November 28, 2001
I guess i was at my house, I don’t remember anymore. I had hid some joints in my basement, so my parents wouldn’t find them. So I smoked one, and then i went online to talk to carolyn about it. I didn’t feel high, so I was really upset. then my mom was around and i really wanted to get high. so i was going to try to go back in the basement to get my other drugs without her knowing. so I went downstairs, and I shot up with some heroin. I went back upstairs to talk to carolyn. I still didn’t feel high though. then my dad came home, and i dont know why, but i felt like i needed to go retreive all my drugs because I was scared they’d find them. so i went back downstairs, and i took a bottle of aspirin with me. i took it so that when i went to find my other joint, and my E pills they would see that i was holding aspirin and think that’s what i had gone downstairs to get. so i was holding 4 tablets of E, the joint, and the aspirin and my mom started yelling at me about something. then my dad started yelling at me. i was yelling back at them, and my mom kept yelling at me. i really needed to do the rest of my drugs. i guess my dad told her to stop yelling at me and i managed to get upstairs. so i was back talking to carolyn, and i still didn’t feel high. so i did the 4 tabs of E. then i was going to smoke the joint but i got scared that i had taken way too many drugs.
i was at school, and i had a locker. i got out of a class and went to my locker and it was all decorated. except it wasn’t my birthday. my friends who had lockers around me decorated it to thank me for being so tall, because i always got stuff out of the top of their locker for them. then dr kirsh was there, and he was an art teacher. he gave me my paintings i had done, to take home. then this other girl was there, and she wanted to paint. so dr kirsh was telling her about how there was no more room in the painting class for the girl. then i dunno what was going on, but i started cutting her hair. it was some sort of deal dr kirsh and i made with her. i had to cut some of her hair off but i ended up cutting off way too much and she was mad.possible explanation: another drug dream. there was actually a 2nd drug dream related to the first one because i wanted to remember the 1st one so badly to type up. i forgot most of it, there was so much more details and stuff to it that i don’t remember.
possible interpretation: drugs is the only way i’m going to be able to deal with my parents if i have to live with them when school ends lol
posted by sara @ 10:13 AM//
November 27, 2001
i was in new york city, buy the world trade center, when it was attacked. i must have been under a car or something because i was watching the towers collapse from an opening in whatever i was under. someone was with me but i don’t know who it was.
possible explanation: haven’t thought about it in a while…dunno
possible interpretation: ptsd
posted by sara @ 2:19 PM//
November 25, 2001
i was in a toy store xmas shopping and i had my baby with me. i guess the baby was around the age that it would start talking. i think it was a boy. so i’m walking through the aisles and talking to my baby, trying to get it to talk. i kept asking it to say “momma” and “daddy”…well it started saying “daddy” so i got all happy and excited and i called for my husband to come. he was in another aisle looking for gifts. so i yelled for him to get over here because our son was talking and i didn’t want him to miss it. so he did, and my husband was bono. so he took the baby and the baby kept saying daddy to him over and over. it was really cute
possible explanation: spent some time in toy sections of discount stores yesterday…bono…um do i even need to explain where that came from? lol
possible interpretation: i’d say another psychic dream except i don’t want kids…however bono’s kids…hmmm lol
posted by sara @ 2:26 PM//
November 20, 2001
my mom and i ran this day camp type program for troubled kids. they came to this building we owned and we had activities and different stuff for them to do to keep them out of trouble. well this business was just a front. we were italian, and we were in the mafia. and the day camp was a front for our drug dealing. we were the biggest dealers in the area. we specialized in cocaine. so we were working in the day came when one of our shipments arrived. this chinese man came by with two big boxes. so i took him in back to the walk in freezer. he put the boxes on the shelves with the other boxes of food. then a group of other mafia guys walked in and demanded to know what the day camp was a front for. well the chinese guy started going on and on about how if they guys would leave he would find the golden pussy. and he didn’t know much english, so he kept saying over and over to the men that he’d find the golden pussy. the guys were like, really? the golden pussy? and the chinese man was like, yes, the gooooooolden pussy. so apparantly everyone thought the day camp was a front for a whore house. so the mafia guys leave with the chinese man. all the kids from the day camp leave, and adrienne was there. i guess she worked in the camp for us. so once everyone was gone, we ran back into the freezer to get high, because we were both cocaine addicts. so we opened up the boxes and each box was filled with tons of little baggies of cocaine. so we did some cocaine, and then i went to my house. my grandparents lived with us. they were in the mafia too i guess. my grandpa had made spaghetti, and put the dirty dishes back into the cupboard without washing them, again. he did it every time he made spaghetti. there was sauce all over the cupboard, and it was disgusting. since i was high, i started yelling at him about how he can’t do that because then i have to clean the cupboard. he didn’t understand what the big deal was, so i yelled at him to get up and look in the cupboard, and then he saw that there was sauce all over the place. and he was like oooh, yeah i’m sorry, i won’t do it anymore. well i was highly irritated and i didn’t feel high anymore, so i was mad. i went to the bathroom and looked in the mirror and my pupils were small, but not totally small. so i wanted to go back to the day camp to get some more drugs.
