*sings* movin on up…to the…high limit room. GAH i was in the high limit room all night. it was funny, cuz frank was like, you can handle it? are you sure you can handle it? are you SURE you can handle it? YES I’M FUCKING SURE. stood at a dead table for 2 hours, after that dealt maybe 15 hands, got moved around ended up back in there at a table with players… handled it just fine thanks.

they’re starting a pai gow and mini bacarrat class july 7th, so i’m going to take that. it’s 3 weeks long, it’ll give me another .50 in my paycheck. go me. bringing in the bux now ┬áhahah

off to the silos. it’s funny the looks i get when i say that. jenn’s like… um. WHY?


gaaaaaah!!! the grain silos were soooooo coool. we went around doing outside shots for a while, then went inside cargill-s. *dies* it was so friggen great. took 3 rolls of film, camera being a bitch again though. *kills it* gotta figure out what’s wrong with it. prolly won’t get pics developed/back/online til wed/thurs ish again. definitely going to have to go back. it was drizzly and stuff, i wanna get back on a nice day when the lighting is different. so brian, thank you thank you!!

now gotta bust my ass to finish getting ready for work and head out.

my first scheduled night in pit 3. i think i proved my worth. got to talk to john for a few minutes before my shift, so that was cool. and got out an hour early. if i hadn’t gotten out early i was gonna go to the other casino with some other dealers and just not go to bed before the terminal. but i have about 4 hrs i can sleep now.

just gotta get directions to the terminal from here…i just don’t know what way is fastest.


sooooooooooo tired. soooooooooo excited i’m gonna pee my pants hehheheheheh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



i love buffalo. buffalo is such a beautiful city – you just need to know where to look.

i don’t even know where to begin. i had just a fabulous time at the terminal. i’m glad i left early because i went brain dead on how to get there once i got off the 33 and drove through the ghetto a bit (a lot) lol. so hanging out outside before they started the tour, i ended up talking to the president of the terminal restoration commission (or whatever it’s really called). I have to call him this week because he wants my dad’s pictures of the inside from the 70s. Since this was the first real tour in 15 years, he was there to sorta give the tour – he won’t be at the other 2 dates – so I was glad I went to this one. He had alot of information about the terminal, since he owns it, the history, what’s going on with it etc. I got tons more respect for the fences, and sealing it up so people “can’t get in”…met the kid who runs buffaloexploration.com as well and talked to him lots about the terminal and the psych center. definitely going to be a good contact for the book.

So inside…I was just like…omg. I could barely contain myself lol. There were about 60 people there, and the president guy kept saying he was overwhelmed at the response. He had a few slides someone gave to him from Germany of the terminal when it was being built, which was really cool. We can only hope to stumble across some stuff like that for our book.

I kinda wandered off on my own when the tour moved into the main concourse. There was a staircase to the offices in the tower that was fully illuminated, so I was like hey, I’m gonna go up there. The first floor ended up giving access to the tops of the ticket counters, and since I didn’t know if I was supposed to be up there or not, I tried to stay hidden from the main group down below. The kid from the website saw me up there though, so he came up and we walked around a bit through the offices up there. He found the infamous walkway between the windows, which was just like…omg. Was not going to attempt to go through it, way too much broken glass…and the whole owner being there thing. We thought we heard people coming up so we took off back downstairs. Then of course the tour goes upstairs HAHA…

So I took that opportunity to stay on the main concourse and go behind the caution tape…again trying to stay hidden incase I wasn’t supposed to be there. Found a room that used to have stores in it – a book store, candy store, and novelties…mens bathroom with broken urinals…ladies bathroom…which apparently had a large lounge before the actual bathroom part of it. Some of the old wall hangings (cloth wallpaper) and wall paper borders were still on the walls. It must have been really luxurious at the time. Went back into the main concourse, joined the tour upstairs but decided to continue up the stairs to the other floors to see how far I could go. 2nd floor door was stuck shut, 3rd floor was unlocked…went in there…I think that’s the floor that had all the fallen ceiling tiles that I walked over, some random furniture, etc. 4th floor had…the roof. I about died. Big open window that I went through to get onto the roof of the main concourse. I was just like…oh…my…god. 5th floor is the end of the line. It’s fenced off because the above floors have the machinery for the clocks, security, and cell phone towers on the top of the building. (however, making arrangements with the president to go back with a UB group, gonna see if he’ll let me up farther). Another guy found me up on the higher floors and mentioned the kitchen, which I hadn’t seen because I had been upstairs when the group was down on the concourse. So he took me down there, and the website kid was there – he found the basement. Soooo…the 3 of us went down to the first basement, which was pretty um…dirty and dangerous and dark. He was prepared with a flashlight, me not so smart. But I was able to use the flash on my camera to light up the steps enough that I could find a semi-flat-non caked with mounds of dirt steps that I could step on to get downstairs. There was a hall full of lockers, I guess for the workers, and another kitchen. We made our way down the hall, which was again..dark and piles of dirt everywhere, so you had to becareful with your footing. The end of the hall was more of a kitchen with an old stove and stuff. We didn’t even try to go to the next further down basement, because it was even more dark (cuz by then it was actually underground – the first basement still had windows that you could see the parking lot railings from), and the stairs were covered in even more debris. Would definitely need to be more prepared to venuture further down.

