my mood improved at work throughout the course of the night. i can’t turn my brain off, but i was able to change channels. i started to remember, and talk to jenn about, some things that made me happier – so i was at least able to not be miserable the whole night. we didn’t talk in depth about anything, but i had mentioned how stupidly emotional i got last night cuz i was drunk and alone, and shes like “you could have called!!!” lol. and i told her what had gone on at the party, that she didn’t know about, and it made me happy hahah. then on break jeff comes and sits with us, and goes “i didn’t get to lick your tattoo” lol i’m like HOLY COW SHUT UP hahahah. no one else was really around us so it was ok. but shit if he did that on the floor, i’d have to punch him, and he is soooo way bigger than me. lol.
i need some sedatives or something tho, cuz i’m hella worked up. totally tore apart my fingers/fingernails/cuticals something fierce. i need some neosporin but i can’t find any. i gotta stop doing this, now that i’ll be working more with my hands…people will notice how awful they look. it’s sorta embarassing but i can’t help it. it’s a compulsion.
i hate birds. they start making noise at 4am. how am i supposed to sleep with bird noise?
well well, needless to say i didn’t go to class today again. alarm went off at 11, and i was just like holy cow i’m tired. went back to sleep til 2, then stayed in bed til 3 haha. i’m a slacker. since i have to get up to go to the doctor tomorrow, i’ll go to class tomorrow. jenn probably showed up today and will yell at me when i go to work. oops haha.
gotta try to enact my plan tonight at work, see how things go. i’m feeling pretty good right now. not worrying about anything, and working on getting myself to a place where i don’t care either way. being pretty sucessful at it right now. so yeah…
in other news, my aunt emailed people about her bed and breakfast finally opening june 1st. she said they have a website www.thecothernhouse.com which i can’t get to work yet, but if she paid someone to create the site other than me, i’m going to be very very pissed off, and she’s going to know about it.
sepultura’s cover of u2’s “bullet the blue sky” is so way better than POD’s cover.
the end.