wow.

ok so i just found out something about someone that is so fucking hilarious i think it made my life.

and i also found out something i totally wasnt expecting and don’t know what to think about…*blindsided*

and something that proves how totally manipulative and evil someone is. but i knew that.

*cryptic*

i love my cryptic entries where even a week from now i wont know what the hell i was talking about lol

in warren. the viewing today was sort of weird. first of all the morticians glued my grandmas face so much that she actually looked like a human and not so much like a witch/skeleton that she has looked like recently. everyone who had seen her the last few weeks has said she looks much better now in the casket. got to see the freak show that is one part of my family…the mobster part, the related to sonny bono part. i didn’t bring my camera but if i had, i wish it wouldnt seem so rude to take pictures of people at a funeral haha. the rosary was so god awful. i just don’t understand religion. i’m not sure my brain is capable of wrapping itself around the idea. whatever. and it’s sort of funny cuz neither my mom or her siblings are practicing catholics and a few xmases ago we discussed how pretty much none of us believe in the idea of a christian god. but while my grandma hasn’t gone to church in any of my 20 some year memories, she did believe and was religious as much as she could be from home. so since it was for her i guess it was nice. i absolutely for sure don’t want a funeral. i want everyone to be punked out and having a party.

trying to talk to dan cuz i’m freaking out here but hes NOT ANSWERING ME

and i’m drunk.

LOL that’s right. aunt carol and her gay friend rob (i swear every guy i know named rob is gay, and looks alike…ahem meltzer, sheridan, this rob lol) and i were gonna go out, but in returning my car to the old house we came inside and were talking with my parents. so we opened a bottle of wine as my parents decided to go out LOL so we drank the bottle and my aunt and i went to a rock bar in royal oak for a drink. yep. we left when some other 40something guy who was wasted try to talk to us. haha my aunt was suddenly all “my drink is gone lets go!” hahaha the bar was next to noir leather, the gothy store with the back room of sex toys that me and my aunt went to on xmas eve a few years ago LOL i wish it had been open cuz their clothes were probably cheaper than what i bought in toronto.

so i’m back at the old house. no trip to mcs this time. will have to try again. may have been able to make a stop there friday but i didnt bring my camera so no point. hopefully getting dinner with amira tomorrow. she lives an hour away but seems willing to come out here. i don’t know how to get anywhere around here myself. we’ll see. i should try to sleep since the normal people in this house already are and expect me up at like 9.

i’m sleeping in my grandparents bed. i don’t want to think about it lol