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“According to this article on NME, U2’s next single (in the UK, anyway) will be for Sometimes You Can’t Make It On Your Own. The single will include Bono singing Ave Maria with Pavarotti, a DVD with a live performance of the single, and a Trent Reznor remix of Vertigo, the debut single that seems to get played on absolutely every radio format (around here anyway). Even the country stations. ”
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

a combination of 2 of my fav musicians!!! is that possible!??! will i not combust?!?!?!?

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apparently i never pushed publish when i typed up my entry….

well lola didn’t run….instead we watched mulholland drive (finally) and the matrix (finally)…i am no longer a matrix virgin. wow mulholland drive makes your brian hurt. expect nothing less from david lynch. i was doing ok up until the blue box part, then it was like…i don’t get it. brian found a really cool site about it to explore the movie. will have to see it again at some point. and the fact that billy ray cyrus was in it just makes my day lol. the matrix was good as well. except for the fact that no matter how hard he tries, i can only see keanu as ted, excellent *air guitar* hehe. the matrix was really pretty and had very nice coats throughout

mom is on her way over (supposedly…i think she’s here now…half hour late) to pack more crap. must not let her ruin my fabulous mood

 

**JOOYYGAAASM******* nin.com has been updated. and they have the date for halo eighteen as being 2004!!! THIS YEAR!!! i was figuring at least another year and a half before trent got his act together….gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah  sooooooooo wonderful. i might have to quit my job to be a groupie. trent trent love you trent….and the site is nice. minimalist, lots of info and video links (that i can’t get to work. i don’t think i have quicktime)…so wonderful!!! there is a “ask trent a question” page…which i think is sorta lame. but i’m taking full advantage of the opportunity for someone in the nothing records camp to read my plea for trent to come to the terminal. i’m serious. i’m totally telling him to come here. i figure, it really absolutely cannot hurt. and if he thinks i’m a big lame dork so be it, i’m sure he wouldn’t really fall absolutely head over heals in love with me at first site anyway, so what’s the problem with embarassing myself through the question page…

mom was 100 times more annoying today than yesterday. she must have been on her best behavior since james was here. now she’s on my case that my neighbors are homeless looking scumbags with 12 kids. to not tell them what shift i work at so they don’t break into my house thinking i’m not home. blahblahfuckingblah. can’t wait for this to be done. tired of her yelling at me.

GAH TRENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

man i’m in total teenie bopper mode haha. totally just gave trent my phone number. i think i’d completely pass out if he actually called LOL. holy cow. or maybe i’d explode lol. spontaneous human combustion all cuz of a phone call.

 

and becaaaaaaaaaaause i’m a big dork. i just noticed that instutitonal green looks very similar to the new nin.com…as in, i think i used the same font on IGv2…

 

oh yeah. i thought my mom said she hated mulholland drive, but apparently i was wrong. she said she liked it. she made dad go drive on mulholland drive when they were in LA…and she made him drive around and find the sharon tate house, which is SO totally something i would do. incase you don’t know who sharon tate is, she was one of the people killed by Charles Manson’s “family”. right up my alley hehe

 

so…incase any of my new friends, who weren’t around 2.5 years ago when “and all that could have been” was released, are interested in viewing my ultimate trent fantasy…just click that link. best. thing. ever. my exact trent fantasy…but hopefully without jerome dillon lol.

this ain’t nothing. wait til new stuff ACTUALLY comes out. i’ll be unbareable. the day i got the cd, how many posts did i do?…like 40? that was a record day haha.

just watched “somewhat damaged” live from a show in europe. would LOVE to see that song live. but i’ll take “reptile” over that one any day. and “something i can never have”…instead of…”piggy” and….”head like a hole”. good songs but…i wouldn’t miss them. and i’d love to hear “last” from broken instead of “gave up” (tho i’ve learned to adore that song haha) or even better… “physical” *drool* hehe

