i wish i could be a heartless bitch. cuz phill said he was going to the casino tonight, and he would give me half of whatever he ended up with to fund the summer tour. but i totally cannot take his money. i totally should. poor kid i’m sure he gets it all the time. but no. i’m too nice. dammit!

and speaking of being a heartless bitch, i talked to tommy yesterday. he called again on monday to see if i was home from nin week. so i actually called him back when i was at the store and it was almost nice to talk to him. we sorta had things to say, it wasn’t just complete dead silence like it was in november. he had to go back to work (shock he’s actually doing his community service finally) so he said he’d call back, and he did, but i didn’t answer cuz i didn’t really have anything else to talk about at this point. but whatever. he didn’t mention the girlfriend. as if i care hahaha. i mentioned my trent molesting of course, and he was actually sort of excited about it – or he faked it real well. whatever.

i feel really really sick again…