January 31, 2002
i think it started that i was watching this on tv. there was some serial murderer guy, and he killed this person on this show or whatever. then he went to another person and cut their head off. but not at the neck. he carved all the way around the skull, forehead level, so that the brain showed at the top. so that guy was dead. then the murderer went into another room where there was this girl with all kinds of IVs in her, giving her blood i think. at this point i was there in the room watching. the murderer ripped the IVs out of her and started whipping her with them. someone else was there watching this with me. we were like woah, this is brutal. so he’s whipping her with the IVs and blood is going everywhere, from the IVs and from the girl. he kills her, and leaves. we were covered in blood, and i thought, there’s no way that NIN’s “Broken” movie is more brutal than this.
some other dream about a farm or something. really complicated but don’t remember enough of it to discuss.possible explanation: was looking at imdb reviews of the Broken movie last night, and how brutal and horrific it is supposed to be.
possible interpretation: hmmmm
posted by sara @ 2:06 PM//
January 27, 2002
i was watching mtv or something, and they were doing a show on new videos. well there was a new MJ video, but it wasn’t really his song. it was like, he contributed vocals for the chorus of the song, so he was going to be in the video, with whoever it was that really did the song. i think it was a rap or r&b type group. and the song was from a movie soundtrack. so i was watching it, and it came on. MJ’s part came on and the first shot was him laying on a bed, and the bed had black and red satin sheets on it. the mattress had the black sheet on it, and the top sheet was the red one. so he was laying on the bed sleeping, and he was wearing black pajamas with white piping on them. so he wakes up to sing his chorus, and he sits up against the headboard and is singing. so they do a closeup and he’s black again – his skin is black. so i was thinking they must have digitally edited it, or put pounds of black makeup on him to make him black again. but then the skin color faded away until it was MJ without any makeup on. you could see all the white blotches in his black skin that the vitiligo caused. so i was blown away by his part in the video, because it was so brave to finally let people see what happened to his skin, without all the makeup. i wanted to tell people if they had seen the video, so i went to my comp to IM ty and ask him if he’d seen it bu the wasn’t online.
the rest of the night i kept dreaming about telling people about the video.possible explanation: not sure, havent listened to mj since my video a thon
possible interpretation:……
posted by sara @ 10:23 AM//
January 25, 2002
i was driving in New Jersey with someone, don’t remember who. I was telling them how much i hated New Jersey cuz it was such a shit hole. I was telling them about going to Wildwood with my parents in 95, and how it was actually sorta cool because it has all these motels from the 1950s, in their sea foam green and pink paint and stuff, and how some are all decorated with palm trees and stuff. Then we were on this street, outside a restaurant, and i was thinking it looked really familiar. the signs of the gas station across and down the street, and the other stores around where we were looked really familiar. i determined that i had been at the same restaurant with my parents. then we got back in the car, and were going someplace else. then i was with this guy who i was completely in love with, and he was in love with me. his brother was there, and then this woman showed up. it was their mother, and their mother started telling me that she was my mom too. which meant i was related to this guy, i was his sister. but we had different fathers. but then this man came over and was talking to us, and the guy i was in love with said that this guy was our father – so i guess we did have the same father – and the guy was telling our father off about how he was never there for us. and then the father looked at me, and i had a uniform on and a nametag, and he looked at my name tag to see my name. i got mad at him because he didn’t even know my name, his own daughter, or how old i was. so then i left with the guy i was in love with, and the brother, and we were trying to figure out if we could still date even if we were related. then the mother got into the car with us, she had followed us or something. the guy said it was ok for her to come inside the car, because she was trying to make ammends for abandoning me or something. but i got mad, and i kicked all of them out of the car. then there were tons of people trying to get in the car, as if i was a famous person and they were all my fans. i was freaking out inside the car, and then someone knocked on the door and opened it. i was about to scream at them but then i realized it was my friend melinda, and she had a case of beer with her. so i let her in, and we had a beer. then the guy came back in the car, and we gave him a beer too.
possible explanation: um dunno….the whole being famous, and fans trying to get in the car was probably a result of the conversation i had with carolyn about telling famous people stuff…
possible interpretation: whatever….