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got the bowie tix YAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AND

APC is playing toronto in april, on a thursday, YAAAAAAAAY!!!!! trying to find out when tix go on sale, and i found this about APCs rules and regulations…

Prohibited Items and Actions
– Smoking of any type
– Cameras, Audio/Video Recorders
– Lasers, Flash Lights, Fireworks or Glow Sticks
– Knives, Glass, Spikes, or Chains over 12″
– Moshing or Crowd Surfing
– Any item or action deemed to challenge public safety

YOU MAY BE EJECTED FROM THE VENUE WITHOUT THE OPPORTUNITY TO RETURN FOR ANY OF THE ABOVE VIOLATIONS.

* AUDIO/VIDEO MATERIALS CONFISCATED WILL NOT BE RETURNED *
** WE REQUIRE A FULL PAT DOWN SEARCH OF ALL PATRONS **

That explains the nazi security at the london show LOL.

and i just want to say. i’m a cancer. i’m allowed to be moody. you look at any horrorscope, and the first thing it’ll say is that cancers are moody

 

cuz i’m bored, i was reading on my sun sign (cancer) and sun sign compatibilities, and it just makes me laugh. because some of the things are just SO FREAKING TRUE. i’d c&p but i don’t feel like being so transparent.  which is why i’ve resisted posting tons of song lyrics this week haha.

as i told leighanne, i love to go back and read my cryptic secret message posts, cuz i never know what i was talking about HAHAH. esp the ones from spring senior year. it’s like WTF WAS I TALKING ABOUT. i don’t know what i meant, i don’t know what i was feeling. it’s like someone else wrote the post. so i think it’s funny.

but i’m trying not to do the secret message posts right now hah

 

i think its funny (odd funny, not haha funny) how much the jacksons all look alike despite all the plastic surgery. these pics of janet at the super bowl. she has the same mouth as mj, and we KNOW it’s plastic LOL. same facial expressions, same, eyes, etc. weird.

and from my mom re: janets boob:

It sure is gross. It looks fake. MOM

ROFL my mom is funny sometimes

 

i’m listening to “still”…the really beautiful but incredibly depressing at times…cd from nin. the last new stuff he released. and i just HAVE to post lyrics, cuz i forget sometimes how much this is my theme song…

She shines
In a world of ugliness
She matters
When everything is meaningless

Fragile
She doesn’t see her beauty
She tries to get away
Sometimes
It’s just that nothing seems worth saving
I can’t watch her slip away

I wont let you fall apart

She reads the minds of all the people as they pass her by
Hoping someone can see
If I could fix myself I’d –
But it’s too late for me

I wont let you fall apart

We’ll find the perfect place to go where we can run and hide
I’ll build a wall and we can keep them on the other side
…but they keep waiting
…and picking…

It’s something I have to do
I was there, too
Before everything else

I was like you

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so amy came down from rochester this afternoon. i had taken a shower while she was en route, and then the shower wouldn’t turn off. so when she got here, we had to sit around and wait for the land lord to show up. kinda felt bad we just sat there and watched tv and stuff. once the shower was fixed, and the closet door was fixed, we headed out to dinner. ended up at buca’s, and besty, another geneseo-ite, met us there with her boyfriend. had lots of food, had a giant piece of chocolate cake, and then came back here where we commensed tv watching again. but it was really fun, good to see her again and chat and everything. too bad danielle wasn’t around too. amy was going to stay the night, but then decided not to. so after she left i went to the grocery store, and of course the minute i leave the house it starts sleeting haha.

i always find it interesting to see who else goes grocery shopping at 1am lol.

came back here and updated digital undertow with the road trip photos. tomorrow i gotta fix my resume to send to russell, i keep procrastinating it. blah.

