this first comment is mainly for my own memory….in case i end up with some kind of blood borne illness (hiv, hep-c) it is possible that the lady who served me ice cream at de-dee’s dairy today was bleeding. i’m not positive (*insert tasteless joke*), it could have been cherries or something, but…gross. i also saw that they sell imitation dippin dots, so on game days where i’m not attending, there is a place to go to try to keep up the ritual…phill pointed out that being imitations they may have the opposite effect, so i’ll wait to see how we’re doing in this series before i try them out hehe. (yes, so lame)

and in other possible blood borne illness related news, i need a new tattoo. desperately need ideas. i looked through a bunch of tattoo magazines at the book store today with no inspiration. i don’t really want a picture of something, i want more of a design, and for some reason i keep thinking of vines or a vine like design, but that doesn’t seem to really “fit” with me…i’m not earthy and i hate nature. i like concrete and steel. it is to go on my other side, opposite “halo 14” but big…my whole side/ribs…gonna hurt tons but…i NEED something there. then there’s still the idea of an absinthe fairy, but…dunno if i want color or not…

i also had a dream about a wicked dress design, i may try it out on one of the free sabres shirts we got in the first 2 round games (and will be getting yet another one tomorrow) before i do it on something “good”. this design also inspired a possible alteration to some of the old army shirts i have, but we’ll see. i’m not quite good enough to resize things, it may wait til adr comes home for the summer.

the francis bacon exhibit opened at Albright-Knox art museum last week. so excited. i’ve only seen a handful of his work up close – most recently at one of the galleries visited in europe – so a whole exhibit *artgasm*! i need inspiration for crazy art for “the show”. i should continue to work on my “modern art bullshit” piece tonight since i have no plans. i’ve dropped the dosage of my meds by half, and i don’t feel any different…which is 1. good, i don’t want to kill myself 2. bad cuz i don’t feel crazy and i was sorta hoping i’d be at least a bit nuts from withdrawal to inspire art. i have been getting quite alot of headaches, i wonder if it’s from the drop in dosage…zoloft withdrawal info on the web has described “electric shock” sensations in the body…none of that, tho i think that might be kinda fun. but as we all know, i’m strange.