posted by sara @ 4:02 PM//
January 21, 2002
I was at school and i had just bought my books for the semester. i guess i was taking a US history course, because i had some other books about it. well there was this one book, written by this woman named “Satansatan Manwoman”. so i was telling danielle about this book by satansatan manwoman, and it was about sturges building on campus, and it had this part talking about all these hidden things in the building, passage ways and stuff. and it was really scary. i think the book was about supernatural stuff in the US or something. so i was looking at the pictures and trying to figure out where in Sturges all these things were. the way she wrote, she didn’t use capital letters, so i was like HEY if she got a book published without using correct punctuation and stuff, I can too. so i decided i wasn’t going to capitalize anything anymore. Then i was in a cafeteria with Eric and Paul Guidania and we were in line with our trays waiting to cash out. some deftones song from “white pony” was on, so we were like yeah cool. so i got to the cash register, and all i had was a peanut butter and jelly sandwich and it rang up as 5$. so i was like, there’s no way that my sandwich is 5 dollars. so the lady was like, you’re right, lemme call whoever about it. so she picked up a phone that was there, and was going to call the manager or something. well no one was answering the phone, so we’re waiting and she’s trying to ring up my food a different way so that it wasnt 5$…so the whole line is being held up, but i was like, no my meal plan is for only 100$ and i can’t afford to be paying 5 dollars for a pb&j sandwich. but then i was just so irritated i was like, whatever, so she charged me the 5$ for it. so me and eric and paul went and sat down at the condiment table. I was like um… aren’t we going to go sit in the cafeteria at the tables? and they were like, no we always sit here. so we sat there, and it was annoying because ppl kept coming up to get condiments. but then we were at another table in the same area but without the condiments. then “back to school” by deftones came on, and i was like um didn’t we just hear this? and eric was like no that was another song. i was like ok. then paul spilled ketchup all over the table. then i had to use ketchup, i dunno what for, but i got some on the table too. so i was like, we should clean that up. but paul said no, they charged me 5$ for my sandwich, they can clean up all the ketchup. then we were in the reszel school cafeteria, and eric got up to talk to someone, and was coming back and he had on black dickies. and i was like, yeah chino pants.
possible explanation: haha no idea
possible interpretation: i’m insane.
posted by sara @ 8:34 AM//
January 16, 2002
lots of dreams that i don’t really remember anymore. they kinda were all connected.
i lived in a house with danielle, and apparently, nsync. i guess we had a third floor, and leah lived there. so me and danielle and leah were drinking upstairs. i went downstairs to get more alcohol and justin and jc were on the couch. they looked at me and they were like, we’re concerned you guys are alcoholics. and i’m like, what are you talking about? we haven’t drank at all in the 6 days we’ve been back. i guess we were all in college and had gotten back from break. i told them that they could join all of us if they wanted to. and they asked who was there, because they didnt know we were having a party. and i was like, it’s just me danielle and leah. then they were like, who’s leah? and i’m like uh..she lives upstairs. they were like oh. so i went back upstairs and i got this great idea i had to tell danielle. so i was like, danielle i have the best idea. and i thought it was so funny i was cracking up laughing. she’s like what? and so i told her i wanted to write a fan fiction about nsync to put on fanfiction.net, because it would be really funny since they all have disclaimers that say stuff like “i don’t know nsync etc” but mine could say “i live with nsync.”….and apparently jennifer lopez lived with us at one point when she was dating justin, but she left when they broke up. so then i guess we were having a party, or something, because someone showed up at our house. justin and jc had joined us, and i let this guy in who didn’t believe we lived with nsync. so i was like, totally, we are the ones who got justin and britney together. so then our party was transformed to be at a bar or something…more like a diner with a lunch counter. but it was dark inside and we were having a party. so i went up to the counter to get a drink, and there was a woman sitting on one of the stools. so i was standing next to her, and my parents were on the other side of her, waiting to get drinks. well the woman looked at me and she was like “oh you’re so pretty pretty pretty pretty.” and i got freaked out. my mom i think, was like, that woman likes you. so i moved away from her to the other side of my parents.i was a police woman, or at least an investigator, and i was doing forensics. my partner was that woman from the bar that thought i was pretty. we had to do all these crime scene investigations together, because i guess we were on a case about a serial killer.
i was playing a 2 on 2 basketball game with michael jordan who had been at my party with nsync. it was me and jordan against kobe bryant and someone else. jordan and i were losing really badly. i was getting pissed, because yeah i suck at basketball but jordan certainly doesn’t. everytime he threw the ball he was way off, and i was no better. so kobe won.