 

lots and lots of trent dreams all night. firstly that the new record will come out in april. that trent will die of cancer. that i was going on a tour of his house. and the big dream…i was in whatever town trent lived in (cuz it wasn’t new orleans) and walking by his property. he had a big huge piece of land that was all fenced off. there were streams and ponds and all sorts of stuff on his property. i was hoping that he’d somehow see me walking by and be enchanted by me and all this. apparently he was, and he sent some employee of his to come get me. when they found me i had already crawled through a hole in the fence and i was hiding by one of the ponds. the person took me and this black girl that was with me, to this dark shed type structure. we had to wait there to be crucified. apparently everyone who trent let in his life had to be crucified, to prove their loyalty or something. so first, the guy started to crucify the black girl. once that was done, he came to me and hammered the nails into my hands. apparently trent had special powers, because after we were crucified, he came to see us and take us down off the crosses, and he’d heal us and we wouldn’t die. but he didn’t want the black girl, so he ignored her, and he just came to me. he took the nails out, and held me and told me he loved me.

isn’t that lovely.

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guess what time i woke up this morning. 5:30. yeah. forced myself to go back to sleep. had a weird dream about taking a shower with a bunch of other people with all our clothes on, and getting gum stuck all in my hair.

so i’ve been trying to find out what the deal was with the tool show. tickets.com is retarded, they have no information – if you can even find the correct working onsale page…but anyway. at first i was under the impression it was like a normal hsbc show, GA floor, reserved seats everywhere else. but then eric said he heard that it was all GA, no reserved seats. the ottawa show, from ticketmaster.ca, seems to be all GA too. so i looked at the other US shows on ticketmaster.com and the new orleans show is entirely GA with no reserved seating, but others are GA floor and upperlevel seats…so no idea what buffalo is. and that makes a big difference because of it’s all GA i don’t need to get my ticket on saturday. i can wait to find out if hamilton is going to be cheaper (since there is still no info about it), and i can have a job hahaha….oh maybe i’ll email the radio station. so they can tell me they don’t know either. haha

it’s super hot out today. crap.

 

back from hard rock interview. i have to go back sunday at 9 am to meet with general manager who has the final say on hiring. it’d be for hostess position, 7$ an hour. they hire waitresses who have 2-3 years experience. but they put people in departments (like hosting) and u can work your way into other depts. i guess the progression is hostess, to bussing (3.30 an hr plus tips, so ur taking home 100+$ a night), to waitress, to bartending. they hire bartenders with 4-5 years experience. she told me they’re a 4$million store, and they make 75% of that in june – august. that’s incredible lol. so yeah, she said they need ppl with experience already cuz it’s so busy, and stuff. whatever. it’s air conditioned, and it’s more $ there than mcds lol, even if i have to drive farther. it’ll be fun. if i get hired that is. and i don’t see why i wouldn’t be.

so last night, eric walked over cuz he was bored, and i was bored. so instead of being bored alone we’d be bored together. ended up watching the nin dvd since he doesn’t own it (call yourself a fan lol). that kinda spurred us onto the ultimate setlist. so i’m going to create my ultimate nin setlist. i figure 15 songs is about right…i’ll probably go over. oh, and these are in no particular order
1. reptile
2. something i can never have
3. last
4. physical
5. the fragile
6. heresy
7. the becoming
8. wish
9. terrible lie
10. sin
11. sanctified
12. gave up
13. and all that could have been
14. the wretched
15. somewhat damaged
there are no instrumentals in there…add them in for filler and….i left out alot of songs that are staples of the current/fragile show, just cuz i’ve already seen them. doesn’t make them any less great. if i had my way i’d have them do every song 🙂

so tonight, going out to dinner for mom’s birthday. yay. and then dunno what. it’s really friggen hot. i don’t want to move cuz my room is like 4 bazillion degrees. and today is amir’s birthday too. i have no idea how old he is. i’m guessing like 38.

