one of trent’s fav internet sites is hotornot.com ROFLMAO…which reminds me, eric, how u doing on there??

so i had a very weird day. someone called us at 6 am or so.. woke me up, of course. then my parents got up, and my dad didn’t go to work cuz he had an interview today. so this was around 7:30 or 8 that i hear them talking. then my mom is walking around upstairs and her sneakers are SQUEAKING so loud it woke me up… so i’m sorta half sleeping, just wanting to go back to sleep before i had to get up. then someone calls, and my mom comes in my room with her squeaky shoes. my manager at work got into a car accident and they wanted me to come in early. so i asked who it was, and my mom said Carol (there is no Carol)…so i’m like whatever. So I go in, and turns out, it was Pam who got into the accident. She smashed directly into a light pole in the plaza parkinglot at 5 this morning (the lot is empty)….she is ok, went to the hospital cuz she was sore and everything…whiplash. she must have hit it REALLY hard, cuz her van is completely smashed.

so…weird thing about that is.. Pam slapped me on monday. So i was telling this girl i know about it, who sent out bad vibes to Pam…and then she gets in an accident. talk about karma.

and then, i was completely not myself today. i felt so weird. and then i was having flashes that i was other people…LOL i know, i’m insane… it’s called a dissociative disorder LOL. but it was the strangest thing. i’d move a certain way, and i’d totally think i was someone else. yeah, not gonna talk about it anymore, or who it involved…so now i’m off to the psych ward haha

 

i was going to try real hard today not to go on and on about trent reznor and how amazed i still continue to be by the new stuff….but i can’t help it, ok, so deal with it…
from chicago tribune interview with trent:
“You get off track of your priorities. You can say it won’t happen to you, but it has happened to me. To the point where I have had to stop the train and say why am I doing this? The last album doing not as well has given me the courage and humbleness to make better music in the future, to put less attention on catering to an audience that is preventing me from making the truest art I can. You have to do it for yourself, yourself only. I have to keep that in mind. I am keeping that in mind.”

I hope to god that he doesn’t really feel that way…and that he doesn’t think The Fragile was not good music. because is one of the best albums i’ve ever heard.

 

am i weird that i could fall asleep to NIN?…. i’ve fallen to sleep to Prodigy and Metallica among others…

 

1. best moment from the dvd, like most artistic, or whatever (not my fav teenie bopper moments or anything like that lol)….during closer, the middle part of the song, the tv screen is black til the orange screens flash, and after the first flash of orange and then black, the screens flash on and it’s trent’s shadow on the orange. super great
2. i really don’t know the words to “suck”
3. the hidden “reptile” performance has got to be the best live version of the song i’ve heard…after the beginning part Charlie just wanders away, walks around, comes back…and it must have been done pretty early on into the show, cuz trent still has black lipstick smeared on half his face. god i love this song.
4. at some point eric and i had this discussion about what instrument danny lohner plays. and i dont even remember what differing sides of this point we were on, but i THINK i was saying he played bass, and guitar, and eric said he played guitar. well i’m so right, cuz i knew the tour guide said he played bass, guitar, keyboards vocals…so eric immed me yesterday saying that danny plays guitar during the wretched on the dvd…yeah, cuz i SAID he played guitar. but i also SAID he played bass. so now that i’m watching the dvd again i paid more attention….you can distinctly tell when danny is playing bass, versus guitar. cuz he stands and acts differently. and i realized that trent plays bass on at least 2 of the instrumentals…i think the mark has been made and complication. for sure complication cuz it was just on. hah. and i know trent played bass when manson came out in NYC to do beautiful people…so there. i’m still right.

 

this cd makes me so inspired (geee guess which cd)…makes me want to play piano again (if i had any sheet music and if i could remember how to read bass clef…i could figure it out real quick if i really wanted to)…makes me want to write again…i’ve been writing a bit, i’ve been doing some stuff for the MPS, but i have so little control of what’s going on, it’s not enough for me…and this cd makes me wanna go back to a storyline i had been writing before – before it went all haywire. maybe i should go back and read it.

 

it’s always been kind of interesting to look for the melodic patterns in NIN albums…like, the downward spiral has that one piano melody that goes through the entire album…and the fragile has the into the void melody in various songs…well the instrumental part of “the fragile” (song) before the end climax is the same melody as “the frail” i’ve just noticed.