then i was doing something with marilyn manson. he had been at the party, and he liked me. i guess i was doing a video for him or something. but then he gave me this present, but i didn’t want to open it while everyone was there. so then me, marilyn, eric, and some other people were sitting around this tiny room with a bed, cuz we were having a sleepover or something. so we were all smooshed on this bed, and we decided to play this game. i don’t know the name of it, but it involved everyone doing whatever they wanted to me. not sexually or anything, but it was like, i went to the first person and they posed me or whatever, then the 2nd person, than the 3rd etc. and i guess this was supposed to be superfun. then in the morning, i had gotten sorta irritated at the whole thing, and decided to go home. so i went back to the house i shared with nsync, and went to my room. well there was a door in my room that connected to the house next door, so we must have lived in town houses. well the door was open, and i was mad because we had made an agreement that we wouldn’t use the door. in the room the door opened to, dani lived there. and her dad was there packing up her stuff because i guess she didn’t want to live there anymore. so i shut the door so i could go to sleep because i was really tired. but i went to the bathroom and looked at my face, and i had broken out in a rash or i had chicken pox or something. so then i got really pissed at marilyn because i had gotten this disease or whatever from his house. then adrienne came over, with a whole bunch of gifts from marilyn that i had forgotten at his house. so we started opening them and he had bought me all kinds of stuff, and a bunch of cheezy gold jewelry. i guess marilyn was really in love with me, because then he went to the plaza and was standing around the parkinglot waiting for me, because he knew i always walked home from school that way. apparently i was in high school, and so me and a few friends where walking through the parking lot and i saw marilyn. i guess i hadn’t seen him since the sleepover or whatever, and he knew i had been pissed at him so he was trying to appologize. so i said something like, just because of the way me and my friends are you expect me to forgive you. then my friends got pissed at me, because i was stereotyping them as “freaks” just like everyone else did by the comment i made. so i was like no that’s not what i meant. i had a tool shirt on.
my mom was watching this short history of ireland video or something, but it had all these previews on it, and one was for a movie with sean connery and jerry springer. and i was like, jerry springer has another movie? and why on earth is sean connery in it? and then it went into the history of ireland or something, but it was so short, and i didn’t know anything it was saying, but then they got to U2, and were showing this video they made back in the early days of them on a farm singing a song i had never heard before. but then i heard all these other u2 songs and i realized i left my stereo on up stairs. well my mom was whistling along to the songs which made me very happy because that meant she liked them too.
possible explanation: i watched the forensic detectives show on discovery…was watching u2 video,…not sure about nsync and mansion and definitely no clue about basketball.
possible interpretation: i’m insane.
posted by sara @ 9:50 AM//
January 14, 2002
there was some kind of big accident, or tragedy…something big, along the lines of the WTC stuff, and me and my friends were wandering around this park where it occured. someone was hurt and needed blood. a medical person was there and asked carolyn, i think it was her, what kind of blood she had but carolyn didn’t have the right kind. but she told the medical person that i did, so they stuck a needle in me to get blood to give to the other person.
possible explanation: ?
possible interpretation: ?
posted by sara @ 9:51 PM//
January 11, 2002
i was bono, and i was in berlin after the wall came down, and i wanted to go to this cemetery in east berlin to look at the graves, and write things on them (?!?) so i kneeled down by this one grave, and was reading it, and was about to carve something into it when people started walking by. so i stopped because i didn’t want to get caught. i went back later to the same grave, and started carving a sentence into it (which i now forget, but it was something to do with love) and before i could do the last word, people started coming by. so i was trying to hide the screwdriver i was using, until the people went away but they were having a picnic next to the headstone. so i got up to look at the other graves, and come back to that one later but too many people were around.
possible explanation: i started reading “u2 at the end of the world” which start out with a chapter about the band in berlin.