 

 

 

there was a beehive in my car. in the backseat passenger door. i was like WOAH BEEHIVE!! haha so it’s all gone now. i took a picture but since i still don’t know how to really work my camera, who knows if it’ll turn out. the picture i took of the louis and lestat house in new orleans turned out even tho it was on some setting that i don’t know how to use yet, so maybe this one will too.

so i was thinking of fun things that i can do this summer with my friends. whoever is around. i came up with a few
1. maid of the mist/cave of the winds. we can pretend to be tourists.
2. day/overnight trip to watkins glen…it’s not that far, we can wine taste, and go hike in the glen and stuff. i haven’t been there in years. used to go with my parents all the time. rainbow cove hotel is right on the lake and it’s cheap (or well it used to be lol)
3. trip to erie, get adrienne, then down to pittsburg to the Mystery Spot – since i never went last year.
4. or trip to erie, get adrienne, go to cleveland and rock and roll hall of fame – still haven’t been there
of course now that i might get this job at hard rock i’m not going to have weekends off most likely. grrrrrrr. loved mcds and my make my own schedule lol.

 

i don’t know why i’m watching this but i am. the teen choice music mania thing on Fox. Britney spears is on. it looks like she went to the mariah carey school of dancing – constantly grabbing her breats al la mariah in that god awful racing video….and the janet jackson school of singing/song writing/dancing….her dance moves are right out of jackson videos – she was acting just like janet…and this song, it’s like…nasty boys and control…i dont know what she was saying, except those words. something about every girl needs a nasty boy, and then she’s in control. and the singing was all that breathy crap janet does. the song sucks. it’s worse than that slave song. if that could be possible. oh well. maybe this ends in 15 min with the ja rule performance and seinfeld will be on. wow jennifer love hewitt looks horrible. so does JC…and chris just got fat…rofl ja rule makes me laff. he’s got that “i smoke 3 packs a day” voice. and this girl, ashanti…haha she can sing, and then she’s got that “ghetto accent” when she talks. makes me laff. and this song…”i wanna be your chick” hahaha….actually JC looks kinda cute LOL. oooooo you can go to seventeen.com and vote for the teen choice awards. i really don’t care that i’m 22, i’m going to vote anyway hehehe

so tonight’s adventure: eric came over. is that a surprise? drove downtown, parked in the lot he paid for, went to thursday in the square for a whole 5 minutes. i saw too many people from high school than i care to. ignored all of them. they ignored me, if they even recognized me, which is possible that they didn’t. i was never friends with any of the people we saw anyway. walked down to chippewa, walked back to the car. went down to the river for ice cream, and headed home. i think it’s funny that i’m “of age” and i’m home at 9:30 hahaha. i think i got bug bites at the river. it’s still too hot in my room. blah.

so tomorrows projects are: car inspection at 11 (so i have to wake up early lol) and maybe i’ll try out my iron on rhine stone letter things….

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REZNOR: I’m not far from Audubon Park, so I’ll go there just to get out and see human beings, I’ll hit that, or I’ll go to Jean Lafitte Park [on Canal Street], which is just a half hour from here. It’s a straight stretch of highway, so if you take your chances, you can open things up.

yeah we were so totally there, and i was like “i think that’s the park trent goes to”….and he has a green porche, not a black one, but that’s ok cuz we still didn’t see it. i think we saw a total of 1 porche the entire time, and it was a black convertible with 2 old men in it lol.

i got my pictures back, but my dad is installing win xp on the scanner comp so dunno when i’ll get them done. even if i do them tonight, i might not put them up til i get carolyn’s too…which i’d assume would be next week sometime. she said my account of the vacation was correct so i shouldn’t really be adding much to it.