possible explanation: haha that’s so great. this was a great dream. maybe if i had some cocaine i could deal with my family better
possible interpretation: another drug addict dream….
posted by sara @ 7:59 AM//
November 19, 2001
1. it was trevor’s birthday, so a bunch of us girls went to see him. he lived near us, so we went to his house. but it was set up like a science class room – a lab table with sink in the front of the room near the boards, then desks facing the front. so trevor was behind the desk thing, and we were all sitting in the desks, or leaning on the lab table to talk (flirt) with him. he was surprised that we all remembered his birthday. then one of the girls had a big sign, as if we were going to a concert. it had this blonde woman on it who looked like farah faucett. trevor had left the room to get something, so i asked the girl wtf she had that sign. she said it was trevor’s girlfriend. and i was like, i thought he was dating that kelly person, and that kelly person didn’t look like that. she said no it was his new girlfriend. i still didn’t quite know why she had this sign with pictures of his girlfriend on it. so then trevor came back..with his girlfriend, who had brown hair, but apparantly it was the same person that was on the poster. his girlfriend was a singer too i guess, so we watched her music video, and i thought it sucked. but i befriended her, and was going to take her around town to show her the sites.
2. partly related to 1…..i had finally finished taking trevor’s girlfriend around and it was really late, but i went home. i lived in one giant room with 2 other girls and i had to share a bed with one of them. she was still awake because she was pissed i hadn’t come home yet. she thought i had been with trevor. but i said no i hadn’t been with him. so i got into bed, and the girl was the blond haired little girl that stuffed her bra from the movie Then and Now…she covered my eyes with her hand, because i guess there was stuff going on in the room that i wasn’t supposed to see. there were all these people coming in, and they were robbing us..no they weren’t robbing us, but they had robbed something and were putting the things in suitcases to make a break for it. then trevor’s girlfriend was one of them, and so i was like WTF trevor is going to be so mad when he finds out his girlfriend is a criminal.
3. partly related to 2……the room i lived in turned into a school classroom, but it looked the same. i just knew it was a school room. Dr Dehart’s room to be more specific. the people who had stolen stuff and then put it in suitcases so they could make a break away really pissed me off. then it was like, they had something to do with some political group. one of the guys was a protestor and had taken these sponge stamp letters and black and red paint and had stamped letters on people, and on the walls. so i decided to join the movement, and i totally destroyed the room. i was writing on stuff, and painting on desks and tables. i was trying to paint but the paint wasn’t showing up and i didn’t understand why. but every time i wrote the letter K it was backwards. then Dr Dehart gave me 5 dollars, i guess in support of the cause. i didn’t really know what to do with it, because i didn’t know where donations went.
