gave me 25$ back. I guess she was all high herself because she didn’t realize i didn’t need change. but i took the money anyway. so then she kept going on about how she likes to get people in and out of the house in a hurry so the police don’t get suspicious, but this whole time she’s going on an on about it instead of going to get me my drugs. so i was getting irritated and was like HURRY UP! I guess she knew i was going to take the drugs to go, because she finally went and got them, and brought them back to me. she gave me a baggie of white powder, which i guess was the crack, even tho i thought crack came in rock form…i guess she gave me cocaine or something, and then she gave me an ice cream cone, and inside the bottom of the cone was the pot. that was a disguise so that no one would be suspicious of me when i leave. so i took the drugs, and she gave me more change! so i left and went to my car. well i had parked in a spot near the burger king cardboard dumpster and had left my window open. so when i got to my car i had all kinds of carboard sandwich wrappers, and fry boxes in my car. so i was really pissed, i just wanted to go to my room and get high, but no i had to get all this cardboard out of my car. meanwhile i’m trying to keep the ice cream from melting. so i finally got all the cardboard out, and went home. i lived in a department store. i lived in the dressing rooms. apparantly this was a common practice though, because i had lots of friends living in different dressing rooms of the store. so i’m walking around, and i see these 2 undercover police busting one of my friends for drugs in her dressing room. so i’m freaking out now, and i’m trying to eat the rest of the ice cream so i can get the drugs out and hide them, meanwhile i’m wandering through the store to try and hide from the police and to warn my friends that police were there looking for drugs. so i got to my dressing rooms and was looking for someplace to hide my ice cream cone, but couldn’t find one. so then i just stuck my hands in the ice cream to get out my drugs, and i put them in my mouth. then these 2 men came up to me, and they were apparantly my history teachers, and the whole thing was a hoax. they had realized i was a drug addict, and wanted to help by scaring me. the police hadn’t been real, and hadn’t been busting others for drugs.

November 28, 2001 – I guess i was at my house, I don’t remember anymore. I had hid some joints in my basement, so my parents wouldn’t find them. So I smoked one, and then i went online to talk to carolyn about it. I didn’t feel high, so I was really upset. then my mom was around and i really wanted to get high. so i was going to try to go back in the basement to get my other drugs without her knowing. so I went downstairs, and I shot up with some heroin. I went back upstairs to talk to carolyn. I still didn’t feel high though. then my dad came home, and i dont know why, but i felt like i needed to go retreive all my drugs because I was scared they’d find them. so i went back downstairs, and i took a bottle of aspirin with me. i took it so that when i went to find my other joint, and my E pills they would see that i was holding aspirin and think that’s what i had gone downstairs to get. so i was holding 4 tablets of E, the joint, and the aspirin and my mom started yelling at me about something. then my dad started yelling at me. i was yelling back at them, and my mom kept yelling at me. i really needed to do the rest of my drugs. i guess my dad told her to stop yelling at me and i managed to get upstairs. so i was back talking to carolyn, and i still didn’t feel high. so i did the 4 tabs of E. then i was going to smoke the joint but i got scared that i had taken way too many drugs.

November 20, 2001 – my mom and i ran this day camp type program for troubled kids. they came to this building we owned and we had activities and different stuff for them to do to keep them out of trouble. well this business was just a front. we were italian, and we were in the mafia. and the day camp was a front for our drug dealing. we were the biggest dealers in the area. we specialized in cocaine. so we were working in the day came when one of our shipments arrived. this chinese man came by with two big boxes. so i took him in back to the walk in freezer. he put the boxes on the shelves with the other boxes of food. then a group of other mafia guys walked in and demanded to know what the day camp was a front for. well the chinese guy started going on and on about how if they guys would leave he would find the golden pussy. and he didn’t know much english, so he kept saying over and over to the men that he’d find the golden pussy. the guys were like, really? the golden pussy? and the chinese man was like, yes, the gooooooolden pussy. so apparantly everyone thought the day camp was a front for a whore house. so the mafia guys leave with the chinese man. all the kids from the day camp leave, and adrienne was there. i guess she worked in the camp for us. so once everyone was gone, we ran back into the freezer to get high, because we were both cocaine addicts. so we opened up the boxes and each box was filled with tons of little baggies of cocaine. so we did some cocaine, and then i went to my house. my grandparents lived with us. they were in the mafia too i guess. my grandpa had made spaghetti, and put the dirty dishes back into the cupboard without washing them, again. he did it every time he made spaghetti. there was sauce all over the cupboard, and it was disgusting. since i was high, i started yelling at him about how he can’t do that because then i have to clean the cupboard. he didn’t understand what the big deal was, so i yelled at him to get up and look in the cupboard, and then he saw that there was sauce all over the place. and he was like oooh, yeah i’m sorry, i won’t do it anymore. well i was highly irritated and i didn’t feel high anymore, so i was mad. i went to the bathroom and looked in the mirror and my pupils were small, but not totally small. so i wanted to go back to the day camp to get some more drugs.