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trent makes me so happy. since i was bored and pissed off, i decided to watch the nin dvd. yeah, so happy. hahaha. for some reason i felt really into it today. it was weird. when they showed the audience i wanted to be there so badly. as much as i DIDN’T want the crush, and all that for the tea party…i long to have that kind of experience again…leaving a show worn out, exhausted, sore, drenched in sweat, and completely euphoric…i dunno man. i just…want it really badly. of course, it has to be one of MY bands…nin, orgy, apc…not just any band. i can’t feel the same way with bands i see that i’m not all that into…

anyway, i said i’d post my nin review that i used in my newsletter but i kept forgetting. so here it is…

 

 

nine inch nails – and all that could have been – DVD and limited edition CD

nine inch nails mastermind Trent Reznor has never been known for releasing projects quickly. And he’s never been known for releasing unacceptable product. Once again he doesn’t disappoint.

The new live DVD and CD set “and all that could have been” is a trip through 2000s Fragility Tour 2.0 of North America and Canada. Recorded over various dates on the tour, (and taking entirely too long to release) “and all…” is a stellar picture of what the critically acclaimed live show was about.

NIN opens up with the hard hitting “terrible lie” from 1989’s Pretty Hate Machine, and follows it with the ever favorite “sin”. They delve through tracks off The Downward Spiral before jumping into new tracks, and then back in time to visit the Broken EP.

Always the perfectionist, Trent Reznor takes the audience through an emotional roller coaster enhanced by the use of smoke, LCD panels for ambient lighting, as well as brilliant moving imagery as can be seen on the DVD. Emotional highs are contrasted by quiet calm, then elevate into a frenzy again. Beautiful instrumentals such as “the mark has been made” and “complication” (on the DVD only) are interspersed among the vocal tracks, and create an atmosphere that is unusual for a rock show, especially nine inch nails.

But don’t let that fool you. As can be seen on the DVD, there was plenty of destruction on stage, and plenty of mayhem in the audience. NIN closes the set with the crowd-pleasing “closer” and “head like a hole” while Reznor proceeds to smash apart a keyboard with the microphone stand. The emotional climax comes during the encore, as the band closes the show with “hurt”. An incredible song that can tug at the strings of the hardest heart, it’s not the lyrics that bring tears to the eye. As the DVD pans across the front of the audience, it’s the ability that Trent Reznor has to make everyone feel what he feels…it’s seeing men and women in the audience crying, singing along, eyes closed, that adds to the brilliance of the song. It’s not often that a person can elicit that kind of emotion in that big of a group of people. Incredible.

Highlights of the CD and DVD include “the frail”/”the wretched” couplet, “la mer”/”the great below”/”the mark has been made” on the DVD, and of course, the closing “hurt”. Another fine Trent Reznor product.

The limited edition CD of “and all…” contains a 2nd companion disc entitled “Still” (also available for purchase on nin.com). Reznor has described the disc as a good CD for a rainy day. While playing around with different interpretations and acoustic workups of old songs during the tour, he produced the disc to showcase some of what he had been working on. “Still” contains broken-down acoustic versions of classic NIN tracks “something I can never have”, “the fragile”, “the becoming” and “the day the world went away” complimented by new instrumentals, and the incredible new vocal track that gave the CD set it’s name. The song “and all that could have been” is an out-take from The Fragile sessions that was too good to be ignored. While it didn’t fit in with the flow of The Fragile 2-disc set it fits perfectly on “Still”. The instrumentals are beautiful works of art, reflecting Reznor’s classical training. My personal opinion on the disc is that it is the greatest CD ever made. It’s absolutely beautiful.

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quote of the night: “I’m too good a person to be a televangelist”

 

just realized how very Fight Club-esque the NIN song “The becoming” is….and i know chuck listened to alot of nin during some writing of a novel. i think he said he listened to Fixed on repeat while writing choke, but i could be wrong, and it could have been fight club. either way, i know chuck is a nin fan, and the lyrics of this song are soooo FC like. omg reading the lyrics, could they BE anymore FCesque?