The tour was basically over, people were leaving, but we were still wandering around. Then a bunch of people went back up stairs – to the roof. HAHA so we went back to the roof, and we actually climbed up the domed roof of the main concourse. It was incredible. I went back to the 2nd floor to just try the door again. I pulled real hard and got it open lol, so it apparently wasn’t welded shut like I thought…just stuck. Stepped in their breifly.

After that, everyone really was leaving cuz the president guy had to lock up. Hung out in front for the last people to get out of the building, and talked about some of the going ons and possible future plans. Apparently (and this got me excited to all hell), the group gave a presentation to the Seneca Nation about putting the Buffalo casino in the terminal…!!!!!!!!! I couldn’t think of a more fabulous idea for the building. There are concerns that the guy talked about, and the Seneca’s decided this week to put the casino in the Buffalo Convention Center – but the rumor is if the negotiations fall through for that, they have a secret 2nd location picked out – possibly the terminal. There is so much potential for it there (other than the neighborhood it’s in…)…you have the train tracks…people from New York to Chicago could take a train right into the casino. The tower would be a fabulous place for a restaurant overlooking the city. Apparently on a clear day you can even see the falls from the top. The building is just so beautiful, such a work of art, that if the Seneca’s put the money into restoring it, it would be amazing. The tower could even be restored into a hotel. gah…lol.

It’s totally gutted, don’t get me wrong. But it’s incredible. And with money, it would be amazing again. In talking about the history, the building was in private ownership for 25 years or something, and that is the main reason it went into ruins. As a historical landmark, that only applies to the outside of the building, not the inside…and the asshole previous owners stripped and sold all of the fixtures, and everything inside – even ripped the pipes out of the walls to sell as scrap metal. The clock that was in the main concourse was on ebay a few years ago for 28,000$…the buffalo that was inside was destroyed and removed. UB apparently found the molds for the original buffalo, and re-made it and they have it on the south campus somewhere. The president said he gets letters and emails all the time from all over the country – people telling him that light fixtures, or railings, or mailboxes from the building are on display at such and such a museum, or for sale at antique shops…and they don’t have the money to regain them – which is why they didn’t buy the clock off ebay. It’s sad really.

I took 4 rolls of film, tried to recreate my dad’s pictures…we’ll see how it turns out. Hopefully I have some decent pictures, but neither camera wanted to work properly and ug…But yeah…omg.

After the tour, I ended up going to Corpus Christi church which is a few blocks away with some people from Canada. The church is in danger of being closed by the diocese (sp?), so they wanted to see it before it’s closed. It’s a Franciscan/Catholic/Polish church…I walked in and started to cry. No idea why, but I was just like omg. It is so beautiful inside. There was the fathers day mass going on, and they announced that they got a 6 month repreive on the closure of the church. It was just…I don’t even know. The mass was…interesting…cuz it’s polish, so they had like…polka hymns lol. I tried to concentrate on the amusement of that, so I’d stop crying lol. So after the mass, we walked around to look more closely at the alter and the artwork. Really amazing place.

Gah!!!! The photo place that does b&w was closed, so I have to take them tomorrow, get them tuesday – they’ll be scanned asap.