4. was talking to my husband john stamos about how carolyn dreams about tony danza.
possible explanation: i’ve never had Dr Dehart for a class…Trevor…i dunno why i dreamed about EC again…i don’t know when his birthday is either.
possible interpretation: dunno
posted by sara @ 11:12 AM//
November 18, 2001
i was dating john stamos. we lived in a big highrise building in a city. it was all upperclass looking and gorgeous. i was running around trying to find carly from gh because she was hurting her chances of getting custody of michael. she had gone and taken him from whoever had custody of him. don’t remember much after that. then me and john had to go stay at my grandparents house i don’t know why. so it was time to go to sleep and we were in a room with 2 double beds. i couldn’t sleep in the same bed as john because i guess someone else, a friend of ours, had come with us, and we didn’t feel right letting her sleep with my grandma in the same bed. so our friend slept with john and i was going to sleep in the other bed with my grandma. but before we went to sleep i was in bed with john and we were talking about all kinds of stuff i don’t remember. then i was in the other bed, and we were going to sleep. my grandma hadn’t came to bed yet because she doesn’t go to bed til like 4 in the morning. so we’re sleeping and then i feel someone sit on the bed i was in, and it sunk a real lot. then someone kissed my neck, and then the other side of my neck, and got up and left. well i opened my eyes to see who it was, because i didn’t think it was john since he’s not big enough to make the bed sink that much and it was the cook, or something like that, that works for my grandparents. he was kinda fat, dorky, very gross. so i started freaking out and john sat up in bed and was like “what is it”. so i was crying and said that the cook (whatever his name was) just came in here and kissed my neck. I guess there was a history of the cook being in love with me. so john got really pissed off and he was going to go and beat the cook up. but i was like “no please don’t do it” but john was getting out of bed to go beat the guy up. so i got up and grabbed john and i was so upset i just collapsed on the floor and pulled him down with me. i just held onto john so he wouldn’t leave, and he was like “ok, i wont go” and hugged me as i cried.
i was at a music store with my friend cyndi and we were leaving when a car went by playing music really loudly. it sounded like orgy, so i was like “dude that is so orgy” but i never heard the song before. so i deduced that it was the new orgy song. but i hadn’t heard about orgy releasing a new song. so i’m like, “i’m going to ask those people what that is” because they had pulled into a parking lot. so we walked over, and it was a van. there were a bunch of kids in the back, and the woman driving was older. but they were still playing orgy real loud. so i went up to the window and was like, is that orgy? and she’s like yeah it’s from their 3rd release. and i was like, well where the hell did you get it? and she said she got it last night at this other record store. i asked when the release date was and she said she didn’t know but if i went to the record store at midnight or 4 am i could probably get a copy. i had no idea where the store was, and neither did cyndi and the woman wouldn’t tell me where it was.possible explanation: john stamos?!?! sure he’s hot and all but… wtf did that come from?!?!
possible interpretation: haha
posted by sara @ 11:19 AM//
November 17, 2001
only remember parts
was walking with someone in a mall parking lot. we were trying to avoid walking by some people that were standing around, so we took a detour through a fenced off area near the building. it was the wild life preserve that the mall had (?!?). the mall had different exhibits with animals inside, and this fenced off area was where the zookeepers dealt with the animals when they weren’t inside. so we were walking in it, and saw the animals but they didn’t seem to care we were there. we got to the end of the fenced area and realized there wasn’t an exit, so we had to turn around and go out. then there was someone in a lab coat doing things with the animals, a vet or something. there were a bunch of aligators in the area. one started running after whoever it was that i was with (dunno who it was, it was a boy tho). so i was like, look out! then the vet said something, and the aligator stopped. i guess they had been trained really well. then all the animals realized we weren’t supposed to be walking in the area. so we were leaving, and then all the aligators started coming after us, and biting us in the legs. the vet couldn’t stop them. so i had to keep grabbing the aligators mouths and prying them off of me. so we got out of the fenced area, and then it was my school campus. i was walking around in pain from having all these aligator bites. then some woman came up to me to tell me they were making the whole campus into the wild life reserve. so i started going off about how that was such a bad idea because i had gotten bit etc…then i was walking in some other area of campus where they were still building the town houses. but the area had more room then the townhouses i live in now, so it looked like an actual neighborhood with a street, and front lawns, and then houses. and each house was different, like a real neighborhood. so i thought those looked better than the one i lived in.my mom had dropped me off in a parkinglot where there had been a tool concert. i needed a ride back to school and i knew eric was there and that he’d drive me home. so i found him and he was talking to maynard. so i was like hi, to maynard. there was really no one else around. then maynard was sitting on the bumper of a car next to eric’s just chillin. i didnt want to bother him so i didn’t talk to him. so me and eric were getting ready to leave, but i couldn’t lift my leg up to get it in the car, cuz it was in pain from being bitten. then maynard said something to me so i replied, and then we left.
