i am not goth because i dislike the majority of “goth” music, cuz it came from punk and i really hate punk music.

in other news. i had wonderful trent dreams last night. one of them, i was at a show, and it seems like it was in a school gym cuz the seats were all bleachers. so i’m sitting in the bleachers waiting for the show, and ppl are wandering around, so i go wander too. i’m talking to someone when pinion starts, so i just take off, and instead of going back to my seat with all my friends i run to the front of the stage. and the stage is like a school gym stage, there is no barrier, so we are pressed up against the front of the stage. there are only a few of us up there tho, everyone else is still on the bleachers. ok whatever, the band starts playing and i’m the only one rockin out. everyone in the bleachers is just sitting there. slowly everyone else leaves and sits down, and now i’m the only one up front. and it’s like, wow how disrepectful. a few times i try to be cheerleader and get the people to stand up and do something, but they won’t, so i just give up and watch the show. trent realizes that i’m the only one there, and he recognizes me from other shows so he finishes a song and just starts talking to me. there are a few other people with me now, so he asks us what we want him to play next. i said deep. he ends up playing a new song for us, and suddenly the show is like…just for us. for some reason we end up on stage with him, and suddenly me and him are like really good friends, and i get alot of hugs from him. something happens to piss trent off and he leaves and goes back stage to one of the classroom/dressing rooms. so i follow him so i can go comfort him about whatever he’s mad about, and there are a few other people hanging around. and our “relationship” is weird because we don’t really have to talk to eachother to know what’s going on. i find him on a computer on AIM and his screenname is just TR hahah. i rubbed his shoulders to make him feel better, and a few other people came in. one girl had this shirt on – it was actually pretty ugly – but it was apparently a shirt we are all gonna get at the spiral show in cabazon on the 31st haha. i kept trying to get all these people to leave because trent was tired and we needed to take a nap on the couch in the room.

i can’t really remember the other ones, except for something about trent giving me casino chips that were specially made for me with my name on it, and it was really cute. he started smiling cuz he was so proud of himself cuz he did it hahah.