dream
somehow it had been arranged that i was going to get married to victor at work. and for some reason i agreed to this plan although we never talk and don’t know each other all that well. so time went on with the knowledge that we were going to get married, but then i started to have 2nd thoughts. but i didn’t tell anyone because our shift manager terry had been paying for everything involved with this plan. he paid for the engagement ring, and he was paying for us to go out to vegas with a bunch of our friends to get married. so then we’re out in vegas and there happens to be a nin show, so me and all the nin friends we met are there to see the show. i tell everyone that i’m getting married and that i didn’t want to anymore. so someone convinced me that i should tell vic and cancel the whole thing. i still felt bad that terry had spent so much money on the whole thing. so i’m walking around and i see sam, a player from work, at one of the games. i stop to talk to him and i told him i was getting married, and he was like “again?”. so i said i hadn’t ever been married before. then i guess it’s the day of the wedding and i go to whatever casino we were having the ceremony at, and vic is there with some other people from work. i sat down with him and i told him that i didn’t think we should get married, since we didn’t know each other real well and everything. i told him we should just wait, hang out and actually date, and then get married. he seemed really sad, and didn’t really say anything, just looked sad. so i felt bad again, and said fine we can get married. we had the ceremony and then we were all back at home again. i had to get used to introducing people to my husband and i just couldn’t get used to having to say that. we still didn’t really talk or hang out, but we were happy i guess. we were going to be moving into some factory or steel plant that had been redone into apartments, so i went shopping for curtains with my new sister-in-law.
wtf.