I beat my machine it’s a part of me it’s inside of me
I’m stuck in this dream it’s changing me I am becoming
(hello…right there…jack beats himself up….suffering from insomnia, becoming tyler)

The me the you know he had some second thoughts
He’s covered with scabs he is broken and sore
(i laff at how similar this song is to FC…jack’s old life as the buisnessman, had second thoughts about his life and choice of furniture…now he beats himself up, totally broken and sore)
The me that you know he doesn’t come around much
That part of me isn’t here anymore
(jack to marla: tyler’s not here, tyler went away…..tyler to jack: slowly you’re becoming…tyler durden)

All pain disappears it’s the nature of my circuitry
Drowns out all I hear no escape from this my new consciousness
(“after fighting everything has the volume turned down”)

The me that you know he used to have feelings
(“and i used to be such a nice person”)
But the blood has stopped pumping and he’s left to decay
The me that you know is now made up of wires
And even when I’m right with you I’m so far away
(wires…sort of like a machine…the machine of the space monkeys at the paper st soap company)

I can try to get away but I’ve strapped myself in
I can try to scratch away the sound in my ears
I can see it killing away all of my bad parts
I don’t want to listen but it’s all to clear
(becoming tyler is ridding jack of his “bad parts”…his materialism, all that stuff. jack doesn’t want to hear tyler in the hotel room telling him they’re the same person, but he realizes jack is tyler)

Hiding backwards inside of me I feel so unafraid
Annie, hold a little tighter I might just slip away

It wont give up it wants me dead
Goddamn this noise inside my head
(shoots himself in the head to rid himself of tyler)

god i’m so smart.

and speaking of smart people CONGRATS TO DANIELLE FOR GETTING INTO PURDUE FOR VET SCHOOL!!!!!!

 

clinical was cancelled today. so instead of class i spent the time running around campus doing stuff for this job thing. i talked to dr schneider again about my vitae, going to change one part and send it to her again to see if it’s ok. then she told me i should open a file at career services to keep reference letters in. so i went to get a form to do that (the m key doesn ‘t work on this keyboard)…that costs 5$…so then i went back to my room to email 3 other proffs to ask if they’d write letters for me. so did that…then ran to the union to print out my transcripts but of course the kiosk thing that does it doesn’t work. so hiked my self to admin building to do it at the other kiosk,…of course doesn’t work either. but the lady here in this office where i am now (student accounts i think) said they can do it for me. so that’s where i am now. the printer only prints things once every 7 minutes, so i am waiting here….cuz i need 4….blah.
 

sometimes i really wonder why i come to this class (comp art)…because we apparently have an hour to work on our forms…. WHICH I CAME IN ON MY FREE TIME TO DO YESTERDAY!!!!!!! arg. so now i have NOTHING to do since i’m finished. grrrr..
i should just leave and come back, but no i’ll just sit here bored. someone IM me…i’m on AIM as bonoist… and i have no buddy list. stupid macs.

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parents came, and left. brought me my magazines (bono time and rolling stone)..bono is everywhere. hah. there 2 pics of him in RS and then the Time stuff. and apolo was in time too!!!!! a pic of him on his knees on the ice after he was awarded gold. too cute. so yay for me. and then looking through RS and i’m like WOAH THAT’S TRENT! HE LOOKS LIKE JESUS! it’s a pic from the virgin record signing last month. TOTALLY LOOKS LIKE JESUS…the long hair and beard, oh yeah. jesus. right there in the magazine. “I didn’t realize that i’d saved many peoples’ lives” said Trent Reznor after Nine Inch Nails’ first ever record signing at New York’s Virgin Megastore. “They told me, ‘I was going to kill myself if it wasn’t for your music.’ It’s kind of a cool thing to hear, but about the tenth one in a row it’s like, ‘Jesus Christ’. I probably would have killed myself if it wasn’t for my music.” After autographing NIN’s new live joint, and all that could have been, for swarms of fans, Reznor hinted to RS about new NIN material in the works. He says he hopes to wrap it up for a fall release, but adds, “I didn’t say what year.”…..yeah when i saw the Jesus Christ comment in the little blurb, i thought they were saying he looked like Jesus (since he does)…