i was someplace and i had to go to the bathroom and there were 6 stalls. 3 had toilets, 3 were the bathrooms that were just holes in the ground like in france and greece…where you squat over the hole and pee. i walk in and only the holes were left. then i hear my aunt carol say “hi sara”…she was in one of the other stalls. didn’t understand how she knew it was me. so i was going to attempt to pee in the hole. the person in the stall next to me was doing a really bad job, not getting the hole, and so her pee was splashing all over the place, even into my stall from underneath the wall. so i got to pee and i did fine, and i was fixing my pants when my mom started leaning over the door to talk to me, and the person next to me was leaning over the side wall to light a cigarette. i’m like ok why must everyone suddenly lean into my stall!? they were like, oh sorry, and left.
possible explanation: ha i have no clue
possible interpretation: dunno
posted by sara @ 10:44 AM//
November 15, 2001
i was in prison. more specifically i was in attica. i had just gotten sentenced and i was going to be in attica for the rest of my life. so the warden person came and brought me to my cell in chains. my hands were chained together to my waist, and my feet were chained. my bed was in a big room with a bunch of other beds. each bed was in front of a barred window that was open to the outside. we all got chained to our beds, so we couldn’t walk around or anything. the warden was telling me the rules, and how he makes random visits to make sure we’re all following the rules. he was telling me how people go insane in attica etc. because there’s nothing to do and you’re not allowed to do anything. so i sat there, and he left, and i thought it’s not SO bad, because i can look out the window etc. i was going to have a good attitude and make the rest of my life be as good as it could be inside attica. so then a bunch of new prisoners were brought in. none of them were chained though. they had beds near mine. one of them was cheryl from work. she had the bed next to mine. so we were talking and things were ok. these 2 other girls were brought in, non chained, and so we were talking to them. then i realized i could lift up the one leg of my bed and un-chain myself. so i did that so i could walk around, even if i couldn’t lift my arms up high because they were still chained to my waist. well we were all talking and causing a ruckous so the warden came back to yell at us all. then my friend joe from elementary school was there. he was sitting on cheryl’s bed and we were talking. then i wanted to call some people from high school and tell them cheryl was in prison. so she gave me her ATM card, which if you talked into the magnetic strip, acted like a phone. so we called this kid matt laroach, who i guess i called because cheryl always had a crush on him. so i’m laughing and telling him cheryl is in prison, and that joe was there too….well i guess it turns out, we were allowed to do our own thing and walk around in the room and socialize. there were actually little grills there we could heat up our food on. so a bunch of us were cooking food, and talking. i was really shocked to see so many girls there since i thought attica was a men’s prison. then i was looking inside the grill, which was like those toasters that they have in restaurants, that have the bread travel through the toaster and come out the bottom, and there were flames coming out of it. so i yelled fire, and everyone looked and saw the toaster in flames. then the other toaster/grill started on fire. so i’m yelling fire and we’re all panicing because, they don’t really tell us the fire escape routes since it is prison and everything. so then one of the prison guards comes running in with this little fire extinguisher. it was gideon yago from mtv. so he puts out the fire. so then i’m walking around and dr shanahan was there. so i was like omg what are you doing here? she was visiting, not a prisoner. but then i was really ashamed and embarassed about why i was there, but she huggged me and asked me what i had done. i had killed my ex husbands new girlfriend. so she left, and i went to sit with the other girls eating, and i was like, i don’t think i could possibly feel any worse about myself after seeing her and telling her what i had done to spend the rest of my life in prison
possible explanation: im reading a book about the death penalty and death row etc…
possible interpretation: another psychic dream lol
posted by sara @ 7:46 AM//
November 9, 2001
there was a concert in my neighbors driveway. in order to watch it you had to park your car in the street and sit in your car. so danielle and i were sitting in my car and watching the concert. it was the rolling stones. it was really weird though, because the drummer stopped drumming and was walking around. mick jagger was doing his thing but there was only half of the music sine there was no drummer. then roadies were running around trying to settle stuff down. no one knew what was going on. then the concert was inside a department store or something, because there were all kinds of shopping carts around, and behind the stage were aisles of products to buy. but it was still outside because we were still in the car. then i wanted to go backstage because apparantly i knew mick. so me and danielle got out of the car and went back stage. then it was like intermission and the band came back stage. so mick was talking to people, and we were just standing there. next thing i knew i was holding a drum stick. it was covered