alright, alright… mj on trl…how long was he on for, like a whole 30 seconds?!?! lol. carson seemed like in TOTAL awe, and carson keeps his cool pretty good usually.
i was really excited about the whole thing, cuz really…mj on trl?!? could you get a bigger star? i think not. so i’m really, overall, very happy he was on. everyone was really excited… and o-town was funny – they took over hosting TRL so Carson could go talk to MJ..they were so funny, cuz they were really excited to be witnessing the whole thing…
mj seemed totally clueless tho, like he didn’t know what was going on. he seemed drugged LOL. he wasn’t paying attention to carson when he was talking…i dunno. to me it’s like he’s changed SO much since HIStory…and i’m really not just talking about his face and lack of lips now….it’s like he seems SO utterly unhappy. seemed like he totally didn’t want to be there, didn’t want to talk to carson. and maybe it is cuz he can’t express emotion on his face anymore…but i dunno. it really hurts me to see him that way. god he just seems so tired of everything.
to me i get the impression that he doesn’t want to be doing this anymore…being in the public eye, etc…but then part of him is like, i’m michael jackson, this is my job, i need to be out there. but i’m kinda torn cuz like…if he’s so unhappy, and everything, then why bother? he should have just retired with HIStory, and been happy with what he has accomplished. but i know how he is, and that if he’s going to go out, he’s gonna go out with a bang….
i just get a really bad feeling from all of this, from seeing him like that… i dunno. maybe i’m making it all up in my head
mj… i love you sweetheart but…if you want to wear an athletic suit, be all cool, fine, but u need to wear different kind of shoes.. like sneakers, and the pants can’t be all tapered at the bottom… lol.
about now is the time where i insert my feelings about mj needing to die soon…but i think everyone is tired of me talking about that…so i’ll spare you.
i would not, in a million years, for anything, want to be michael jackson. i would not trade places with him to save my life. i used to think, “Yeah it’d be great to be michael jackson, even if ppl think he’s weird, and he has such a bizzare life due to everyone wanting a piece of him”…but now, no way.
i was watching the making of thriller on vh1 today during lunch. he is so incredible. he is so talented. he is just amazing. he has done so much and accomplished so many things. and i think, wow, it’d be awesome to really know what it’s like to be him, to have done everything he has done, to see things through his eyes.
yet i would not trade places with him.
if you’ve seen “The Crow” then you know The Crow had the powers to see things through the eyes of other people by touching them. He could also give them what he’s seen, and what he’s taken from others. He “sees” his wife dying in the hospital through the eyes of the police man, and then gives all of his wife’s pain to the bad guy at the end through touch. if i could do that with MJ, if i could touch him and see everything he’s seen, and all that he’s done i would, in a second. but i would never want to actually be him.