it turns out my grandma has congestive heart failure. i don’t really know what that means, cuz the word “failure” to me would mean the heart has stopped…and she’d be dead. but she’s not dead. yet. (from webmd: Heart failure occurs when your heart muscle doesn’t pump as much blood as the body needs. Failure doesn’t mean that the heart has stopped pumping but rather that it is failing to pump as effectively as it should.) i guess she’s going to have to go into the hospital to get stabilized, and find out how to “fix” it, and mom thinks she’s not gonna live much longer. so i might be going back to detroit for yet another funeral in the coming weeks.

i really like wearing these little boy undershirts i bought to wear to work. they’re comfy. i dealt pai gow tonight. the weird walmart manager who thinks i’m attractive and talks to other dealers about me was on my game today. he makes me uncomfortable now that i know what he’s said about me to others. it’s icky. left a bit early, patrick is on me to finish the dark tower book so i can give it to adam to read so i figure i’ll go read a bunch now. dealing tomorrow, 10-6 friday, 8 both weekend days. flooring on halloween so i’ll get to be a vampire at work instead of a pirate. i don’t know what to do with the pirate costume now….