in silver glitter, so i’m like wow this is a rad drum stick. so then danielle wanted one. we found this huge pile of drum sticks, and so danielle took one. she wanted more so she started taking more and putting them into a shopping cart. i was like um, don’t do that mick is gonna be mad at us for taking all of this stuff, since i thought mick would be mad i just had the 1 drum stick. so then i wanted to talk to mick so i was hoping he’d see me. i didn’t know if he’d remember me because it had been a long time since i had seen him last. so then he saw me, he had a red shirt on. so he came over to say hello and he remembered me and everything. but he was sorta busy so he had to go talk to some other people. he must have seen the danielle had put stuff in the cart, cuz Mick was like, oh yeah take whatever you want, no problem. so while he was off talking to whoever, we went and started piling things into the cart from the shelves. so then i went back over to talk to Mick and he hugged me, and i was like you remember my name, and he was like of course i do. i was taller than him. i think i am in real life too. so he was hugging me and i was like, it’s been a long time, and he was like yeah. then i noticed my car headlights were on, because the key was in the igniton. so i was like shit i need to go get my keys before my battery burns out, so i went to the car and danielle stayed backstage. in the car were my parents because they had been watching the concert too. so i was like, um, i need my keys so my lights will go off.
possible explanation: only that i’m going to an EC concert tonight.. they SHOULD remember who i am even tho its been a while since i saw them last
possible interpretation: i really am friends with mick jagger. and since he sang a song with bono on new album, he’s gonna introduce me…
posted by sara @ 10:25 AM//
November 7, 2001
lol i just remembered part of another dream. i was in some kind of class, and the teacher was the guy who played Michael Bolton in the movie “office space”. but he wasn’t an actor. it was a real person, who was hired to be in the movie because the movie was based on his real life or something. everyone in the class had seen “office space” so people were constantly saying “michael bolton” to see what our teacher would do (his real name wasn’t michael bolton). he didn’t think any of us had seen the movie and knew that he was in it. but when we started saying things to him from the movie, he caught on and was kinda embarassed.
posted by sara @ 10:53 AM//
#1 i was at some kind of amusement park and i was standing near a rollercoaster watching people go on it. it was the biggest coaster in the entier world, it had the biggest drop, and it was the longest ride. so i’m watching people go on it, and i notice that whoever is in the first car had to go down head first. they get strapped in on their stomach and do the whole thing head first. everyone else is normal. so i guess i was in line, and i get in my seat and strapped in. but i don’t have one of those head restraint things. so i’m like, um, i’m gonna fall out when we go upsidedown. so then we’re sitting there forever because i guess there was some kind of technical problem they had to fix. so finally we start going up the first hill and i still don’t have a head restraint. i’m like, uh they usually check these things before they let you start. So i just reached up and found mine, and pulled it down. but then i wasn’t on the ride anymore and i was just watching it again. after watching all these people go on it and look totally scared i chickened out and didn’t want to go anymore.
#2 me and my parents were going on a trip someplace. last minute my grandpa showed up at our house. i guess it wasn’t really last minute at all, he was planning on coming the whole time, but my parents knew if they told me he was coming i wouldn’t go with them. but i still didn’t know he was going on the entire trip with us, i thought he was just going to a certain point and then we were leaving him wherever that was. so we start driving, and i’m miserable because i can’t stand to be around him. so we’re going to all these places that are out of the way of our final destination and i’m like wtf where are we going. and my dad is like, we’re going to this cemetery. and we go to drive by this cemetery and all these people from some certain war are burried there. then i notice my grandpa has a list of cemeteries, and apparantly he wants to go see every cemetery in the country where people from this war are burried, and that this is what the enitre trip was supposed to be – us taking him to all these cemeteries.#3 i went to a party with Bono. we weren’t dating, but i was his date for the party. we were just close friends or something. anyway, there was this guy there who was an old high school friend of Bono’s. i really wanted to meet this man because u2 had written their song “out of control” about this guy (not true). so Bono introduced me to him, and I was all like, “ooh so you’re the guy? how do you feel about u2 playing that song live now?” and the man is like “at first i was kind of put off by it, but i like it, it’s good.” and then Bono interrupted and was like “yeah you can totally tell we didn’t design the set ourselves, so and so designed it. and i like how we changed the song to do it live?” and i’m like ok…and the man is like “yeah, so and so, haven’t you ever heard of the taliban?” and i’m like “of course i’ve heard of the taliban”
possible explanation: um…i dunno, i’m too hungry to think
possible interpretation: dunno.
