there’s nothing wrong with me. isn’t that super? i guess my heart just hurts, and doesn’t beat right, and i lost 20 pounds for no reason. i guess my body will just naturally maintain itself at 110 and if i go over that, i’ll just lose the weight again. no sorry, she told me i must be sick, or whatever, because i work nights. some study came out saying people who work nights are more suseptible to illness because they don’t sleep right. i’m so frustrated because once again this just reaffirms that i don’t go to the doctor because they don’t fix what’s wrong with me. i’m supposed to try to get proper sleep. i feel like i’m in fight club. *chews valerian root*
she did give me the name of a new neurologist, cuz i asked, and she agreed that my current one has a bad attitude. so i guess i’m gonna make an appt with the new one, hopefully get on some new drugs or get a brain scan to proove/disproove my theory that i have an aneurism.
so now why am i crying again?
how do you spell proove? prove? no. it must be proove. that looks so wrong.
had a very bad day. trying desperately not to throw away everything i have left in my life. if i go off on you, ignore me.
it really, really disturbs me that a certain person i know peripherly has had sex. like…i am so completely disturbed. mainly because she’s one of the most hideous people on the planet. more hideous than the 2 let’s-plan-to-have-our-babies-at-the-same-time-white-trash-girls from high school who we saw at canal fest. i know there is someone out there for everyone, and that the people fucking these…waste-oids…are people i wouldn’t touch with a 10 foot pole…but still. *shudder*
why aren’t boys lined up to date me now that i’m single? 😛 it’s like, once again, there are 2 categories of people. the white trash people mentioned above, and the ultra-super-hot-never in a million years in my league people. where are the middle-of-the-road people? i’ve basically wondered this my whole life. i’m not trying to be a snob or egotistical here, but…really. i’m not ugly. from what i’ve been told recently, i’m a “really hot girl” with a “really great personality”…i don’t get it. neither did nate. aside from nate i can only attract white trash, unintelligent…idiots…with no future. great.