 

i’ve spent a long time thinking that dave gahan and martin gore from depeche mode are gay. i don’t mean they’re a couple, just individually gay….i mean COMEON have you SEEEEEN Dave Gahan? HE’S SO FLAMING. but apparently THEY’RE BOTH SO NOT GAY!!!!!! they’re married (or multiply married and divorced) with kids! this is so not right!!! they can’t be straight!!! they’re depeche mode!!! dave prances around on stage like freddie mercury, who was SO NOT STRAIGHT!!!!!!

 

duuuuuuude. that guy who collapsed during the pregame ceremony before the Leafs/Sabres game last night DIED!!!! how horrible! he was going onto the ice to represent his uncle who was named one of the Leafs 25 best players, and collapsed when he was about to go onto the ice. AND HE DIED! how horrible.

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i just saw this commercial…for 10 10 220…with those ex football players or whoever they are… and alf… ALF!!!!!!!! ALF THE CAT EATER ALIEN!!!!!!!!!! WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

oh my god. oh my god. when i saw this i actually verballized “oh my god”…not too loud tho, i was about to scream it then i realized i’d scare danielle….but OH MY GOD!!!!!!

o.m.g.

o.m.g.

OH MY GOD

 

oooooooooommmmmmmmggggggggggggggg as if that pic wasnt enough for me. I get to watch my exact trent fantasy be played out on my computer screen. andallthatcouldhavebeen.com still disc performances. HOLY SHIT!!!! this made my LIFE! you don’t even know. now i just need to get them converted from streaming quicktime to mpeg so i can burn them someplace hahah. oh my god. i’m surprised i didn’t pass out. and yeah like, the becoming and something i can never have were great, amazing, those alone made my life…but the gone,still clip… jesus christ, that is my PURE UNADULTERATED TRENT FANTASY!….well except for jerome dillon, i can take his place…but yeah…trent, piano, candles….*dies*

and this is retarded, but you can tell trent was trained in piano, cuz he plays correctly. if you just taught yourself you wouldn’t play like that. i never played like that, but i knew i was supposed to LOL. just like i don’t type right either, i know i should type differently to avoid carpal tunnel but whatever… i could never really play piano the right way…i dunno, i just couldn’t. she was going to make me play while holding tennis balls in my hands…but she never did, thank god. LOL.

i had another amazing u2 dream last night. i woke myself up from it at 630, and i’m like MUST WRITE DOWN. so i wrote it on 2 postit notes, yeah can barely read my writing LOL.

i must avoid sitting here all day and playing these videos over and over…my god…

current mood: dying, my life has been made, nothing can stop me now lol

 

my day just keeps getting better and better….. SWEETTARTS!!!!!!!!!!!!! valentine heart shaped sweettarts from the wegmans candy section. and that reminds me…easter is coming… you know what that means?! chicks and bunnies sweettarts!!!!! bags and bags of them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

it’s such a beautiful day out. i put in APC this morning since the judith video was on forever wild last night. and the combination of nice day and APC creates HUGE flashbacks… lol. can we rewind time a few years to summer 2000? that was like the best summer ever. i want it to be summer 2000 but with all this new nin stuff, and my u2 fandom lol…yeah.

i don’t like that all sweettart greens have been changed to greenapple. those little 3 pack halloween ones still have lime green. but these hearts, it’s green apple. and the chicks and bunnies are gonna be green apple unfortunately. cuz the chicks and bunnies only come in green, purple and yellow…thats why i liked them so much, no icky red ones. but now if the green is green apple, i really only like 1 flavor of the chicks and bunnies (purple, yellow tastes like soap but they’re ok)…BLAH. maybe i should write to them again and complain (if you recall, i complained to them in august)…

i’m not doing work today. i just really don’t feel like it LOL.

 

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