possible interpretation: me and bono are…one, but we’re not the same, we get to carry eachother carry eachother onnneeee… haha
posted by sara @ 10:26 AM//
January 8, 2002
i lived in an apartment that was like a dorm with my friend Carrie. she had gone out and left me alone there, so i was bored and annoyed that she kept leaving me and not including me in what she was doing. i went to the bathroom and it was like a corridor style dorm bathroom, with a bunch of stalls. so i was in a stall and then this group of people including boys came into the bathroom. so i got scared they were going to harass me, so i had one hand on the door and i was trying to be quiet so they wouldn’t know i was in there. then one of the boys went into the stall next to me, and there was a girl in front of my stall door. well i guess they started talking to me so i was talking to them, and the boy was reaching over the top of the stall wall and doing something with the toilet paper. i was trying not to pay attention to him, but i could see him out of the corner of my eye. well then i realized he had stolen the toilet paper and replaced it with an empty roll. so i was like ARG that’s so not funny. so i asked the girl in front of my door, who was this girl jennifer from high school who i hated, if she’d get me some toilet paper. she said yes, and came back with an almost empty roll, that had maybe 4 squares of paper on it. so i was like ARG thanks for nothing. so i had to use those 4 measly squares, and by this time i was super pissed off. i flushed the toilet, and there was two flushers. there was a normal foot one like public bathrooms, and there was a normal hand one like house toilets, but it was slightly underwater. well i used that one so that my hand would be wet. so i opened the door and grabbed the wrist of the guy who’d stolen my toilet paper with my wet hand so he’d think it was pee. so i’m grabbing him and wiping my hand on him, and he’s like eww it smells. so i walk away and go to wash my hands, and he comes up to me and is shoving his arm in my face for me to smell it. and so i grab him and i’m slapping him, and bashing his head into the wall cuz i was really pissed. so i leave and run back to my room which was #23. i was quite scared of those people even tho i had just beat the guy up. i didn’t shut my door tho, i just put the chain lock on it. so they come to the door and are knocking on it. so i’m pretending not to be there, but the guy says he just saw me run into there. so he pushes the door open and the chain is long enough that people could come in. so i was like, wtf is the point of the chain then? so i’m like, why can’t you just leave me alone? and they’re like oh, ok, and left.
i had 2 other dreams that were u2 related. one was with larry, and one with bono but i don’t remember either of them anymore.then i only remember the end part of this one. me and my dad were someplace that looked like geneseo’s campus but it wasn’t supposed to be. these 5 guys came up to us, they had walked there from western canada. and for some reason me and my dad were going to walk to where they came from…western canada….from eastern US. so we started walking and it was all ice and snow. then we crossed the highway that intersects geneseo, even tho where we were, wasn’t supposed to be geneseo. we went into this convenience store because my dad wanted to buy rock salt. they had this u2 display inside so i asked if i could have it and they said yeah, but the 2 worker girls wanted to sign it. so they were signing it. then i bought a half gallon of ice cream for myself. then i realized that i should buy another half gallon for my 2 sons that were going to be mad i was leaving to walk to western canada for a long time.
possible explanation: haha i dunno
possible interpretation: hmmmm dunno.
posted by sara @ 12:18 PM//
January 6, 2002
had this dream at my grandmas on christmas. have been to lazy to type it: i was outside my house with my mom and her friend sue. we heard all these sirens and we looked in the direction of the big blue water tower and we could see 3 distinct clouds of smoke, like things were on fire. so we were all looking at the smoke clouds, and the one in the middle started spraying water. we could see the water coming from the middle fire, so we figured fire trucks must be spraying it. but then it startes spraying out more, out of the house not like hoses spraying onto the house (we couldn’t see the house, just the smoke clouds and water spraying)…so it was more like a burst pipe was spraying water. well the water started spraying so hard that it was reaching my house. then it wasn’t water but raw sewage. it was this brown slime stuff, and it was spraying all over and landing around my lawn and stuff. well some of it got on my mom, and i was like EWWWW you’re covered in raw sewage slime, but she was all calm like she didn’t even care. then i was so grossed out about it that i started to throw up. so i ran in the house covering my mouth as i threw up so i could make it to the bathroom. but when i got in the bathroom raw sewage was bubbling up out of the toilet and sink so i didn’t know where to throw up.
last night’s dream: i was at a party, or wedding or something and George Costanza was there from Seinfeld. he was having some sort of crisis where he needed to get married because of some legal thing, and he didn’t have anyone to marry. so i told him i would marry him, so he could get out of whatever trouble he was in. it was a marriage of convenience. well he magically had 2 rings, and there was a justice of the peace there already marrying someone else. so he was going to marry us too. the ceremony was just casually putting on the rings and doing a shot of alcohol. so after we were married, we didn’t tell anyone cuz it wasn’t really important. but i felt bad that he had to marry me even tho we had no relationship, just to get out of trouble or whatever. so i was being really nice to him, to try to make him feel better. then i was leaving the party and i was in my car trying to get out of the parking lot. i got rear ended by a limo, but he was trying to blame it on me that i was drunk. but i wasn’t because i only did the 1 shot when i got married. so i got out of the car to see what was going on, and i didn’t feel like crying but i thought i should to make people feel bad for me. well my trunk was really crashed up and looked terrible, it wasn’t just a little bump. and i thought i had whiplash. i don’t remember the rest.possible explanation: NO CLUE!!!
possible interpretation: i’m gonna end up marrying some fat balding neurotic man hahah