Got to get in contact with the website kid cuz he’s gonna be a great contact for the book, and I’m gonna see if I can tag along on some future outings.

adventures in urban exploring…

finally i had a partner in crime to go scope out buffalo central terminal again, and the psych center. started at the terminal. there was a gas company truck parked in the “parking lot” of the terminal, so when we got out of our car the guy was all like “Want me to take your picture?!” so we were like um sure, he took pics of us in front of the building, artfully hiding the “no tresspassing” sign behind us lol. he left us alone, and we took more pictures, walked around to the other side where there were workers sitting in their bulldozers. we asked them if they could let us inside, gave them our story about working for the railroad museum in baltimore, and he said no. fine. so we walked back the other way and down to the street that ran underneath the terminal. there is another strip of building there, all fenced off still. a cop drove by, scoped us out, la la la not doing anything wrong. just taking pictures. turns out that this farther end part of the building wasnt fenced of and was completely open. so we went in. it was so rad. kinda scary, lots of broken glass, but so friggen cool. probably could have gotten into the terminal from there, but that would be pushing it since we had no kind of first aid stuff with us, and we’re chickens hehe.

eventually left there and drove down to elmwood, stopped at a store that has a table i want for 120$, stopped at the poster store that had many of the posters i want for our apartment, so that’ll be helpful, won’t have to order them online. went to the psych center, and the bastards fenced it in too, like the terminal, for the restoration. ug. i hate chain link fences. so we couldn’t even get close to the building. walked the entire way around it, looking for places to maybe get in. found a giant hole someone cut in the fence, so people are still getting in at night. i ran in the hole real quick to grab a few shots, and then ditched. got conversed to by one of the patients. she thought i was jewish. hahah. so pissed about the fencing. ug.

headed back home, got ready to go to the casino. had dinner, fishy got to see the bitch that is minnie mouse. headed to see the falls, and went to canada. went to the casino there, i played some pai gow. cashed in 35 left with 115. and actually got a good exchange rate changing the 100 to american, got 71…better than last time when i got 64….walked down clifton hill, got martinis at the sports bar and watched the 2nd period of the ottawa new jersey game (oh i should check the score…tied, 12 min left in overtime)…headed back to the states and the casino again. fishy got to see john. goddamnit why does he have to look so hot all the time. he looked like beyond good tonight, ug ug ug. stupid john.

tried to get back to cvs to pick up my film (ended up taking a whole role at the terminal, plus the cleveland role, and now half a roll in the camera still from the psych center)…but it was closed. will pick up and scan tomorrow.

now it’s time for popmart show …gotta work off whatever mood this is that john got me into tonight hahah.

and oh yeah… my car turned 20,000 outside cleveland on the way home last night….took 15 months to hit 10,000 and 8 to hit the next 10….

the weirdest phenomenon is going on right now. it is really friggen cold. and i’m driving home and i see all these bizzare verticle streaks in the sky. coming from ground straight up into the sky. they weren’t northern lights-ish, it was just…concentrated beams of light into the sky…sorta like the luxor in vegas has the spotlight that goes straight up. so i decided to try to figure out what they were….

apparently, it is so friggen cold out, that something is happening to the air, and that every bright light is producing this intense vertical streak of light. parking lot lights, lights on buildings….it’s incredible…and incredibly weird.

i was going to grab the camera and take some pictures, cuz i doubt it’s something i’ll see again….. but it’s just really too damn cold. it hurts to breathe, and it makes you cough it’s so cold.

has anyone ever bought stuff off cafepress before? anyone know about the quality of the stuff? i bought a few things yesterday and i was wondering. i guess i’ll find out. it could be a good thing to use to raise money for the terminal. they offer lots of different kinds of products, and it’s not like we’d have to spend the money to produce them right off the bat. there’s no inventory and stuff, so we wouldn’t get stuck with 100s of crappy things no one will buy. we’ll see.


it’s 5 degrees out. you know what’s the best thing to do when it’s 5 out? go urbexing!

brian called and got me out of bed around 130 cuz he was going to stop by while he was in the falls. so him and james came over, and we chilled here for a while, then went out to take pictures of a place in the falls. really great place, the sun was out, so it had a neat glow…or maybe it was all the toxins…but yeah. haven’t been at a site in a long time, so it was nice. even if i thought my hands and feet were going to fall off.

we might go back out to flinkote tomorrow or monday. we’ll see. it’s supposed to be warmer then. haha

i floor on my own tomorrow for the first time. i ended up shadowing most of the night last night. the 10pm bacc crew took us out, and we were sent to muck chips in roulette. instead of standing there and doing nothing, i asked to shadow again, so i stood there and did nothing too. haha. i did the roll, which was way better this time. so hopefully it’ll go smoothly for me on my own tomorrow. then i floor next fri and sat.

and holy cow i got the biggest pay check ever yesterday. *drools* i feel as if i can go and get a complete new bedroom set.