posted by sara @ 10:46 AM//
November 3, 2001
i was at school, but our house was a huge mansion. inside the house there were various apartments. so it was like there were apartments constructed into this house. DO YOU KNOW WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT?! ok, so anyway. there were 3 doors that you went in to get to your apartment depending on where in the house it was located, and each door had a big front porch (it was a really huge mansion). we had to park our cars in fields in front of the house. so i had parked my car in a pretty decent space. then it was like, everyone was out tailgating at their cars, as if we were at a football game, or preconcert or something. well where my car was parked, it was kinda hilly and uneven, so i wanted to adjust the way i parked my car so it was flat. so i pulled ahead so i could back up and straighten it out, but someone came and took my spot. so i was like, where the hell am i gonna park my car now? i liked my space, and the guys in the car next to mine were really cute. the car and parking space were like where everyone lived, so everyone had their junk spread out in their space. i had a shopping cart full of crap, and now i didn’t know what to do with it all since someone had taken my space. it kinda resembled a camp ground where people park their trailers and then set up their “homes” there.
some dream involving michael jackson but no clue what it was about.possible explanation: dunno
possible interpretation: no clue
posted by sara @ 3:16 PM//
November 1, 2001
i was driving in some strange big city. i’d never been there before, but i knew where i was, and how to get back to where i was going. then i was at my apartment, which was sorta like in a corridor style dorm. but i think it was a hotel. and some friends were visiting but i don’t know who they were. but then i had to go to this dance recital thing with danielle. she had promised kristy that we’d go watch her perform. it wasn’t just a recital though, it was a contest and it was being filmed for tv. it was all people in some dance school. so we went to this recital thing and had gotten there late. so she got a chair in the first row on the floor, cuz there was an empty one, and i stood to the side by the floor. i think one of the judges was someone from metallica. maybe not, i just remember the 1 judge was someone really weird – not weird, but an odd choice to be judging a dance competition. there was only 2 judges. i assumed that everyone was going to have to do the same song, and same costume for 1 dance, and then do 1 dance on their own. each person performed by themselves. so this girl came out in this gross purple costume. it had a leotard thing, and then a skirt piece that was all purple gauze, with purple sequins as a belt. she had purple tights on. so she came out, and the skirt was attached around her neck like a cape. so i was like, um, that’s weird. the entire time her tights were really falling down, all baggy all over like she had gotten a size 2 times too big and couldn’t keep them up. so she’s doing this dance, and was terrible. i was wondering how she even got through first auditions to get that far in the contest. well she totally sucked, and she messed up, and i could dance better than she could. well from the audience reaction she knew she did bad and was upset. so she was walking off stage, and pulling up her tights, and she saw someone with the same costume on with the skirt actually as a skirt and not a cape. so she got really pissed off and started yelling at her dance coach, who could have possibly been Bono. she was screaming at him that why did he tell her to wear it like that, it was supposed to be a skirt, and she was blaming him for the bad routine and the fact she sucked. well then someone moved from the chairs, so i went to sit down next to danielle and wait for kristy’s performance. well i guess the crappy girl was the last of the amateurs, and next was people who actually were really good dancers. i guess there were 2 parts of the competiton, the part for all the crappy dancers, and the part for people who were actually talented. so i was sorta excited to see the good dancers. so this guy came out to do his routine and it was super great, and i wondered how crappy girl could ever think she would have won against people like that guy. then there was something else about Bono, he was there and people saw him and started yelling, but i was like yeah bono is here, because i guess i already knew him. he was one of my good friends or something and he had come to see the show with us.
possible explanation: no clue where all this dancing stuff came from lol
possible interpretation: i dont care lol