i’m trying not to be negative today, trying to start out the new year on a good foot, but i’ve been awake a total of about 8 minutes and it’s already been shot to hell. yesterday was horrible in terms of it being a bad mood crying day. all the year in review crap made me feel like shit. went to dinner with my parents, had to keep from crying the whole time. work was a pleasant distraction. even at midnight i didn’t think too much and get upset. a few twinges of sadness, but not enough to cry in front of 1000s of strangers.

maybe i’m not dealing with things as good as i like to think i am.

work was fine. waited in line for the coat check for 45 minutes lol. a few confusions and the pit manager getting snippy with me once, but otherwise it was fine. we had a much better time than the slot attendants appararently. lots of people didn’t have their gaming licenses yet so they were sent home. so that meant not all the pits were open, and for the slots, there weren’t enough people to get payouts done in a reasonable amount of time. rumor has it customers were waiting 3 hours to get payouts on machines. we didn’t have much to do. i was busy for like, a half hour, entering player ratings when my shift started. but once those were done i sat there and waited for someone to bring me something to do. and since 2 pits weren’t open, even tho we had to send some people home, we had extras so nakita was with me all night…even less for us to do haha. she kept trying to make a case for why i should date this one supervisor that was in our pit last night haha. it’s so funny walking places with her, cuz she’s this cute lil black girl and every single black guy we pass hits on her LOL.

so anyway. ty is supposed to come over for dinner tonight, and i guess he’s gonna go to work with me, but i haven’t heard from him yet. i really need to find bigger pants to wear with my uniform, because the ones i have made my stomach hurt so bad last night. had to suck it in all night 😛