for what it’s worth a scummy white trash guy told me not many women can pull off being sexy with short hair, but that i do a great job with it. and he went on and on about it. so i guess the hair works. and i just find that amusing because i don’t consider myself to be sexy or a sex object in the slighest bit. it makes me laugh when things like that are said to me or brought to my attention.

but yeah. i’m ok with the hair now. we’ll see what color it turns tomorrow.

was relief in the carnival games tonight. which meant i did alot of nothing. it was pretty slow and i got to leave an hour early. doug was the pit tonight and he makes me laugh. i like him and i don’t know why. i think it’s cuz he doesn’t say much. alot of people have problems with him and i just don’t get it, he’s always been nice to me. even when i first started dealing and kept fucking up when he was supervising me. haha. there is a certain payout procedure that is completely wrong, but it seems every dealer has started doing it. and i’m making it my mission to correct every dealer i see do it. i started tonight. cuz i decided it bugs me THAT much lol. i’ll stop the shop talk now tho, cuz i could continue but no one will get what i’m saying.

got the orgy tix, stupid 6$ per ticket service fee. and got adr’s bday gift. yay. it’s fantastic. i dunno why i didn’t think of it sooner. she’s usually so hard to buy for. and it has nothing to do with orgy.

and speaking of orgy, doug asked me why i was going to detroit and i said it and he was just like…oooookay hahaha.

and speaking of orgy, apparently they are still going to release a dvd…aimed for november, with live stuff from this tour and the vapor transmission tour. should be interesting.

 

gaaaaaaaaaaaah

my roots – aka new growth non dyed hair – are orange. the orange my hair was at picnic on the plaza last year. the rest of my hair…not orange. good to know that DEEP RED would turn my hair orange, if i actually had all pure non dyed hair.

i’m thinking there will be an emergency dying tonight/tomorrow morning before detroit. gonna have to go black to cover the orange…gah.

this is the same thing that happened last time i used the same brand and color. stupid herbal essences. this is how i got light red hair back in february. grrrr.

 

i had a dream that i was in a concentration camp. i don’t know why i was there. it wasn’t so bad though. we had to sleep in big rooms with other people. and we all slept on mats on the floor instead of beds or matresses. but it really wasn’t so bad. partly because there was someone there who i was in love with. we weren’t “dating” or even speak of our relationship, but we just both knew that we were in love. i think it was something to do with…he resisted me and resisted a relationship because he was in the CIA and didn’t think that a relationship would be allowed. i wasn’t supposed to know he was in the CIA but i did. and that was ok with me, just the telepathic knowing that we were in love was fine. i’m not sure we had even spoken to eachother. it was alot of looking at him and him looking at me. it made me really happy despite being in the camp. the whole dream was all warm and fuzzy when i was in the “dorm room” with him.