my stomach decided to revolt at work today. it was good enough timing that i was able to get some pepto from the emt’s and hide in the bathroom in pain, before going back to my table. i couldn’t afford to leave early again so i was going to try to stick it out. i wasn’t sweating profusely like normal so that was a good thing. thankfully the pain lasted about 25 minutes, and then i was completely fine again. so that was good.

i don’t know what is wrong with it. and i have considered the fact that these may be panic attacks, though they don’t always occur in stressful situations. the only stressful situation was the one last saturday when i saw all the charges on my credit card. with my “training” i also know panic attacks can happen for no discernible reason. but i’m on not one but 2 different anti depressants and i should not be having panic attacks with the drugs. there doesn’t seem to be any food triggers either, at least not for this death pain. the only thing i’ve ingested before having an attack has been gatorade twice. other times it was mashed potatoes, water, breakfast from denny’s, beef and broccoli today…it doesn’t make sense. now if it turns out i do have the bacteria that causes ulcers, maybe this would all make sense. i don’t know. maybe not. i just hope this multi attacks per week thing doesn’t keep happening between now and when i see the specialist in august.

tomorrow peaches. haircut. and getting my credit card straightened up by finding a notary public. and trying to find pink fishnets. and picking up my film. and editing more photos from sunday. they’re all bad. seriously. i looked at some dslr’s today at circuit city. so expensive…